Gay Reiki: A Message Of Acceptance

Spirit is guiding this message to you right now.

My Reiki teacher is gay. She and her partner own a Center for Healing in the area. I am straight, but I never think anything about their being gay. It just is.

One of my classmates who made it to Karuna Reiki Master with me, is also lesbian. We are friends, and I appreciate her raising my awareness throughout all our classes and psychic development circles together. She is so compassionate! She is from Peru, and a fiery Latina and healing friend.

This morning, this blog post came through from George Lizos, someone I follow on Facebook and repost often. He has a lot of good thoughts and is very spiritual. http://metalizos.com/2013/11/26/the-power-of-prayer/

It was so subtle, I didn't think to have it be anything more than a 'what I learned from depression' topic.

But now I look again:

• At 15 years old I discovered I was gay. At the time, gay people were considered to be pedophiles and criminals in Cyprus – labels that would completely destroy my grand plan of sameness and conformity. To safeguard any chance I had for a “normal” life, I decided to change myself. That was when I entered the two most depressing and debilitating years of my life. In two years, I tried to modify every aspect of myself that could betray my sexuality. When I couldn’t achieve that to a satisfying extent, I rendered myself a human abomination and decided to commit suicide.

Fortunately for us, George had a sudden change of perception, and decided not to go through with it. He decided to love himself just the way he is, and carry on. From this experience he helps a lot of people.

Then I saw Rachel and Jun post their tremendous piece of ethnographic study on being Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, and Transgender in Japan. Over sixty-six Japanese people submitted comments on the subject. It is fascinating, because before Western Influence, homosexuality, at least, among men, was completely accepted. Many Samurai had gay lovers. Their contribution to history and to society was accepted and admired for itself, and their personal life had no connection to their work.

http://youtu.be/fxQYu4MOFCY

Then, I still didn't think anything of it. Until Spirit nudged me, gently…

My friend Linda, from childhood, is a devout Christian who has become a Gay Activist due to the way things turned out with her son, Ryan. I strongly feel together, this story, combined with the ones above, will help with the acceptance and healing of those who are only discovering their truth about their sexuality, those who are considering 'coming out', and those who are close to loved ones who have just learned the truth about their being homosexual and would like to know more…

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/linda-robertson/just-because-he-breathes-learning-to-truly-love-our-gay-son_b_3478971.html

I have blogged about Ryan before:

• http://reikidoc.blogspot.com/2013/04/messages-from-my-patients-chapter-76.html
• http://reikidoc.blogspot.com/2013/04/messages-from-my-patients-chapter-78.html
• http://reikidoc.blogspot.com/2012/02/equality-for-all.html

You see, us psychics are the next ones to start 'coming out of hiding' in society! We have been singled out and ridiculed too.

On the record, if you are fortunate enough to experience Love and Partnership on the Physical Plane, I wish you all happiness…

Aloha and Mahalos,

Namaste,

Reiki Doc

What Love Is

My dear friend in South Africa had a beautiful post about 'what is Love in Relationship' today.

Today was a huge day for me, spiritually. From the roses here, that the nurse had brought in to the recovery room that greeted me first thing in the morning as I came in to the hospital--they smelled beautiful! To now, when I just put the steam vaporizer in my son's bedroom and kissed his little cheek…the entire day was filled with LOVE.

It's wasn't a fun day! I had trouble getting in a spinal in a sweet patient, and had to ask for help, and even then it didn't work. On the next case, the same surgeon accused the snoring that was as loud as the bone saws and hammers as 'coming from both the anesthesiologist and the patient' (this spinal actually was working!) It was miserable in some spots. But still, when I looked for it, Love was there. The assistant surgeon showed the x-rays of the spine to the surgeon who was chewing me out--and said, 'look at the osteophytes! no one can get in there!'

I also had a moment of great self-love when I defended myself and called this guy on the carpet--'Look, I do OB anesthesia. I do more spinals and faster and better spinals than most of the group. But THIS, this back? It's not going to happen.' and I looked him in the eye as I said this! I used to back down, out of fear for my work. I even called him on his saying I am not 'up to snuff' by saying, without ego, 'you don't have to ever work with me again if you don't want to. Just tell my boss and he will schedule me without you every time since'. (I knew he doesn't like to work with me; I hardly ever do, and when I do , we always butt heads.)

