Today we are going to talk about fear.
Fear as an underlying factor to control.
And about ignorance, both in the ways of Spirit, and the ways of Medicine.
The Head Of The Pancreas:
My Reiki practice has changed dramatically in the last several weeks.
Anyone who has taken Karuna Reiki would understand how it is possible to 'obtain permission' for healing 'on a soul level'.
Well now instead of the symbols, sometimes with my consciousness, I 'pop in' and speak with the soul directly. Nine times out of ten, Ross is there with me too when this takes place.
There is a certain chiropractor and his story that haunts me, and I can't say anything, because I am not 'officially hired' to do his anesthesia for my medical advice, or his Reiki for my spiritual advice.
The story is the same:
- he has pancreatic cancer that is curable
- pancreatic cancer is a terrible way to die--it is slow and painful and you turn yellow
- he doesn't want x,y, and z
- his wife and friend who are healers are giving him Reiki to 'do' a,b, and c
- he will accept a stent in the pancreas to open the flow, but not surgery
- this is a yellow chakra imbalance
- the pancreas represents the sweetness of life, cancer is a deep hurt, long-standing resentment. Deep secret or grief eating away at the self. Carrying hatreds. 'What's the use?' (Louise Hay and Mona Lisa Shulz, MD, 'All Is Well'-table in the back of the book)
- the patient and his team are going to direct the way they layer his care--The Divine Healing Codes are a big part of them, so that's how I got into it.
- the whole team hasn't a clue about the importance of early intervention with a cancer. The cancer is not going to wait for people to to get used to it and stop growing while a treatment plan is being put together.
- I doubt that the concept of Life Contracts, exit points, and Life Lessons are factored in to the decision-making process, too.
With the soul...I got fear. The man is totally terrified, curled up in a ball, and crying. It's a big operation. He knows it's the biggest one there is. He is in shock. And he doesn't want to budge.
He is stuck.
He is overwhelmed.
He is completely frozen by his limited medical understanding of the situation. As a chiropractor he may have helped to take care of the back pain people get when this disease is advanced.
With my spirit arms, I simply held him as he sobbed, and encouraged him to follow his heart, and to seek out all information that could be useful to him.
What Do I Have To Say About It:
The picture that flashed into my mind as I read the response was that of my favorite pancreas surgeon. He was a transplant, liver transplant, specialist. Now he mostly does Whipples. And he is awesome! He has these skills which are unearthly--unreal!--he makes this difficult operation look easy. He also has his favorite nurse in the OR with him at all times, because she prays for his patients, and 'her prayers stick'. When I am in that room with his team, I know that God is present in the hearts of everyone in it. We do what we are trained to do, plus pray for the Highest Good in our own way, for our patients.
I've been at this medicine thing for twenty-two years now. I've come across fear-based decision making. It is like the polling booth when you vote--this is the least awful thing so I'll take that! Here is one example: I don't want a spinal! I want a GENERAL! I don't want to hear anything that is going on. It's a knee-jerk reaction.
When I get this I smile. I relax. And I gently say, 'to say no to something is okay, as long as I am sure you have a working understanding of both choices first. Sometimes in the future, you might not have a choice (sometimes when people break a hip, it's just spinal. There is always a lot of sedation to go with it, our patients never hear a thing. They snore through the whole operation.) So I keep it quick; I give the pros and cons of both options. Even through we both know what they are going to choose anyway, I educate and support and work at the fear, and make sure they have an understanding of the options enough to make an informed decision for their care. If they ask for a recommendation, I will give it. But only if they ask. Both work fine in most situations. Sometimes it's surgeon preference, too, and I'll share with them that reason too--it's easier for your surgeon if you go with this choice...
What My Reiki Teacher And The Woman Who Inspired Me To Do Cardiac Anesthesia Have In Common?
Never think of the outcome.
Only think of the situation that is at hand, as a healer, and make the best choices and maintain hope for the Highest Good.
We don't direct Reiki. Reiki has intelligence. Reiki knows what to do and automatically flows to the right place. There might be other things we are not aware of, that Reiki will heal first, and then get to the problem.
As a healer, I know when Reiki is indicated. And I send it. But I let go at the point where I am sending it.
I might pick some symbols to enhance pain relief, or emotional healing, or other areas.
But I let go of the outcome, and let Reiki take care of the rest.
For my brave doctor from Bangalor, the one who was an obstetrician back home, and here trained for cardiac anesthesia, she trained me to appreciate being present in the moment. In the heart room, things change fast. There is no room for error in the clinical decision-making process. You track the blood pressure, EKG, and invasive monitoring pressures, and it's like a roller coaster, or sailing in a stiff wind. You are changing machine settings and pushing drips and drugs about as fast as your two hands can move at times. People code on the table, and the team works to get them back. It gets scary. And I asked her, how do you do this?! (so well).
She stressed the importance of making each decision to the best of your abilities at each time, and that keeping the focus in the now moment, instead of the end result (live or die) you have the best chances of saving your patient and having a good outcome.
This reminds me too of a wise doula I met in a delivery room, who said, 'we make informed choices each step of the way.' To her, she was not at odds with conventional medicine in childbirth. She understood the importance of taking the best of both worlds, and using it to the advantage of her client and the couple and the new baby...
I pray for you.
Your story, although I've never met you except in spirit and only briefly interacted in the 'comments' section of a post to my wall, haunts me.
I've felt your anguish over what is happening, your diagnosis, and your need for medical care.
I've done pain blocks for pancreatic cancer pain, the kind where nerves are destroyed so that the pain signal can't be felt to that region any more. http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/3619093
I've gone in for a Whipple, and over the drapes seen that the cancer had spread, and it was too late to cure. We just close the skin and let the patient know we couldn't do the surgery.
I've seen vibrant, healthy people with a scar that looks like the logo for Mercedes Benz just under their ribs. I ask them, 'Oh? You've had a Whipple?' and they are like, 'Yes.' and I say, 'That's the biggest operation there is in general surgery--you can be very proud of that scar because we all know and respect the healing you have done to get through it.'
On your behalf, and all of your teams of healers, I am asking for All Divine Assistance. I ask for it pretty much constantly, with my heart. I ask this for you.
I gave you Reiki. I let it go where it needs to go.
But I didn't let go of you.
Just like I told you in spirit, when we were soul to soul, it's going to be okay.
I hope you believe it.
Aloha and Mahalos,