Iconoclast

Today we are going to do things a little different. We are going to listen to some music. Next we are going to share a story from a spiritual lesson that happened today while I was doing the laundry (some of the less eye-catching things bring with them the most valuable lessons). Then there is discussion on this lesson. And that's it.

This one has been pushed up to the top of the list of my four blog posts Spirit wants me to do--so here we go.

Give A Little Bit by Roger Hodgson, of Supertramp

http://youtu.be/rx_7_BrR3Bc

Today I tried something new with the laundry. I tried sorting it before I took it downstairs. Recently I had cleaned the closet, and found two more laundry bags. One had a bright CLOROX logo on it; it was a reminder of my 'Product Development Scientist' days at the technical center where I once worked, in northern California.

The other was smaller, and was one of those little bags that comes with a super expensive purse, it's to store it inside while it's in your closet.

I had forgotten what the purse even was that went with it, or if I still had it.

There was something in the bottom of the bag, something caught my eye, and it looked like it shouldn't go into the washer, so I dug it out.

It was a rosary that had broken.

About a thousand feelings went through me in an instant. I got my first rosary as a gift from my future in-laws when I turned twenty-one. I adored praying it, and kept one on my person every day, either in my purse or  in my pocket. I had a really nice one that my in-laws, once they were officially mine, brought back for me from Medjugorje. 

It turned gold when I prayed on it.

Sometimes that happens. The little chain of metal that connects the beads, all of them, turned bright bright gold.

I almost dropped it, I was so startled when it happened. And my soul said, 'No! I am not worthy!' and it turned back in an instant. 

Over time, the more I prayed on it, the gold came back, little by little. It is still bright gold to this day.

I used to say the rosary on my way to Clorox in the morning because I was too afraid to drive. I thought I would have a terrible accident; my arms and hands shook with fear the moment I was behind the wheel. I hadn't driven a car all my time in college, and I guess my fear, which had been manageable when I lived at home, became worse over time.

I had to go to work. I had a car. And praying the rosary calmed the shaking enough for me to drive.

I always felt sad to throw a used rosary away. Sometimes they break when you use them often enough. So this one I had thrown into the bag for the purse.

I looked at the cross, as I held it in my hand, and I felt sad about that whole catholic thing with the body on it, and the blood. 

I remembered someone I desperately needed to forgive--and in my heart, I forgave them at once, hoping God would hear. 

I kissed the crucifix gently, to show how much I really wanted to forgive. And in my heart, with this person, on a soul level, we worked out what had together taken us many lifetimes to settle what was our disagreement that had cost both of us their life.

I felt better, and I got back to sorting the laundry.

It was only when I closed the drawstring on the bag that I saw the word Chloe.

There is something that Heaven and the Higher Realms and I need to work out. I don't mind you being a witness to it.

So here we go:

Dear God, 
We live in spiritual times that are beyond the simple 'Push' and 'Pull' of a door to pass from one realm to another.
We live in an age where a Vortex is built to allow Spirits to return Home, to your Love, and your Support.
I even help make them! I helped build one for the Indiginous People who have suffered Persecution and Genocide, and their souls that have been trapped on the Earthly planes. Great Spirit and some blessed  warriors of the Light together helped our brothers and sisters find their way HOME to You.
God? Why do we need to experience the laws of Karma?
I know this sounds ridiculous to most--that's why the title of this post IS 'Iconoclast'--but for a minute will you hear me out?
How does experiencing the pain one caused someone else make that person that was hurt feel better?
For example, if I kick your shin, and in a minute of regret seek my Karma, and set out to have my own shin kicked, are there not two bruises and twice the pain?
Even more, if the Universe is a closed system, doesn't this increase the amount of suffering that goes on within the entirety of it?
Isn't this the 'tit for tat' or 'eye for eye and tooth for tooth' that someone really important came to earth to try to take away? Like that someone on the end of my Rosary that is related to You???
Why haven't we learned that lesson, in a Galactic Sense?
What ever happened to 'I'm sorry' and making an amend?
Some people who have wounded me in my own life got involved in twelve-step programs, Father.
They did the amend on me, and I knew they were sad for what they had done, and since it never happened after the amend, it healed us, and brought us closer.
I wouldn't have wanted THEM to experience the pain and anguish that they put me through!!!
I could tell they had learned enough to know the difference between causing distress in those around them, and causing love and joy instead with their actions.
So Father...
I know I am not YOU.
I know you see clearly out for dimensions and dimensions all at the same time.
I only see Here, and Now.
But in my little speck of the Universe, Father, I am noticing things and starting to be concerned--not about the pain in and of itself--but in the message that is sent on our ability to learn and grow in our spirit life.
I know many many souls choose the suffering in reaction to the Karma they so suddenly are aware that they had caused, and choose this path to 'make it right'--I know you don't expect it of them.
To me it is like prison--self-imposed and 'paying time'.
It's like the elementary school, or beginning course, of Eternal Life.
It is my hope and sincerest prayer to YOU that next time, we can encourage all those spirits who are challenged by the pain and suffering they created in another's life--to take it up to another level, perhaps maybe Intermediate or Middle School--and follow the tradition with their hearts from Bob and Bill, and make an amend and vow never to do it again...and to keep that vow.
I think people would get a lot more out of the whole reincarnation thing if they did.
But that is my opinion.
You are the decider of ALL.
And I love you for it. I love you with all my heart and breath, and I can't wait to be nearer to you than I am right now in the Illusion of life on surface Gaia as Ground Crew.
Thank you for all my friends, and readers, and listeners, and people who know me very well, and care about what happens to the planet and everyone upon it too. 
People are waking up, and it is a good thing to have 'like-minded' friends as company--all of you are on this list--and give great joy and pleasure to my heart--those who are reading these words right this minute now.
So let me thank all of you at once for your patience with me.
Aloha nui loa and mahlaos,
love and joy, and victory to the light!
Peace.

