Releasing The Floodgate

Wear Sandalwood.

Spirit urged me to wear my Miracle Botanicals Sandalwood oil as fragrance for today.

I should have looked it up...

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On the way in to work, I did my Divine Peace Healing. When it comes to the part about my immediate concerns (myself, my son, and one other) I generally am excited to do that healing. Today I didn't want to, not at all.

I was surprised at what came out. Healing for me. You see, this is the time the other's Higher Self and mine 'talk'. I felt anger that surprised me. Some was anger at this soul for 'talking me into reincarnating'. There is a lot of 'I hate it here!' type of horror over experiences lived in this lifetime, as well as others, that my soul needs to say to his. And it does! There is a lot of 'promise me it's finished, the horrors' I want to hear. And I discovered I hate certain life choices this other has made. There is a tattoo that means very much to him, like an oath or a vow. I spit on it. My hatred of his breaking the laws of Spirit--in Heaven there are no vows--rankled me THAT MUCH! Next I took my 'soul mate of the sixth vibration' papers and waved them in front of his face, saying I had certain rights as a soul mate. He saw my point but made no motion to change. No promises. Nothing.

But I saw how judging I was, and how that was not right on my part to have such strong feelings. He had every right to live as his choice, independent of me. The rest of the healing went better. But, um, between us? The Thrill Is Gone...

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At work I did five cases before noon. They were quick. Everyone did well. I was delighted that my favorite gastroenterologist was there, and further, he asked me how my blog was doing? He is very proud of my accomplishments, even though he does not know how to 'find me' online, he understands the importance of this work.

He shared how his asthma was so bad that he had to go to Colorado for specialist treatment a few years back. The expert told him 'you have end-stage incurable asthma, and there is nothing that can be done.'.

His wife said, 'I don't believe him. We will find something to work for you.'

The only thing left was an injectable monoclonal antibody for eosinophilic asthma. It cost three thousand dollars a month. Insurance did not cover it.

His wife said, 'You make good money. Without this you can't work. Why don't we buy it for you ourselves?'

It worked so well, his doctor wrote and email on his behalf to the insurance company in support of his getting the treatment.

The insurance denied it. They said, 'immunoglobilin levels are normal'.

'It was not a doctor who was saying no--it was someone with high school education. Anyone medical would know that steroid use normalizes the immunoglobulin level. I took the risk of going off the steroids to show it was high in order to get the insurance company to pay for it.'

It has been two years now, with no long-term inhalers or steroids. He goes to the doctor's office (medical benefit, not pharmacy one if he self-injected) every two weeks.

Here is a link on the treatment: http://www.worldallergy.org/UserFiles/file/Monoclonal%20antibodies%20-%20El-Gamal.pdf

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One patient was extra nervous. I had seen the pattern before. There was a lot of drama, and the partner and I had to wipe the tears. We did it because we wanted to, of course, but the patient was seriously upset. It took longer to talk the patient down than to do the procedure. It was the second time of the day I had a patient with fear of propofol. I gave Reiki and lots of it, and propofol too! At the end everyone was happy. However, I found that this panic attack took a toll on me. It didn't 'hit' until the drive home.

Never underestimate the effect on the emotional health of the caregiver from being 'on the front lines'. 
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I stopped by the Reptile store to pick up some jumbo mice. But first, I went to the used bookstore to find a copy of Tao by Lao Tzu, as the tattoo patient with my father's birthday recommended. I found one, sort of a sequel. Here is the line that 'jumped out' at me:

If you have a spiritual experience and you want to keep having spiritual experiences, you must turn from that which you just completed and go on to the next thing.

It doesn't matter how wonderful or uplifting your experience was; you turn from that and go on to the next thing. To do less is to deny your growth and awareness.

As soon as you measure your present experience with a past experience, you have judged it, and your judgements will be upon you. You have then propelled yourself out of Spirit.

To get yourself back into the Spirit, you move into the present moment and love whatever is happening.

When you are not living in expectation, you can't be caught in negativity.

