We Debride (pronounced de-breede)

This post is not for the faint-hearted. Not in body. Not in spirit. It is going to have some images that are medical, so if you gross-out easily, you might want to pass on this. Because I am a medically-trained person, I 'think' in medical terms. I am going to describe what's in spirit that to me, seems like what goes on in the physical.

I am also going to make the pictures less 'graphic' at the beginning and let them become more so as we work our way down.

Most of us know what to do in this situation. When there is a minor cut or scrape, the first thing that we do is clean the wound. We would never put a dressing (bandage) on something that has not been cleaned first, or else it would get infected.

This is how wounds heal...with the physical body...on the Earth.

Wounds hurt. (this one is a fake one--I've seen many wounds and this one doesn't look 'right'--it is just for the camera.

But as you can see in this picture, there is special equipment that medically trained people use to 'make everything right' and to optimize the conditions for healing to take place.

We consciously seek these people out to make sure that the conditions are right for our bodies to mend, to heal, to restore balance where the wound once has been.

This is a real wound. It's not fresh. You can see at the edges there is proof of dried clot or 'scab' formation. The inside is healing. It takes time for a wound like this to heal. Many times when I am in the Operating Room with a trauma patient, there are wounds like this on the head and arms that I tend to while the surgeons operate. I don't want the family to see their loved one looking like they have been through something and we didn't care enough to clean them up a little. As I watch the monitors and the patient, I gently wipe and cleanse each spot I find that needs it. I have done this my entire career.

As an intern in general surgery, I used to irrigate the wounds and deride them, picking out little square pieces of glass and small pieces of asphalt that had embedded themselves under the skin.

I also learned, when there is infection, or lack of blood flow in some cases, or just plain damage like in a burn, you need to cut away everything that is not-viable, all the way until you get to a deeper layer of skin that oozes and bleeds--only this can support granulation or 'new tissue growth'.

 (This is fake, too. It's not real. The pattern of the blood looks very hollywood, and so does the surroundings.)

In my line of work I have seen burns over ninety percent of the body. I have seen the pilot of an airplane who crashed at a local air show and was life-flighted to us. I have seen a bicycle rider who has been hit by a large truck. I have seen a one year old with its hand stuck in a meat grinder. I have seen a ten year old with a almost severed arm. I have seen gunshot wounds, stab wounds, impalements and brain oozing out where it shouldn't.

Yes almost all of these can heal.

They heal because it is time for it to happen, there is help, there is training, there is equipment, there are the necessary supplies, there is patience, there is courage and persistence on the part of the family and their loved ones, and there is the expectation that all is going to be well.

In this blog, with my own shared experiences as an example, I model what it is like to search out what it is in the soul that is not viable, and to go 'into the wound' enough to 'debride' it, with the faith that it will heal.

The last few months have been incredibly intense times for me to negotiate, to reconnect, and to heal with my very own Twin Soul, My Illuminated Twin Flame, Ross.

Together we have been through all of our 'conflicts', and although we love each other very much there has been an incredible amount of healing between us that we simply needed to do.

One of these areas where this manifests as 'infection' in my soul is my hatred of suffering. I argue with God, and I get in His face, and say, 'this isn't necessary' and I further state that 'I completely disagree with the so-called beauty of free will that allows suffering in any way'.

I have always had a very strong reaction to suffering. I don't like to see things that are broken, hurt, damaged, or not whole in any way.  It deeply affects me. And this has something to do with a past life, the one I once shared with my beloved sweet precious Ross, and it carries with me to this day.

Anyhow, I am beginning to see The Divine's Side Of Things.

Last night, even though we are technically 'married', Ross got down on one knee and proposed. I said 'yes!'. I said, 'I will marry you upside-down, I will marry you under the water, I will marry you while skydiving, I will marry you anywhere, any time...and yet, if in the future, for your happiness, you ask me to leave, I will forsake my own happiness to ensure you have the right to follow your own. That is how much I love you.'

And a bell went off in my mind--why would I elect to suffer at my own expense because I love another? 

Today, I was talking with Ross, about how I am so very ready to 'come up' to wherever he is right now--some higher vibration. But I caught myself. I realized how devastated my family would be if I were to go. I heard myself saying to Ross, 'I can't leave my family--it will be too difficult for them--I will stay and suffer for however long it takes until we can all of us be together again.'

That little bell in my mind went off again.

I thought about the heroes who sacrifice themselves to save others.

I thought about the Earth Angels who put themselves into horrible situations on Earth to Shine Light.

Then tonight I finally learned the lesson.

My computer with all of the baby photos on it died. I had back up with an encrypted storage device.

