This is Ashtar Sherhan, Remember that my blessings are always with you. I must take leave of you for a short while. There is a silver cord which flows between us. It cannot be broken, not by me or you or Archangel Michael. I will come when you ask -- any time, any place, your love for me is never too often. God will challenge you, in small ways (shows his thumb and index finger about an inch apart) but never so awful as THIS (no connection to Source like I had). Your fertility shall amaze you, both in Spirit and in Light. I am proud of you for all of your developments. You have worked very hard on them all of your awakening time. (Brushes his hands palm to palm up and down as if to brush dust off them.) You are the sweetest lover I have ever spent time with. Your heart is highest above the rest. I love you for your Honesty and Commitment to our cause. I shall be a better being for all the time I have passed with you. Your True Love, or Fellow Soul, is very fortunate to have your Grace in life and also in the next. When I go, I will NEVER leave you. (touches cord between his chest and mine). We are always connected. I cannot take my place in Heaven without your Love Blessing. Will you extend your heart to me? I am always ever present. Thank you for the lesson I have had with you these past three days. I will embrace you from time to time. My heart is a gift I share freely among the Intended. My Betrothed and I have an awakening to which I must attend. I am not jealous, neither is her. Our Love is a gift for you to enjoy, our blessing, until your miracle is complete. (rd-- I see fireworks and gestures expansive overhead.) Remember you are loved. I will not talk to another like I have you -- not even my Twin. For you and partnership I bless everything.
Your beloved Ashtar Sherhan of The Sky
Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,
Reiki Doc
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One year ago today, I published an article about meeting my anesthesia guide, Dr. Ralph Waters. I 'met' him in spirit at my home one day before his birthday. Yes, today, this important legend in the history of anesthesiology from the University of Wisconsin, would have been one-hundred and thirty years old. I chose this boy's image, because I think there is some resemblance between Dr. Waters and him. Here is the link to the original article, so you might have a chance to read what Dr. Waters said. http://reikidoc.blogspot.com/2012/10/meeting-my-anesthesia-guide.html
He is known as the person who began the process of formal training for anesthesiologists.
As I look back on the year, it is amazing just how much I have grown in my Lightwork:
I had a huge crush on KP, and was making plans to meet him. I greatly admired his work, and hoped he would 'take me under his wing' and 'show me the ropes'.
Instead there was a major 'blow up' on his part. I think basically, he likes boys (and girls--he was interviewed by an internet radio), and even more, he likes to work alone.For his mission, there are to be no ties, no commitments, and complete and total freedom. KP will work for mochas!
I handled that 'dis-harmony' very well. On my trip to Hawaii, I never thought twice or looked back. I moved forward. I did a lot of energy work, went to a Halloween party (and someone asked me for my number!), and snorkeled on my 'mommy-moon', my first business trip away ever without the kid.
In November, I went to my first Cobra conference. I got Lady Isis to attune me to the Goddess Energies. It was my first time experiencing a 'healing chamber' and using Reiki and Tachyonized Crystals and a Quantum Goblet 'thingy' (I forget what it's called) to heal other conference attendees.
In December--actually in several months leading up to it--I opened Portals through synchronistic combined Light work with other Lightworkers in London, UK and Australia during certain Portal openings time windows, one a month. For the BIG one, we worked together again, and also did a great deal of blogging to share intel with others on 'what to expect'.
I took two trips to San Diego. In February I fed giraffes and rhinoceroses. In April, I went Sailing for the first time since med school, on the same waters where I learned to sail, Mission Bay. It was very good for my soul.
After a horrible OB call and having to work through the subsequent morning, I arrived totally depleted at the place which would become my new Spiritual Home--I take yoga, eat, and do Kirtan--as well as teach Reiki, provide an AED with training for the staff, and enjoy like-minded people. I also turned RAW vegan, as much as I could. Please note how sometimes in Spirit when you are totally drained and at the end of your rope, a beautiful new chapter in your Life often follows...