The book is signed by the author, John-Roger. It says 'For (almost my first name, only one letter off), Best Wishes'.

There were no mice.
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I cried in the car on the drive home.

I felt lost.

I get very tearful around Dad's 'anniversary' or 'birthday in Heaven'.

I also felt the sting of rejection from my twin soul.

He has no feelings towards me.

I should have noticed.

I should have shut the F up and gone on my own way a lot sooner than I did.

I had a heart to heart with Ross, my 'guide' who is 'up there'.

'Is there no happiness for me in this life?' I asked, with my whole heart.

His answer? 'Did you Learn and Grow from it?'

'Yes.'

'Then move on. There is no loss when one Learns and experiences Growth from it.'

At that point I realized whatever is happening in my perception may be archon-influenced--it might be half-true--but my heart knows there is no connection. Painful as it is, I accept it.

Out of all the Twin Flame, soul-mates of the sixth vibration, mine does not like me. Mine does not want anything to do with me. Mine is more interested in everything else, ANYTHING ELSE, and not me. Won't lift a finger. Won't go out of his way. Is Asian 'polite'. And that is about it.

His silence is a weapon against my heart. More like a ten-blade (this is a scalpel). It cuts to heal. God only knows what it is meant to heal? But there is not one drop of anesthesia for my soul...and in some way, I suppose, that is 'good'.

I am a two when it comes to birth years. Two's and three's are not known to 'mix'.

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If it's not mine, take it away.  I prayed that. It worked enough to get me the rest of the way home.

And also Spirit sent this:

By the way, sandalwood is good for social anxiety. LOL
Here is a link: http://socialanxietydisorder.about.com/od/alternativetreatments/p/sandalwood.htm

Spirit has got me figured out. And also over half of my patients!

I think a vacation is in order. Ahhhh...where should I go?

Namaste,

Reiki Doc

P.S. Here is what All Is Well has to say about asthma--I might need some affirmations : )

It is safe now for me to take charge of my own life. I choose to be free.

One more 'thing sent from Source' on the subject: http://thecreatorwritings.wordpress.com/2013/05/30/love-another-love-yourself/

Soul Mate 101

It is as easy as, well, simple!

All relationships are in one of three categories:
1) Karma based
2) Contractual/Convenience
3) Soul based

You will know the first--Heaven turns Sour real quick!
This is because both of you have some Karma paying to do--and when it's spent--you part.
(I think MANY of Hollywood 'relationships' are of this kind, don't you?)

The second is a 'platform' upon which 'Higher Learning' can take place:
You marry your college sweetheart, it's True Love the entire relationship, but your child has a terrible disease and the relationship is 'tested', etc. 
(This is very 'Worldly').

I think that's why I am an 'Unmarried Woman'--LOL--I just signed documents with a notary today, and had to describe myself at that. Doesn't that sound hokey? But anyhow, I have burnt through my Karma and am on a hopefully more pleasant path!

The last category can be for business partners, romantic relationships, and friendships--you simply KNOW each other from before...another life, another planet, your 'Soul Pod'...it all works.

What you will pick up is a certain 'chemistry' that makes you feel like you have 'always known each other'. Because you HAVE.

One late-incarnation, after MANY MANY incarnations, is the opportunity to meet your Twin Soul.

I have.

It is not scary.

It is not magical either.

I looked at this person and felt like it was my long-lost brother. They felt 'safe', and 'close'. I also felt tremendous admiration and 'got' the extent of their accomplishments.

But having MANY MANY lifetimes leaves scars.

So, if you meet your Twin Flame, don't expect a magic carpet to fly you two with the song  'A Whole New World' like Jasmine and Aladdin.

It's more like Spirit is your Magic Genie and keeps popping up 'lessons' for you to 'learn and grow'.

Mine right now is Accept and Allow. I also know that the thing that was 'holding me back' is now 'resolved' on an energy level--I can allow in a Higher Dimension of Consciousness the natural pattern of energy flow between the Twin Souls to pass through me. I can heal my own scars with this energy, and it's not uncomfortable being blocked because it is made to pass between both.

