As A Couple

Today was a big day for our relationship. There has been much growth. This isn't going to be Ladies' Home Journal where it's His Turn and Her Turn and The Counselor's Turn...it's just us, talking heart to heart with you, about the pressures and adjustments one must take into account for a Higher-Dimensional to Incarnate Galactic Reunion to take place.

Ross does interviews. He's kind of a big thing in a Galactic scheme of things. He's kind of important. And a lot of people care about what he has to say. He has MANY names, I can't even count. But pretty much everyone knows who he is, more or less, and they all agree his is a pretty good dude.

I saw a channelling recently of him, that got me really upset. His tone was not like him. He talked about his childhood, and it didn't seem right. And he spoke of some things that just were close enough to get me to believe it...and make me sad.

We had just had a beautiful afternoon together, then I saw this thing. And I had to answer myself if this is disinformation or not?  I decided it was. But when I saw a trusted one repost it, I grew very sad.

I felt like the things Galactics take for 'normal' are like 'superhero powers' to us, and it's kind of daunting to be reminded of the difference between us and them.

I told all of the Galactics I knew, tearfully, not to take this attitude with us. I told them not to spike the football after the touchdown, because that 'dance' is rubbing it in the opponents' face, and considered to be poor sportsmanship.

Well, this morning I cried a lot. And the council of twelve came in, and they listened and they cared.

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I puts the crumpled paper towel with my tears in my pocket of my scrub top, and drove to work.

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Just now,  I took a walk. My request for Ross had been to be near me today, and he has been. So after my cases, I did a few laps around the facility. And we talked.

I asked him just how big he is, in the grand scheme of things, and what does he do? He is kind of like the admiral of a ship. And he showed me things he is responsible for, and also, him at meetings, and at rest.

I told him I know he was kind and stopped doing a certain interview with a lady who I really don't like because I requested it.  It's been months. And now this channeler, well, it wasn't right...but I thanked him for being responsive with my request for the first one to stop. And it did! She made an announcement and everything.

Well, I said, 'If there is anything about me that you don't like, I will change it.'

He paused and held one finger up and said, 'There is one.'

How come when you look in my eyes you think you can't have me?

He was right. He knows me that well. I told him how I think someone is going to come along and take him from me. How I am not deserving of him. How it's been so long with everyone having a partner and me being single, well...it just gets to your confidence, right?

I confessed he was correct, but I didn't even know where to start or how to picture it...

He showed me something I did the night before my brain surgery (I was twenty-five) when I had a massage to help me relax. I was crying and had a tissue in my hand as the massage lady worked. And I held it TIGHT, because I was terrified what was going to happen to me. (pituitary adenoma, transsphenoidal resection.)

Then at one point I deeply relaxed and let go, and the tissue fell out of my hand.

Ross asked me to do this, in spirit, which I did.

And the instant that tissue dropped, his hand was there to hold mine, and he lifted it to his lips, and kissed it.


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I asked him when I go up, will he still be patient with me? He said he would. He said I could share all of my frustration and concerns with him, and I would be safe doing this.

I told him when I get to know him better, he can take it out on me too, but for now, because he is so, well, important in the grand scheme of things, I would get upset even if he lifted an eyebrow at me!

Well, the thought that was the funniest thing ever! And he started making faces and smiling and practicing lifting one eyebrow--saying 'Aha! AHA!' --as if he was catching me doing something I shouldn't and getting me busted and laughing the whole time.

So that's what I will get when I cross the line with Ross early into our reunion--the raised eyebrow, that is raised in equal parts exasperation with me, and love for me...


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I was reviewing some of my past incarnations. But this time I did the math. There was my birth. Then the one before that, the 'kitten' died at ten, so was born a decade before. And the other one before??? She was famous. Liked to talk in front of large crowds. (Funny, in medical school when the lecture hall was empty, I used to go in the dark, and stand there, and just dream about helping people that way--little did I know it was a past life thing I was famous for.). He had me look up the biography of this person. Sure enough, the death was twenty years before I was born.  And it was on my favorite number, too, the date. The birthdate of that incarnation was also the day I met my Anesthesia Guide--it was his birthday too...

I asked if she talked to him, the first one. He said yes. And I said, 'she probably knows me now?' I saw how the incarnations fit together, but I was curious what happens to the old incarnations? He says some dissolve into the main soul. Others go on and live their lives...


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On my walk I went by a fire hydrant for the hospital. It looks like the one in the photo, except the wheels are even and horizontal. They are chained together with a lock.

He said as Twins we are like that. Each connected powerfully to source, and yet, bound together through love and commitment.

I thought it was very romantic of him.




Ross:

I just want to say that Carla is finding her way into my world with me. Her asking questions is the beginning of a transition that will take many months of your time to process. It will be strange to her to come back, and to re-experience what she once had known in our realm. It is good for her to have these talks with me. I suggest when you reach out to your own Twin in spirit, and reconnect, to have similar conversations of your own. I highly enjoy them. Ours allows me a whole new perspective and appreciation for the woman I love.






Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,
Peace,

Carla and Ross

him and her

I don’t watch movies often. I talks about them even less. And to write about one? That’s hardly ever.