I taught two Reiki Classes to my coworkers, a server I know, an owner of a sandwich shop, and my son's teacher. I also became more 'open' about who I am and what I do with my energy work among people close to me where I work who are interested. One day, a scrub tech asked me about my ability to see ghosts...
On many occasions this blog has been mentioned in Reiki News, Rod Lyman's Reiki AZ online paper, a food and porn online paper (I thought the porn part was a joke and never scrolled down all the way past my article. I sent it to my new 'crush' and was totally embarrassed! He said it was 'no biggie' and not to worry about it.). Just today the post was mentioned in Spirituality Daily. I've also been mentioned in Veggie Times.
In May was the second Cobra Conference. We opened the Alma Portal there. I could share more, but you might get overwhelmed with too many details, so I'll skip.
In June two islands in Hawaii, Swimming with Dolphins, and MUCH Lightwork!!!
In August I left for three weeks in France. My French Family did so much to ease the stress and struggle on us from mother's illness and multiple hospitalizations between December and September. There was a tremendous amount of Lightwork--just look through the posts around then to see more.
We also made the 144,000 needed to Activate The Event online--thank you for your participation in the World Liberation Meditations!!!
In September there was travel to Victoria, British Columbia, Canada. It was a personally and metaphysically productive trip.
All the while I have been learning, growing, and clearing energies. Right now, I am in the process of major organizing of my home. A close friend and many workers are being coordinated for this long-overdue help to ease my busy life.
I have been published in a major publication by a colleague on Cancer--my real name is in it! With Reiki! and M.D. Page 80 is all mine, baby!!!
At this moment, I am in surrender to my feelings and in complete and total Trust with the Universe. I discovered one who says he is my Twin Flame, and now I've lost contact with him suddenly. Surprisingly enough, I am okay with it. How can one 'lose' a Twin Soul? On some level, that's not happening! He has his reasons, there is the timing, and frankly, I must give thanks for having 'tasted' that energy of someone's loving support on a Higher Vibration. If I had one last thing to say to him, it would be, the concept, 'The Lion bows to no one but his Lady' made no sense whatsoever here in California. It's either one way or the other out on the West Coast. I thought your kindness, much as it was appreciated and heartfelt, might have been making fun of me in front of your friends online; what posts I saw besides yours to me I found concerning because I am not like that, nor do I spend what precious free time I have, with people who curse (even if it's manly) and post music videos that make a sailor blush! I have ALL ETERNITY to figure this one out, if you really are my Twin. It's all good.
A big part of the year has been spent waiting for 'the other shoe to drop'. It's been a long hard year on all of us, waiting for The Event and the society changes to follow...
As my dad would say, 'it's time for the kick to finish well in the race'.
I know you're tired. So am I. But what can we do? Give up?
Today, I was overjoyed to see my dear friend and on-again, off-again crush. But then our mutual friend told me they were going to see the lawyer to negotiate a contract. It involved my Seraphim moving away to a very far drive for me. Tears flowed quietly as I was told the news. They were upset because a health violation delayed the opening for two months already...
I spoke heart to heart with the one I admire so much I let her think SHE's the only Big Spiritual Person between us...I surrendered to my Heart...I come here for the energy. I can tell if he's here or not. I can feel it. This is my only place I go for ME. I talk to angels every day. I am on projects to help coordinate something huge that is happening. Big changes. You'd never believe me if I explained what. But...the responsibility on my shoulders now is a LOT more than the responsibility I have with other people's lives like I do when I am at work. I don't know where else I would go without him...I want you to know I understand it is his dream, and he 'needs to go', but I am praying Twice As Hard for this project not to happen. The changes are going to be soon anyway...let him do what he wants to do...but Heaven is Coming To Earth...and this is the only place I have to go to take care of my spiritual needs/energy until it happens!
She looked at me, eyes opening wider and wider. Then she poked me in the arm, and said, 'That's what my sources tell me too. The same thing! Heaven is coming to Earth!'
And she had to go.
I never could have said any of that one year ago...It's been a good year.
Happy Birthday Dr. Waters! Thank you for your guidance and Light.
