Now

I got a new gift.
I'm so excited about it.
It has to do with my consciousness.

I learned a lesson today...
It was sweet.

Let me try it on for size for the first time with you in this blog--remember, I am content and lighting up like this Christmas Tree to be able to share my new gift!

I am focusing my consciousness on what I like now, on what gives me pleasure, what makes me feel loved, what makes me feel One with the Universe...just like this tree is connected through Light with all the Light of the stars in the night sky...


Remember, I am right Here, right Now:

• the crickets are one of my favorite sounds in the world.
• I am in my own home, relaxed, and not on call.
• the freeway noise makes me glad I am in my home this moment.
• I love the reminders of motherhood, angels, nature, and Love I have on the walls of my home.
• I like how my stomach is full.
• My skin feels so nice from the shower, now that the water is back on and the leak fixed.
• I love Ross so much. I love it that he is smart and I can relax a little when I am around him. He taught me this lesson. I stumbled on it, and he encouraged me to complete it.

You know how there is the old saying that 'worry is praying for what you don't want'?

We are going to turn it around.

"Ask and you shall receive" is a way of saying you have the power to co-create and manifest as a sovereign spiritual being anywhere in the cosmos!

For those of you who follow what I write, recently I have had a plumbing leak with major water damage. It took three plumbers to fix the problem. And a lot of phone calls and many friends involved.

I'm still tired from being up all night on the weekend with my work..

Sometimes I have to do things that are gross. Recently one took the cake. Don't ask me why, but I had to stick my entire hand into a patient's mouth to guide something that wasn't going in properly and kept getting hung up. The mouth was so big that I had to go all the way to my wrist to reach the back of the throat. There was blood and spit and snot all over my arm, my jacket, the linens...all sticky and red and (big sigh)--

It was a new low. 

Thankfully, the patient was unconscious, and under full anesthesia, and didn't bite.

With the stress of the work schedule--faster! faster!

I hit a point where I decided even though my body was here, and my mind was actively working, my heart wanted to be free. And in my heart of hearts, I was going to be far away in a meadow as a bunny where no one could ever eat me. And I would think of that until all this other stuff resolves, which I knew at some point it would.

I had it. Just plain had it. 

And that was the key to my discovery...where I stumbled across an important Truth.

Important Truths aren't always easy to understand because in Life there are some things you just have to experience.

I am going to share with you what I have experienced before today, that wasn't exactly helpful. 

My goal for you today is to help you not to reinvent the wheel, if you know what I mean <3

I had this crammed down my throat since I could talk. Dad once read Dale Carnegie, and he gave me a copy of Psycho Cybernetics and made me read it when I was seven. He made us say things like, 'I am somebody. I AM somebody. I am SOMEBODY! Anybody who doesn't like me must be nuts. What do I want with a bunch of nuts?' and 'Today the world belongs to ME!'

Dad, for all of his positive thinking and religious science (I went there with him too), was not very content. 

He compared himself to others. He got jealous. 

"Positive Thinking" lacks the power of the emotions of the heart.

It is one-hundred percent mind-driven. That is why it bored me to tears, and never really 'clicked'.

This is a very simple way to manifest something:  write it down.

My life was governed by date planners and schedules through all of my education and training.

It's a tool. 

The  "To Do List" often lacks the power of the emotions of the heart--even when you spend eighty percent of your time on the twenty percent of things that matter to you most.

It gets to be a habit, that your life is only what you plan, and that you can't be spontaneous because your goals are overriding the importance of what is Here and Now.

You are delaying gratification to achieve. And depending on your 'balance', it can be a good thing, or a long journey pushing a 'rock uphill'. <3

Whoever drew this TOTALLY 'gets' what it is like to be 5D <3

Sometimes when people ask me for spiritual advice, I say to this:

Take all that energy you have going on between your ears, inside your head, and drop it about twelve inches lower.