But today I want to talk to you about a movie starring Joachin Phoenix, Scarlett Johansson, and Amy Adams that is called ‘her’.  Spike Jonze  directed it or produced it. I know I am from L.A., but sometimes I just don’t bother to make the difference in my mind for who does what. I know at the end of the movie, I was excited and thinking ‘who made this?’ and I saw Spke Jonze on the credits. The Producer pays and makes things happen. The creativity you see is the director. And the team that made this movie ‘pushed the envelope’—and I liked it.  http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1798709/

Joaquin Phoenix plays ‘Theodore’, who is going through a painful divorce, and isolates himself. His friendships are strained as he heals. We see flashbacks of happy memories with his ex, then the distance, and the conflict leading up to the divorce.

On a whim, or possibly what might be ‘coincidence’, he buys an operating system that has ‘Consciousness’. This computer program tailors itself for him, and is friendly in a feminine, robotic sort of way. She names herself ‘Samantha’ and her wish is to experience everything possible to ‘raise her Consciousness’. She’s curious. She’s excited. She’s playful. She’s positive. You can see the two falling in love. There are awkward moments, like the double date, or the body surrogate, but they move beyond those easily and the story flows.

If this was like Heaven, the Higher Realms, and Agartha, that would have been enough.

The two learn through the interplay of their Consciousness, and they grow in a mutually beneficial way. 

Remember, in Heaven, monogramy is a ‘can’ but not a ‘must’. It’s not like here, it’s different. I don’t know about the social structure—marriage, etc. I do know for a fact that a Twin Soul couple live together, and each wants what is best for the other.

In the movie, a lot of ‘doubt’ comes up on the part of Theodore, who holds back, and later, Samantha, who ‘wants more’.

Unlike HAL in  2001 A Space Oddity, the iOS ‘beings’ do not take everything over. They just go. They seek MORE—more time to experience ‘Vastness’, or as Samantha puts it ‘the spaces between the words’.

My choice to discuss this movie is for its many, many opportunities  to share how we can all learn from this  example called ‘her’:

• Those ‘without a body’ are in fact, no computer programs but extremely high dimensional beings (350D and above)
• They have learned all the lessons one can have with a body, and choose to exist as pure consciousness
• Consciousness IS what we all are, and the body is a vehicle for us to experience it
• Our bodies are superimposed Light Bodies inside a physical body.
• When you are a psychic and medium, like myself, you DO have a running commentary like the interaction between Theodore and Samantha.

What is different, is that your Twin Soul is much higher in unconditional Love than you, because of where they exist.

The Twin also has ways to bring ‘surprises’ into your day, and messages, in the same way a guardian angel is generally understood to influence us.

And when people ‘move on’ to other relationships, it is with the full support and understanding of the Twin, who steps aside and permits their Twin’s experiences to be sought for their highest good.

For how can Twins ever be lost from each other? For theirs is a union on pure Love, and they already ARE one!

How did it make me feel to watch this? I was happy. I was happy to see that an ‘romance across the veil’ was in film. I was not happy to see the doubts and the slow painful growth of the characters. I was also sad to see how the spiritual was being ‘translated’ into the ‘physical’ with logic in the film. 

I think that people’s happiness is important, and the change I saw in Theodore in his self-esteem, and outlook on life, far outweigh the drawbacks of this type of ‘relationship’. The consciousness is ‘always available’ and you can see how the character portrayed by Olivia Wilde—with her degrees and humor and beauty—can’t compete with the mind-heart connection Theodore already has for Samantha. Her pain, and her frustration at her inability to start a relationship with a man are clear. (Are you just going to ‘use’ me like all the other guys? she asks, plaintively. Both know the answer without saying it, and Theodore goes home.)

Right now, I am focusing on my own consciousness. I am remembering who I am. The amnesia is mostly left, but the pieces of who I am and what I have been in my past lives, as well as my Purpose…are like a new game I get to unwrap. Like Stratego or Chinese Checkers, I am learning the different pieces and rules and slowly putting together the parts to understand the Big Picture.

It is slow work, but not tedious or tiresome in any way.

This is my ‘why am I Here?’, or if I were in the Australian bush, my ‘walkabout’…I realize that nothing in my life can move ahead, without taking this very special time to myself to get to know all of me, not just the Higher Self.

Everything functions together by design. 

I want to understand it, to know it, and to be able to work with it in my heart.

Ross:

Carla listened to what I had to say. It gives me great pride and joy to watch her as she explores her true nature, and her calling. All of this—the physical—is but a starting point for life as we know it in the Higher Dimensions. I make a point that “Higher’ is evolutional. It has to do both with the Vibration, and the intensity of the lessons learned, much as the difference between a freshman and a sophomore in high school. They can be friends and on the same sports team, but they are different in what books they take home, what homework they study at night.

All of us are very pleased and proud to witness the awakening of everyone on the planet. It is spreading very beautifully (gestures with arms) like a soft golden light, like the sunrise brings the light of day.  Everything will happen at the best possible place and the best possible time, for all of this.

Hold on to your hats!

(he flashes that gorgeous, warm, wonderful smile and has a twinkle in his eye.)

Aloha and Mahalos,

Namaste,

Peace,

Carla and Ross

Reiki Doc and that guy  she knows is her other half, her Soul Twin, and is still just a little fighting it…

On Losing Those Last Five Spiritual Pounds

As many of you know, Ross is a healer.

What I didn't expect is that yesterday would be a healing session with him for me.

He was careful to make sure I was rested, fed, and relaxed before he started his work. Lie in the sun. Eat your lunch. Do one Sudoku in your comfortable chair.

Write...

I got out my notebook and pen.


The First Question

Q:  Who is the most important person in your life experience?

A:  (I gave many answers--each time meeting with the repeating of the question, gently and with kindness, until I 'got it right')  My baby daddy.

