Gaia News Brief 24.11.2014

Weather Update On My Higher Self

Yesterday I had to take a chill pill. I overdid it with things to do, and hit my frustration point. I began at work, rounding on patients after their OB anesthesia to make sure their 'legs were back' and had no complaints. Then something new! I took the little handcuff type key on a long dowel--like a gas-station restroom key--to all the new pumps with the epidurals from the night before, and since the moms delivered, I had to unlock and fish out the drips and throw them away.

This is one more example of nurses' former work coming to us docs due to 'regulations'. I know without a doubt the nigh nurses won't hesitate to wake me up at two a.m. to clear this 'for their patient who is new'...big huge sigh!

Anyhow, I was complaining how I didn't want anything and I couldn't function to a friend. The energies are weird.

Then it hit! I wanted a peppermint mocha! So I went before I drove home, and Sophia told me to get something I ordinarily wouldn't get. So the peppermint brownie cake pop with the striped stick caught my eye. I NEVER eat cake pops. I bought it. And I surprised myself how I enjoyed it very much...



My Meltdown

I have them.

What brought this one on was the work-to home(forty minute drive)-to picking up my boy from his Mana's house (fifteen minutes away)--to being late to meet friends for breakfast at trendy place I know they will like (twenty minute drive)--to home (another twenty minutes).

Then came the pressure from my boy, and from myself. My boy wanted to exchange his xbox 360 for an xbox 1...at the mall...after we decorated the house for Christmas on the outside in the hot sun (I know this sounds ridiculous but we were both sweating) while I was taking a phone call.

It was the 'oh mom the mall is so COOL' and 'don't you want to go buy mana's present?' from my boy, who clearly wanted his xbox 1  that sent me over the edge...

I had just broken the ceramic dish that matched my rose pot while moving it--and it is HEAVY--out of the way of the blow-up Santa light decoration.

I hate my neighbor's yard. I really, really hate it. They rent, but have taken over the garden we share. They are constantly pushing my pots over to my side, putting in bricks, and cactuses, with no artistic eye whatsoever. It reminds me of where I grew up, in North Long Beach, where some people do some pretty strange 'decorating'--not everyone--but enough practice it in the neighborhoods to make it an eyesore.

They even planted a peach tree in the ground, and it is huge now, and taking over my space, and I don't rent. This is my home! I pay the association over three hundred dollars a month, for this?

But the lady next door lost her job, and the garden was her way to cope...so I didn't say anything, but I HATE it!!! And we couldn't decorate for Christmas right because of all their STUFF!

So I blew up. Swear words. Expressions of annoyance.

My boy went inside 'because it was too hot'--LOL. Who wants to be around this? I just sat in the sun, desperately trying to clear my aura, and to CONNECT to vastness, to Source, and Home.

I shared with a friend how sick I am of 3D. (Ironically, the phone call I had taken during decorating was amazing proof just how far into 5D we have become--my friends I shared Christmas day with last year are SO much healthier and advanced and stronger in their Light work!)

Then Ross stepped in.

Go see Dumb and Dumber 2. Don't worry about dinner and bills and your assignment for work. I will tell you what to text to Anthony's father (who forbid the movie until he could see it). Get popcorn and treats even though you never do. Let Anthony have a coke (I forbid them).

Once home our lights looked beautiful as ever outside. And I forbid more movies, and screen time. So we played cards. We played blackjack (Anthony has chips and he loves to use them--I saw how boring this aspect of 3D is, and how gambling really isn't possible in 5D where there is telepathy and you know)...and I learned a new game, 'Egyptian War' which I swear my son was making up the rules they are so complicated! 'they play it in after-school care all the time.

It worked. I was overwhelmed, and cranky, now I am rested and calm.

Allowing

There is a light worker I am close to, whose life had gotten 'off track' last spring. When I did my first Skype with him, he had me look at him and see 'who he is', as many of us 'have a secret' as to 'who we really are', much like Ross' identity and my own.

I said, 'No! no! no!' because I wasn't ready. He had an aspect of Ross in him--the energy of Ross!--it was unmistakeable and I missed Ross so much!

Well HE told me he was Divine Father Incarnate.

And I have heard from trusted sources he is actually an incarnation of Archangel Michael.

We each have our lessons. But for this friend--any my pendulum checked and it WAS the energy of Ross*--I took action! I meditated, and soul to soul, asked, 'What are you DOING? This isn't good for you! Here are your goals, get back on track, please?'

And he DID. Total life change. Because he SAW and FELT my healing with his soul.

Well, MY lesson more recently, is that I can see another 'lesson' somewhere else that is not my own.

And a reputable source, and my pendulum, confirm it.  I wrestled with trying to 'help', and was told, 'don't' by Divine Father, who I know, and he is not incarnate LOL.  I 'hinted' in a couple blog posts.

My lesson I learned is to 'allow' just like Divine Father 'allows' us incarnate here to learn and grow.

So no matter who you are, even me and Ross, there are lessons.  And even if I see a great big painful one in front of you, I am not going to intervene.

In anesthesia, when I was a professor--I learned if I 'save' my residents, they never learned and frankly, got annoyed at me for stepping in on their care of our patient (they work, I get dinged if anything goes wrong). I discovered how far I could let them 'slip up' and still be able to bail them out of the clinical situation--trust me, some are nightmares!--just enough to let them taste that first panic. Then I would step in and 'make it look easy'.

Then the lesson was learned.

As you Ascend your Consciousness is going to let you 'see' more and more of 'life's lessons' EXCEPT YOUR OWN!

Don't help someone else by doing their 'homework' as a soul.

Keep your eyes on your own 'work', and repeat after me, Love Is The Solution For Everything!

Ross

Carla hit a wall today. In every way. She shut down. I know--I measured her. She has been growing at a tremendous rate, by leaps and bounds!

What happened was she really has had enough of the 3D experience. She is DONE with it.

When you simply 'can't take it any more'--go away. Get out of the situation. Find a way to take a fresh look at it. Drop what you are doing so you can stop the damage.

