I recently have had the honor of being someone's 'Old #twinlove'.
Yes!
I got DUMPED by my Twin Flame!
Isn't this hysterically funny?!
How can a Twin Divorce a Twin?
It's one Soul, isn't it? From God, all Holy and Light?
LOL LOL LOL
The void is so much more pleasant.
I am learning to reach through whatever is presented as 'Lesson', to feel beyond it, to that which never changes, and happens to be also, 'my essence what I am'.
There is the one I think is my #twinlove. We can't even get a friendship going in the right direction!
Then there is the one who calls ME his #twinlove. Or, at least until this week, he did!
My Bliss is that no one, not even a Twin Flame, is going to ever 'complete' me.
Everything I ever 'looked for' would probably leave me feeling disillusioned…
It's in God's Hands.
Until then, I am reading 'Finding God Through Sex' by David Deida. It explains everything, and is one of the most spiritually advanced works I have read in a long time. How the masculine partner wants 'freedom'. And how the feminine one wants 'surrender'. It encourages how to be Love in Everything You Do.
I am so glad for Ms Double D who was introduced as 'his new #twinlove!' LOL
Quelle surprise!
I would not have discovered the bliss that can 'take it or leave it' in the Twin Flame department if it was not for her and her, ahem, 'assets'.
If you have ever longed for that 'perfect match', why not try reading David Deida? It'll help to pass the time. It will increase your 'real estate value' in relationship while you're at it, too.
My dear friend in South Africa had a beautiful post about 'what is Love in Relationship' today.
Today was a huge day for me, spiritually. From the roses here, that the nurse had brought in to the recovery room that greeted me first thing in the morning as I came in to the hospital--they smelled beautiful! To now, when I just put the steam vaporizer in my son's bedroom and kissed his little cheek…the entire day was filled with LOVE.
It's wasn't a fun day! I had trouble getting in a spinal in a sweet patient, and had to ask for help, and even then it didn't work. On the next case, the same surgeon accused the snoring that was as loud as the bone saws and hammers as 'coming from both the anesthesiologist and the patient' (this spinal actually was working!) It was miserable in some spots. But still, when I looked for it, Love was there. The assistant surgeon showed the x-rays of the spine to the surgeon who was chewing me out--and said, 'look at the osteophytes! no one can get in there!'
I also had a moment of great self-love when I defended myself and called this guy on the carpet--'Look, I do OB anesthesia. I do more spinals and faster and better spinals than most of the group. But THIS, this back? It's not going to happen.' and I looked him in the eye as I said this! I used to back down, out of fear for my work. I even called him on his saying I am not 'up to snuff' by saying, without ego, 'you don't have to ever work with me again if you don't want to. Just tell my boss and he will schedule me without you every time since'. (I knew he doesn't like to work with me; I hardly ever do, and when I do , we always butt heads.)
When the anesthesia tech came to the room with some more spinal kits and needles for my next case, I confessed, 'I don't really like him'. She understood and mentioned, 'Not many people do like to work with him.' Compassion in the workplace like she showed me is another form of unconditional love.
It was Heart-Centered in the O.R. for me, all day!
So what is Love?
First of all, my dear South African, let me help get one thing out of the way--it is something called The Orion Personality. It is offensive, arrogant, demeaning, insulting, and very rooted in Earth. Just like a bull these entities are stubborn, masters of their craft, and focused on moving things ahead. They are almost like the Asperger's syndrome of the cosmos. They are good people, with good hearts, and very poor intergalactic social skills! Unless you have the patience of a saint, long-term relationship happiness isn't going to happen if you look for it there.
Actively looking? What traits are good? What traits are 'red flags'? Would you date someone who did this or did that? Every few days we have a new 'dating topic' question from your heart.
I love looking at those questions and the comments on your Facebook page!
But today, I spoke from the heart: relationships sure don't sound fun to hear how you all describe it--it's 'work' and 'effort' and all this. I'm glad I'm a single mom! Isn't it true, taking all social expectation out of the picture, that for psychological and physical reasons most couples last about four years?