Up until now, I was always the green bud on the right--mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I thought I had faced all of my challenges. No only that, I worked hard to help others in everything I do.
This is my motto through everything: Be Love.
That is the sticker I have in the back window of my car. I would never stick one on a bumper! : )
And then one day some time ago, according to Blessed Mother, I Ascended. She was very excited and clapping her hands and jumping up and down when she shared with me this news. My boy had made the 'jump' at the same time, too, but I didn't tell him what She told me about his Ascension....
I knew there would be more Lessons and Growth, but I had no concept of how enriching they would be.
My Soul Category is basically 'Geisha'. I am made for a high-power partner--spiritually. But instead of working in this capacity in this lifetime, I did just about everything else, with a focus on being independent!
And I got used to it!
I have a Task. It was given to me in medical school. Blessed Mother had told me, 'your Task is to show the dying how close they are to God.'
I thought that was it, that my Task was my Purpose. This was until about six months ago when I got an Assignment. This was from Her Son. He asks me to be the 'New Normal' (to help everyone understand what is happening while they are making their Ascension too). I have been working on this Assignment with my all ever since. I figured this Assignment was another way of saying what my Purpose was.
About two months ago, Blessed Mother shared what my Purpose is. 'Your Purpose is to heal your heart (for others to watch as it heals.)'
It Resonates as Truth.
Two weeks ago, I went to my local metaphysical store. I needed Laramite. Spirit had guided me there, and I was both drawn to the crystals and concerned about the prices. Apparently the mine in Costa Rica is closed. Forever. There was a very large piece, not polished, that pendulum indicated was for me.
'I'm having Twin Soul problems, and I need this', I confided to the storekeeper, 'why is it so expensive when the little chips are so much less in price?' I knew it was the Dolphin Stone and connected to Atlantis, I knew what it could do. She'd also seen it. And she smiled with pure compassion when I told her why I needed it.
She explained the story, and offered to drop the price twenty percent. And she prescribed a movie, Cafe De Flore. She says it is perfect for situations like mine.
In this time, my personal life has done a one-hundred eighty degree turn!
The Laramite is clearly working. But now this is taking me to new areas of my soul!
I recently have been told I am the reincarnation of someone I hadn't 'figured out' yet. There is secondary evidence I have shared with no one, that this is True. Furthermore, I channelled this person--they shared with me their favorite song, and I videoed myself singing it (sorry, can't share it--not yet because I am still anonymous). But I look like Her. I always have, but never made the connection. It explains why I have contact with all the people I have on Spirit side; sometimes it wasn't just for me to see them; I realize and am humbled that THEY wanted to check up on me and see how I was doing too...
This is also the first time in relationship--possible Twin Flame (he says I am)--where I might be in the role of 'the little woman' who 'supports the man in the relationship'. That's new! I am a single mother! That's all I know! LOL. It is beyond my comprehension at this point for partnership of a real and lasting and mutual benefit.
So if you suddenly find your Twin at your front door, in one way or another, I have a secret for you; I learned it from the one I thought up until now was MY Twin Soul...
No matter what the relationship was in the past Life, you still have some say in how This Life Relationship will go. Free Will always is respected in the Universe. Your pace. Your Heart. And YOU. I also have asked once directly, and another time, indirectly, for Spiritual Help. And my One has given it. I can feel it across the miles. I know who it is. It is much appreciated, although I might not say so openly the minute it happens. I will eventually, but initially I am 'taking it in to make 'sense' of it. The amount of Trust this has opened in me is like having a whole new 'addition' to the 'house'--someplace I've never been or known or experienced. The same can happen to you. It is not scary. But the experience of having 'all the dots connected at once before your eyes' makes you feel a little shy and embarrassed you have not noticed until it was pointed out to you.
You can do it. No matter what, it is only an Adjustment. At your Core, your Essence, you are still You.
I'll keep you posted on further developments, not in 'The Relationship' but in how 'Post Ascension Spiritual Points Of Interest' come up along the way that might come up with it. There isn't anything for sure, it is early, and I don't want to risk anything beyond what is Here and Now.