When the anesthesia tech came to the room with some more spinal kits and needles for my next case, I confessed, 'I don't really like him'. She understood and mentioned, 'Not many people do like to work with him.' Compassion in the workplace like she showed me is another form of unconditional love.

It was Heart-Centered in the O.R. for me, all day!

So what is Love?

First of all, my dear South African, let me help get one thing out of the way--it is something called The Orion Personality. It is offensive, arrogant, demeaning, insulting, and very rooted in Earth. Just like a bull these entities are stubborn, masters of their craft, and focused on moving things ahead. They are almost like the Asperger's syndrome of the cosmos. They are good people, with good hearts, and very poor intergalactic social skills! Unless you have the patience of a saint, long-term relationship happiness isn't going to happen if you look for it there.

Actively looking? What traits are good? What traits are 'red flags'? Would you date someone who did this or did that? Every few days we have a new 'dating topic' question from your heart.

I love looking at those questions and the comments on your Facebook page!

But today, I spoke from the heart: relationships sure don't sound fun to hear how you all describe it--it's 'work' and 'effort' and all this. I'm glad I'm a single mom! Isn't it true, taking all social expectation out of the picture, that for psychological and physical reasons most couples last about four years?

Might I please turn the question around?

I AM that I AM equals I AM LOVE.

Love is everywhere around you. You are dancing in it. You can't feel it until you get to a certain place, but when it 'hits' it's like the entire reality falls in love with you, and you fall in love with it. All the memories. All the people. All the experiences. All the challenges. All the hopes and dreams.

One day, out of the blue, you hit this Vibration.

Everything makes sense, even you make sense to yourself like you've never understood before.

And you trust completely in what is to be, what is Right, what is Here and Now.

Somebody on Twitter said, 'when you fall in love you become very very very understanding'.

It's not just about 'the other', it's about 'you' and 'everything else', as well.

Am I in Love? I don't know. I could be. Is my heart Open? Yes. My heart is fully Open. 

How I envision it is within my own natural 'frequency' or 'vibration' there are others who are going to come near and 'like what it is'. And if I 'like what it is together with them back' I think things will keep going until 'something comes up that one or the other of us don't like.' 

That is where the very very very understanding comes in.

And the annoyances. There are several--I won't name them--and it's not 'leaving the toilet seat up', but I can't live with them. It would drag me down. Trivial things but very important and not likely to change--and they are not many. <3

My friend, Love is when you keep feeling good about who you are with this person, and they in turn keep feeling good about who they are with you.

Everything else is fate, luck, chance, perhaps even 'destiny' or 'karmic debt'.

'You are neither possessed by your lover's needs nor by your own. You are love. You live as love. And when you find your heart yearning still, practice surrendering more deeply as love. While washing the dishes, picking your child up from school, or firing an employee, practice allowing love to flow through your every gesture, word, and breath. In every moment, practice receiving love deeply into your body and giving love from every cell. You are thus transfigured, breath by breath, from a needy woman looking for love, to a self-sufficient woman to loves herself, to a woman always and already full of loves' bliss and blessing power.' --David Deida, Finding God Through Sex,  page 108

This is one of my favorite books! It helped to free myself from being trapped as a woman looking for love, and grow to one who has love and joy spilling out of every inch of her. When my 'lessons' get too challenging for me about Love, sometimes I still cry, and I despair; but I heal from it now instead of being 'stuck'. I 'bounce back' much faster and am resilient in my heart.



With so very much love,
Aloha and mahalos,
Namaste,

Reiki Doc

P.S.  I went from this vibration: Evanescence, 'My Immortal'


To this:

Cristina Perri, 'A Thousand Years'. I live this song (well, not the video--I am not vampire…LOL) Every single day in my heart as an expression of the Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine reunion. Sometimes I sing it in the car, a cappella, too.  Namaste.

Walk With Me: My Spiritual 'Lesson'

Yesterday, while laundry was going at the condo at Kapolei, and the movie was entertaining my son on the DVD player, I sneaked out onto the patio for a little heart-to-heart with Spirit.

My sharing is for you to discover how 'real time' lessons for our own lives can be.

Our Lady had a message for me, and I wrote it down:

My Jewel,

There is happiness for you.
Out there.
Just feel it. It is in the wind, caressing you. It is in the wall and ground that support you. It is in the sky where the stars are hiding behind the sun.
What is it? (that is troubling you)

me: How come I don't feel anything for (a certain person)?