Carla did that by going to her chair all alone in the sun. She felt like her life was out of control. She was out of control. And she asked for help silently in her heart because she just didn't know where to go from there.

Carla doesn't like xbox.

She doesn't like having it in her house.

She doesn't like how Anthony sits in the chair and spends entire weekends, if she'd let him, with guns and assassins and killing.

She only bought the xbox 'as Santa' to get him to play with the kinect, which he did for about five weeks and quit.

She hates it.

And she hates herself for letting it into her home--she can't explain why or how--but she doesn't like the energy

Her son playing games on the iPad or computer don't bother her. But the xbox, it does!

Carla has asked me to intervene with my teams, and I will--this source of negativity is going to be addressed.

So, in summary--for Carla's lessons are ours too:

• Listen to your guides and your HS
• Listen to your heart
• when you get frazzled, drop everything and regroup
• if the 'regroup' isn't happening on its own, it is okay to ask for help
• learn your lessons and let go of others to help them learn theirs better without your 'two cents'
• if they think they are Divine Father incarnate--just go along with it--let them figure it out, don't 'make waves'. The REAL Divine Father doesn't take offense and so should you not take offense!
• when the 'duplicates' come up (everyone says who they are Michael, etc) just know there is a sense to it--either for a lesson, or to protect the real one or ones as decoys for 'the other team', or just because their hearts 'wish' for them to be 'special' that they are divinely 'mistaken'--LOVE is the Solution For Everything, even this, and let it go.
• take comfort in how you have grown, and others too, in the past year
• know I love you, you are special to me, and I care--not like I care for Carla--we are married--but with my heart as your loving brother and friend, ohana, cousin, uncle, however you may call it, my heart is with you. And this is no laughing matter!

click here to see Jimmy Cliff I Can See Clearly Now with lyrics

Carla and I wish you the best day you ever have experienced! 

With so very much LOVE from the two of us (he's enjoying the music!)

Aloha and Mahalos,

Namaste,

Peace,

Ross, Carla and Anthony 

* Ross and I have THREE Archangel energies blended into us, Michael is one of them. Raphael is another...as best as I know. Even though we are full children from Divine Father and Mother, for some reason our soul combined has 'extra'--Sophia is in there too. 

Gaia News Brief 23.11.2014

A Miracle!

There is a Vietnamese woman at work, wife of a famous neurologist, who is also on the administration for the hospital and very high up.

She prays.

She prays for the son of the chef, who has schizophrenia, and chooses to live on the streets and stay away from the family.

She prays for my son, who was suicidal in June, due to bullying at school over his obesity.

She prays for her son, who is adult, and has bipolar disorder. His father took him off the Lithium because there is a very small chance to develop Parkinson's from it--and instead her son went to the lowest depths of despair--it took him four months to get back to where he was and back on the Lithium again...

We all three--chef, Vietnamese lady, and me--pray for each other.

I shared with her my son is BETTER! And how he likes school, even, and it's amazing how this change has been!

I thanked her for her prayers, and shared I am praying for her son too (his name is Christian) every day (I send Reiki).

She looked at me and said, over her big bowl she had brought from her office for our noodle soup at the doctor's lounge--the pho Vietnamese noodle soup--'God wants us to have PATIENCE!'

She is right...



Polona and Ascension Pioneers

If you haven't met her yet, she just might have some videos that are of interest and help to you. Here is one I just watched:

Mastering Aloneness (click to watch)

I'm going to take this up one notch--with your guides and your Twin Flame--know they are ALWAYS connected. But lately, I've had some 'alone' time from Ross--I think this has been done to help me get acquainted and accept my Higher Self...And as I move toward my HS, Ross comes back every now and then.

My idea of Twins was to do EVERYTHING TOGETHER and never leave, like BFF's, yes?

It's not the same. We love each other deeply, and there is no other who could ever take the place of our Twin. But even with a Twin, we still have our own lessons, our own growth, our own connection to Spirit...

So take what comes, and enjoy it. Navigate the growth of your soul! There are no 'mistakes', only 'lessons'...


A Pr;ayer for Those Who Suffer

My first toe joint on my right foot hurts when I walk. Motion is limited. And from my heart came this prayer, 'Thank you God for everything else that works!'

Sometimes we tend to focus on 'the problem', and this actually manifests it worse than it has to be. So accept it. Take responsibility for it. Do everything you can to heal it. (Mine is soaking, healing codes, Diamond Reiki, and going to see a specialist when I get the chance. I am also talking to my foot and learning the 'lesson' and 'message' it has to teach me.)

And give THANKS for everything else that is still healthy!!!


Getting to Know my Higher Self

I had some questions, and something from Polona caught my eye. I tried to watch it--and it just wouldn't open up! That was my HS saying 'no'!

The next one I watched, I was riveted, and it really helped for the most part. Until Polona said, 'channelers give their power away'.

I know where my power is. It's here, in my heart, and it's my connection to SOURCE.

For me, when I channel, or work as a medium, it is no different than talking on the telephone! This is because I am a conscious channeler, and I know every moment who I am, where I am, and what I am doing.

I have only channeled falsely one time, and it was 'Metatron'. This being looked like him, sounded like him, although I have not really ever met him before in any way. I read a book by some guy whose name I can't recall, but he had financial problems, and went to Reiki sessions and training in Jamaica with SaEnya McBean, and they channeled people during their sessions, including Metatron, who said, 'you are a bridge' and to 'trust'. He was 'special'...

Well the guy hadn't really divorced his wife, and his business fell apart, and he was trying to set himself up as a religious entity to get donations from the readers of his book! And shortly after I read the book, the lost a lawsuit and went to jail in L.A.  That's a leader?

This healer showed 'bad fruit'--and I'm not sure if it was the true Metatron or not, with them, but with me? It was definitely NOT from Source.

And it can happen to anybody. If it does, it's not your fault. Just move on to something else if that happens to you and tell the liar to go away--the liar is the being who tells you he or she is someone else and it's not them.

