July 4, 2008
(died July 2,
2008)
I am Filipino
(Mr. V)
When they
talked to me about my heart I thought: I am going to die. I knew it. My family
put a lot of sense into me: you made it before. You are going to feel so
better.
But in my
heart I knew the jig was up. I had never made the changes of lifestyle that
were asked of me. I had never wanted to take responsibility for my Light.
I spy on a
beautiful light of God that will protect you.
Your vibration was at the range of frequency it gets when your heart is very
happy. …Just like when your patient J.D. asked if you are a Christian, and wanted to
pray before surgery. You found out he is Pentecostall and shared you speak in
tongues. When you prayed aloud with him, ‘help us to do what we love and what we do best” his
spirit calmed perceptibly.
Your soul has
the same effect on brother D. Everything will happen for the best. You will
have your dignity.
I died because
I did not want to change my path. I saw its trajectory. I did not alter it. I
accepted ‘fate’.
You on the
other hand, are changing by the day. Only on the inside. You grow like your boy (in spirit). By feeling your pain (ed--my ex, had his phone call while he was being
horny with his girlfriend and I heard everything on the answering machine.
EVERYTHING). You allow us to mortify you in the flesh allowing your spirit to
increase to presence on the realm.
I saw all of
this with as much intensity when I passed as you were watching the birds at
dinner and registering how much they steal from each other. By trying to feel
the ‘lonely ones’ that were picked on something better, you exercised
compassion in a sense. D felt all of it.
I wanted you
to know this night. I will came back and talk
to you again. God has roses. Buy
them.
Mr. V
(ed - D was someone I used to know. And just this last October 2012, I got my dignity restored. Long story. That's all you need to know. It was an attraction that never 'went anywhere', but left me with hurt feelings since 2009. Now we made our peace, and I bless his marriage to K.)