I forgot the password. Even through I have the family photos, as well as my novel, and my certificates in PDF format on that backup, I can't get retrieve them.

Last week, by accident, my son found the booklet with the password in a sudoku book right before bedtime. I knew the cleaning people were coming, so I put it in a 'safe place'.

I don't recall where I put it.

Today I went to the Apple store to find out what my options are.

Long story short--no password, no retrieval--no matter what.  So we searched the house tonight. I went to look one last place, and it wasn't there.

I started to cry quietly. My son has seen me cry three times. When my father died. When my nana died. And now when I lost all of the family pictures--the baby pictures.

He was concerned. He told me to think happy thoughts.

I felt like throwing up. And in that agony, I felt The Divine 'nudging me' as if to say, 'I am HERE'.
and 'I am the Healer of All Things' and 'Let GO'.

I cried a few more tears, and surrendered. There was nothing more I could do.

Soon, after, my son went upstairs, and paused for a minute on the landing. He asked, 'How much does it cost to buy a new password mom?' He came downstairs and offered me thirty-five dollars of his own money--just about everything he had--to help me 'buy a new password'.  He asked why all the baby pictures are so important to me, and said 'we can take new pictures of me now.'

Out of the mouths-and hearts--of babes! There you have it--nurturing, warmth, love and compassion...

I still don't understand it, but there is something to that 'surrendering' part. I've noticed in my own life when I have completely given up, the very things I was distraught over their not happening, suddenly happen. I don't 'get it', but I 'notice' this pattern. Have you ever noticed it too?

In Life, we never quite know if we are the blossom, or we are the bud.

We can't 'sense' it.

But in our Life's Journey, it is important that we embrace those negative experiences we'd rather not have 'met' in the first place.

The things that are troubling us and causing us pain in our spirit, are like the wounds we get from traumatic accidents.

It is important to work through them, with faith, in some Divine Being that is the Healer of All things, to let go, and to trust in the process that we shall be whole once more.

Why is there suffering?

I don't know.

All I know is that sometimes people who love someone else very much will elect to suffer to spare them their life or their pain.

And in some ways, pain shows us something that we otherwise might not see--about ourselves, and about others--who are important to us in our lives.

Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,
Peace,

Reiki Doc

P.S. I woke up to a bible quote today. I never do. But Spirit was telling me about Love. It was 1 Corinthians 13--

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1 Though I command languages both human and angelic -- if I speak without love, I am no more than a gong booming or a cymbal clashing.

2 And though I have the power of prophecy, to penetrate all mysteries and knowledge, and though I have all the faith necessary to move mountains -- if I am without love, I am nothing.

3 Though I should give away to the poor all that I possess, and even give up my body to be burned -- if I am without love, it will do me no good whatever.

4 Love is always patient and kind; love is never jealous; love is not boastful or conceited,

5 it is never rude and never seeks its own advantage, it does not take offence or store up grievances.

6 Love does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but finds its joy in the truth.

7 It is always ready to make allowances, to trust, to hope and to endure whatever comes.

8 Love never comes to an end. But if there are prophecies, they will be done away with; if tongues, theywill fall silent; and if knowledge, it will be done away with.

9 For we know only imperfectly, and we prophesy imperfectly;

10 but once perfection comes, all imperfect things will be done away with.

11 When I was a child, I used to talk like a child, and see things as a child does, and think like a child; but now that I have become an adult, I have finished with all childish ways.

12 Now we see only reflections in a mirror, mere riddles, but then we shall be seeing face to face. Now I can know only imperfectly; but then I shall know just as fully as I am myself known.

¹³ As it is, these remain: faith, hope and love, the three of them; and the greatest of them is love.

Broken Clocks

I just threw away two antique clocks. Mother had said one was mine, and it wasn't. The other I had had since college when my Uncle gave it to me, and it had never worked. Mom had taken it to the watch repairman. She said 'he'd tried his best, and he just couldn't fix it'.

She wanted me to find my own repairman to fix them.

My house has plenty of clocks. Come to think of it, my most important clock, the Kit Cat Clock, has not had the tail work for months. I haven't replaced it, either, because the time part on the cat's stomach works.

Have you ever seen an old-fashioned timepiece? It runs when you wind it. There is a spring inside that makes it go.

Have you heart the term 'wound to tight'?

That makes a clock break. And sometimes it's beyond repair..

What do I need with a bunch of old clocks that do not work? They do not keep time. They are useless.

So I threw them away. All of them. In one big swoop. Even the Kit Cat clock.

Think about the Light and how it shows the parts in your home, your schedule, your work, your society, your globe, your spirituality, your faith...and your Heart....that are not functioning for you, just like the clocks Mother gave me which do not keep time.

