This is an actual transcription of mediumship with my cousin who had just passed:
September 16,2008
2109 (nine nine p.m.)
Hey C! Cousin C! It’s Susie your cousin, the one
that was married to Rich. I knew you were thinking of me when I passed/was
passing (you wanted to call me).
I got a lot of comfort in the process when I thought of you
seeing people die and being okay with it. (strokes my hair). Everyone has a
hard time of it up on earth (it is higher, I found the right place, don’t
worry, I am in Heaven-well not quite there yet. I have five days to hang around
a bit then ZIP! I want to say goodbye to all my loved ones starting with you.)
C, what is it you talked to me about at the wedding? My
wedding, not yours?
C: I was on vacation so I missed it. I looked at the
pictures a lot with you. Of that and your Tahiti honeymoon.
S: I was happy, wasn’t I then/ But I saw the look on your
face when we were talking, something wasn’t right. As a little kid you always
knew something you were right ahead of us. Not on the motorcycle then-you were
smart. I always remembered that look—it flashed right back when Richard said he
wanted a divorce. Love and family, God, it wasn’t. It was hell. I had my kid
and then BOOM! Remember how I took so long to have another one? It was Richard,
not I. Richard wanted nothing to do with me or hardly anyone. Only your Father.
I heard Richard pushed him away as well. Sorry that it hurt everybody. Richard
had his way of alienating everybody. I died like your Auntie E. I also died
like Aunt A (Richard's mother), full of cancer. Everything happens for a reason I suppose.
But it was hard for me to learn I had so much to share with you when I passed!
I thought it was done, over, finished! Take me to Heaven! Will you?
When I crossed, there was a book with lots and lots of names
on it. There was mine. I had suffered (with the cancer). That’s what got me in.
I wouldn’t of for forcing Richard into marriage. I should have let go. Saw that one quite clearly. And also I
saw you, on the earth, giving light and sparks to everybody. Even me! For when
I thought of you and you thought of me back I got a ZIP! A little sparkly. And
it helped.
You are like white on the other side. I am proud of you for
working like this. Who taught you? It was Blessed Mother as your spirit guide?
I saw her. She was pretty! I hardly gave her any credit for giving birth to our
Savior and there she is standing there right among you.
She is never far from you or you from her. There are LOTS of
angels to protect you. You have your work cut out for you—not with A he
is fine, a powerful pleasure/treasure but with others in your life. With your
Mom, Dad and Sisters. I saw what they had done to your heart. I’m sorry when I
was alive I really liked them and I never saw the hurt they’d done to their
kids. I thought you were quiet. When the kids turned out okay I thought they’d
been great/terrific parents. I wanted to be like them in that I did for little
Scotty. Great Scott. Geoffrey Scott. That’s why I named him. I thought Dakota
but it would have been the future in advance (all the kids would have made fun
of him)
Then I saw you from here. I saw the scars upon your heart, a
powerful burden. Of not being understood. Of your mother’s thirst for (mother is still living--I edited this out).
How no one loved you for who you are—unconditionally.
Anyhow, ‘my little powerful miracle is about to begin’. I
want you to tell yourself. God will make it up to you. (You will forget the
pain and focus on the pleasures). Let your heart gather itself one last time.
Feel every drop of pleasure as it flows towards you. There will be a child for
you, and then some. I want you to be happy in your ‘other life’, the one apart from
this. You deserve it. That’s why I talked to you. You loved me and I knew it
and I felt it. I always looked up to you for being smart and you always looked
up to me for being ahead in life.
I want to talk to you another time. Have rest. Have peace.
God loves you. I want you to remember this and always go forward.
Cousin Susie M B 9/15/08