Your heart connects to all the knowledge of the Universe, your Higher Self, your Twin, your Soul Mate, your beloved friends...and these connections last forever as etheric cords between your heart and theirs.

You can feel it.

What is in your thoughts?

Is there a struggle, for example, as in addiction?

It there chatter? Is your mind on overload 24/7 and you can't sleep?

Are you looking for someone to make something happen for you? To 'save you' in some way or another--a 'sugar daddy or mama'? a big 'lottery win', First contact and mass landings, a religious 'someone' to come back for His 'second coming'???

You have Reiki and the power to heal across distance and time...using Universal Energy. You can feel it. You can see electronic things go haywire. You can see the healing that happens in others who ask for you to send healing their way, or to treat them with your Reiki directly face to face.

You have a spiritual community at Doctors With Reiki on Facebook and Twitter. This 'home' is built with nurturing, warmth, love and compassion. These are the same building blocks of which Heaven is constructed...everyone is welcome and the healing is free of charge every day. <3

Your soul is waiting to do its thing, and blossom under the Creator's shining heart.

You have your own connection to Creator.

It's your birth right.

In those quiet moments, you ARE 'Home' with the love that fills everything that exists.

The whole world is alive with Love, unconditional Love, the energy that is Creation itself.

Open your heart to it.

Ponder it.

Give thanks for it.

Look at every blessing as if it is brand new and you never noticed it before...

You are Forever.

And Forever...

is...

NOW.

Aloha and Mahalos,

Namaste,

Peace,

Reiki Doc

The Charlie Brown Tree

To my left is a six-dollar Charlie Brown Tree in a four-inch pot. The golden star on a stick is shining. The tiny ornaments that bent the top with their weight are half-bleached by the sun. What day is it? February 24, 2013. Christmas was two months ago!  And yet only now I have the 'courage' to admit plant growing 'loss' and toss the whole thing away. Not even to compost it!

When I saw it at SavOn, it was at the register in the plant equivalent of 'Traumatic Full Arrest'. I was good with plants, but not that good. And not with this type. I had killed many a Bonsai tree of this type of bush in my 'wanting it to be a hobby' days. There is a knack to the art of Bonsai, mainly, good outside space, plenty of light, and plenty of time to care for it. And of also not being afraid to trim when it is growing in the shape you don't want. I had the 'eye' to see the shape of my Bonsai in natural trees and mimic it with my hand. I terribly sucked at actually growing my own Bonsai. I switched to Ikebana where I have been more in my element...

My sister, bless her heart, is struggling with yet another broken heart. In her confidence to me, I picked up we had a lot in common: being attracted to the complex-difficult partner, pushing the 'nice ones' away, and being utterly confounded at why 'he cheated on her' when she asked 'for someone to be the Real Deal' up front.

She has a lot of waking up to do.

I know, for I am finished with my self-discovery of who I am and what makes me tick. Many times the symptom of molest is the ability to have all of your life in order but your personal life is a mess. 'It takes one to know one', so to speak, and I have, 'whatever-dar' to pick up those who have been through this trouble like myself.

Everyone knows about it but the person who is suffering from it. It is very much like the person who has agonized and plotted over 'when to come out' and when they do, the people in their life are like, 'we thought you would never come out'! 'The homosexual in the closet, much to their surprise, had not been fooling anybody!

So, if you are like us, and seek interest in a Charlie Brown Tree of a partner, STOP. If you suffer from one heart break after another, you are on the WRONG PATH. Turn around and go back into your Heart and LOOK. Just like in the picture above of the Crystal Cave in Sequoia National Park, go to that locked gate of your subconscious, open it, go inside and take a good look around. Around you there are mirrors that are other people and how they treat you. There are 'lessons' to help you learn more of your Truth about yourself.

For if you do not love yourself completely, adorable warts and all, you are in no position to love anyone else.

I have just come out of the cave I fell into and landed sharply on my 'bottom' eight years ago. That was at the end of my 'string of long failed relationships'. I crashed and burned. I said 'no more'.