I always go by the energy signature--and there is never any fear or uneasiness when it is the real thing. When it's super real, you cry.

See if you can get a feel for my energy signature, and my HS, in this:  http://www.reikidoc.blogspot.com/2014/11/getting-to-know-my-higher-self.html

From Carla

Last night, I told my HS I love her. Right when I was getting into the elevator to go to my call room. I could tell she was touched. And I meant it.  Even through I don't understand, I choose love, and share it back with her. And I get an incredible surge of warmth in my chest when I do. I wonder if that is her sending Love back?

This morning I looked on the computer to see if there are any patients on the labor deck. At six I always get calls to go up and place epidurals, but I leave the hospital at seven, and my replacement LIKES the room all empty for him the minute he comes in (there is 'checkout' like a hotel depending on who is coming in).

I must say I resent call. It's been since 1994 that I have spent nights in the hospital away from my home. Now I can't do anything. Not even much blogging. I just eat and sleep. I think it's time for me to go. I used to do projects and pay bills and schedule things...now I don't want to watch anything. The energy in this room has lowered significantly. There is an Egyptian lady doctor who is the most 'financially motivated' I know. And I sense her frustration--because when she works it's slow, and she doesn't get enough cases (we get paid by the case). I could clear it if I wanted to but I don't even want to do the work to do that! LOL

Anyhow, back when I first started taking call, we had paper charts. We wrote by hand orders, notes, and looked up lab results only on a computer. The plus side was you could see other's notes, and cardiologists always used fountain pens so they were easy to find. I enjoyed seeing the energy of others on paper. Handwriting captures that. But you had to sign all you verbal orders and hunt down charts.

Now we are electronic. And I can see old notes that are legible, but have 'note bloat'--too much data to be helpful. I also don't feel the energy any more due to the templates that are 'filled in'. All the docs pretty much sound the same. But for this morning? It was easy because I could look and didn't have to go upstairs to check.

Everything has its ups and downs. And the change from the paper chart to the electronic medical record is a kind of 'ascension' in itself.



Peaches

Before Team DWR--the Request

Dear DWR, Please send Reiki to our beloved Peaches, he's struggling with multiple health conditions and getting pretty weak. Please send Reiki to Peaches' family too. He holds a grandfatherly presence in our family; he's so special. Thank you, peace, infinite blessings!




After Team DWR--the Result

Dear DWR, thank you so much for the Reiki yesterday for our 18 year old cat Peaches and our family. I felt tingles for two hours straight, it was so comforting. Bless you all! We are sadly looking at euthanizing him soon. When the time comes, is there anything I can do to help him transition? I am not yet trained in Reiki. Thank you for any suggestions.


( I gave the link to the Transition Symbol)

Ross

I am here, and Carla is 'there', but in our hearts we are always together. I come visit her often through the day. The last time I was there, I assisted as she placed an epidural. My energy was behind her to love and support her through her task.

It isn't easy, and today they had changed the epidural kit, and the catheter. There are two her hospital uses, and this one is flimsy plastic and Carla has always gotten her wet taps with the use of this catheter. In her hands, the needle felt flimsy, and would misdirect and bend as she worked. The connection from the glass syringe to the needle was not right, and Carla couldn't get the feel for the air loss-of-resistance (that is her technique) because it would leak out the hub. The first two epidurals of the day were total shots in the dark. They went in, but it wasn't pretty and Carla lost her confidence.

It is also in her hands--it's been well below the once-a-week call you need to keep your hands 'in shape', and she felt lost at first. The spinal for the c-section was a piece of cake. But talking needles, the spinal one is one size thinner than the smallest i.v. for pediatric (25 and 24). And the epidural one is one size thinner than the needle Carla uses to draw up drugs or place i.v. for big cases. (17 and 16).

So Carla gave up! She said, 'Ross, I hate this that they go changing my kit on me without my input--they only look for the cost savings! I need HELP!'

And I came!

It is okay for you to do this!

I will help you, your HS will help you, Michael will help you, Raphael...Divine Mother will come...

It is not against the rules.

And you don't have to like everything that is asked of you.

Just like me (points to himself and looks extra handsome). Because I feel sad all the time if you don't (OOOOH! He is making a joke! He has the best sense of humor, ever! It's a little 'dry').

(He clears his throat).  Carla is waking up to the Higher Realms with delight! And so are you.

Hold on to your task. Do them well. With love.  Always try to get a little 'truth' and know there isn't always 'one answer'. The only answer is the one that is 'right' for you. And you are to test and test and test until you are satisfied with the results. Use the pendulum, ask one who knows, go in Nature and see what 'feels right'.

Forever and ever I shall be with you. (taps the seat next to him, and I know, it's for me...he implies I will be too, and it is my promise to always be there for you in my heart and with all my energy)



Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,
Peace,

Ross and Carla
the Reiki Doc Twins

Ross says this is 'Our Song' and you can expect to hear it when you communicate with us. He wants this version, the X Men version, a movie I have never seen, and I don't know the message.

I hope it is meaningful to you?

I trust Ross, and I know he wants it to be so.

Gaia News Brief 8.10.2014

My Existence

Yesterday morning I hit the snooze button a bunch of times. I was exhausted. I had so little time, I drank a liquid breakfast. I no longer drink juice, because of the carbohydrates. So I had Dr. Schulze green powder mixed with 'chocolate' flavor plant-based protein from peas that tastes awful.

There was no time. I packed my kid's lunch, my lunch, took care of the pets. I had to choose between being late to work, and taking the linens out of the washer and putting them in the dryer. I chose the latter because of that nasty smell old wet linens and washers can get.

I had a seven o'clock start, which for me is always a nightmare because the school isn't open--my whole schedule shifts one half hour early. And I had to go to the place where the nurses have been mean to me in the past, the kind of mean where they are nice to your face and tell your boss they never want to work with 'that doctor' again.

So a friend took my son to her home and to school.