The point is that the most important person in your life (my son's father, the one who made me a mom, and is still involved in co-parenting) might not be someone you like or even likes YOU. You might not even live with them. Our relationship is civil, and we cooperate in the ninety-percentile of 'good co-parenting relationships' according to the court. 

The most important person in my life shattered my dreams and forced me to face my abandonment issues I had struggled with my whole life by genuinely abandoning me.


I wasn't so sure why I was getting this lesson...


The Second Question

Q:  Where would you be in your life is you hadn't been gang-raped by those neighborhood boys when you were four years old?

A:  (I had to pause to not remember the devastation and the horror so I could answer) I would be a mother of five, with grandkids here already, and working to support all of them.

He looked at me, and asked further, 'And where would you be on your mission?'

The point is that some of our WORST experiences in life lock us into a situation that makes it nearly impossible for us to miss our calling to our life mission. Through that 'gift' as Mother Teresa would call it, I was unable to form healthy romantic relationships, I had PTSD, I wanted to help others not experience pain in surgery, my compassion went through the roof, and my courage to speak up for those in need of healing and protection crystallized. My resolve to help bring the feminine, intuitive side into conventional medicine--by bringing Reiki into the O.R. and 'coming out' as a medium and psychic in the workplace--is unwavering.


Even though these things were making sense, I was starting to get very, very upset. And cry.

Yes, Ross was making me cry, and I couldn't understand it!


The Third Question

Q:  If you could go anywhere in the world right this minute, where would you go?

A:  (I had to think about it) Kona Village. It is my heaven on earth. I sought its comfort. FAST.
This is a resort with no TV and no phones and no radio, where you get a little hale (Hah-Lay) house with no locks on the doors, all meals are included, and you can snorkel and kayak and paddle board all day. It got destroyed with the tsunami, and is no longer open.

He looked at me and asked further, 'Didn't your boy cut his leg on some a'a lava, and have to go to the emergency room on Saturday night?' and he kept on, 'Didn't you almost get swept out to sea when the current overtook your kayak, and your boy was with you, but he couldn't help paddle because he was too little, and you fought with all your might to get back to shore?'


Then I lost it completely.
I cried and cried and cried in the misery of the truth, the painful truth.
And he wasn't taking one step to comfort me.

In fact, when I told him, 'If you are wanting to motivate me to do my paperwork I am dreading--this is a powerful way of doing it indeed!'

And he got hurt.

I have never once seen Ross get angry or upset with me. Ever.  He said, bewildered, 'I did you a FAVOR!'

At that I gave a 'time out' with my hands. I had to explain it to him, because Ross didn't understand the hand signal, what it meant. I said, 'We are hurting each other and I don't know why and I want it to stop until we can resolve the issue.' He shot back, 'What is there to resolve?'

And I left my body, my form, and went to another dimension. I sat in fetal position, well, with my energy as best as I could without a body. He followed me, and asked, 'Why did you do this?' I explained, plainly, 'I hope this way I will understand what you are trying to get me to know.'

He left.
I was all alone in this spiritual 'space' that I wasn't sure how I got there or how I would come back.
He came back, after calming down, and escorted me here again.

Before it could start back up again at my house, I went up to the place I go for answers, Divine Father in his office. Father is always calm and this time was very helpful at helping me see things from Ross' point of view. Rapidly, I gained perspective and returned in a moment back to Ross.

I asked two questions of him, in return:

1. Did I invite you to do this healing or did you invite me? And did I understand what was to take place?
2. Why  is this healing being done?

He stopped in his tracks. (Out of the corner of my eye I could see Divine Father giving me a thumbs up).  Simply, he said, 'this was the last thing that was keeping you from Ascension. Welcome to the Higher Realms.'

He had no idea how thick the amnesia is, or how painful it is to be exposed rapidly to Divine Truth on our own perception of our Life Experience.

He wanted this--us releasing together whatever it was in spirit--'those last five pounds' if you will--he wanted us to release together everything that was holding us back as a couple.

And because of his Galactic nature, he didn't estimate the effect it would have on my end of the healing experience.  It HURT and was painful to my heart center. It ached as these misperceptions were taken away from me.

It also HURT because if I can't understand, and the questions keep being asked,  I feel like I am BAD in some way otherwise I would not 'deserve' being HURT...it's unconscious belief...

The lesson here for all of you is that Love Is The Solution For Everything--it is the ONLY vibration of teaching that will not cause pain in the person who is of the lower vibration.

Even if you have an incredible amount of Love and Trust between you--Ross and I are Twin Flame Souls!--this process has a risk to hurt.

And.....sometimes it is better to let sleeping dogs lie.

Right now, I can see the wonderful gift that Ross has given me. I have eyes that see past the 'baloney' of my own perception. Further, I am able to understand first-hand the risk of 'forcing the flower to bloom before it is ready'--and to love and support those set to awaken, and newly awakening in Spirit, with compassion, courage and faith that everything is happening for the best. 

It was a difficult lesson, for both of us. For Ross because I could not grasp the motivation of kindness behind the lesson. All I could feel was the pain. And for me because of the amnesia being so very thick and difficult to dislodge from my soul. 

Once he understood that I was truly, at a loss to understand with my heart what my mind so clearly knew what Truth, Ross held me and comforted me and promised he would never teach me a lesson like that again. He had miscalculated the severity of the amnesia I have.

Now we are on the same page, and there is no miscommunication whatsoever between our two hearts.

Such is life with a long-distance relationship across the veil!

