January 8,
2010
0449
Ryan Robertson
I want to talk
to you about homosexuality. Though I was born with it, that doesn’t make it
right.
Love God. Love
God more than your flesh and inhibitions. Not to act on it. Not to act
on it. Acting on it brings misery and death. Mom was right. Dad tried to make
me see. It is the hardest card to be dealt—a STRUGGLE. I am happy that
some had accepted more—it makes life tolerable for those that have it. But the
urges, they are strong. The compulsion is not normal. It will control your
life.
Ed is okay. He
waited for his right man and celebrated his partnership by striving to be a
good person, always bettering himself.
Girls that
have been hurt by men can’t open, they are ruled by fear. Their love is a
different form of expression. It is restorative, calm, “two buddies in battle”
sort of relationship. That happens, and it allowed.
It is the
individual form of expression type “I gotta be me” that exists but shouldn’t.
Sometimes you don’t have to ‘be all the
way out there.”
Everyone ‘out
there’ has to really pray. Accept and ask why God gave it to them, this
hardship. It always has existed, and has been selected by the spirits before
they arrive. It is the HARDEST thing to take (next to being a single mother, the
kids) Always pray for those you know to ‘find God.” To find God honey.
Not the ‘roses on South Beach.”
It is good to
discover yourself and come to terms with it. Only what God wants. Only what God
wants honey. There is a way out—mine was to be with animals and to take care of
them, to build. It is important for a man to build. Ed does
hair, Jeffrey does boxes, they are an anchor in their family unit (which was
dysfunctional to begin with). Keep
seeking what God wishes—
Jeffrey his
daughter and the harm he caused without being awake (what the mother said.).
You can trust
your son with them. They are holy. Not all of them are. The loudest and the
most vocal don’t support godly ways. It will manifest in those individuals as
hardship in another life. They are riding on the current free-not contributing.
Some straight
folks are this way in their twenties but children change them. Almost always.
Even (my sons' first name) father did. Your message to him about his boy’s love for him was important in a lot
of ways.
C: Oh Ryan—I
totally get you. It was hard for me—I wanted to be intimate so much God
wouldn’t let me have it. My child changed that so much. Really balance and
priorities.
Ryan: Shhh. It’s
gong to be okay for you. I promise it. Talk to Tim. And clean! Put away all the
Christmas lights and stuff. It is strangling you. Have a good day.
God Bless You
and thank you for listening.
Ma-na-na
God will marry
you.
Ryan of the holy
flesh light—‘holy flash light’.