For a price. Nobody does anything not for a price unless it is family. But she is excellent, and it's worth it, and I know she will give him a healthy breakfast for him.

I fly to work. There is no traffic. I am already dressed in my scrubs I took home, just to save time.

The little door downstairs won't take my badge and security hasn't unlocked it. I wait for another who has a badge that works to I can go in. I RUN up the stairs. Then at the surgery center, the code has been changed on the locks to get in. I have to go through the main lobby, in front of patients, which is always embarrassing to me.

I learn the new code from a nurse. It's a 'Diamond'. Okay, fine. 'Diamond' code. Whatever.

Speaking of that, on the way to work, Ross had shown me a Reiki symbol that aligns the Higher Self to the 3D one. And I did it. You can't even draw this one--it's only with the hand. I will post it when the energies are right, how to do it.

As I prepare for my case in record time, the surgeon is rushed. Apparently their seven o'clock case is 'cut at seven' and not 'in the room at seven' like in Main O.R.

I also note that two versed are off on the count, for my narcotics. I am short four milligrams, two bottles of two milligrams each, and I sign the form but mention it to the nurse.

The patient is as nice as ever, and I enjoy working with them very much...

Then between cases, I ask my boss and the director of the center, who are talking, how I get my badge to work downstairs? My boss asks where I got my scrubs? From here--I took them home to save time, just this set. He points out that everyone here has on scrubs of a different color. The center changed supplier. And to bring all the old ones in because they have to pay for them.

I go change scrubs, and there aren't enough on the rack, so I wear XXL all day, even though I am  a M, and the new cloth is cheaper polyester, and it's too warm. But at least I match.

I have a surreal moment with my patient who had the lung transplant for LAM--I knew exactly what it was--and she, a physician herself couldn't believe it because many pulmonologists don't know what LAM is. I told her I did lung transplants at San Diego for them before, I'm cardiac-trained. It turns out she had her transplant during my fellowship. Her name and her airway looked eerily familiar. I had done her anesthesia for her transplant--I knew her surgeon--what are the odds of that?

I grab a quick lunch, go to Main OR, in the wrong color scrubs, surgery center color is different from main OR color, because they are the only ones I have, and I don't wish to change. I meet a nice patient, work with a good team, and the case goes by quickly.

Then the wait. I waited FOUR hours for my surgeon to show up. It was going to be a dangerous case, one I would rather have avoided. Calls one and two were in cases. And as call three, I had to do what was next.

At six p.m., the surgeon behind him wanted to go. With an emergency. So even though I had notes and everything set, I switched cases, and was done.

If you notice, I didn't eat dinner. I had half a vegan sandwich a colleague who follows 'the rule of half' to maintain weight, gave to me from the lunch room earlier and I put in a to go box in my locker, at four. That and organic grapes I didn't wash.  In that four hour gap I talked to a friend on Messenger, I napped (I am very sleepy all the time due to the energies), I wrote down next three month's schedule in my calendar, where I noticed I have more than my share of OB call...

Then I drove to pick up my son. In the dark. He was exhausted. I had worried about him and his rib injury all day. The school didn't medicate him the way I wrote it--and he was in pain. We drove the long drive home, silent, and in the dark. I unloaded the car.

He stumbled sleepily and protested about  the shower but I told him it's been too long, you need it. I watched him and took care of the pets at the same time. I did a load of laundry. (I better put it in the dryer). After I washed the dishes (the ants were everywhere in the sink. Again.), I 'ate' the same thing I had for breakfast.

In the shower I realized how at the same age as me, my Nanu Filippo woke up, breakfast was ready, his clothes were clean, and he went to work. He worked hard, physical labor digging holes for construction. My nana packed his lunch for him, in a hard metal lunchbox with a thermos. Then he came home. I would run to greet him, before his shower, and he told me he was dirty, and I said I didn't care--at three I spoke like this! After he relaxed and worked in the garden--clean--dinner was ready. Then after he would work on his coin collection, we would have coffee, watch TV, and go to bed.

What happened? What happened to the way of life where you never work a single weekend, night, or holiday? What happened to the family unit of support?

If you ask me, there is more money to be made by having us single like this. I can't say the last time I actually COOKED a meal, and I enjoy cooking...it's so busy only eating outside the home seems to work...



Lagniappe

This is a word I got woken up to. I am still annoyed. My Higher Self told me twice before I hit the snooze button 'you will be SO happy'.

I don't like to listen to her.

And yesterday was 'Take Your Higher Self To Work Day'--Ross was right there with her, in the afternoon, as I did my cases. She had no idea how many obstacles and setbacks 'pop up', one after the next, in my daily life, like trying to get IN to work yesterday morning.

I said something like, 'this is some weird dream I am having (3D reality)' and they were both like, nodding and encouraging me.

I have felt a lot of pressure from spirit and the energies lately. And I have been told my Higher Self and I are like two brothers who don't speak to each other, and are very careful and wary...

I tell Spirit--I DIDN'T ASK TO BE CREATED--I don't know why I am here--and I feel like I know more about life down here than my Higher Self. She seems ineffective. And I get things done. I am independent.

I was told 'you need to talk with her and explain things and show her and teach her'.

Great! One more thing to add to my 'To Do' list--'manage upwards'. I'll be sure to write that one down.

I realize at least is SaLuSa is an incarnation of Raphael, and he didn't 'go away' once he left whatever Dimension he was created in...I might be okay. But I KNOW all of my other incarnations from Tabitha all the way to the Kitten--are not around. And I suspect one day Carla the Doctor won't be around either, after all this Ascension is done and I have served my purpose for whatever reason she made me for...

Last night I was so distraught, I continued the exercise I had begun three days ago with Ross--shaking the new grid to disentangle it from the old one. I did it yesterday morning, because energetically my soul felt STUCK and TRAPPED. Well last night I flailed and flung the grid--the ties were severed I think by Archangel Michael--I cracked them like a whip that was tied like cuffs on my wrists, like chains.