I decided I had to be there for my family, to be strong for them, and to survive. I had a lot of healing to do when my ex clearly moved on, and I still had to interact with him for the sake of the children. Once his cell phone was in his back pocket while they were being 'passionate', and left a twenty-minute message on my answering machine, oh babies, yeah baby's, moans, the works! Fortunately I chose 'not to take it personal' and deleted it at once. Being witness to their lovemaking was a terrible knife through my heart.

But by being Open and Being Present, by Following Joy and a lot of Careful Observation, I got out of my jail that I had put myself into to survive from my trauma in the first place! After survival, many of the symptoms, hypervigilance, hyperarousal (a tickle makes you jump two feet up, you startle that easily), avoidance of triggers, and recall of events, affect the survivor with PTSD.

Reiki has helped considerably. It has helped me to stand on my own two feet and open up to work with Spirit on my Healing. This did not happen overnight. It has taken just as many years 'after the memory' as 'the memory was buried deep in my subconscious'.  I learned that I was blaming myself, on a deep soul level, and buying into a lie to protect the abuser. I did not consider myself worthy of Unconditional Love. Just like the Charlie Brown Christmas Tree, I wanted to be loved into my true splendor by another. But life does not work like that. And my 'love' for other 'shipwrecks' only pointed to how terribly off-course my own life path had been in the Heart-of-Hearts department.

I am thankful for all of my patients, my friends, and my loved ones who I have had the opportunity to share Unconditional Love--the lovingkindness from my heart to theirs. It was ultimately their Love and Persistence, and Gratitude and Acceptance, that made me see my Dis-Ease in not thinking I was 'worthy' enough to let all that Love in. Only from Heaven. Only from the Higher Dimensions, everything was able to be processed 'normally' by me. That is the headquarter for Unconditional Love, a healing power in the Universe that has nothing to do with 'taking it to the next level in relationship'.

It just is. In the Here and Now. And it is Wonderful. It is waiting to come into 3D, and lift you up to everything you have wanted to discover about Love and Life and Heaven. All you have to do it 'act as if', do your Lessons-Homework on your soul growth, and work hard at self-liberation from Untruths.

Once you come to this Truth, you are ready to step out of that Cave, and into the Sunshine where you belong. Dis-Ease dissolves completely, once and for all.

This is my message to you, baby sister, from your Sister who loves you so much. I am sorry for your heartache. I know the dreams you had, of a home, family, children. I know the emptiness that drives you to these 'relationships' with sharks of men. A snake is a snake, and a seeker must be light on her feet and alert to weed out the predators from the 'good partners'.

A man will tell you he loves you with his actions, with the way he looks at you, and the way he listens to your heart.

He doesn't have to say 'what you want to hear' to 'prove his love for you'.  If anything, to me it is quite the opposite. The 'poets' are the ones who are more interested in 'the chase' than anything else in Life. The one who is worth waiting for will go through the lessons in the Muse song, 'Madness' to make sure that the attraction is worth his interest. And will take his time until like the song by the Cure, 'Close to Me' to let you know he has made up his mind. Then YOU are free to select if 'he is right for you'. If it is, it is a 'match' or a 'stick', something mutually compatible for both of your Higher Development. But never a 'match stick' to burn up and disappear. If for any reason you are not comfortable, the Universe will send another. Just you wait!

I have to go. The mobile missile launcher Nerf tank has me under attack. The kids are trying to get me off the computer. It is a beautiful day, and I must go.

Aloha nui loa, for mau loa. Namaste,

Reiki Doc

The Mouse House

Yesterday I went to the Happiest Place on Earth.

There was a birthday, and my family and I went to have a day with no day-to-day concerns. Today I realize what important breakthroughs came to me through having fun. Now I wish to share them with you:

1) The Miracle of Here and Now:
Check in time is three o'clock. Check out time is eleven a.m. Rules are rules. Right? Not when you listen to the person you are with. We got a seven a.m. check in, plus an early entry to the park.
Next time you are sure about 'the system', go ahead and try for what you want. It may happen!