*** a gecko shows up out of nowhere, head down stuck on the wall across from me***

What is it doing? (You should look up its significance)

me: It is hanging on and surviving by doing what geckos do (Today I looked it up: Mo'o)

Can most creatures climb up the wall and walk on the ceiling?

me: no. only the gecko.

So can you. Is there a lady gecko or a man gecko to 'go' with this gecko? Or babies?

me: Not that I know. Only gecko knows.

Gecko: Hi or ALOHA! (he uses Hawaiian to speak to me as a second-thought, he looks at me quizzically, as he senses something is up)

me: I leave (today for airport)

Gecko: I stay. I can keep eye on place. I want to come inside!

me: You are like Charlie at home! (the lizard that won't stay outside and keeps sneaking in the house)

***I see a butterfly. Moth is there too. ***

Butterfly means 'completion' of a goal--celebrate and enjoy

Moth in Italian culture means 'good luck' when found in the home. This was HUGE!

Gecko: One big family! Ohana! (he leaves after making a comment about all the animals I see)

*** I see a bird. I hear more birds. ***

Birds are social. They mate for life and live in groups. But not moth or butterfly.

me: okay.

As easy as that?

me: (I look at the air conditioner) Mitsubishi Electric Mr. Slim R410A.

Are you happy?

me: yes.

Let that be a lesson for you then. Why have two when you can make do with one?

*** I see white sea birds *** (I looked it up Ulili)

me: Oh. I thought I would get a Twin Flame : (

You are complete.

*** I see a mockingbird. I love those. ****

Those are the lessons for today:

• Strength!
• Fortitude!
• Spirit!

me: he really doesn't like me... : ((( (I stop my dark thought mid-sentence, and call on the Light)

(very gentle tone she uses) It really does hurt you?

me: Yes. Until it heals. I can heal anything. I trust God.

what is your wish? (she shows me a place where in my mind I had hoped all three could stay for a week--I explain in detail why I had that wish and what I wanted to Her) why can't you ask?

me: I will ask God.

God isn't going with you. Someone else will.

me: He is moving away. At the same time as this week!

All the more reason to ask.

me: Give me strength.

We will.

me: why isn't it easy?

It is what it is. (encourages me to read first entry in the journal I keep of my spiritual 'lessons'. It is dated 10.28.12, was written at the Kohala Coast, and says, 'your biggest miracle and your biggest passion is about to begin.')

Here are the learning points:

• Spirit guides and supports, kind of like a 'trainer' or 'coach'
• Spirit does not do the work
• I might never make this 'goal' that is laid out for me. I am chicken! Real growing points are HARD! Like, over many lifetimes HARD!
• Animals 'pop in' like teachers, sort of for 'picture/significance/feeling' emphasis
• Animals talk. This is very 5D
• There is total honesty and trust between my Guide and me. It goes both ways.

In the big picture, I have all Eternity to learn this lesson. I did not type out the meanings of the animals, but they have special significance to me. The last bird was 'good' news for me; I 'get its message'.

I came back from Hawaii a changed person. Travel is good for this. I 'let go' of these societal images:

And the need for a significant 'other' to 'share'. I have a moon in Gemini. And a sun in Cancer. I feel my feelings and I need to 'talk'! LOL This is a big 'letting go'.

I also have discovered this:

Grounded with Gaia and Goddess Energy

For as long as I can remember, I felt as different as this sea iguana (not reptilian! for heaven's sakes!, but very noticeably 'different' energy wise on the 'beach of life'. See the people off in the distance, all couples?):

 By some miracle, of energy healing I do not understand, I have 'upgraded' my 'energetic self-image' to this: 

This is no ordinary seal. It is a rare Hawaiian monk seal. It is sacred. It is hanging out on the beach, enjoying the sun, and is being happy. Look at that smile in the warmth? I don't see any other seals with it. And it is okay being what it is. 

We'll see how the rest of the lesson 'goes'. No matter what, I will always be like gecko--and only I will know where the rest of the 'lesson' leads as far as solitude or partnership. I never really 'am' alone, as you can see by the transcript of this! 

One day you will be like this too with your 'lessons', perhaps even soon!

I know in my heart that as long as I hold my Vibration, others will 'awaken' and then there will be more of us in the Light. That is my dream of dreams--to share this wonderful experience.