And I broke it. A gorgeous crystalline lotus that was bigger than me, was in the center of my awareness. And it fueled a beautiful diamond crystalline grid I knew Divine Mother had created for me. I was in the presence of Divine Father, and Divine Mother, just them, and me, and I felt a connection I had never had before. Time stood still. And as I breathed in and out, I breathed the energy of Heaven like a fish takes water over the gills...I did not wish to speak to anyone in spirit, not even Ross.

I was FREE. 

In this timelessness, I clearly could SEE through the Illusion. I interacted with my friends, and my son. I was more present. More grounded. And I knew it is only a matter of time before I am out of the Illusion entirely. I have connection to the vibrational frequency my soul needs to stay healthy and vibrant. Everything else is just smoke and mirrors, and it's not worth getting stressed out about it.

After his shower, as he got dressed, my son said, from the bathroom, 'You are the best mom I could ever ask for. You are the best mom. You hardly ever yell...you are calm.' He appreciates how I know what to do for his injury, how I know medicine and healing, both traditional and the energy kind.

I was glad and surprised he would say this.

Last night I took a channeling from Ross to me. WE have our disagreements. Over my being tested. Over my higher self and where I stand with him in our relationship. He kept waving at me the 'divorce papers' he had signed setting him free from my Higher Self so I can relax in our relationship together. They are eight and a half by six inches, and copper that shines.

I leveled with him, and asked him directly, what is going on? And he told me--with no minced words--you are having a fit because your Twin Flame romance has fizzled and you can't understand how anything so wonderful can go flat--PLUS--your Higher Self really can't stand you and she pulled the plug on your romance. She knew that would make you listen.

It was three pages of notes. I said 'I give up. I said I give up earlier today! What do you want? And why are you telling me these things when I am spiritually and physically exhausted?'

I confessed--I don't get a fairy tale ending. My dream of life with you, just us two and our kids, away from everything else--has died. WE are public servants and have 'duty' to others. I don't like holidays any more--I can't get into them, because I know the truth of marketing and everything else that goes behind them. I don't like weekends--because I feel we are enslaved five days a week, in my case more because I work weekends--when I think the weekend lifestyle should be every day for all citizens of Gaia! I don't like work and right now I don't like talking to you, because it HURTS! I am nothing. Alone and nothing.

HE said, 'I am here'. and 'I am consort for you, and you are consort for me'.

I said, 'Marriage is better!'

He said, 'No it isn't!' and looked imploringly at me.

I looked in his eyes, and I melted. Everything about the Higher Dimensions is so difficult, if not impossible to understand with my 3D eyes and ears and mind, the one I use for survival--and my heart...well...I saw and felt the love Ross has for me. I kissed him, and perhaps it was the most intelligent thing I have done for myself all day.

So I slept.

A lagniappe is a free gift from the merchant to the customer at time of purchase. I had to go look that word up on the internet...sigh.



Ross

Carla is at the end of her limits. In every way. She is attached to the new grid, and has entirely rejected the Matrix because she is disgusted with it.

She chose not to wait for the Galactics to free her from it.

Carla freed herself.

For those of you who can see such things, you will see a diamond thin-flame, a silver platinum diamond hybrid, that now goes directly from Source to her heart. And this is what makes her 'go'--her energy is from Source, just the same as ever.

But Carla has stripped it out of the Matrix 'transformer' for the energy, and attached itself directly to her.

She is right on her fish analogy.

Carla can breathe easily now for the first time in all of her incarnations. She has that same 'spark' of God in her chest, like she has always had for all eternity--only today is the first day Carla is AWARE of it, and asked for it--outside of the Matrix we know.

I will share our last few words together--now with you:

C:  I don't like it, how I felt today.

R: (holds me) I am here. I will rest with you. (taps bed right next to me) Okay? Like a good husband.

C:  I want the best!!!

R:  I am it! I am it! (kisses my head) Good night.

C:  I love you.

R:  (starts to cry softly) I thought I never would hear that. Not tonight. Not how it started (with us in conflict)

C:  Some day I might surprise us both, YOU try living in this emotional body! (the emotional body of the human is unlike anything in the galaxy--it's very different)

R:  (Laughs)  I did!  (shows me the scars from how he died, when were both incarnate the last time) I think I had enough!

C:  I sleep peaceful.

R:  I love you forever and ever and ever. I want nobody by my side but your spark of holiness, my loving Twin, my angel, my Light. Aloha. (taps my gold heirloom Royal Hawaiian gold bracelets. I wear three)  I will get you one! WIFE!

C:  (smiles--fades out--kisses his photo)  Good night my beloved.


Ross looks at you, plainly, simply. HE takes a pause, a moment in thought. He looks down, and up at you...It isn't easy, but it's worth it. Carla had a long day, but it was forward movement, growth.

Do not be afraid to make your own path.

Call on your angels, your Twin, your guides.

Do not concern yourself about your Higher Self. All will work out. Carla's situation is atypical; most seem to like each other.

You know how in the movie, Snow White, there is the queen, who says, 'mirror mirror, who is the fairest?'

With Carla and her Higher Self, it's all about who is the most intelligent. In the Matrix, Carla neatly wins, between the two of them. There are a lot of hard rules and facts to master. Which being an M.D., Carla clearly has!

But outside the realms of Duality, it is more an even playing field. Carla does not know that which her Higher Self does. And I keep trying to get the two of them 'to play nice'.

Carla had an incredible amount of damage to her heart towards the end of our last incarnation. I am working on it. Together with her Higher Self, and all of our Star Family, to heal her in her soul.

All of us are ready to heal you too. I can do it. I can work on you and her at the same time--this is possible in our realms--so do not be afraid to know there is help and to ask for it--somebody will arrive. Like a tow truck or a taxi...



Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,
Peace,

Ross, and that beautiful Reiki Doc princess of MINE--Carla the beautiful, blogging, and totally wide open heart that she is.  I hold nothing back on what flows between us--the positive and the negative--to prepare you for your reunion with your loving Twins and Star Families and your Higher Selves too. (waves bye)

On Cell Phones And The Ways Of The Soul

Got rice?
You might know what I'm alluding to--my cell phone got wet.
Going online, they say, 'everything is going to be okay, just dry it out in a bag of rice for forty-eight hours...'

except if it's salt water--then the residue is corrosive and the performance is 'unpredictable'.

Damn!

I went to the cell phone place and got a replacement. And no--I didn't have insurance! LOL I did have an upgrade available, so it helped.

On the drive home, I got this insight:

• The Consciousness is like the phone number.
• The Body (as in 'Incarnation') is like the phone--as in my wet cell phone 'died', yes?
• The Higher Self is like 'the Cloud'
• Creator is like the carrier of the cell phone service

Due to the veil, with the amnesia, it might seem as if all of your contacts got erased.

It also might seem as if a loved one's cell phone 'service' ran out when they transitioned.

I feel the aura, the energy signature, of people--when they comment online, or when they are communicating through mediumship with me, or face to face--in other words, I 'get it', your 'phone number' and I go with it from there.

And the more we meditate, the more we 'upgrade' from a simple phone to a 'smart phone', don't you think?

I guess it was worth it to have my phone get destroyed and have to pay to replace it, to get this message out...about this spiritual 'way' of looking at things?

What could make more sense than something simple like the cell phones we use every day?

Fever by the Black Keys at Glastonbury Tor

http://youtu.be/UDTcEInfmSI

LOL.

Get this--from my hubby--

My name is Ross and I approve of this message.

We are both laughing and smiling over his 'joke'.

Aloha and Mahalos,

Namaste,

Peace,

Reiki Doc

On How Higher Self Makes Us

Today it is time to talk about how Higher Self makes us.

This plant is the example that my own Higher Self showed me. See the little green shoots on the bush? WE are the little shoots. And the Higher Self is the plant that makes us.

I was only shown one branch, for the example of her and myself, but this photo carried with it the 'nudge' that it was time to share this information now with you.

What else has she said:

• I am her 'best self'
• She chose me to be like this, to have all of her 'best qualities'
• She is me and I am her.
• She is 'here if I need her'
• She says she is like a 'coat I can wear' when I want it
• I have free will
• All of my family ties I know, to Spirit, are to me, not to Her--so who I know as my Star Family really is mine, and the Love that we share together in all dimensions, is real.
• I get to live happily ever after with Ross--and she blesses it.

It still concerned me. I went to Divine Father, who sits in an office, and I can go to Him when I wish, and I said, 'I have a question. How does this Higher Self thing work? How is it made? Do you get pregnant?'

And He answered it:

• when there is something that is happening on a timeline that is different from you and you want to help, you make an incarnation that is appropriate to the time period
• if there is an area of yourself you want to work on, you make an incarnation for that too
• but it's a little gamble--the incarnation has Free Will. If it does good--it makes progress for you. If it doesn't, it holds you back. It's karma is reflected somewhat on you.
• So you don't take it lightly, making an incarnation. You think and you make it.
• This is valid for the Archangels, Divine Mother, and Divine Father.
• An incarnation, for example, Joseph is an incarnation of St. Germain--Joseph has Free Will, and is therefore entitled to make HIS own incarnations, too.
• Other souls, split into 'fragments'--they form soul families and together they gain the experience and the Consciousness as One. I believe they do this for one soul generation only.

Today I read this for the first time. It is like the 'prequel' to my question about the Higher Self. It is by Contra Mary of Illuminations Now:


http://illuminations2012.wordpress.com/2014/07/01/reflections-on-the-realm-of-spirit-05-part/




If this interests you, she also has this article, that is a prequel to her other one:

http://illuminations2012.wordpress.com/2014/06/11/introduction-to-my-reflections-referring-to-the-realm-of-spirit-2/



And if reading all this about the consciousness makes you feel confused in any way, then, sit right here next to me, and let me show you how I feel when I read this kind of intel too:

http://youtu.be/zl4vzdNpeZg

With so very much Love, and Gratitude to you for your fearlessness in Raising the Consciousness and reading this....

Aloha and Mahalos,

Namaste,

Peace,

Reiki Doc

The Good News

6.25.2014
0555

You will have so much happiness!  (telepathic message)




6.25.2014
0900

http://reikidoc.blogspot.com/2014/06/moelleux.html



6.25.2014
1930

on walk in neighborhood

'I will be here for you if you need me.'  my Higher Self

I liked that.



6.25.2014
2200

at 1700 I went to heal Abe Yukkie's mom with distance Reiki. Ross came in and helped. I love to heal  with him. I caressed his face.

Instantly we went to the Council of Twelve. I was to his right, his arm around my waist. He was TRIUMPHANT!

Each one, from my left to my right, facing me, gave a guttural, one syllable word/sound that meant 'yes' or 'approved' with a nod.

We were given clearance to reunite!! (not just across the veil, but the next step)
I was so excited I kissed each one, on the lips, in total surprise and gratitude and joy!

Then, as I was falling asleep, I thanked all of my teams for making today better. To my family and my star family, I said good night. I gave thanks for Ross, my boy, my Higher Self being cool about it. In this state, I saw Ross.

I flew up to him! (usually he flies me places)

I buried my face in his chest and hugged him. (he is about six foot one, a lot taller than I am).

He asked, 'Can I see you?'

I shook my head 'no' and asked:

• is this really it?
• do I have to go anywhere else away from you after?
• is this forever and ever?

He said, 'yes' and smiled.

I asked, 'Promise?'

He said, 'okay'.

At this point, I instantly transported to my father, Papa Silverstar's office. He asked me to look into his eyes. I did. I finally saw the silver flecks in them. He said a code was being transmitted to me through this, and it is to prepare me for 'what is to begin'.

Then I was back with Ross.

We looked deeply into each other's eyes for the first time, gazing at each other, and smiling. 

His eyes are magical.