Might I please turn the question around?
I AM that I AM equals I AM LOVE.
Love is everywhere around you. You are dancing in it. You can't feel it until you get to a certain place, but when it 'hits' it's like the entire reality falls in love with you, and you fall in love with it. All the memories. All the people. All the experiences. All the challenges. All the hopes and dreams.
One day, out of the blue, you hit this Vibration.
Everything makes sense, even you make sense to yourself like you've never understood before.
And you trust completely in what is to be, what is Right, what is Here and Now.
Somebody on Twitter said, 'when you fall in love you become very very very understanding'.
It's not just about 'the other', it's about 'you' and 'everything else', as well.
Am I in Love? I don't know. I could be. Is my heart Open? Yes. My heart is fully Open.
How I envision it is within my own natural 'frequency' or 'vibration' there are others who are going to come near and 'like what it is'. And if I 'like what it is together with them back' I think things will keep going until 'something comes up that one or the other of us don't like.'
That is where the very very very understanding comes in.
And the annoyances. There are several--I won't name them--and it's not 'leaving the toilet seat up', but I can't live with them. It would drag me down. Trivial things but very important and not likely to change--and they are not many. <3
My friend, Love is when you keep feeling good about who you are with this person, and they in turn keep feeling good about who they are with you.
Everything else is fate, luck, chance, perhaps even 'destiny' or 'karmic debt'.
'You are neither possessed by your lover's needs nor by your own. You are love. You live as love. And when you find your heart yearning still, practice surrendering more deeply as love. While washing the dishes, picking your child up from school, or firing an employee, practice allowing love to flow through your every gesture, word, and breath. In every moment, practice receiving love deeply into your body and giving love from every cell. You are thus transfigured, breath by breath, from a needy woman looking for love, to a self-sufficient woman to loves herself, to a woman always and already full of loves' bliss and blessing power.' --David Deida, Finding God Through Sex, page 108
This is one of my favorite books! It helped to free myself from being trapped as a woman looking for love, and grow to one who has love and joy spilling out of every inch of her. When my 'lessons' get too challenging for me about Love, sometimes I still cry, and I despair; but I heal from it now instead of being 'stuck'. I 'bounce back' much faster and am resilient in my heart.
With so very much love,
Aloha and mahalos,
Namaste,
Reiki Doc
P.S. I went from this vibration: Evanescence, 'My Immortal'
To this:
Cristina Perri, 'A Thousand Years'. I live this song (well, not the video--I am not vampire…LOL) Every single day in my heart as an expression of the Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine reunion. Sometimes I sing it in the car, a cappella, too. Namaste.
Men CAN'T stay with just one woman! They are not made for that! the surgical technician confessed when we were in the room alone right before the neurosurgery case. That's why my wife's cheating on me was so devastating--it shattered the TRUST!
It took a while for me to grasp it. Basically, after I clarified with him, his view of his marriage is that since he had to sacrifice his own needs to remain monogamous, to establish TRUST, her breaking that TRUST through her cheating on him with another was the most painful part of all.
Let's think about it. What does Society say about sex?
Sex before marriage is bad (although the unwritten rule is to have sex with as many partners as you can, and when it starts getting 'dry' you marry)
Teen pregnancy is bad
Only sex in a committed relationship that is sanctioned by the Church or State is 'allowed'.
Sexual 'relations' are for 'adding new members to the family' or reproduction.
Overpopulation is to be avoided--use birth control
A woman who explores her sexuality is called a 'slut', a hugely insulting and degrading term
A man, such as Charlie in Two and a Half Men, gets a comedy show for his being the equivalent--it's accepted practice
There are a lot of major purchases that are needed in our society to be sexual--a car, a ring, a house, and baby things.
Porn, incest, rape, sexually transmitted disease, using sex to sell merchandise, are all 'part of the deal' and not really looked at as a society--only parts explore the injustice of this, with no organized effort to fix it altogether.
Well, what does Spirit say about sex?