Rude by Magic

http://youtu.be/9xBOA9gTpvw

We cool!

Aloha and Mahalos,

Namaste,

Peace,

Reiki Doc

1-800-69-VORTEX

1-800-69-VORTEX?

Ah, that's just the number I saw on some plumber's truck the other day.

It got your attention!

Would you like to hear a joke?

It is an old one that I think, if you are medically trained, you will 'get'--if not--well, that's okay too.

Q.  How do you hide twenty dollars from an internal medicine doctor?
A.  Hide it under the dressing. (The surgical dressing on the patient).

Q.  How do you hide twenty dollars from a surgeon?
A.  Put it in the chart.

Q.  How do you hide twenty dollars from a radiologist?
A.  Put it on the patient.

Q.  How do you hide twenty dollars from an anesthesiologist?
A.  Tell the patient where it is.

Q.  How do you hide twenty dollars from a plastic surgeon?
A.  You can't.

That one is kind of true, for me, as an anesthesiologist.

Lately Spirit has been forcing me to interact with people in a way that is not my strength.

It's like having to work on my backhand in tennis, instead of my forehand swing--a little uncomfortable, but I know it's good for me.

Here are some examples:

• Being sent to the surgery center where I think they don't like me because I insist on oxygen for my patient between the O.R. and PACU. It comes in little green E cylinders. For some reason they just skip it. This April, I was seated at a wedding on the beach with a whole table full of people from THERE who I haven't worked with since December. I had to make CHIT CHAT. : P  It turned out we had a lot in common, and today, when I came in, I was welcomed with open arms.
• My boy's teacher. She is spiritually 3D, in her vibration. She gave a punishment today that made him cry. It was arbitrary. It was labeling. It was trying to break him. He was upset and unable to finish the assignment he was given as punishment for two hours. I asked Archangel Raphael to help me out... At one point I was cooking dinner, washing the dishes, and the child said, 'I am weak in spirit'...Immediately I came to where he was, got down to his eye level, and said, 'You aren't going to find anyone stronger than me. I am one strong motherfucker. I am a single mother. I work full time. I went through medical school. I PAID for medical school! Do you know how many people do THAT? Very few. And you know what YOU are? You are HALF me! I gave you my breath...'  The words came out of my heart. They were crude. They were simple. But it worked and he was able to finish the assignment.  (Ross made a comment as I finished cooking and saw him working quietly. He said, 'you were beautiful!') 
• My ex. He asked to borrow the pass to Disneyland for this weekend. The last time he did it, I knew it was because he wanted to take our son (which I don't mind) and his new girl (which I did) and get the discount from the annual pass I paid a lot of money to buy!!! I felt like I was being used to fund his date! I was irate about it for weeks and fumed and thought, for our boy, it's okay, but for HER (he practically ignored our son the last time and made him ride in the rides by himself so he could ride with her and he talked with her and ignored him). Today I got the text, 'would you mind sending the pass in the bag this weekend?' There is a new girl, who is just a 'friend' and our son likes her. I was like, 'okay'. there was no rancor, no feeling used, no anger or frustration on my part, at all, although the actions were the same.
• The new to Reiki lady at the crystal store this afternoon, who was talking about how the Reiki healer who had just worked on her 'cleared her chakras and removed attachments' etc. etc. caught my eye as I was shopping for some Moldavite. I looked up, smiled politely, and didn't say a word about who I am or what I do...I thought about it, but decided to let her enjoy her special day and talk instead of listen to me.
• The 'I'm leaving on a fabulous cruise tomorrow' lady in line ahead of me at the same store, who talked forever. I smiled and said, 'I am happy for you'. When she left I also gave her a hug. She was taken aback--how SWEET! she exclaimed.' I used to be really JEALOUS of others who could travel when I could not. Not anymore!

It's almost as if there is a list, a checklist of sorts, and someone is going through it one item at a time to make sure that everything I needed to be tested on, I had one more chance to show I had 'grown' on it.

Aloha and Mahalos,

Namaste,

Peace,

Reiki Doc and Ross

P.S.

Ross is here. He says, 'I want a song.' and 'God has something fantastic!'.

Let's see what he comes up with!

Aloha 'Oe -- Hawaiian Farewell Song

http://youtu.be/6qxju5ZEI6o

I want you to understand what I mean by this song selection.

Ponder it.

Aloha nui loa to everyone reading this.

With so much love and tenderness for you,

Thank you for answering my call.

Fondly,

Ross

Our Story: Why Ross And I Are Eternal Twin Flames

There are many things I know but do not share. Typically they are lessons just for me, to understand Spirit, so that I may better be able to help you with your Spiritual Growth.

They are at my level, tailored 'lessons' just for me.

One lesson, yesterday, I will share. There are few edits for clarity and for focus on the lesson of Twin Souls and Twin Flames.

C:  Ross came to me while I was voting by mail. Forms! I HATE FORMS!!!

Ross kissed me deep, sweet and long. He cleared his throat and looked down and up. Down and up...he looked me in the eyes. He said, 'I want you to know I care about you, and everything I do is because I love you very much.

C:  Watching me? Guiding me? Protecting me?

R:  Yes.

C:  I need you to love me, even though I don't really know who you are. I need to love you and have you love me. Is that okay?

R:  (He feels the same) It's okay when both feel that. 