2) The Miracle of Wonder:
I noticed myself smiling as we ran from ride to ride. Why don't I smile like that every day? I thought to myself. I was laughing, and smiling, and in Heaven On Earth. At the Birthday Celebration, the  host Pat E. Cake had the children in stitches, he was so funny! Mine has not laughed like that in years.
This is our natural state. We came this way as babies. Why on Earth did we ever lose it?


3) The Miracle of Enough:
As we signed up for the Birthday Event, we were instructed to stand in a line. There was no shade, and someone in my family can't tolerate the heat. We were allowed to stand near the sign-up desk under a canopy. Even still, due to the heat the loved one had to be squirted with the fan/squirt bottle every three minutes. When the line queued up at the entrance, the woman at the head of the other line hissed at me, snarling, 'we were here LONG before you!' I was shocked by her three-dimensionality! There were plenty of tables and cakes and time with the characters for all.
Competition is so last week! Seriously. Helping one another along the way is 'in'.


4) The Miracle of Friendship:
A friend of mine frequents the park, and had made plans to be there yesterday. She has triplets. Two of them are special needs children. After the Birthday Event we met up, her family and ours. She is a dear friend whom I do not get to spend much time with. I was delighted to spend time together. What I did not know is that special needs get a front-of-the-line pass. We got to go too. This facility is adept at handling the special needs, and making everyone feel welcome.
No wonder it is inclusive to all at the Happiest Place On Earth; there is Enough for everyone to have fun!


5) The Miracle of Hope:
I began the day with the wish that one day, there would be a special button for the Make-A-Wish guests at the park so that everyone would welcome them and offer kind wishes and express appreciation to the dying individual, the same way cast and fellow guests extend Happy Birthday wishes. There are many there, as a physician, I can spot them, although most can't. I send Reiki.

Then I spent time with the triplets, who are surviving micro-preemies that are about the age as my son. The first is ambulatory, doing classwork that is two years ahead, but with impulse control. The second is hearing and mobility impaired. The third is non-verbal, hearing impaired, and non-ambulatory.
My friend had fast passes to a new ride at the neighboring park that had up to six hour waits. I had planned our day away from the crowds, although I wanted to see it too. My friend brought us over, and let me take her place on the ride. I sat next to the most impaired one, and helped her sit while her dad held up her head. And she grinned from ear to ear after the ride.
When we ascend to the fifth dimension, both of them will hear, and all three will walk normally!
I almost burst into tears at the beauty of that thought! Everyone who has lost a body part is going to get it back! We will be WHOLE again, and never get sick again!
The higher vibration of the fifth dimension is incompatible with illness and disability, which are very 3D.


6) The Miracle of Compassion:
A security worker stopped us from crossing the street in the  valet parking area of one hotel while we were trying to find our way to our hotel across the street. I don't want to get hit by a car either, but on our last ride, it was a water ride, and I got soaking wet. I am miserable and want to get back to my hotel as soon as I can. Thank you for showing me the sidewalk because I couldn't find it.
"Would you like a ride in the cart back to your hotel?" He asked.  Soon he was telling us about geology and we were at our hotel.
No true request is ever denied. I was absolutely miserable, and it touched the worker's heart.


7) The Miracle of Growth:
We never stop growing as a soul. I have a part of my soul, that is 'held hostage by the laws of this incarnation'. For some it is financial--no matter what you do, you can't seem to get it right. For me, it is matters of the heart. I fully have accepted that I am going to pass without ever having 'done right' on that one. It is my 'Loner-Humanitarian' assignment, just like Sylvia Browne has. Well guess what? Spirit showed me not one but two baby steps to take to get this part of my soul on the right track.
And I am taking them at the pace that I am ready.
There is infinite time left to repair the broken spirit. Everyone's progress is at their own pace. And yet, those of us with damaging scars left that are not physical, I suspect that life in the Fifth Dimension is capable of healing those scars in the same way as it does the physical ones.