Reiki Doc

Oh. So THAT Explains it!

I just had a disturbing dream.

I was re-marrying my first husband. We were older now. But he was in jeans, and I wasn't in a dress either. I was digging through my old jewelry box to find some new plain rings for us. His wouldn't fit. And the crowd seemed annoyed to be there in the first place, and waiting.

In my heart I was thinking that we would be peaceful together this time because we were older.

My sister, who had been our bridesmaid the first time, was standing in place, and ready...

But when it was time to walk down the aisle, I said, 'What am I doing? I don't want to be here!'

So at the  altar I politely explained the situation to my ex, and to the audience, and feeling tremendous freedom, I excused myself to go.

I've been divorced from him for twenty years! It was finalized I think April 1994.

At the same time, I realized I had some feelings to 'work through', and basically, it was facing the need for earthly companionship/needs being met that were totally apart from the spiritual ones.

And I Woke UP!!!

According to Marilyn Raffaele, http://aquariusparadigm.com/2014/02/16/the-arcturian-group-via-marilyn-raffaele-16-february-2014/, our entire LIFETIME this time around is meant to 'bring up some serious karma' for resolution. And in my dream last night, I felt myself working 'through' the the last bit of an issue I had thought had been resolved a long time ago...

Then Heavenletter today is along the same lines--'A Change Of Heart' --http://sirianheaven.wordpress.com/2014/02/17/heavenletter-4833-change-of-heart-february-17-2014/

To be honest, I was quite ready to 'give it a go' with the ex, and to trust him. It wasn't until I woke more and thought, 'What am I doing? I am happy with my husband in spirit, Ross! I am already married in my heart.'

I guess I got myself to the point of forgiveness (we were just kids at the time, and he had a troubled childhood, my college sweetheart who became my first husband.)

And that was it.

Go along for the ride.

Your karma resolution is depending on it.

Let everything happen for there is healing in it. Just note that you are Here, Now, and you have a say in how your heart REALLY feels about it this time.

Learn your lessons well. And let go.

I have to share a big one I did yesterday that is going to make you laugh:
When my son was born, the hospital gave us plenty of baby blankets to take home with us. You know the white ones with the stripes of pink and blue on them? I've kept them for YEARS. My boy is nine! Sunday, I gave them back into the dirty laundry in the newborn examination room. There were about ten blankets.

I let them go.

I let go of everything I had been holding on to, trying to keep the magic of being a new mother.

I let go of my dream of having five kids and a busy home and being a wife and mother.

There is no way I could ever have a baby. Even having him was a miracle--I couldn't. I would miscarry.

And now there is a hummingbird taking a bath in the fountain, chirping away.

Ross and I filled the hummingbird feeder together on Friday. He was trying to tell me I am his angel and I got embarrassed and wanted to cry so I changed the subject, 'Do you like hummingbirds?'.

'I like hummingbirds. Would you like to fill the feeder together?'

We did. 

I guess everything is going to be okay.

I'm glad he sent me one right now while I was sharing something that might make you laugh but was very serious growth for me.

He is a a good husband.

Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,

Reiki Doc

P.S. This morning I saw him go to work. He went up an elevator type thing. He went WAY up. He was quiet, and thoughtful, and wearing his suit he wears, the one with the little gold triangle over the heart. They don't drink coffee at the control panels. I kind of thought they would. But they greet each other heartily, and get all intensely engaged with their work and their day...he's at the helm now. With Ashtar, Bartholomew, and one other... : )
Have a good day Ross!