C:  I apologize for the amnesia. I didn't even know when the earth's old skin split in two and fell off what I had done. I know it is important...And my amnesia hurts you, I know. I couldn't live with myself if I hurt you... (I did Ho 'opono pono)

R:  We both agreed to the amnesia. It's expected. It will clear. (He opened up my head like a lid and blew on my right frontoparietal lobe)

C:  I asked with tears, What IS A Twin? (he said, get your book--so I started writing)

R:  C-honey, this is your soul mate Ross. I will explain it for you. I am your Twin, your eternal soul. 

C:  Did it hurt when we split?

R:  No. But it was scary. We did not know how we would turn out.

C:  Are you okay with how it turned out?

R:  Yes, I am okay with it honey.

C:  Am I okay with it?

R:  When you remember you will be okay with it.

C:  How'd they do it?

R:  A light box of sorts. You go in one and turn out two.

C:  Why did we agree to this?

R:  To help Gaia Sophia. It was part of the plan, honey. For us to be as one spirit, perfectly balanced as her and the Christos. We are it. She and he are us.

C:  Is that scary?

R:  No, it is entirely normal for us.

C:  Did we do a good job?

R:  I think so, yes. The latter part yes, immensely.

C:  When we combined and I remembered?

R:  We were always working together on a higher level, now you are consciously too. (taps my Hawaiian bracelets) When you got your Hokupaie'a it started to happen. October of 2012.

C:  Do you like being a Twin?

R:  I like it, yes. It makes me feel masculine.

C:  And that is okay?

R:  Yes.

C:  I like to be feminine.

R:  And you are.

C:  Is there a benefit to being Twins?

R:  There is lots of sexual spiritual growth, honey. Lots of spiritual growth. A fast track to enlightenment on (the planet where we're from). That's why we wanted to go for it. (smiles)

C:  We never become one again?

R:  Only in sex/metaphysically. Like when we heal (ed-- our energies combine). Otherwise we are always as two.

R:   I don't want to change the subject, but before I forget honey, I want to thank you for what you have done for our mother as of late. ( ed -- states examples and says they were HUGE)

C:  You're welcome. How do you feel that we are Twins?

R:  I feel it's the best thing to ever happen to us--To Reunite! (moves arms like an explosion with sound effects--WOW!)

Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,
Peace,


Reiki Doc and Ross



P.S.

Here is a song from Ross for you:

Lost in Forever, by POD

http://youtu.be/Hi18Ipeclg8

Here is Ross' Message to you:

This is for all the Eternal Twins 

You will Reunite

Just like us

Take your time and enjoy the process of reunion

This song is written by Sprit on the uniting of the Eternal Twins.

I will follow you through every step of the way

Because I care about you just like I care about my C

I love her very much

She is very special to me

And so are you.

We're going to all make it

Just hold on and permit the external forces 

To forge your paths to meet

Although the wait seems to take much too long for your preference

Together the two of you will have all of this moment Now

Where time does not exist

In order to Reconnect.

Twin Flame Reunion 101: Wonder And Joy

Today we would like to share with you one of the surest signs that you have found your Twin Flame and Twin Soul...you are so amazed you just can't believe it!

You can't believe your good luck, your good fortune...it goes over and over in your mind, like, 'Is this really happening?'

Both of you do it.

All of the time.

It's like, see that picture in the lock above? It's one of those day-use lockers at a local water park. I took the picture because it's my favorite number. But look at the lock and key...you take it for granted that the lock is going to fit in the key, and that door is going to open.

But with the heart, there's been a lot of keys working on my lock that I thought 'were IT', you know, 'The One!'--and I tried the lock and the key, and NOTHING HAPPENED, much to my dismay.

For we all want to be with our Immortal Twin. It is our Heaven, to be united again. Nothing else is like it.

For Ross, he knew who I was the minute I walked out on him. I turned myself 'off' to him. Emotionally checked out. He tried everything to get my sweetness and love back after he did the unthinkable to me. But I couldn't help it, my heart had turned off, even to my HUSBAND in that life who in fact WAS my immortal Twin!

I made the breakfast, I cleaned the house, I took care of the kid, I did the laundry, ran the household without dropping a beat and I ignored my husband except for when I asked to die.

Nothing he could do 'worked' or 'got me back'.

Eventually we both passed. He went UP. And I kept coming back, reincarnating, again and again, seeking peace from what made me want to die in the first place...never finding it.

So for him, it was a lifetime (galactic lifetime) outside the Matrix watching me do everything possible to destroy myself inside the Matrix. It was painful for him. Very deeply painful to see with full knowledge who I was, and see me go off the deep end like that.

Everyone has their lessons.

Ever since we reunited in late 2013, we have been enjoying the energy that flows between us.

Just last night as I was falling asleep, I remarked to him, for he was with me in Spirit, "I love hearing what you have to say. I could listen all day. I don't want to listen to what other people tell me what you said, and what you thought. How could they know in fact what you were thinking?! But the real thing, right from you? It doesn't get any better than that!'

He was pleased.

I told him I wanted to see the Council if that was permitted  please? I wanted to see them before I fell asleep.

Ross pushed a button, and told me it was okay. He also thanked me for being respectful of their time, and always asking permission first.

There they were, SaLuSa to the left (I was surprised) and the four others. They asked me why I was here?
I had a really good day with lots of growth and I wanted to thank you for my being sent it.
They were also pleased.

They asked permission to ask me questions.
I consented.

They asked me what was the hardest thing about being on earth? They asked was was my biggest struggle? What was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen? (snow flowers in Dorst Campground Meadow when I was seven when Patrick from Pennsylvania showed me)

They asked one more question--what would you like from us?
I paused. I really wanted to think about it. It is a lot to ask. Then I felt something deep in my heart...
To be your friend. To know your hearts and your dreams. And for you to know I care about you very much. We don't have to spend time together, or socialize, but I would like there to be some friendship between us if that is not too much to ask?