Namaste,

Reiki Doc

Here and Now

My son earned a nickname while he was in preschool: The General. At two he was the one who was telling everyone, including the teachers, what to do and how to do it. This little one, he takes after my side of the family, unfortunately. As I watch, I have learned to guide him to the truths that have taken me decades to learn myself.

Me, 'Honey? Are you Here and Now? Or are you in the Future?'

Him, 'I am sorry. I am in the Future, Mommy. I like to plan ahead to make everything nice.'

Me, 'But what about this moment here? Are you not missing the beautiful things around you and a chance to be taking them in?'

He then focuses for about five minutes on noticing the buildings as we drive by, in particular, the number of gas stations on each corner at a major intersection as we drive by. Soon, however, he starts to talk about things that are on his mind.

Me, 'Honey, is there anything we can talk about that does not involve buying something or making plans? This is a very beautiful view, a peaceful place, and I would like to enjoy your company.'

Him, 'There I go being the General again! I don't know why I keep going off like that, but I do'. Then he directs his attention to the gas stations on the corners at the intersections again.

As we were driving, I was having a conversation with myself, my inner self. My impartial observer noticed how my emotions, unlike my son, tend to have me linger in the past. Over what once was, or who I was with at the time. So between my gentle guidance to him, my inner self was guiding my state of thinking to gently return to Here and Now myself. Like my son, I was drifting, drifting, drifting, and gently being guided back.

The naked Truth is this: your attention is the only gift you really have. You can use it to move forward in this life, by studying and making plans. You can create a life that is magnificent, and everything you ever wanted to have. You have limitless potential inside of you. The only thing that holds you back is your belief and your ability to focus on what you desire.

What you do with your attention is your choice. But by making this choice, in consistent patterns, you habituate, and this becomes your character. This pattern, with effort, can be broken with time, patience, and persistence. You can be ANYTHING that you want to be. No matter what you have done in the past.

And that, my gentle spirits, the the true gift of the Present Moment, Here and Now. You are free to create, within you mind, your fantasy life and make it come alive. With the Universe to provide for you. That is the Truth.

Ask yourself this: if you are not the one that is focusing the Magic of your Attention, then who is?

Ask yourself further: if someone else IS drawing your attention other than you, what do they have to gain by it? What do they have to gain?

If you ponder this, a good long time, you will realize that Marketing, and Mass Media, are taking up a lot of your attention. They separate you from your hard-earned income. And they take away the things you came to Earth to experience, by making you want  something else.

In your Heart of Hearts, when you are quiet, contemplative, and alone, you will find that guide there is so deep inside of you, to take you on your Path on Earth. The one you wanted most to do. For me, it was being a physician, an anesthesiologist. That was my Pie in the Sky. And I have lived it. I do it better than most of my friends I know in my specialty. I was Chief Resident because of this. I got my fellowship because of my ability. I gave it everything I had and most of my time I could have spent having fun or being in a relationship. But I paid my time to earn the chance to let folks heal with gentleness and Light.

Your Heart of Hearts is there for you. Contact it. Go ahead and make friends with it. Who knows? Tomorrow you can begin again. Heck, even the next minute you can begin again. A whole new life. The one other people will want to copy because it is so wonderful! And it will be right, just right for you.

If you are having Trouble, feel it. Let the horror go right in. It is trying to tell you something. But know that once you hear it, you will have made connection with your Heart of Hearts. And like Sudoku, with patience you will learn the patterns and solve the puzzle in your life. And look forward to the rapid growth that challenges bring.

Know you are Loved. And in the ever-present changes of the Universe, you are Special. You are Wanted. You are a  Miracle, a very Holy Miracle, of Light. You are Beautiful in every way...that is, unless you are Handsome ; )

Don't work to hard, have a good day, and take some time to yourself to play and play and play.

Reiki Doc