And if my kid is my Soul Mate (I have been told we are 'very well matched')--instead of some 'romance' like in the 'social advertisement/brainwashing' in the mass media--well as long as it helps the Light win, that is a good thing. 

Here is a link from Cobra on the Goddess Spiral conference: http://2012portal.blogspot.com/2013/06/short-update-about-spiral-goddess.html?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+blogspot%2FjUQcb+%28Portal+2012%29

It really ties in with all of this!

Mahalo and Aloha and Namaste,

Reiki Doc

From My Heart Center to Yours

These are nespoli--you can't buy them fresh at the market

Shhhh!
This is my last post on the subject of Twin Flames or 'Soul Mates of the Sixth Vibration'.

A lot of what I had posted was because the one who I believe is mine, well, I was hoping he would read what I was writing. There was NO other way to communicate to him in 3D. It is ironic because in the Higher Dimensions it is like having Voxer--we openly communicate with intent. But it is a 'jump' in faith to trust in 5D, especially with no 3D reinforcement, or perhaps, very little.

Long story short, I had a lot of growing to do, and I have. Moreover,  in 5D, he said, 'no more internet'.

So here the the story, in picture, of what it is like to discover your Twin Flame or 'Soul Mate of the Sixth Vibration', how it feels, so you will know what is happening and what to do.

At first it feels like this:

The Heavens open up! You want to tell the WORLD about what is happening. You are like a moth to a flame with this person, in both 3D and 5D. There is incredible attraction.

Next, you are amazed and can't believe it is True:

Your entire being is vibrating with the frequency of Love Energy, and you are like, whoa...dude! You want to make sure it is happening to you. And you want to think about it, talk about it, it is number one on your consciousness.

Every cell in your body feels like this happy Buddha! You have found enlightenment for you, an Other, who understands you and you understand them. You see the flaws each other has hidden, and only you two know instinctively how to heal each other's 'wounds'. There is nothing you can hide. Even on an energetic level, without much face-to-face interaction, your auras interact, and you know just what to do.

However, one of the partners might experience a fear reaction. This is normal, natural, and may or might not be able to be overcome. It depends on the total load of scar tissue from the spiritual and emotional damage each has survived to get to the place of Recognition. (I could say more on this, but I can't. It's private.)

What I can talk about is something that I am experiencing now. I homed in on it, energetically, in yesterday's yoga class. I will try to 'say it with pictures':

See the female? How she is leaning way back as the male (the pretty one, remember, this is the world of avians) kisses her? This is an 'energetic union' of the Divine Masculine and the Divine Feminine.

When the two combine, a big column of blue energy arises up from Gaia, and goes right up through the middle of the female partner's back, and come right up through her heart center, and out into the world. (editors note--In homosexual couples, the fine balance in each partner between Masculine and Feminine is more even, but to a certain extent the same principles are going on energetically.)

It feels wonderful! Whenever I have been on the dance floor, and someone dips me, I experience the same sensation. If someone does it right, I 'swoon'. I like that sensation more than anything else in the entire Universe. (The second best is holding a sleeping baby.) Just everything feels 'right' and 'connected' both to the Eternal Now moment, and to everything else that is alive on Gaia. 

Watch for the energy of the Divine Feminine:

I had to look through a lot of pictures to find the right one in human couples. Can you see how in his arms and with his spark of Divine Masculine, the woman relaxes, opens up the Divine Feminine meridians, and lets go. I can't 'see' the Divine Masculine energy in him, for I have not 'felt' it. But for her, there is bright blue, coming up from the snow, through her back, through her heart, and up into where their lips are about to meet.

In my mind's eye, for the past week, there is a loop of bright Light that has been flowing out from my Heart Center, straight to my 'Other', and back to mine. It flows round and round, like an energy loop. Through the center of that loop is a new kind of energy I have not known. It can do work for the Highest Good. (In Yoga, yesterday, I felt the Divine Feminine. It is 'different', just like Reiki energy is 'different' from Karuna Reiki energy. It feels just like the 'swoon', is thin, and very bright blue. It goes separate from the other, white, bright light loop. It goes one way, from me to him, and then everywhere else. It is to this energy that the negative forces on earth and in the astral plane are Highly Allergic.)

In electromechanics, a branch of physics, the flow of electricity through a coil, which I believe might be called a 'solenoid', magnetic energy is formed through the center of the loop.  This can be harnessed to make an electric motor 'go'. Or to make that strong magnet that lifts up a car on a crane at the junkyard. (how is THAT for unromantic imagery? Yikes!)