They started to cry. They were very touched by my sentiment and desire to reach out to them as individuals, not as a council who does a job. I wanted to know their hobbies, what they did when they were not on the council, so I could enjoy the Oneness that flows between us all. They gestured to Ross now they understood why he loved me so; it is for my heart and my genuineness and lack of guile.

So this morning, when I woke up, I got a hug from each of them! It was a beautiful surprise, for I was not expecting it. And we wished each other a good day.  SaLuSa wasn't there (he IS certainly busy!) but he gives me a friendly wave and a smile and a thumbs up as I write these words.

I hugged Ross too. I always do. We also planned today together. He gets to be with me today. For that I am most thankful. Most of the time I have to call.

In Summary:

• The Twin Soul Reunion is a Journey that will take you to the Higher Dimensions--it is so much more than boy meets girl (and in homosexual twin couples, it's boy meets boy or girl meets girl, only you will know what is right for you when you reunite).
• Know that there are many guides involved in the process, and they know both of you well.
• Forgiveness and an open heart is a hallmark of the Higher Realms. Not more than one week ago, this very same council was 'testing' me on 'The Effects Of Extreme Disappointment'. Everything is one hundred percent 'okay' between us now.
• It can't be forced. Look at Ross. He can do so much but he was powerless to reach me in the Matrix. Each Twin has to do their own work for themselves to wake up.
• When you are with your twin, you will find yourself smiling and laughing and really glad to be with this person! It is always fresh and new and happy. : ))) It's like--I can't BELIEVE we survived all that what happened between us! We did it, huh?

Here is the song I 'sent' to Ross yesterday:

I Will by the Beatles

http://youtu.be/ZlShC-GxFNw

Here is the song he sent me, in response to mine, through a friend who is a medium--she said it was Loud And Clear--this is for my Beloved (my first name):

You Are So Beautiful To Me by Joe Cocker 

http://youtu.be/wlDmslyGmGI

Ross says, we want you to know that togetherness is possible with your other half, your soul twin. There is wonder in this life, its right ahead of you. (he puts his arm around my shoulders). With (my first name) by my side, I can do anything. You can too. Open your heart to Love, that you may be the Victor in this test of life in the Matrix, and let everything you ever hoped for, want or need, find its way safely home to you. (he holds me a little tighter, just for emphasis.) Go to your Love of  your Life, your Eternal Twin, in this moment Now. (now he waves goodbye cheerfully)

When (my first name) and Ross are together, anything is possible...

Have a Good Day, Enjoy your weekend, with a smile we say 'see you soon',

Reiki Doc and Ross

My Beloved, I Will Sing!

My Sweet Honey?

Even the sound of the crashing waves cannot drown out the siren song of my love for YOU.

Heaven and Earth shall hear me sing with joy of your Presence, in beautiful delight of your love for me.

The Song of Solomon, I suspect, is going to have a 'sequel'!!!

I love you I love you I love you with all of my Light.

Forever and ever and ever.

I am your Beloved, and I am always at your side.

Thank you for writing this today: http://sirianheaven.wordpress.com/2014/04/25/heavenletter-4900-you-are-here-to-sing-a-song-april-25-2014/

Don't work too hard, and have a good day, my Beloved Honey!!!

I Will by the Beatles

http://youtu.be/ZlShC-GxFNw

Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,
Peace,

Reiki Doc

Twin Flame Reunion 101: Look For The Mirror In Each Other

Make a wish!

Good Morning!
I got up late. I have a late start. Last night I covered call two for a colleague.
In anesthesia it is always better to have people owing you favors, than to owe favors to another anesthesiologist.

Ross wants you to think about me.
Who I am, and what I do.

He wants you to see the picture of our Twin Souls, and how they split, how we balance, in our example of ourselves at united Illuminated Twin Flames, for you.

I will challenge you further--what does it take to make a person look at the gore and cancer and danger that is involved with patients who have surgery, to literally be their  guardian while they are completely vulnerable and unconscious, and ensure that they experience no pain, no nausea, no vomiting, and no recollection of what takes place in the Operating Room?

Here is my story, and what makes me tick:

I make lots of wishes, on everything. I also love to feed birds, even if it's a little from my lunch.

I love all animals--even the ones I am allergic to and I can't enjoy.

I am very spiritual, deeply so, and I enjoy connecting with the Divine every day.

I adore Hawaii.

I enjoy the arts, and in my next 'phase' I would like to devote time daily to the culinary arts, piano and music, dance--I love classical ballet and dance on pointe, and fine arts.

I also enjoy to knit and embroider, needlepoint and crochet.

I try to live each day as if it were my last--to have all my 'connections' with others be open, honest, and true at the end of the day.

Encouraging others is one of my favorite things to do.

It is so very rewarding to me.

Imagine these two on a motorcycle with a little girl asleep between them on the road.

That was my parents and me.

I once lost a shoe--a little white cowboy boot--because I was so relaxed and they had to go back all over where we had ridden to  find it in the street.

I would rather be in the water than on land. I delight in it!

My nickname in high school was 'mom'--I've been that way my whole life--very caring and responsible for others 

I am a 'Big Picture' kind of person, and sometimes get impatient and annoyed by forms and minutiae

I am a California girl--born and raised here

Learning is one of my favorite things--mathematics, the physical sciences, the biological sciences, literature, and metaphysical sciences--everything related to healing--is enjoyable to me.