Why are you holding on to Broken Clocks?

There is only one Time--Here and Now.

There is only one place in our Hearts that has the Past, Present and Future as one.

In this place, there are no mistakes, only Lessons.

Now is the Time to Surrender to the Higher Ways and Allow 'No Time' to give birth to the Golden Age.


Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,

Reiki Doc

Depletion and Zonkification

“Don’t try to force anything. Let life be a deep let-go. God opens millions of flowers everyday without forcing their buds” ~ Osho

I recently experienced a mild, travel-induced gastroenteritis. Every illness I have tends to have a spiritual 'lesson' my body is trying to 'explain' to me.

This one was to submit.

To surrender.

To trust my body to heal itself.

And to get to 'know' the 'not-so-psychic'  part of me again. Also to let go and allow my loved ones with their presence to understand.

Last November I had colitis from RAW goat milk which gave me campylobacter. Some of the Touraine cheeses I had bought had an 'off' flavor but I ate them anyway. Monday night I had rigors (shaking chills) and knew I had something like the campylobacter again. I was febrile, and I had an overwhelming urge to sleep. My white count must have been about fourteen again, because last time I had those symptoms it was there. High normal is ten for WBC, typical normal is six.

I had pain.

I woke up. My friends had concern. They shared this wonderful pill Spasfon. They travel a lot, and always pack it with them. When I could I slept. Last night I made it to Paris on the train. 

My 'inner guidance' shut off. It is rare for it to go quiet. I slept, but my son was hungry. We went to the restaurant in the hotel. The service took forever. But I had a coke and it really helped. 

Sometimes we need to get back to basics.

My immunity was intact from November. The symptoms rapidly recovered. There was some hunger this morning. This morning I explained to the room service person what happened, and would they please bring bread, juice and fruit? (My son wanted French Toast). 

So even through I am in The City Of Light, Paris, for some reason, it is time to rest and regenerate.  I have given myself much Reiki. It has helped too.

I used to LOVE Paris. Now I look around and see all of the Illuminati symbolism in the architechture. This city is FULL of it. For the first time I feel the energies here. There is a lot going on. No wonder why my kid and I fought so much the last time!

When you do a lot of Lightwork, sometimes you will be depleted. Kauilapele calls it 'zonkification'. Take the time you need to REST.

When you are not feeling your best, allow your body to do what it must do to heal. The only thing I COULD hear 'spiritually' was signals from my body saying what to eat, what not to eat, and to rest.

A temporary setback MIGHT be something that is helping you to ultimately forge ahead.

Trust. Always trust in the process. Surrender and Let Go.

Right now I can feel the pull of Home, back in California. My heart also feels the 'pull' of the Loire Valley and my dear friends. But I am here, now, and going to slowly take a walk to the Eiffel Tower with my family.

No matter where you are, it is Right. Hold on to it, and listen to what you can. It might be your body, your Spirit, your Dreams, it could be anything. Just go with it.

More on what happens today, next. <3

Aloha and mahalo,
Namaste,

Reiki Doc

Would You Like To Share A Cup Of Tea?

To my right is a cup of beautiful, red, herbal Hawaiian tea. It is warm and soothing after a long day. Would you like a cup?

Sit right down, watch your breath for a few minutes, and relax.

I am going to tell you a story. It is dedicated to Lady Isis and the lesson she has taught about intuition, and surrender to the process of creation, or 'manifesting' with Spirit in our daily lives:


This cup of tea, although Hawaiian, travelled far! I bought it at the Fairmont Empress hotel in Victoria, British Columbia last September. My boy, a new Reiki Master, and I went to visit the Empress hotel. We were staying elsewhere, but it was famous and we wanted to see what it was all about. At the corner, near a statue and before I saw the statue of a famous writer, I saw her ghost. She welcomed us and invited us to walk in the garden. My son did not see her.  For some reason we felt like going to the sixth floor. We sat in chairs and watched the view. Then the ghosts came. I have written about them already,, but what is important is that we made a vortex and helped others to the light. We set the ghosts free to return Home. There was a tea shop downstairs, and for some reason the Fairmont Kea Lani tea called to me. It went back home to L.A., and now to Hilo!

Life is like that. For all the twists and turns, it is by following our intuition that we accomplish great things.

When I had attuned my friend last March to Reiki III, I checked with the pendulum when I would return to Hawaii and see her again. It said 'six months'.

But back at work, a friend who is starting a fellowship in July and had just got married, offered two weeks in June for vacation coverage. At first I felt guilt and thought to offer it to someone else. Then something inside said, 'take it'.