That feels 'Normal Enough'.

Everything else, it doesn't matter. There is no 'Prize'. There is no 'Deadline'. It is all in the Eternal Moment 'Now'.  I am happy by myself. And I am not 'holding my breath'. I will live my life and enjoy it, every single day, for the rest of my life, No Matter What.

That's it.

I know, I thought it would be 'More' but as the Rolling Stones say,

Yes, I didn't get the four-hundred dollar tickets to that either!

Love and Light and Honesty,

Namaste,

Reiki Doc

No Woman No Cry

The course of True Love never did run smooth. I do not expect it. The more tension the couple can add into their relationship, the less boring it gets, the less habituated, the more fun...this goes for all couples, but the French in me loves watching and learning about relationships. So it is with this view I share the following couples:

My uncle has been a bachelor almost my whole life. It wasn't until his father passed that he married. His love life has been one disaster after the next. Want to hear about it?

What happened was that he fell in love with my babysitter when I was a kid. Mary was beautiful, very cool, and nice. We were delighted that they went out together. It was the perfect union--my favorite uncle and my favorite sitter! But when he asked Mary to be his wife, she said, 'no'. She ran off to Vegas with an older man, Roger. They had two kids. But everything was awkward after that. Was Roger a father figure? Was it that he had money? There was no closure for uncle. People did not seek counseling in those times; it meant you were 'weak' or 'crazy'.

So for the women after that, Uncle spent LOTS of money. One had been married five times, and once he married her she was cheating on him with the next guy (after she had spent Uncle's money). They divorced quick. And this last one? Don't get me started. It is even worse, because together they spent more than his money. I won't tell you whose bank account they emptied, but it was bad.  Because of it, we no longer speak.

For Uncle, perhaps he should have listened to the song, No Woman No Cry!

This story makes me think of the phrase, 'Jamaica me crazy, mon!'.

It is the story of me and the father of my son.

He was my massage therapist. I am seventeen years older. Yes, I am a cougar, of sorts, I was before the term was even invented.

How did it happen?

It was simple: he was the most spiritual person I had ever met, and we talked. He was an excellent massage therapist too, and never 'laid a hand on me' professionally.

There was a lot of recognition on a soul level, a lot of energy balancing. and a past-life shared. It was the oddest thing: my repeating dream/nightmare over the last ten years and his MATCHED! We were both running, being chased, running for our lives. For him, 'all of a sudden everything was okay'. I know what happened--he died. He sacrificed himself for me to live. I never got to bury the body, which for my culture back then was an unspeakable taboo. I also got to experience life as a widow, which in those days meant being a sex slave, being raped, and starving.

Could you blame me this time for 'wanting to make things right?'.

Innocent as I was, on a spiritual level all the wishes for 'joyful reunion' were overwhelmed by the harsh reality that when it came to relationships he was still very much 'of this world'. He did not know that often, soul mates reincarnate about twenty years apart.

Let me just say 'he cured me of my abandonment issues by abandoning me while I was four months pregnant'. It worked. Did it hurt like crazy? Was going to court over custody hell? Did hearing his 'accidental butt phone call' cell phone message on my phone while he was 'getting it on' with his new live-in girlfriend on my answering machine make me hit that erase button faster than I ever pushed it? You bet! I heard EVERYTHING.

But did I get a wonderful boy from it all, who I would do it over again just to be with him, our son? Yes. God listens. He made my biggest dream come true, and made me a mother.

The funniest thing now is I Don't Care. And lately, the Dad has been talking a LOT at exchange time. A lot about his health, which, if you care to impress a doctor, don't talk about it. It's like, 'work'. Anyhow, for whatever reason, the roles have reversed and I am thankful.

A nurse in the PACU I know works nights. Let's call her 'Linda'. Linda drives a Z4. We 'bonded' over our similar cars. Linda is very stoic, very cheery, and is from Canada.

I have known Linda for years now, but it wasn't until last month I got to eat dinner with her down in the cafeteria. I had to run, but she was alone, and we sat for about ten minutes.