Love Takes No Hostages

I watched the movie Caffe De Flore one week ago. It was an 'assignment' from a psychic friend to help me 'sort out' my Twin Flame situation.

Basically, the hero of the movie leaves one Twin Flame for another Twin Flame. It's brutal on the First Twin, and I strongly identified with her as she went through the grieving process only a Twin Flame can experience.

In the movie, the man, who has married his high school sweetheart because her goth ways ignited his DJ career and persona, starts to grow dissatisfied with his life. She is content and a good mother to their two daughters.

Here are some images that portray how he was starting to feel:

Then he saw 'her', Twin Flame number two. And he started to do this:

He chose 'her' over his wife.

'She' represents sexual freedom. He worships her body. I couldn't help but notice how thin and smooth and soft she was. She never had any children with that body. He fought with her, she did cocaine, his daughter's lives were living hell, the ex-wife was damn near suicidal, his parents chastised him for his 'irresponsible behavior' at a family gathering, but he followed his genitals and sexual pleasure 'love', married her, then the ex-wife 'came around' and it was one great big happy French ending!

So here's the rub--

Who can feel sexy and make time for her man when life is like this?

Who made her life this way?

Why does her choice to be responsible to the children build resentment in him?

Why doesn't he help her instead of demand for 'his wife to give him sex'?

Wouldn't SHE want to screw around on the side too to get away from this life? It's not pleasant unless you have the love and support of your man.

An interesting thing is happening. Here are two quotes from a gossip magazine I found in the call room:

• Pals say the hunky singer (Tim McGraw), who once revealed that his secret to a long and happy marriage is to "just shut up", finally had enough of being compliant. "He is done dealing with Faith's controlling ways," the source continues, "He's made it clear that he doesn't know if he will ever put his ring back on."
• "Simon (Cowell) tells Lauren time and again that he will take care of her and of their child, no questions asked,"says a source, "He'll make sure Lauren has everything she could want--a home, money, luxury, attention. But he also made it very clear he isn't going to give up his friends for her. And that includes his female friends." --He considers fatherhood and domestic partnership two completely separate things.

How sad that marriage and love have come to this.

Love, True Love and Sexuality, is a gift from Heaven.

Your Lover allows you to 'see' the 'face of God' that they only have for you, and they see the 'face of God' that you only have for them. It helps you to get to know one another, as souls, and to Learn and Grow.

I am not in relationship because I have things to do--Spirit things. It is not forever although it is the only way and not my choice exactly but just the way it has to be done*.

But what about you who DO have the option to discover Relationship?

The ones who should be asking, 'should I stay or should I go?'

Well, the answer is the same as pretty much for everything--

• know yourself
• meditate
• raise your Vibration
• do the Four Agreements (#1--Be Impeccable With Your Word, #2--Don't Take Anything Personally, #3--Don't Make Assumptions, #4--Always Do Your Best) by Don Miguel Ruiz
• put yourself in your current partner's shoes, and mind the law of Karma

Then act on it.

As far as I'm concerned, websites like 'Give Her The D' and 'Don't Give Her The D' only perpetuate the misery of our current state of partnership, family, marriage...

To be honest, I love being a single mother. I have freedom and enjoy more of life and have less headaches from having to 'explain everything' to another adult. There's less meals to make, travel is cheaper, and I never have to worry about my baby daddy going out to cheat! He can have anyone he likes because I am not emotionally involved with him. It does make it very hard for me to find someone though, to have a kid to raise that's from somebody else. Guys are that way--it's baggage and it bothers them a great deal.

Sex and emotions are not separate. I know society tries to tell us that they are, but this is not the case. There is no one without the other.

I know one day things are going to make 'sense'. But until then, do the best you can to get by.

Aloha and Mahalos,

Namaste,

Reiki Doc

* -- Sensei Usui has explained this to me, I agree with this plan.

Why I Took The Flu Shot 2013

I have to feed my son.

When it comes right down to it, after reflecting on all the risks and benefits for the bigger picture, that's what I did. But I didn't come to this conclusion without much reflection, Reiki, and using a pendulum.

I wasn't going to take the shot. I have for years, almost always taken it. I find no benefit, in fact, I get sicker and almost died once because I got the Swine Flu.

But at work it has gone from optional to mandatory.

We have the choice to wear a mask at all times except eating from October to March if we don't take the shot.

I wear a mask pretty much all day anyhow, I thought, and decided to stay true to my heart and not take the shot. I'd 'set an example for my colleagues' on how awful the shot is.

I don't like shots.