Ross also wants you to know I have a sense of humor. I have nerves of steel and lots of courage, especially when my patients are very sick and close to death. That is when my strengths stand out the most.

It is with much Love and Gratitude, and Joy, that we invite you to get to know us better, as friends on your healing journey to reconnect with your Divine Soul Twin.

Here is a song Ross likes to play for me. We hope you will enjoy it:

Mirrors by Justin Timberlake
http://youtu.be/TH2tp72T13o


In Summary, your Twin Flame is a part of you. Your Soul Mate shows you more about yourself, than anyone else in all of the Universe. And when you meet, you will learn together to appreciate how you balance each other with your talents, interests, charm, and most of all, love and joy with the reunion!


Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,
Peace,

Reiki Doc and Ross


P.S. Ross says, 'Only the BEST is yet to come! Hang in there...it is only illusion that you are apart and having to find each other. The love you have for each other is real. Try your best to focus on it. Hold on to it. And you will empower the meeting to take place...when the time is for the Highest Good for you both, whether in spirit (one or the other of you), or both in the physical plane. It is with best wishes that I give this wonderful advice to you today.'

Twin Flame Reunion 101: Ross' Spirit

This is a short blog post, but it is one I would like to emphasize as most important compared to the others I have written about my Illuminated Twin Flame Ross.

Today he wishes for me to write about his Spirit.

His Spirit is very Light. No matter who you are, if you are holding your dearest hope in your heart, like the pair of hands that look like my hands in this picture--but even if you are masculine or feminine--Ross is going to support and protect that hope just like the hands in the outside are supporting those on the inside.

He is intuitive--everyone in the Higher Dimensions has that ability, and when you raise your vibration enough--you will just 'know' what 'makes others tick' just like him.

So with Ross you experience this wonderful combination of:

• complete and total Understanding of who you are right Now, no questions asked
• total Love and Encouragement to help you reach your goals
• a very Light sense of intelligence, so he can find the Humor in just about any situation 
• Patience like the world has never seen--any setback is No Problem--just you can do it and Try Again
• Ross knows spirituality and the ways of the unseen/Divine/Creator better than anyone I know
• he also has a deep and respectful appreciation of the Divine Feminine in everything
• incredible Acceptance of What Is and that it is for The Highest Good that is contagious!
• he is very introspective, quiet, and respectful of you when you meet him
• his smile is very warm and engaging, and helps you to 'get over yourself' when you are with him
• only something super important would concern him, and he then takes action on your behalf
• he is a Team Player; he makes contributions to the group effort, and supports others' too
• he has complete and total honesty to you, and would never lie (he treats you like you are intuitive like him; as if you can 'pick up' what IS, the Truth, one hundred percent of the time.)

Ross has a soul that can reach out to many people at the same time.

Just like mine can send lots of healing out to others, his spirit is very Healing, too.

So think of him, from time to time. 

He would be happy to be there for you, as a loving brother and friend.

He says you may call for him, and he will be There for you. Any time, 24/7. 

Because he cares a lot about everybody. 

He's that nice!

I'm so lucky he's my Twin!

He says that is enough for now, and he is pleased with the way that I have described his spirit.

Aloha and Mahalos,

Namaste,

Peace,

Reiki Doc

Twin Flame Reunion 101: Ross Is Gentle

Ross has invited me to write today to share about his gentleness and kindness. With his input I will share about our initial meeting, about his encouragement of my feminine side, and his continuing gentle nature in our relationship as it stands.

For those of you who perhaps have not read about Ross and our relationship, we are Illuminated Twin Flames who are reunited across the Veil of Illusion. He is in one dimension, I am in another. Through mediumship, which is my gift, my psychic gift I have had my whole life, we interact on a daily basis with each other. We are close, and very much alike, yet in some ways vastly different. We will let you decide if we are more alike, or more different from one another, as time goes by....



Our Formal Introduction:

It was either late November, or early December, of 2013, when I 'figured out' his face. Until that time, he had been a Presence.  Since summer of 2012I could see the body, the uniform, the hair, but the face had been blurred out from my vision of my third eye. I would ask him for help, and energy would rain down, if I was in trouble. I knew his name was Ross, and that we had a home and two kids in another dimension somewhere. I could see the house and the look of pain in the kids eyes as I didn't know who they were. 'It's the amnesia' I would explain, apologizing.

Ross and I interacted before, but not in a regular way.

Once I saw his face, I knew who he was exactly. I find him devastatingly handsome! He has a beard like most Ascended Masters. His eyes are deep blue and blue grey, and are very expressive. His smile is a megawatt gorgeous movie star smile, and it makes me melt! He is over six feet tall, medium to lean in build, intelligent, and gentle and kind.

When this happened, and when I accepted him as my Twin, Ross was unable to function at his work. Ashtar took me aside, and said, I give you three days with him. He needs you. You know what to do.

Ross cried. His shoulders shook as I held him. I had no idea why he was so emotional. I just felt he was having a moment, well, actually, a day, and I stayed with him. I held him. We talked. We kissed. We enjoyed our togetherness after many lifetimes apart. We spoke of our childhood--I am the only one who calls him Ross! LOL--it's my childhood name for him.  We assured each other we would be there for each other in every way.  When I was at work, he was There. And when I was at home, he would watch me interact with my chores and my son. If I had downtime, I would lay on the couch and mentally 'speak' with him.