Linda's love life is confusing. When I first started working there, I thought she had a long-term boyfriend and was happy after being divorced. I always wondered how she got her Japanese last name because she looked very, well, white and Canadian.

It turned out Linda has money woes. And her boyfriend was not helping her out financially. Her ex-husband was. And now she started seeing him. They had plans to travel together. She was hoping for a reconciliation with the man she had divorced, and was quite happy.

I asked her why she ever left him in the first place if she still loved him?

She explained about his family of origin, and his culture, everything about the emotions got 'twisted'; his father taught him that 'it is all about money'. There was an emotional 'disconnect' that she couldn't live with. And even now, although her ex was not very 'open', he helped her financially, a LOT. To fix the car. For this emergency at the house. Always loans in thousands of dollars that she did not have to pay back. It made her worry less and her life easier. You get the picture.

So she was going back to him, who she had always loved, in spite of the emotional 'past' because of his consistent generosity as an expression of his love.

This point is huge--people say they love you in different ways! It is very important to understand the 'Love Language' of who you are involved with.

I wish both of them the best.

Healthy, loving relationships create an energy to which the Dark Forces on the planet are Highly Allergic.

That being said, do you think they want Happy Relationships?

No.

There is a science to society to destroy what is inborn in us as 'natural'.

Did you know that in Wiccan cultures, a wedding is a contract that is 'for a year and a day or however long the love may last?'. All you have to do is jump over a broom together. There are no 'invitations'! It's just you two that decide!

We have church, religion, the wedding industry, which is quickly followed by the pre-nup and divorce industry, we have blatant sexual imagery in our advertisements, porn, 'Barbie' and air-brushed-photoshopped models, plastic surgery, and the Hollywood sending us 'mixed messages' on what a 'happy relationship' is like.

There also is advanced ultra-low frequency wave-form technology that is directed at the public: this can make miscommunication by altering 'perception' between a couple and lead to disharmony in relationships.

They have every base covered.

If I am correct, by June first, things should be a lot better. They are losing a stronghold, the Illuminati, and Twin Flames, Soul Mates of the Sixth Vibration, and other 'levels of Soul Mates' are starting to reunite left and right, all over the globe. With every successful 'recognition' there is a death blow to the power structures that once had been. (There are also many Soul Pod family reunions, too, souls that incarnated from elsewhere in the galaxy are starting to meet up.)

The worst of it is expected to be in three days. There is a Square of Pluto and something that is 'good for the dark hats and not so good for us white hats'. So hold on to your hats, and hang on for the ride! Think GOOD THOUGHTS, stay CALM, and by Memorial Day we should have an idea of how things are going to go.

Enjoy the show, and take heart if you are having trouble in your close love relationships. You are not alone--I've been there too.

And if you would like something to say to yourself, if you are hurting in your heart, why not try what got channelled through today while I woke up?

I am perfectly supported and everything is happening for the best.



Namaste,

Reiki Doc

P.S. Wow--look! It's the same theme, and I just found it: http://pleiadedolphininfos.blogspot.com/2013/05/andy-bojarski-my-higher-self-how-to_17.html

Here it is again from the original: http://healingandlove.com/2013/05/17/my-higher-self-how-to-move-forward-from-a-stuck-relationship-2/

From My Heart Center to Yours

These are nespoli--you can't buy them fresh at the market

Shhhh!
This is my last post on the subject of Twin Flames or 'Soul Mates of the Sixth Vibration'.

A lot of what I had posted was because the one who I believe is mine, well, I was hoping he would read what I was writing. There was NO other way to communicate to him in 3D. It is ironic because in the Higher Dimensions it is like having Voxer--we openly communicate with intent. But it is a 'jump' in faith to trust in 5D, especially with no 3D reinforcement, or perhaps, very little.

Long story short, I had a lot of growing to do, and I have. Moreover,  in 5D, he said, 'no more internet'.

So here the the story, in picture, of what it is like to discover your Twin Flame or 'Soul Mate of the Sixth Vibration', how it feels, so you will know what is happening and what to do.