Then I got a letter that said, something like,  'I am going to be forced to take a flu shot. I would like a good, reliable article to share to explain why I don't want to take the shot. This is my second year refusing. I could get fired but I still wouldn't take the shot anyway.'

That got me thinking...wow! How am I going to advise in this situation? She is willing to put her job on the line over a shot.

So I prayed. And I shared what I knew. There's the mask option (she works in home visits--probably not so good), there's the 'homeopathic flu shot' that sometimes 'flies' as 'immunization', and there's just taking the shot itself.

As I said to her, 'take the shot. it's not worth losing your job in this economy.' I felt like I was talking to myself.

Except for me, it's 'if you want this thing with Reiki in the O.R. to fly you have to be one of 'them' and be 'normal in every way' for them to accept it.' I have TWO babies! The one that keeps needing new shoes cause he's growing like crazy! And this work here. You can't infiltrate medicine from within and change it by not being 'part of the team'.

So I double-checked. I took out the pendulum. Take it. Today.

So I went.

You know what? I understood!

The lady giving the shots was the same one who gave me the free TB shot for my friend's test. We were alone in the conference room. I brightly asked, 'So, which one is for me?' as I looked at the pile of syringes.

'Take any one you like.' she said, warmly. Remember she is convinced she is 'doing a good thing' with the shots. If she wasn't she'd have conflict...

'I'd just like a minute to be alone with my shot please' I said calmly. I laid the syringe on the table in front of me, gave CKR, and let the Reiki FLOW. A lot went in. I set the intention for 'the Highest good'. When the Reiki flow slowed down about one minute later, I did CKR and said, 'There! I'm Done PRAYING! Go ahead!'

She was shocked! In a nice way. She has known me for years, and that I am kind and loving by my actions. But that I would 'pray'--we both knew it was anything BUT praying, but energy and protection, right?--over my shot is a way of not 'buying into' the party line while going along with it.

My shot didn't hurt, my arm is sore, but I have no other sensation from it. The rest of me is going along just fine.

My patients want to see ME. They want my eyes, my face, and my smile. My coworkers need to know ME in the same way.

There is no way to bring about change without being 'from the ranks'.

So here are your options on the flu shot:

1. Heck no!
2. I don't like it but I'll take it (an environmental services worker I saw in the locker room can't wear masks. She's claustrophobic. She didn't want to take the shot either.)
3. I'll do 'homeopathic' or other 'ways around it'
4. There is an oral spray, I believe (you can spit it out after)
5. Take it and don't stress out--leave it to them and their Karma (but DO insist on 'preservative free')

Either way, only YOU can find the answer that is right for YOU. My answer might not fit your 'situation'. So go to your Inner Guidance, try on an answer for size, sleep on it, and then you will know!

Aloha and mahalos,

Namaste,

Reiki Doc

Soul Mate 101

It is as easy as, well, simple!

All relationships are in one of three categories:
1) Karma based
2) Contractual/Convenience
3) Soul based

You will know the first--Heaven turns Sour real quick!
This is because both of you have some Karma paying to do--and when it's spent--you part.
(I think MANY of Hollywood 'relationships' are of this kind, don't you?)

The second is a 'platform' upon which 'Higher Learning' can take place:
You marry your college sweetheart, it's True Love the entire relationship, but your child has a terrible disease and the relationship is 'tested', etc. 
(This is very 'Worldly').

I think that's why I am an 'Unmarried Woman'--LOL--I just signed documents with a notary today, and had to describe myself at that. Doesn't that sound hokey? But anyhow, I have burnt through my Karma and am on a hopefully more pleasant path!

The last category can be for business partners, romantic relationships, and friendships--you simply KNOW each other from before...another life, another planet, your 'Soul Pod'...it all works.

What you will pick up is a certain 'chemistry' that makes you feel like you have 'always known each other'. Because you HAVE.

One late-incarnation, after MANY MANY incarnations, is the opportunity to meet your Twin Soul.

I have.

It is not scary.

It is not magical either.

I looked at this person and felt like it was my long-lost brother. They felt 'safe', and 'close'. I also felt tremendous admiration and 'got' the extent of their accomplishments.

But having MANY MANY lifetimes leaves scars.

So, if you meet your Twin Flame, don't expect a magic carpet to fly you two with the song  'A Whole New World' like Jasmine and Aladdin.

It's more like Spirit is your Magic Genie and keeps popping up 'lessons' for you to 'learn and grow'.

Mine right now is Accept and Allow. I also know that the thing that was 'holding me back' is now 'resolved' on an energy level--I can allow in a Higher Dimension of Consciousness the natural pattern of energy flow between the Twin Souls to pass through me. I can heal my own scars with this energy, and it's not uncomfortable being blocked because it is made to pass between both.