According to David Deida, single or attached, we must surrender to intense physical pleasure once a day to function at our spiritual 'optimum' condition
A sexual partner shows you 'one face of God' that no one else will ever be able to show you. And you show that 'one face of God' they will only be able to experience through you, to them.
Sex is a powerful tool for self-discovery and self-growth.
Is that too much to handle? Let's look at the Society's view on sex. Let's follow the money--the wedding industry, the baby industry, the family law practice, the automobile industry, the housing industry, the medical industry, the condom industry, the 'adult film' industry, and just about all marketing benefit from this 'viewpoint' on sex. And the Spiritual view? Who gets the 'money' from that? Not a soul.
In our new society, we are going to look at sex a lot differently. And no one is going to be 'chained for life' to their partner. It is going to be more possible to follow your heart in all situations. Even if the two of you enjoy each other so much you really want to 'stay'.
If you have been patient enough to read through all of that, here comes the fascinating part--about me. As you know, I am higher dimensional, and exist in a human form in the physical plane. I am going to share everything to help your adjustment to the new society, here, and Now:
In October I will have been celibate for four years. It's the 20th in 2009 when I had a one-night with someone who was very nice. Before that, it was five years. I do not sleep around; furthermore, it is not my choice but rather my circumstance to be celibate like this.
My soul is a 'pleasure model', I am built to be like a Spiritual Geisha in the Higher Realms, as far as I have been 'told'
Most of my interactions are in the astral plane. There is always someone who is close to my heart, in the physical, and I 'interact' with their 'Higher Self' in the same manner as one would in a physical relationship. We talk, we make love, we learn and help each other to grow.
In my own personal growth and development of a sexual nature, I channel my spiritual guide Anna Nicole Smith. I call her 'Vickie'. She is very nice and has shared with me what happened in her home while growing up. She is very candid and straightforward with me about sexuality, and how to please a partner sexually, so that when the time comes, I will be able to 'make up for lost time'. I am very thankful to her for her guidance and support after my PTSD.
I was asked to send the Transition Symbol and Reiki to a prayer request from my Reiki Group for a brother-in-law who was going to die soon. In Spirit, he recognized me as an angel/guide, and was intensely grateful. As an expression of that, his soul began to kiss mine and make love. I realized that for him, this was the highest expression of gratitude he could give, and I accepted it on a soul level, for him to learn and to grow. I learned as well, but I gently explained to him that I was just a stopping point, and for his Transition he could not stay here but would move forward to even better things when completely On The Other Side.
I have made love in Spirit with angels and with guides, some of whom you might know. But it is only between us, what happened, and was always for me, for my learning and growth.
Recently I had the pleasure of being with a partner from Sirius, in Spirit. I wanted to know how it was 'different' because it started much in the same way our physical is on Earth. And then IT happened--our third eyes 'linked' and waves of warmth and happiness and bonding flowed between us. It was incredibly life-affirming and of the Light (I know because I gave the command to 'send it away if it was from the Dark' and in fact it shone brighter). He was very gracious and kind and supportive as I blurted out really obvious things that I was discovering in the process, holding back laughter as best as he could at my astonishment and delight. You see, something was 'missing' from all of my 'relationships' both on earth and in spirit, something that always made me feel incredibly alone even in someone's arms: it was the spiritual connection through the third eyes.
See what we have to look forward to? I hope with my heart this was not Too Much Information (TMI), but useful and practical. I tried to keep it to what would be discussed between a doctor and patient, in order for you to learn and to grow.
I have a feeling we are going to be a lot like Bonobos in the Golden Age. They are intensely loving and caring for each other within the group. They make love all the time! That is why they are not on display any more at the San Diego Safari Park. It is a 'family' place and parents don't want their kids 'getting an eyeful' when they visit the park. They are kept in the back 'off exhibit' now instead. : )
My advice for you? Keep up with your clearing and releasing to achieve the Highest Vibration you possibly can. Follow your heart in all things. Be mindful of the feelings of others. And be watching for signs of changes around you in the world of Spirit and of Light.
