Mount Ararat, 5,137 m, highest peak of Turkey, view from Armenia
Our countdown is 137.
I didn't know there was a real Mount Ararat besides the bible. I once saw a movie about UFOs and things--'Chariots of the Gods?' -- with mom and dad when I was little. But I didn't really understand if it was a movie movie or a documentary or what.
So here it is.
Supposedly the ark landed on it.
My unicorn card I drew yesterday was my Sanctuary card. Go to a special place and rest.
It's ironic how the more I want to go home and rest, the more work I have to do at the hospital.
Fortunately at the main O.R. on backup call things went well. I enjoyed the people. I enjoyed the challenges of the patients. I had an old biker chick, someone who has a spread of cancer (I'll do anything for a cancer patient, I love them so!), and lots of female things to fix.
I did a block and I was happy.
And even though it was late when I came home, I found a surprise in the mailbox for me from Sweden. Ross had been whispering in the ear of someone.
There was a special animal charm on the end of it. What the artist didn't know is that Ross has a signature to his work he does through others for me, and I saw it.
In the animal charm was a confirmation of a special video I had seen of something amazing and incredible. The shape of the incredible thing was the same as the shape of the design on the animal. The amazing thing therefore must be true!
I got a block. It was a TAP block and I was happy it went well and helped the patient. My confidence goes up with every successful block I get. I used to think I was old and washed up. I didn't want to just randomly practice this new skill (I can do them without ultrasound, but a twitch monitor)...and thankfully the conference I paid extra for the session worked!
Now I place New York blocks!
I have to work today. Sadly. I had hoped for a day off.
But perhaps work is my sanctuary too?
I like this picture.
This to me explains the dirty dishes in the sink, the bills unpaid, the laundry unfolded, and all the things that go with a busy medical life.
It just is.
And it's how I support our family...
I hope to visit mom in the hospital today. I can't take long because I have to pick up Anthony from school. There is a concert for the band and choir tonight.
I miss mom. I hear she is doing better and going to go to skilled nursing facility next...
I wasn't expecting good things yesterday. They surprised me. Even with Anthony leaving the little extra tray of food from the coffee shop where we had breakfast in the car. It had cold cuts and cheese and dried cherries.
I went to the car and ate it for dinner after he told me he forgot it.
I'm happy when things go well.
There's been lots of--'electronic interference'-- to put it mildly. The 'other team' (TWDNHOBIAH) are going down, and are really not going without a fight. So they are doing everything they can to mess things up. The sensitive ones can feel it.
Yesterday I felt some pure good vibes, not the kind I've trained myself to maintain to 'keep my vibration up'--but some angelic 'shout out' to me.
I brought a patient in the room, and my favorite (I know it's lame, and uncharacteristic, but I like Gold Digger) was on the radio.
The nurse changed it to Gypsy Kings. It was another of my favorite songs.
Then another--The theme from The Godfather. My daddy loved that song, it was like his and mom's song...I played it on the piano for them.
After that? IZ. Wonderful world.
I LOVE LOVE LOVE Divine Synchronicity. It makes me feel loved.
In meditation this morning, I told Ross, I'm lonely. I miss you. I like it when you are around.
He didn't say anything. I didn't meditate for long. But when the timer rang and I had to go, he gave me a kiss, the kind your partner gives you when you leave for work, and I smiled. It made me very happy.
Talk with your angels.
Let them know what's going on with you, inside.
They already know, to be honest. But for you to talk with them lets their boss know they are doing a good job because that's what they are here to do--for you to work in partnership with them. And in partnership, you know your own deal and where you stand, and you tell the other, and you work together.
Ross doesn't get to confide in me much, but I know him so well I can read his face and ask him, which, then when I ask he tells. I also am constantly asking him, 'are you okay? are you in good health? You have enough to eat? You're not working too hard--you have time for rest?' He always knows what to say to set my heart at ease. And when he has rest time I can see him and it gives me peace.
Do something nice for you.
At work some nurses told me that their boyfriends know me as 'the unicorn card lady' and ask about me.
You never know how far your reach goes.
I also gave a bracelet off my arm. It was for Sally, another single mom. I was there when her daughter was born. I had been told to make a Peace Jade bracelet for her, seven inches, but not to give it. Something nudged me to give it to her when we were at the sink--mine--not the one at home. So I did. I asked her if she likes it, and she did, so I gave it to her, warm right off my arm, filled with my energy since the last one I gave away a couple weeks ago. It meant so much to her...
Our reach is fathers than we realize, and our impact through small things done with great love is unstoppable.
Aloha and Mahalos,
Ross and Carla