Anyhow, I 'get' that this energy between the two of us is being used 'for something'.

I also 'get' that in the grand scheme of things, according to 'him', we are about as big as the couple of birds compared to the tree, with 'all the good stuff of the Universe that is going on at the same time' being the tree. To me, up until now, it was the other way around. The couple WAS the Universe. After all, Twin Flames don't reunite very often!

I also 'get' that on a soul level (and remember, all Karuna Reiki practitioners are very comfortable working on a soul level with their clients) he won't budge until I shut the #&@! up online. This is because he is very private, both by culture and by personality. So IF the next phase of 'our mutual growth for the Highest Possible Good' is going to happen it is going to be between us, and only us. Even if it is meant to 'benefit the world'.

And guess how I feel about this?

Aloha Nui Loa and Namaste,

Reiki Doc

Obedience and Humility

I just finished a nineteen hour day at work. I will keep it short and get to the point.

When I was in medical records, signing three charts, I overheard the following statement from a worker there talking to a doc about spending money in Vegas, "I drink it away or I gamble it away. That's pretty much how it works." She tried to back pedal by saying, "I don't gamble a lot. I only spend about a hundred dollars. I can make it last for a long time. And I get those free drinks..."

I turned my attention back to my charts. Two of them were OB charts. The laboring patients I had placed epidurals in during the middle of the night had delivered before eight o'clock in the morning. Therefore I did not have to split the reimbursement on the case. The anesthesiologist after me filled out the front of the page for me. But not the back. So it was like, see, I will help you but not one hundred percent.

The day before someone who had liked my lotion scent, and I had bought a bottle of lotion from the health food store, mentioned out of the blue how much they think of me every time they wear it, how they enjoy it, and how they wear it often. In the next breath this RN was asking me for a favor to help her in her quest to become a nurse anesthetist.

To me, all of these people are driven by ego. The what's in it for me syndrome. The gambler had given her personal power to the casino's and their form of mind control in the name of 'fun'. The second, a new hire, made it quite clear he would have liked to have had half of those epidural payments without saying a word. And the last? Butter me up? What do you think I am, a total idiot? You insulted me by thinking that I had to be conned into doing something nice? Don't you know me at ALL?

My path is a difficult one, in the field of spirituality. I have the path of Obedience. I must remain humble at all times while I am walking on my way through Life. It comes naturally to me, but it also stretches me like yoga would combine flexibility and strength in the physical.

Most people have drawn the financial path of Spiritual Growth. Nothing that they do ever turns out right. So they keep chasing after that dollar like a carrot on a stick in front of a donkey to get it to work.

Obedience is the open heart to Spirit and the willingness to act on that little PUSH Spirit gives.

One example is when I got the push to take an angel food cake to my adult ballet class when I was doing my fellowship. I was embarrassed. I felt weird and I said, no. It turned out that exact day was the birthday of our beloved teacher. Spirit had asked me to bring the celebration. After that, I decided to open up and Trust Spirit all the way more.

And I do. Daily. I can't begin to count how many times today I got that gentle nudging from Spirit, and I discerned and chose to go along. Discernment on the Obedience path is essential. Through time, you and Spirit develop a language with one another. You develop a partnership. This is different from the Reiki guides and partnership in Healing. They are context-specific in a healing setting. But the Trust and ability to work together while being in different levels of Spirit are the same.

Obedience has been twisted out of context in religion (think Catholic nuns and chastity), marriage (to obey the husband), and by the Law as a means of controlling the Free Will of others.

I speak up for the Spiritually enriching form of Obedience with  you. It helps you connect to your Higher Self. It helps you connect to those who have your best interest at heart. And the Highest Good for all. Humility and Obedience are the opposite of Ego, are they not? Through meditation and mindfulness, you may find your path delightfully refreshing in the Obedience mode!

And the hidden benefit of living a life of Obedience? All of your material needs are met. Somehow you and Spirit together manage to Manifest what you require and desire in Abundance. There is no limit!
You can't follow two masters, Financial Constrraint and Obedience. Well, perhaps if you were a Gunner in the Spirit Life (Gunners are people who study to break the curve and get honors in Med School)! But most of the time they do not. Obedience will resonate with you if it is your calling.

Namaste,

Reiki Doc