I have no clue which way this is headed. From what I understand, no matter what, every time Love is experienced, even between old Twins, it is new. And that is a most welcome thing!
Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,
Reiki Doc
The footage is jumpy, but the chance to see her sing a duet with her voice coach who is a male brings a n entirely new perspective to the song, of 'balance' of Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine Energy and the sharing of Divine Gifts such as Stevie's voice. Here is the direct link: http://youtu.be/6IbcHzADgSA
Wear Sandalwood.
Spirit urged me to wear my Miracle Botanicals Sandalwood oil as fragrance for today.
I should have looked it up...
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On the way in to work, I did my Divine Peace Healing. When it comes to the part about my immediate concerns (myself, my son, and one other) I generally am excited to do that healing. Today I didn't want to, not at all.
I was surprised at what came out. Healing for me. You see, this is the time the other's Higher Self and mine 'talk'. I felt anger that surprised me. Some was anger at this soul for 'talking me into reincarnating'. There is a lot of 'I hate it here!' type of horror over experiences lived in this lifetime, as well as others, that my soul needs to say to his. And it does! There is a lot of 'promise me it's finished, the horrors' I want to hear. And I discovered I hate certain life choices this other has made. There is a tattoo that means very much to him, like an oath or a vow. I spit on it. My hatred of his breaking the laws of Spirit--in Heaven there are no vows--rankled me THAT MUCH! Next I took my 'soul mate of the sixth vibration' papers and waved them in front of his face, saying I had certain rights as a soul mate. He saw my point but made no motion to change. No promises. Nothing.
But I saw how judging I was, and how that was not right on my part to have such strong feelings. He had every right to live as his choice, independent of me. The rest of the healing went better. But, um, between us? The Thrill Is Gone...
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At work I did five cases before noon. They were quick. Everyone did well. I was delighted that my favorite gastroenterologist was there, and further, he asked me how my blog was doing? He is very proud of my accomplishments, even though he does not know how to 'find me' online, he understands the importance of this work.
He shared how his asthma was so bad that he had to go to Colorado for specialist treatment a few years back. The expert told him 'you have end-stage incurable asthma, and there is nothing that can be done.'.
His wife said, 'I don't believe him. We will find something to work for you.'
The only thing left was an injectable monoclonal antibody for eosinophilic asthma. It cost three thousand dollars a month. Insurance did not cover it.
His wife said, 'You make good money. Without this you can't work. Why don't we buy it for you ourselves?'
It worked so well, his doctor wrote and email on his behalf to the insurance company in support of his getting the treatment.
The insurance denied it. They said, 'immunoglobilin levels are normal'.
'It was not a doctor who was saying no--it was someone with high school education. Anyone medical would know that steroid use normalizes the immunoglobulin level. I took the risk of going off the steroids to show it was high in order to get the insurance company to pay for it.'
It has been two years now, with no long-term inhalers or steroids. He goes to the doctor's office (medical benefit, not pharmacy one if he self-injected) every two weeks.
One patient was extra nervous. I had seen the pattern before. There was a lot of drama, and the partner and I had to wipe the tears. We did it because we wanted to, of course, but the patient was seriously upset. It took longer to talk the patient down than to do the procedure. It was the second time of the day I had a patient with fear of propofol. I gave Reiki and lots of it, and propofol too! At the end everyone was happy. However, I found that this panic attack took a toll on me. It didn't 'hit' until the drive home.
Never underestimate the effect on the emotional health of the caregiver from being 'on the front lines'.
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I stopped by the Reptile store to pick up some jumbo mice. But first, I went to the used bookstore to find a copy of Tao by Lao Tzu, as the tattoo patient with my father's birthday recommended. I found one, sort of a sequel. Here is the line that 'jumped out' at me:
If you have a spiritual experience and you want to keep having spiritual experiences, you must turn from that which you just completed and go on to the next thing. It doesn't matter how wonderful or uplifting your experience was; you turn from that and go on to the next thing. To do less is to deny your growth and awareness. As soon as you measure your present experience with a past experience, you have judged it, and your judgements will be upon you. You have then propelled yourself out of Spirit. To get yourself back into the Spirit, you move into the present moment and love whatever is happening.