That feels 'Normal Enough'.

Everything else, it doesn't matter. There is no 'Prize'. There is no 'Deadline'. It is all in the Eternal Moment 'Now'.  I am happy by myself. And I am not 'holding my breath'. I will live my life and enjoy it, every single day, for the rest of my life, No Matter What.

That's it.

I know, I thought it would be 'More' but as the Rolling Stones say,

Yes, I didn't get the four-hundred dollar tickets to that either!

Love and Light and Honesty,

Namaste,

Reiki Doc

My Twenty Hour Day

It is one fifteen in the morning. I have been awake since five a.m. The alarm went off at four a.m., but  I kept hitting the snooze. (I went back to the bedside, finished until the patient went safely to the floor from PACU, and briefly slept until I wrote the rest...)

I didn't eat an actual breakfast. I had my favorite, vanilla Spirutein, in milk and a cup of coffee in a travel mug as I went out the door.

It was a hurry. Because of the holiday for MLK, there was no school. I took the kids in pajamas to the sitter who lives ten minutes away, in the opposite direction from work.

From seven o'clock in the morning, until three in the morning (all the way through midnight), I saved lives. I did anesthesia on people, almost ten of them; except for one, the surgery was to  save their life. In these situations, anesthesia is a technical challenge. It takes great concentration and vigilance to get a high-risk patient through.

My food for the day was:
six graham crackers in little packets
coffee
one cup of peach kefir
a pear
one small black bean burrito from home
six saltine crackers
one bottle of water
honeydew melon and four orange slices
a small green salad from the salad bar
a small carton of overcooked wheat pasta with flavorless sun dried tomato and baby spinach


All of it was eaten in a hurry--there were no scheduled 'breaks'.

All of this was worth it.

I did not see my kids.
I slept in my own bed (for only three hours--now I get to go back to work after taking the kids to school)

There were two hours of critical care I did in the recovery room, without compensation (recovery room is kind of like an ICU)--it is included in the anesthesia fee from the O.R.

Why was it worth it?

I got to learn a new disease. One that for privacy I can't share here and now, but perhaps later. This disease stopped me in my tracks. It was a surgical disease. The patient was DNR already, and had lived a good life. But the findings! And how easily it was curable! I had come close to canceling the case, the risk was so much.

I am so glad I didn't.

And I hope through my sacrifice of time, energy, and healing, I earned/repaid some Karmanic debt to those who are taking such good care of my mom.

There is nothing I like more than getting into someone's aura and doing some great energetic work. Today, in the day, I did exactly this.

But at night, it was 'living the dream', a phrase we say, when the going gets tough in medicine and you are at the end of a long day. Less Reiki, more Doc. I didn't even have time to Reiki my back when I pulled it moving a patient. I took some ibuprofen instead.

This is how you earn the title of 'healer' in our society. It is not that different from Kahuna in Kanaka Medicine in Native Hawaii--those who stay up all night, healing, using their knowledge of procedures and plants in their work. After many long years of training to be able to become a healer.

Unfortunately our 'healing' is tied to a petrochemical-pharmaceutical economic industry.

But the heart of a healer is always the same: to relieve suffering--to restore Balance and Health.

My 'five pillar table' is greatly imbalanced. Sleep, nutrition, movement, emotions and environment are out of whack. I slept in my clothes after I changed back into them, drove home, and went right to bed.

It will take some time to recover my own balance.

By contrast, Reiki healing work does not deplete.

I look forward to the future of medicine. And I am holding my own in the Medicine we have of today.
Until we can connect it to the healing of Tomorrow. Blessings, Love and Light.

Namaste,

Reiki Doc

Cruelty is a Toxin

This is your native state of existence: rainbows and butterflies, in harmony with Nature.

Any step away from that is not healthy for you. Both on an energetic level and a physical level, you will take a step toward imbalance. And when imbalance becomes a habit, sometimes the entire energy body and physical body can't 'bounce back into balance'. Physical and mental illness is the result.

How do you feel when your foot goes down and you hear the crunch of a snail's shell as you step?

Does it make you cringe? Does it make you laugh? Do you not give it a second thought?

Now is the time to examine our choices that we make. Although 'everyone is doing it' might seem like a proper answer, the questions are being asked only of you.

• 'Will you continue to permit pain and suffering on a global level on our planet?'
• 'Will you look the other way when another creature suffers?'
• 'What can you do, in your own way, to relieve suffering in your midst?'

The answer will depend on the situation you are in, I know.

But when you cross to The Other Side, you are going to see the answer of your lifetime of choices. It will be plainly and painfully clear if you have erred on the side to support cruelty. 

And you will make choices to balance your Karma in your next life experience.

