We have a saying here, 'after the ecstasy, the laundry'...I have just come off of one of the most pleasant weekends I have had in a very long time. My house is still a mess. I still have work today. But the rest, the relaxation, and the sense of well-being is unsurpassed.
I was on call Friday night. However, the O.R. cases all finished around the same time, and I was able to check in to the hotel when I had anticipated. Around seven thirty p.m. I went to my room, and I was actually quite ready for bed. Instead, Ross suggested I go to the coffee shop to buy a cup of hot herbal tea. I took the sweet orange kind, a very big cup, and went back to my room to read for one hour. Reading is one of my absolute favorite things to do, next to writing.
I made sure the volume was up on my phone, and when I was tired I fell asleep.
Thankfully my alarm was the first thing to wake me up. I made myself a cup of coffee in the room, had a bosc pear and an orange, and read a little more. Anthony had a basketball game. I cleaned up and made it there on time.
After that, my time was free! I've been wanting to find a bottle of the yuzu light sparkling beverage Leona I had last time I went to sushi. Five minutes from the gym was a local asian market, Mitsuwa. This one seemed small. I noticed it had some things, but not everything like some other ones I have been shopping at. I couldn't find a donabe clay pot I'd promised a surgeon. But...I found the salad dressing Anthony loves and some other wonderful things. I cook with sake and needed a new bottle. I got organic kind.
Once home, on Saturday I cleaned things like I described. But I also made it a point to enjoy the garden, and the sunshine. Yesterday I did 'lots of laundry' like Ross suggested, and I enjoyed the outdoors too. With work like mine, I hardly ever see the sun. But yesterday, I even went for a walk around the neighborhood! Sunshine and fresh air, visiting people I know just briefly. The best part was when I told my neighbor who sold me the house I was going to plant bulbs all along the front walkway...she paused. She said she had been meaning to give me something for a long time...
She gave me an empty box of St. Joseph statue with a prayer. She had him buried in the yard to bring us good luck with the sale! He is face down and head towards the door. I exclaimed with joy that San Giuseppe is the patron saint of my mom's village back home, San Biagio Platani, and he always protects us!! She was so surprised. She knew I was Catholic but that she didn't know.
It made me smile to think how the angels protect us and work together.
In the back yard, I thanked Ross profusely for the home and especially the garden. I just love it, being able to plant things. I placed the spikes of fertilizer (organic) on Saturday. I read the package and was like--oops, I didn't make enough. I also was delighted to discover that my shredder--ten page capacity--can and does shred cardboard if you slice it into thin strips with a box cutter. I'm using it both for compost and for mulch. It had been bothering me how my mail order packages create so much cardboard waste. Now since I bought the boxes too, I can take care of it without having to fill up my recycle bin which the kitchen manages to fill on its own.
Ross wants me to talk about the bokashi. It's a little overrated. The 'tea' from the bottom is good fertilizer, that's for sure. And that's why I don't think I'll be doing the spikes. But it takes a long time for things to decompose, longer than the ground. So I keep my kitchen wastes for the ground, and the bigger ones that aren't appropriate for the ground (meat, dairy), I put into the bokashi bin. I have to let things sit like six weeks in a bin to decompose in there, so I bought an extra pair of bins.
I sat on the porch swing and spoke with Ross around the sunset, maybe a little before.
He asked me what was the hardest thing about being incarnate?
It was watching him die.
He asked me to explain.
I said I had always looked up to him, in many lifetimes. He's awesome. And it was painful to see that kind of awesome get hurt and be taken away from me. I'm glad he's okay now. And I asked him if I can relax and trust that he is going to be awesome forever from here on out? He reassured me that yes, he will most definitely be awesome forever, and I don't have to ever worry about that again.
Then his next question surprised me. He asked me what is the best part about being incarnate?
I had to pause. It's the kind of pause that allows your heart to speak. And it did, I listened and I was sure. It was Ross.
He asked in what way?
I said because in this incarnation, now, I know I am never alone. I always have a friend. Actually, all of my guides and star family. But mostly him. He was very thoughtful and quiet after that.
Anthony came home. I made him a very late lunch, and also, in time, dinner. We had rack of lamb, sweet potato, radishes cooked in the roasting pan (Ross suggested it), and a dessert I made with apples from the yard, persimmons, and pomegranate arils all baked together and topped with whipped cream. Ross suggested I have a nice red wine to go with it. I had a glass of pinot noir. Anthony had our last cucumber/melon sparkling water.
We watched the movie, 'Mildred Pierce' with dinner. If you haven't seen it, it's an old psychological thriller with Joan Crawford and it's in black and white. Anthony humors me when I have us watch the old movies, but also, he watches and soaks it in and learns. Last time we watched It Happened One Night with Claudette Colbert and Clark Gable, he enjoyed it. This one he enjoyed solving the murder.
Ross has given me two anniversary gifts.
Just yesterday, much to my amazement. I hadn't expected anything, and I sure hadn't gotten him anything. When I was at my hair appointment, that's when I see him best. And he had given me a ring, a very large and sparkling one. I was like, 'you're sure, you mean it?' and he was on one knee. We do this every few years, we recommit. And this time I felt his love, his pride in taking care of me and providing, his sincerity from his heart. I feel these things because I'm his Twin, but also, it was the first time I've felt him like that. This was last week. Tuesday. But Saturday, he guided me, and sure enough, I saw his intentions, and it makes me feel like a princess. It's a stone from our days in India. And the price was very affordable, so much so that the deal here more than outweighs the loss I recently had experienced.
There is one more thing, very very rare, he added just for us.
I go to work feeling refreshed and renewed. I will get ready soon. But I wanted to share with you a side of Ross you might never have guessed he had, not from his stories about his teaching and his travels. He is a family man, an ardent one, and he looks out for his own.
I think this might be why this Gaia Portal is so timely. I knew when I heard Giuliani say that something was coming down of 'Biblical proportions' that is was probably Ross. And with his gifts, I know, he will get to me when he can. I used to have fantasies about him coming to me and Anthony first when he comes back, although through my medical and engineering training I knew it was improbable. Because of his rank and the importance of this project, I'm sure there is a lot he has to do face to face with people of similar job titles here on earth. He will come to us when the time is right, I have no worries, I am calm and prepared. In the meantime, I can enjoy watching him work. It's one of my favorite things. It's electrifying and magnetic to see him in action. And with my own two eyes, it's a total blessing to see and to know he's back and he's healthy and he's strong...doing whatever he does.
Ross is quiet, and thoughtful, and content. He's been calling me his bride all last night while I was making dinner. It makes us both happy when he talks to me like that.
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Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,
Peace,
Ross and Carla
The Twins