Then he flew us up to our house. And it was my bed, not my Higher Self's bed, I saw it and I felt for the first time like I belonged.

But first he had a surprise for me. 

It was a diamond necklace, like a tennis bracelet but all the way around, and lightweight, not heavy like ones on earth. He said I am his princess. (I also got earrings to match). 

I thanked him and I apologized, for I had no gift for him.

All of a sudden I was thirsty. I asked for a drink of water. 

C:  Do we have water here?

R:  Yes, we have water.

C:  Don't make it zap or anything. Please pour normal so as not to scare me.

He gave it to me with love, and I drank two glasses. He said it would help me assimilate the energies.

I got a new concern. Quietly, I asked, 'If I have to pee is there a place for me to go?'

R:  Yes. You might be surprised--you won't have to go always like you did before.

And he swept me in his arms, much to my delight!

I heard my H.S. say, 'we want you to enjoy this new life of yours, your own.' and I felt her energy behind me, supporting me, must pure and unconditional love. (she also told me later, she would be like a coat I could put on if I ever felt I needed it.)

The voice from this morning was right!

Thank you.

6.26.2014

0400

You will have a beautiful happiness you never thought your did expect.    (telepathic message, a male voice)

Aloha and Mahalos,

Namaste,

Peace,

Reiki Doc

P.S.

Napa Crossroads by David Benoit (performed by Aldeto Suwando)

http://youtu.be/PATG9wzDIXk

Möelleux

Hi.

Don't let the French word throw you. It's very nice, actually, möelleux. See?

Translations of moelleux

adjective
	soft		doux, souple, mou, moelleux, faible, léger
	mellow		moelleux, velouté, bien mûr, riche, mélodieux, harmonieux
	smooth		lisse, doux, harmonieux, régulier, onctueux, moelleux
	suave		doucereux, douce, onctueux, moelleux, poli, élégant
	comfortable		confortable, agréable, rassurant, moelleux, suffisant, réconfrontant
	medullary		moelleux
	springy		élastique, souple, moelleux, qui fait ressort, alerte, vivant
	squashy		qui s'écrase facilement, moelleux, bourbeux, boueux
noun
	mellowness		moelleux, douceur, velouté

Yesterday I had enough.  For the first time, I took off my ring and my three bracelets--the ones that mean so much to me with Spirit.  The ones that connect me to Ross. I just couldn't take it any more.

I also knew it was time to open one of my most precious gifts, the bottle of Möelleux white wine from my family in France, from Hervé, and Jöelle, the ones I love so much. I had brought back four bottles as a gift for my birthday I spent with them three years ago. There is a cork that says Vouvray, and no labels on anything. Only white duct tape over the top to make sure they were okay in transit on the way home.

It is a delicious wine. Very sweet. And in it is sunshine from the land close to my heart, the Loire Valley, land of the Chateaux Sur Loire. Myself, I would love to have a home with a cellar on the banks of the Cher river. Only that part of the world could possibly get me away from the beach. I love it so! And the people there are amazing.

See for yourself:

http://www.lanouvellerepublique.fr/Indre-et-Loire/Actualite/24-Heures/n/Contenus/Articles/2013/08/11/VIDEO.-Touraine-premieres-vendanges-sous-serre-1575762

I was there, but I looked, you can't see me in the video.

Why is it that France appeals so much to me? And that I feel safe when I am there? I have loved France my entire life! It has to do with my past life; the one I shared with Ross... I escaped there to save my own life after he was brutally murdered. I would have been next. <3

Last night I had insomnia. Bad. I tossed and turned until midnight.

I called in Kamehameha. I spoke with him from my heart. You see, not only is he my Reiki Master guide, he was my father in another life. I hated him for his cloistering me, and marrying me off to a horrible man, and for his bloodthirsty battles. It wasn't until October 2012 that I made my peace with him, and we have moved on in our relationship as father and daughter.

I asked him, since my Higher Self told me 'You have my memories' if he really was father to me? Or was he father to HER, and I was just borrowing the memory?

I was concerned because all of my family ties, which are important and meaningful to us all, but especially in the Spirit worlds, where they are like the only thing that really exists, is the love that we have for each other...

He assured me that I have been incarnate the whole time, for all of my memories. That I did all of those things, not her, since I was Tabitha so many years ago. She never incarnated. Not once. So although she was around and helping, the one who did all the work was me.

All family ties are REAL, and nothing could take them away. Not ever. I am and ever shall be ohana to him.

He promised to watch over me while I slept, to keep me from going UP and doing whatever work I do at night, and he said, 'they can live one day without you doing your tasks that you do up there.'

So I slept.

 Early this morning, Ross came.  I had woke up a little earlier, and put my ring and my bracelets back on. He held me; for the first time all week it felt 'normal' with our energies again.

I was very sad. And weak. And tearful over the events of the past week, with my reunion with my Higher Self. Her saying that she gave me her memories, that she could make me go anyplace she wanted (with a ZAP! I imagine), and her wanting to get to know me on Her terms, not mine, really bothered me a lot.

Many of my friends have much better relationships with their Higher Self. They don't understand  why I don't like the helpfulness, why I don't like knowing --basically--the real ME, and why I am taking it so hard?

They LOVE their Higher Selves.

Imagine how Han Solo would take it if he was told someone else called the shots. Or Princess Leia? These are the first very strong individuals who fight for a cause that come to mind.

What my Higher Self needs to learn, and what the Council--those who study me in this incarnation--is I am different from most people and extremely different from all the Galactics in my heart:

• I never once ask any questions. I don't care to know the mysteries of the Universe.
• I don't question WHY I am asked to do things on my missions, I focus all of my energy rather on completing them successfully.
• I LIKE the amnesia. It helps me to concentrate on what is at hand, and leave behind anything I don't need to know.
• Five minutes in Nature--feeding a duck or enjoying the cool breeze--mean so much MORE to me than anything anyone could ever explain about Galactic anything.
• I trust that my ability to 'connect' to the Akhashic Records and All Knowledge There Is through telepathy, when I want to know something--is sufficient to get me through anything I 'need to know'.
• I chose this Ascension just the way it is, for the plants and the animals I adore. They are angelic, and I want them to stay the way they are. (My Higher Self told me this)
• This knowledge helps me to accept the delays and discomfort for my soul in the meantime.