The judge, lawyer, and jury is you. Why not start to examine your self better today? So you may have an easier time of it at the End.

Namaste,

Reiki Doc

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Another Day

Lately I have been noticing a trend in my heart--I am not 'getting into' holidays like I used to.  Is it my age? Have I seen enough of them? Is it that I have to go to work at the hospital during them so much? Is it the sharing of the holdiays with my ex? Perhaps. But like the moose in the above photograph, I am starting to notice that I am neck deep in advertisements for each and every holiday.  Yesterday I got the feeling that someone wants me to shop on cue.  I did not like it. Something deep inside of me said, 'no!'.

I spoke to my mom about it. She has a Russian friend who says, 'your holidays are--(insert favorite word here)! Who says you have to buy presents for everybody? All the family, the teachers, the people who help you every day want a tip...in Russia we do none of those things! We give a gift to the family: a bottle of wine, a box of cookies, and we celebrate with joy in our hearts! All of this looking for the deal-deal-deal! I will never understand your ways!'

Mom laughed. Back in Italy, the holidays were more laid back. Like her Russian friend. Mom has been saying we should go back to those days for most of my life. With the economy the way it is, it makes sense.

What does Reiki have to do with it? Well for me, I have opted out of the shopping mall and plan to give cash. Just like my grandparents. I will give business gifts and buy for the children online. I think this new idea of freedom at the holidays stems from being in touch with what I want and what I observe around me. Reiki also is needed by the world, as depression and financial over-extension lead to stress this time of year in those who are around us. Be Reiki wherever you go. Put in place the five principles daily (see box at right, 'Just for today'...).  And see! Look for yourself to see where your dollar is spent, and ultimately where it will go. Think of it as 'voting' to support places you would like to see in business. Times are tough, and I am sure it will be appreciated very much by some people who are struggling to stay afloat with their store.

Long story short--be rich in celebration, but wise in how you choose to spend your energy in time, talent and treasure. Enjoy time spent with loved ones, for they are the greatest treasure anyone can ask for. Even the not-so-easy-to-be-with ones! Who else can you mutually burn Karma together and advance as gentle souls? It was not by accident that you are related! If, on the other hand, there is abuse in the relationship, let it go. You deserve to be treated with Light, even if you have to be the one to shine it yourself. Angels are with you no matter what.

That being said, Happy Thanksgiving! Merry Christmas! Happy Hanukah! Blessed Solstice! Happy Kwanzaa! Happy Eid! Happy New Year! May the best be ahead for all of us at this wonderful time!

Namaste,

Reiki Doc

You Are So Much More

When I was about three, I found a book in my grandmother's toy box. It was a Golden Book, and it was about A Wedding. I opened the book, and looked at it, page by page. As I got to the illustration at the end, where you see them walking down the altar, I got a strange feeling: so this is all there is? I am a girl. When I grow up I get to wear a white dress and get married. This is my purpose?!?

At the time, more than anything, I used to love the back yard at my nanna's house. I would look at all the flowers and talk to the fairies. I dreamed of being able to know everything there was to know about plants, and be a healer. The sunshine, the fresh air, and the wonders of the garden were my heart's content. Except for my very special family, of course.

There are three kind of relationships when you come right down to it. It doesn't matter if they are same-sex, or different sex pairs.

Relationship Option #1: The Karmanic Arrangement
You are here to burn off karma. The pairing was designed before birth. When the karmanic debt is paid, you go your separate ways, perhaps to 'upgrade' to a different relationship category, perhaps not.
when you are in a relationship like this, you feel it! It goes from 'heaven' to 'hades' pretty quick.

Relationship Option #2: The Business Agreement
You are in a partnership that is mutually advantageous in this Life. You might have known each other before, you might not. The pairing was arranged for the advancement of both soul's life lessons. This arrangement is an earthly one, not much 'fireworks', but comfortable for all parties involved. This matching is good for raising a family, which is an important Life Lesson in itself.

Relationship Option #3: The Soul Mates
This one is meant for two souls to work on the deeper lessons. For example, my ex cured me of my abandonment issues, once and for all, in a dramatic way. It was painful at the time, but it was a soul lesson I needed. There is a chemistry that defines the Soul Mate Arrangement, and a familiarity that is hard to describe. If you are in a Soul Mate relationship, enjoy each day you have with this person, for as long as the love may last. (only more advanced souls get this chance to grow in this manner).