At first it feels like this:

The Heavens open up! You want to tell the WORLD about what is happening. You are like a moth to a flame with this person, in both 3D and 5D. There is incredible attraction.

Next, you are amazed and can't believe it is True:

Your entire being is vibrating with the frequency of Love Energy, and you are like, whoa...dude! You want to make sure it is happening to you. And you want to think about it, talk about it, it is number one on your consciousness.

Every cell in your body feels like this happy Buddha! You have found enlightenment for you, an Other, who understands you and you understand them. You see the flaws each other has hidden, and only you two know instinctively how to heal each other's 'wounds'. There is nothing you can hide. Even on an energetic level, without much face-to-face interaction, your auras interact, and you know just what to do.

However, one of the partners might experience a fear reaction. This is normal, natural, and may or might not be able to be overcome. It depends on the total load of scar tissue from the spiritual and emotional damage each has survived to get to the place of Recognition. (I could say more on this, but I can't. It's private.)

What I can talk about is something that I am experiencing now. I homed in on it, energetically, in yesterday's yoga class. I will try to 'say it with pictures':

See the female? How she is leaning way back as the male (the pretty one, remember, this is the world of avians) kisses her? This is an 'energetic union' of the Divine Masculine and the Divine Feminine.

When the two combine, a big column of blue energy arises up from Gaia, and goes right up through the middle of the female partner's back, and come right up through her heart center, and out into the world. (editors note--In homosexual couples, the fine balance in each partner between Masculine and Feminine is more even, but to a certain extent the same principles are going on energetically.)

It feels wonderful! Whenever I have been on the dance floor, and someone dips me, I experience the same sensation. If someone does it right, I 'swoon'. I like that sensation more than anything else in the entire Universe. (The second best is holding a sleeping baby.) Just everything feels 'right' and 'connected' both to the Eternal Now moment, and to everything else that is alive on Gaia. 

Watch for the energy of the Divine Feminine:

I had to look through a lot of pictures to find the right one in human couples. Can you see how in his arms and with his spark of Divine Masculine, the woman relaxes, opens up the Divine Feminine meridians, and lets go. I can't 'see' the Divine Masculine energy in him, for I have not 'felt' it. But for her, there is bright blue, coming up from the snow, through her back, through her heart, and up into where their lips are about to meet.

In my mind's eye, for the past week, there is a loop of bright Light that has been flowing out from my Heart Center, straight to my 'Other', and back to mine. It flows round and round, like an energy loop. Through the center of that loop is a new kind of energy I have not known. It can do work for the Highest Good. (In Yoga, yesterday, I felt the Divine Feminine. It is 'different', just like Reiki energy is 'different' from Karuna Reiki energy. It feels just like the 'swoon', is thin, and very bright blue. It goes separate from the other, white, bright light loop. It goes one way, from me to him, and then everywhere else. It is to this energy that the negative forces on earth and in the astral plane are Highly Allergic.)

In electromechanics, a branch of physics, the flow of electricity through a coil, which I believe might be called a 'solenoid', magnetic energy is formed through the center of the loop.  This can be harnessed to make an electric motor 'go'. Or to make that strong magnet that lifts up a car on a crane at the junkyard. (how is THAT for unromantic imagery? Yikes!)

Anyhow, I 'get' that this energy between the two of us is being used 'for something'.

I also 'get' that in the grand scheme of things, according to 'him', we are about as big as the couple of birds compared to the tree, with 'all the good stuff of the Universe that is going on at the same time' being the tree. To me, up until now, it was the other way around. The couple WAS the Universe. After all, Twin Flames don't reunite very often!

I also 'get' that on a soul level (and remember, all Karuna Reiki practitioners are very comfortable working on a soul level with their clients) he won't budge until I shut the #&@! up online. This is because he is very private, both by culture and by personality. So IF the next phase of 'our mutual growth for the Highest Possible Good' is going to happen it is going to be between us, and only us. Even if it is meant to 'benefit the world'.

And guess how I feel about this?

Aloha Nui Loa and Namaste,

Reiki Doc