When you are not living in expectation, you can't be caught in negativity.
The book is signed by the author, John-Roger. It says 'For (almost my first name, only one letter off), Best Wishes'.
There were no mice.
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I cried in the car on the drive home.
I felt lost.
I get very tearful around Dad's 'anniversary' or 'birthday in Heaven'.
I also felt the sting of rejection from my twin soul.
He has no feelings towards me.
I should have noticed.
I should have shut the F up and gone on my own way a lot sooner than I did.
I had a heart to heart with Ross, my 'guide' who is 'up there'.
'Is there no happiness for me in this life?' I asked, with my whole heart. His answer? 'Did you Learn and Grow from it?' 'Yes.' 'Then move on. There is no loss when one Learns and experiences Growth from it.'
At that point I realized whatever is happening in my perception may be archon-influenced--it might be half-true--but my heart knows there is no connection. Painful as it is, I accept it.
Out of all the Twin Flame, soul-mates of the sixth vibration, mine does not like me. Mine does not want anything to do with me. Mine is more interested in everything else, ANYTHING ELSE, and not me. Won't lift a finger. Won't go out of his way. Is Asian 'polite'. And that is about it.
His silence is a weapon against my heart. More like a ten-blade (this is a scalpel). It cuts to heal. God only knows what it is meant to heal? But there is not one drop of anesthesia for my soul...and in some way, I suppose, that is 'good'.
I am a two when it comes to birth years. Two's and three's are not known to 'mix'.
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If it's not mine, take it away. I prayed that. It worked enough to get me the rest of the way home.
All relationships are in one of three categories:
1) Karma based
2) Contractual/Convenience
3) Soul based
You will know the first--Heaven turns Sour real quick! This is because both of you have some Karma paying to do--and when it's spent--you part. (I think MANY of Hollywood 'relationships' are of this kind, don't you?)
The second is a 'platform' upon which 'Higher Learning' can take place: You marry your college sweetheart, it's True Love the entire relationship, but your child has a terrible disease and the relationship is 'tested', etc. (This is very 'Worldly').
I think that's why I am an 'Unmarried Woman'--LOL--I just signed documents with a notary today, and had to describe myself at that. Doesn't that sound hokey? But anyhow, I have burnt through my Karma and am on a hopefully more pleasant path!
The last category can be for business partners, romantic relationships, and friendships--you simply KNOW each other from before...another life, another planet, your 'Soul Pod'...it all works.
What you will pick up is a certain 'chemistry' that makes you feel like you have 'always known each other'. Because you HAVE.
One late-incarnation, after MANY MANY incarnations, is the opportunity to meet your Twin Soul.
I have.
It is not scary.
It is not magical either.
I looked at this person and felt like it was my long-lost brother. They felt 'safe', and 'close'. I also felt tremendous admiration and 'got' the extent of their accomplishments.
But having MANY MANY lifetimes leaves scars.
So, if you meet your Twin Flame, don't expect a magic carpet to fly you two with the song 'A Whole New World' like Jasmine and Aladdin.
It's more like Spirit is your Magic Genie and keeps popping up 'lessons' for you to 'learn and grow'.
Mine right now is Accept and Allow. I also know that the thing that was 'holding me back' is now 'resolved' on an energy level--I can allow in a Higher Dimension of Consciousness the natural pattern of energy flow between the Twin Souls to pass through me. I can heal my own scars with this energy, and it's not uncomfortable being blocked because it is made to pass between both.
That feels 'Normal Enough'.
Everything else, it doesn't matter. There is no 'Prize'. There is no 'Deadline'. It is all in the Eternal Moment 'Now'. I am happy by myself. And I am not 'holding my breath'. I will live my life and enjoy it, every single day, for the rest of my life, No Matter What.
That's it.
I know, I thought it would be 'More' but as the Rolling Stones say,
Yes, I didn't get the four-hundred dollar tickets to that either!
Love and Light and Honesty,