Early this morning, Ross carried me to the Council. This wasn't the usual one. There were twelve beings there, all in a row.

He placed me before them. I looked over my shoulder, and stretched my hand out to him, but he gestured that I had to be alone.

I sat on the floor. I assumed a fetal position. I rocked back and forth to soothe myself.  I did not talk. I never made eye contact, either. I just kept rocking and humming to myself softly.

The Council didn't bother to ask me questions. They knew how I felt, and that I wouldn't answer.

I saw Ross gesture to them in concern that their delays had done this to me; one can only wait for so long for Ascension. I also felt his heart ask if there was anything that they could do to make it better?

This morning I awoke to my son who was 'starving'. He needed a blood test where he was fasting. So at six-thirty this morning, we dressed and drove to the clinic.

It didn't open until eight.

So we went to a small park with a lake, and walked to kill time.

It was the best thing that ever could have happened for my energy, for my healing of my heart.

It was a beautiful surprise. I gave thanks for it.

I have the warmth and feeling of Source in my heart; that is from my Higher Self.
I have the knowledge that all memories, and important family ties, are real and intact.
They are not 'borrowed' from my Higher Self.
And She knows to wait, just like a person with a child or an animal, for that being to approach them--not to overwhelm it with your excitement to be close.

Some things take time.

I have been assured I have all the time I need to get this part right.

Ross really wanted the Council to stop assuming that 'Galactic Ways' are right for the Ground Crew.

That is my gift to all of humanity, with my Light, to make it possible for each Ground Crew to have the welcome they need, and for the Galactics to 'get it right the first time' for them. I am one extreme. The ones who welcome the Higher Self are the other. And everything in between is going to be permitted for the Highest Good in this next awakening phase of the Ascension Process.

Namaste.

Peace.

Aloha and Mahalos,

Reiki Doc and Ross

Day One: After The Reunion With My Higher Self

For those of you who have followed, the last few days have been rough.  I felt very threatened by the Presence of my Higher Self.  The blog posts links to those days will be added at the end, in case you want the rest of the story.

Yesterday, She--climbed in to my chest.

As I went up the stairs last night, before bed, I prayed with all my heart, thank you God, thank you for the mercy of letting me live, for having her go into my body, and for this compromise between us two. I have worked so hard to exist here in duality, and it would be sad for me to lose all that I have worked for, and simply give it up, to Her.

Divine Father answered back. He asked me to share with you what it is like to have all my dreams gone. All my hopes shattered. Because according to Her, 'now I have a new plate' on which to build my dreams that are based on Love and Happiness.

I don't think so.

Remember the time when Ross asked me what my happiest memories were, and then shattered them with Truth?

Last night my H.S. asked me, 'what is your happiest memory?'

They ask me this in order to get my vibration UP. Happy memories are good for this.

I said I don't have one.

I didn't dare, for risk of having Her smash that memory too!

She pressed on. It was in the middle of the night. I had to void. I got up and said, 'My happiest memory is that the toilet will accept my wastes so I do not suffer and I do not soil myself and my surroundings. That is my happiest memory that I have at this time.'

Even with Ross, I feel different. I feel 'heavy', like there is some 'drag' or 'weight' that is coming along with me. I can't 'move fast' with my energy like I used to. It was like quicksilver.

Ross wanted me to be with him, for some alone time, and I wouldn't engage. I was like--what about HER? and pointed my thumb to my back. He said, 'She is YOU, and She will stay quiet.'

I was like, NO WAY!

The other part that bothered me, is that he is so pleased. So very happy to have both of us together as one, my Higher Self and Me.  He took me UP to our home, into our room, and I just wanted to go because I said, SHE lives here, not me...

Ross is very patient, the patience of a saint. He brought me back home, to my house, and simply held me tight. I cried on his shoulder how I don't understand, and I don't like it, and how come it has to be this way?

Earlier in the day, I had said, to God, 'even if I have to walk in circles forever, if that is what I have to do to be with Ross, so be it!'

Well, quietly, Ross said, 'what if you walk in straight lines?' last night, while he was holding me. He showed me his calendar/schedule. All this time is blocked off just for assisting me. He smiled and said, 'If you walk in straight lines only I will steer for both of us.'

Also in my half-awake, half-asleep state, I recall being with my Higher Self. She asked, 'Do you love me?' I said yes, I love everybody.

Out of desperation, she asked, 'How can I get you to like me?'

I said, out of the blue, 'Get me an ice cream?'

Next I saw, in my hand, was a sugar cone with one child scoop of vanilla. I liked it.

I offered to share with her.

She said, 'I can't!'

Yes you can!!!

And I gave her one lick. She wasn't really fond of it, or not, because she had never really tasted it before.

And I shared. I felt warmth and love in my heart, and together we ate that ice cream. I let her bite the bottom off, and she had the part that had melted. I ate the cone.

I don't know what today holds. I am just going along with it, and letting myself enjoy the ride.

It is very delicate, the soul, when it reunites with the Higher Self.

Anything can happen.

Just know the Higher Self will take the Higher Ground, and you will be permitted to experience it as it comes for you, the reunion with your Higher Self, your Soul Family, your Star Family and your Twin Soul who is the masculine counterpart of you, if you are female, and the feminine part of you, if you are male.





Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,
Peace,


Reiki Doc



Links:  

• http://reikidoc.blogspot.com/2014/06/this-wont-last-forever.html
•  http://reikidoc.blogspot.com/2014/06/facing-my-higher-self.html
• http://reikidoc.blogspot.com/2014/06/doing-nothing-taking-option-of-no-action.html
• http://reikidoc.blogspot.com/2014/06/resolution-with-my-higher-self.html