***The Twin Flames***
This one blows The Soul Mate connection out of the water! This is IT, the nirvana of relationship. But is it always romance and roses? No. Jeanette Mac Donald and Nelson Eddy were Twin Flames, but their careers got in the way of their being together. Gladys, who was the scribe and record keeper for Edgar Cayce, was married to someone else, and had a family. So did he! According to the people who make The Galactic Free Press, Mother Mary and her son Jesus were Twin Flames. And so are they.
What is needed to know about Twin Flames, is that when they are together, it is special, and a great deal of Spiritual Power is generated by their being reunited in Life. More and more Twin Flames are reuniting in these times. Polona with Ascension Pioneers on YouTube is an excellent resource for more on this. And--one last thing--they tend to be about twenty-years apart in age.
For some of you, your Twin Flame has been supporting you from the 4th or higher dimension. You will meet them on Ascension. There is no Twin Flame here on Earth for you. But it will happen!

So out of all these relationship options going on at the same time on Earth, we had Matriarchy, peaceful, with the Goddess-worshipping Irish/Celts for thousands of years. These relationships and society were ended by warring factions, who supported the Patriarchy. And Patriarchy it has been, with everything from chastity belts, to female circumcision, to women being chattel to be bartered off for money (My name is Noor, and I want a Divorce--remember the young Yemeni story last year?).

The Apology to the Divine Feminine and The Apology to the Divine Masculine, also on YouTube, but by Jeff Brown, is excellent at healing the wounds of both sexes from the lifestyle we have today.

Tonight, as I drifted off to sleep, I thought about being a single mother. I recall important advice from the Master of the Court: as long as one parent is stable the child will turn out fine. YOU BE THAT PARENT.  I thought about what some of my young friends who had experienced the 'every other weekend' shared: at your mother's home you can be yourself. I thought of all the coordination single mothers do, to ensure the continuity of care for their young. I packed for the weekend for the children, in their little backpacks, so they will have clothes to wear that they like and that fit, just a few minutes ago.

Our society is turning into a Matriarchy. Whether you like it or not, it is and has always been the women keeping family in line and in touch. And that is why the impaired mother leaves such deep scars on her young... In Dear Abby today there was a letter by a remorseful adult daughter who had sided with the father who had money after the divorce, and treated her mother badly, like all of the siblings and Dad. It was touching, how she finally saw the Light after all those years of neglect and emotional abuse of the woman whose body carried her into this world. Abby's advice to seek the mother, to search for her, and tell her this face to face was wise.

Elephants, and Whales, some of the most intelligent creatures on Gaia, have a matriarchy. We are well on the way to joining them. That makes me happy in ways words cannot describe.

Namaste,

Reiki Doc

Something Very Right

Everything happens for the best. This morning I got a mediumship from a neighbor of mine growing up, who passed away suddenly yesterday. On the surface, it would appear that he passed of obesity. In reality,  as children he had offered himself repeatedly to a sexual predator in our neighborhood  who had threatened to attack me and my little sister if our friend did not comply. He had thought us both beautiful and innocent, and sacrificed himself for us. The damage that it caused to him psychologically led to the over eating, obesity, and wear on the heart.

These are the kind of secrets that people take to their graves. This is what I am trusted with as a medium. And it is my role to decide what to share, and how. As a doctor I am always weighing risk to benefit for every medical decision I make. In mediumship I do exactly the same.

What this soul said is not the same as I told you. I know who this predator is. There is no need to divulge this information. It will hurt the living. The predator is deceased, and on my first sessions with an independent medium, the two of us straightened things out. The predator did not disclose to me at the time about this victim. And the victim told me where, when, and how often in his message to me this morning. Since there are no more kids at risk, I will keep that knowledge to myself.

As more and more of you Ascend, you shall find yourself in a position where you interact with the living, the deceased, the third dimension, and the Ascended dimensions. At first you will be new to your abilities, and excited to use them. Heed caution. It is the careless sharing of information that can cause harm, and rack up karma against you.

Do no harm. Keep your cool. Always weigh risk to benefit before sharing any information for the Other Side. Do not be a bull in a psychic china shop. Try instead to be an anchor of stability, so when the others start waking up, they will turn to you and follow the example that you have set for them.

It will be like popcorn kernels popping, some will awaken first, then some more, then a lot, and winding down to the few stragglers.

Love and Light and Namaste,

Reiki Doc

Your True Calling

I want to write for you.

And I can't. I am always being interrupted. By my son, who is riding his bicycle out in front of the house, and playing hopscotch. By the chores, that keep piling up. By a plumbing leak in the garage, that makes me have to haul tons of treasures I had piled up in storage underneath it, into the house, to keep them safe from the repairman.

I want to write, and I can't. There is always something in the way. There is the phone call, the neighbor, the day at work, the bills to pay, the mouth to feed (I have pets). There is the errand, the task, the chore.