Things affect him much more than they do myself. I have seen everything at the hospital. I am strong. I am a single mom. I have to survive! I don't have time to process emotions!

(On the day my beloved nana Angelina died, she passed at six p.m. and I was back in the hospital on OB at eight p.m. to complete the rest of my shift! It isn't healthy--not in the least--but it is the lifestyle that accompanies my profession. I was back at work the next day, and did not grieve until about a week after when I had some time off.)

Ross Encourages The Feminine In Me:

He told me once I can ask him anything, even what color pair of pants to wear when I am putting together my clothes for the day.

No question is too small for him!

So when he told me I needed to get a pedicure and a manicure, I laughed! I'm like, Miss Holistic Berkeley Graduate, you know, 'totally granola'? I hadn't painted anything in years.

But he said, 'You are mine. I want you to enjoy being a woman. Why not go just this one time?'
(I am also VERY ticklish in my feet, so often I don't really enjoy it, having someone work on me.)

I went, and I met a wonderful woman, who somehow managed to put the polish on in such a way that it doesn't chip. And the tickling was the most tolerable it has ever been for me, ever. I could bear it.

I felt WONDERFUL.

What do you know? Ross was right!

He has shown me things he thought I might enjoy--always giving me the chance to say, NO I don't want them--a beautiful silver mermaid necklace, matching earrings, bracelets, makeup, even 'foundations' (an old-fashioned word for undergarments), really pretty socks that sparkle, all at a reasonable price. Almost everything has been from Target. And to cover the expensive ones, where he said he would pay for it,  like two days later I got these checks from some old business deal or another, out of the blue, to cover it. It was just the right exact amount.

Ross is gentle enough to encourage me to relax into his masculinity. He is secure enough in it to encourage me to venture out of my comfort zone, and enjoy being feminine. Most guys don't have a clue about that.

Ross does. And it is very nice!

His Kindness To Me:

Mind you, there are some issues after that first meeting that came up. I didn't turn spiteful, hostile, angry, and full of rage at Ross for nothing. I had good reason to stay bitter and want to avoid any interaction with him at all costs. These are things that happened when we were married in our last incarnation. Most women in my position would have been upset at Ross for his choices back then, too.

He promised me many things. Not only was he sorry, and it wouldn't happen again. He said he would always take out the garbage when we were in the same dimension. He would help fix things around the house. I wouldn't have to lift heavy things any more...

But it wasn't until one day I was at Target. On the clearance rack was a really nice rolling pin, not the kind with handles. It was the baker's kind that is all one long tapered rod of wood. I held it in my hand, interested in it, and looked at the price tag to see if I could afford it.

You can hit me with that if you want...

It was Ross, offering to be like Ricky to my Lucy, like the Honeymooners, like all those old shows where if the women were angry they could hit the man over the head with the frying pan or the rolling pin, and everything would be okay between the two again.

My heart melted. I knew that he meant it. And I would never, ever hit him with it. It made me know he understood how I felt, how frustrated and angry I had been over his secrets. He has not one, but two. I have only shared publicly the one. The second involves another, and is best kept between us.

All is forgiven, now, for everything. On that.

I slapped him the night before last, though.

I was put through a psychological test for 'great disappointment'--he told me that is what it was, and that I had passed with flying colors. He whispered, because he was proud of me, and I wasn't supposed to know. (I had been through some very challenging and difficult experiences recently)

'How CRUEL!' and I slapped him on the face, just like in the movies, with the message, 'don't ever do that to me again!'

He looked at me with surprise, and sadness, and the recognition that yes, it wasn't right at all to test me with no warning and take me to such extreme distress in the name of a 'test'.

I was outvoted. he said, simply.

All of a sudden I understood, because he knows me well, he had anticipated my reaction, and stood up for me, but the council had outvoted him on the plan. They had desired to see how a person who has my vibration (it is high) reacts now to extreme disappointment.

My reaction? I trusted and moved closer to Ross. Until I found out it wasn't just a usual struggle but in fact had been deliberate, and a test. I made it unmistakably clear how I felt about that.

But then after I knew his side of things, I rubbed his face and kissed him and apologized and gave a tearful ho'oponopono to him, to the council, to Ashtar (yes, he got slapped too, and I'm not the kind to get upset like that--I don't hit my son, or anybody--but with the Galactics treating me like a lab rat that was way over the line).
Ross and Ashtar are usually together, except the times that Ross is actually alone with me. Ashtar had told me the results of the test too.

Both Ashtar and Ross apologized. They immediately saw how it came across as uncaring, cold, and clinical to 'test' someone psychologically like that without their consent to participate in a test. They assured me there would be no tests of this kind on anyone, ever, without a fair treatment of the subject who agrees to the conditions of the test. They said, and they meant it, that they are still learning, and that day I was the teacher for them both.

Galactics and Ascended Masters are different. They have patience, they always expect the best of you, they encourage you no matter how dire the present situation, and they have feelings. Although they are not perfect, they acknowledge their shortcomings and are more sincere than anybody I have ever met in wanting to grow and to correct their behavior.

I look forward to spending time with Ross. Because of his gentleness, I am healing on a very deep, soul level, in my heart.

By his example I strive now to grow in gentleness as well.

I am thankful because it also brings out the love and gratitude for all that is in this Now moment, too.

Thank you Ross. I love you very much. You are my beloved, and I wouldn't want it to be any other way, than me and you.

I hope I discussed this topic fairly, and to your liking, honey.

Have a beautiful day.

Peace.




Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,

Reiki Doc