I decided to go to Hawaii, and I wrote a blog post about that and how the trip fell together.

What I didn't say is that there is a Goddess conference by Lady Isis, at the same place, at the same time! It was announced AFTER I had planned my coverage. Unfortunately, my flight was on Saturday, and the conference started on Friday. So only Sunday could have worked. I exchanged numbers with one of the organizers. But my text to her was answered with a 'I will call you in the morning' with no call all day. I accepted it.

After yoga at the Buddha shack, we had two options, Ecstatic Dance or the Maku'u Farmer's Market. My friend asked me where to go? I took out the pendulum (my Chakra vial and holder from peacefullscents.com) and the answer for the Highest Good was 'Farmer's Market'.

So we went. I let go of all expectation of outcome for the Cobra conference blocks away, and accepted what was happening for the best.

At one stand, some crystals called to me. There was a beautiful clear quartz crystal ball about two inches in diameter that was perfect to use when I scry, or 'see the future'. I also was drawn to labradorite (I have a nice crystal at home), and a stone carved with the Reiki Master symbol on it. They had called it the wrong name, but I thought to buy it to keep its sacred design out of public eye.

My friend wanted Reiki Master, but I hadn't been guided to commit to the attunement. The Reiki Master symbol is complex, and I need to see it when I attune. Possibly it is a sign that she is ready?

At one point I had to use the restroom. I felt a strong 'call' to go, not a biological one. (Once at Mosun in Laguna Beach, I felt that strong call to go in, even though I didn't need to go. There was a woman with a huge cut on her leg from glass. It was bleeding everywhere and she didn't know what to do. Without gloves, I examined it, and treated it, exposing myself to AIDS and Hepatitis C. I also calmed her down, and directed her to the nearest Emergency Room at Mission Hospital South Coast down the street. She was so thankful of my being there for her she looked me up--and sent a ten dollar coffee gift card to my work.)

As I came out of the stall a woman from my Healer's group at the Irvine Cobra Conference last week recognized me! She had come to the Cobra conference here! They had sent her to buy food. We were delighted to see each other. I shared how I wanted to go. She texted and called the organizer, but no response. 'Oh well' I sighed, and we both agreed no matter what it was for the Highest Good.

Back at Pahoa, I asked my friend if she wanted Reiki Master. I had felt Spirit say 'it was right'. She said yes. I showed her the symbols, and we went to the Buddha Shack for the attunement.

Their black kitten followed me into the shack. She wanted to be attuned! I started attuning her to Reiki 1 when my friend came in. The kitty was the first animal I attuned, but she was very cooperative, and it helped to instruct my friend on how the attunement process works.

Then I attuned her for Reiki Master. It is a long one, and very complicated to do. It takes a lot out of you to do it; very strong energy flows. Over her left shoulder, looking at me, I saw Kamehameha, my Reiki Master guide. I was glad he was there. He nodded at me as I worked. It went well.

Our writer friend, Tigmonk had Sat Nam scheduled to lead at a local retreat center. I offered to watch the children so both parents could attend the event. I planned to take the children to Burger King, where they wanted.

Then the phone rang.

It was the conference. I could go to the closing from six to eight p.m.! The dad offered to watch the kids so I could go; he will go tomorrow night.

It felt so good to see Lady Isis and Cobra! And I enjoyed the other people in attendance. Some I knew, most surprising was the gentleman I had sat next to on the first day of the November conference in Laguna Beach.

One woman had to leave early to catch a flight back to California--Spirit wanted ME to fill in so that the energy of the group would have the same participants in it.

And because I had the energy attunement with Lady Isis, I was the first to participate in the event! 

I expected nothing, but materials were shared with me--and the crystals I had bought were perfect for the closing activities!

One of the attendings saw the Kapuna (elders' spirits) come to see what we were doing; they were pleased. I saw some other things, too, but nothing that is pertinent to this topic.

A hula dancer in class taught us several hula dances. It was magical in every way.

Like the cup of tea, by following Guidance from accepting vacation coverage, to deciding where to go, to the timing of the flight, the activities for the day 'for the Highest Good', and letting go of the outcome, the end result was better than I dreamed!

So next time you 'have that feeling nudge you?

Listen!

You'll be glad you did.

My tea is finished. I hope you enjoyed yours too. It is pitch dark and the music of the koki frogs and crickets is one of my favorite sounds in the whole world. My son is talking in his sleep (he got that from me). The air is cool and breezy. It feels wonderful in my lungs. The only thing that could make it better is the rain...I love to fall asleep with the sound of rain falling...sweet dreams. <3

Namaste,

Reiki Doc