I went to the bank yesterday. I noticed that there was a surveillance camera on my window. Everyone there knows everything about my transaction, what I wore, and that my boy was with me carrying two driftwood sticks that he had found at the beach. I was aware of it, for the first time, and it felt wrong, this video surveillance for just about everything.

Inside, my heart is on fire with love from the Universe, and with my purpose. It is changing. My task at the hospital is pulling back. I may go, but I feel my purpose is going to change somewhat in the near future. That calling to the hospital I have had all my life, is different. The pull is now more to this.

I write, and the sounds of my boy stomping on the hopscotch, and tossing his marker, try to distract me.

And the writing is difficult.

There are forces used by the dark to undermine us in our searching for the Light. And how to shine it like a beacon that we are. Some of them are very high tech. They affect our ability to get along by altering the vibrational rate of our chakras. Some take away motivation. Others make the Earth and weather patterns, and natural disasters occur. Some make us tired and sleepy, without explanation or reason. (More will be known about this in the coming weeks.)

I went through medical school with a chronic sore throat. I had tonsillitis about five times a year. My sinuses were so inflamed that my primary care doctor had me keep antibiotics in the home, just in case, to start whenever I flared up. How could I have accomplished what I have with all the challenges layered upon layers as I move forward in my studies?

Every challenge, every annoyance, every illness, every disappointment, has a purpose. That purpose is to strengthen our will, our intent to survive the struggle, to overcome, and to carry on.

Yesterday, barely three weeks major abdominal surgery, as I was moving boxes that I really shouldn't move to get out of the way and make room for the workers, I thought, 'I just can't take this anymore! I am at the limit of what a human can withstand. I have an earache, I just got worked up for a pulmonary embolus on Friday, I am a single mother and my house is falling apart!'

Then it hit me, 'ask for help'.

And I understood. Ask for help from the angels, guides, and deceased loved ones. Pray for the strength to persevere, to carry on.

Sometime I get the funny feeling that I am paying off the last of my Karma. Big time.

No matter what, I have a task to do. As do you yourself. This task is known by the inner workings of your heart. It will bring joy to you when you are near to it, your task. Your fruit. Your calling.

You shall bring forth great things, to the betterment of others. And to this world.

Not with your mind. Not with your struggle. Not with comparing yourself to others.

It is with the quiet understanding that you get to know, deep within your heart, to be true to yourself, and to seek happiness that comes from being in the right place, at the right time, for your quest to be alive. It won't go away, no matter how much you try to run as far as your can away from it. Or ignore it.

There is only one sign for you: just breathe and you will find it. And the best part? You don't have to go it alone. There are plenty of guides out there to assist you. Just ask.

Just now he fell off his bike. Lost traction in a puddle. I had to put down the computer and run. I picked him up, gently, and put him in my chair out front.

I have to go. Duty is calling. Do not be afraid to do what it takes, to carry on. A new day is going to happen. Do your best and get on with it.

Namaste,

Reiki Doc

On Karma and Fate

This is a channeled message

There are places where no one has been in the mind. At least not for a long, long, very long time.  We can create from the mind abundance, pleasure, and all good things. 'You are what you think' is right. Whatever you contemplate upon, God will manifest it.

Karma is the awakening of justice that is radical to popular belief. It is more than restitution for choices made incarnate. It is balance. In order for duality to survive, there must be polar opposites. For every thought taken, one thought and the other will manifest. It is like antimatter in the scientific realm.

Your thought, on what will be good for you, sets the tone of your day. Hour after hour, it becomes part of you. Your Life. And how you live it. This sets up a pattern for the common mind to enhance, albeit pleasure or boredom or strife. Everything is as it manifests. It is all for the purpose of your enlightenment--that is, your discovery of the self, of who you are.

The price for this, what is exacted, is from trying to be who you are not.

Let me explain. The more you stray from your Life's Purpose, the more out of balance Life becomes. This is recorded and measured in the pineal gland in the mind and in the brain. Everything out of balance will come back fourfold in measure.The farther one strays from love and light, the more balance that will have to be repaid, relearned, in powerful lessons.

The common path is to live in light, freedom, and harmony. That is all for today.

(I just stopped channeling)

What is channelling? It is one connects with the higher realms and carries a message. I write. I have written for twenty one years. It is always for myself. This is the first I have channeled for the public.

It feels like the awareness that comes when someone is staring at you. I pick up on it and sense it. Instead of turning to look, I write what thoughts come to me. The handwriting is mine. I am conscious of what is happening. I try to relay the message as right as it comes to me as possible. I ask for clarification when a word or thought is unclear. It is going back and reading all the messages that makes more sense for me.

For whatever reason, it is complete. Have a pleasant Labor Day Weekend everybody.

Namaste,

Reiki Doc