Gaia News Brief 20.10.2014

Happy Birthday Uncle Beni

Today is the birthday of my favorite uncle. Two years ago, there was a rift in the family. If you read the blog, you will know it has to do with my grandmother, Nana Angelina, his mother, and how he and his wife neglected her while she was in their care.

About one month ago, I sent a letter of ho'oponopono to my aunt and uncle.  It was time to make things right.  I will be praying all day for the courage and strength to pick up the phone and call, and for their numbers to have not changed.

Money was the root of this conflict. I won't go into it more except to say a lot of old people fall victim to this type of situation.

No matter what, he is still my uncle. I don't like or even want to think of what they did to nana. The pain is very deep. I also don't want him to think he is shunned by me forever. That is all.



A Call To The Cathars

It has been one day. I don't know what to do, but my soul and my guides do. If you are one who knows of the treasures, please check with your angels, guides and deceased loved ones to make sure it is TIME.

Here is my connection to Heaven, my 'calling card' or 'credentials', if you will, having seen and heard and been the scribe for Our Lady since 1992.


What To Expect When You Are Expecting To Ascend

I loved that book for my pregnancy--What To Expect When You Are Expecting.

This is much shorter.  I will make two basic points--

1. We have pathways in our body that carry Universal Light Energy, like energy 'plumbing' if you don't mind the analogy of fresh water lines coming 'in' to you, the 'house'.  When we first are attuned to Reiki 1, the stagnant 'gunk' that has settled into those 'dormant pipes' gets blasted out. At Reiki 2, we are all the way open for this Reiki Healing Light to flow out our hearts, our palms, and our third eyes and eyes.  (We must be attuned in a small spiritual action by a Reiki Master, for this energy to begin to flow)...the process of 'gunk clearing' in the energy pathways that are already wired in to our bodies--is called a 'Reiki Cleanse'. This can carry out physical symptoms, emotional symptoms, spiritual symptoms, mental symptoms as old blockages are released. This is short-lived, and very common. For those 'baby Reiki' students, many find that electronic equipment is affected by this new energy, for example, the TV remote.It malfunctions.  Once the body adjusts to the energy, this goes away, and everything from the cleanse or the recalibration to the new flows doesn't happen any more.
2. Karuna Reiki Healing carries with it an energy that is MUCH STRONGER in intensity and yet Much Gentler as it is soul-directed at the same time. Karuna Reiki students experience a cleanse that is associated with symptoms of becoming a multidimensional being. For most, this includes distortion of the perception of space and time. My teacher Anne, pondered for some length of time, 'What IS time?'--my classmate Ana Maria was convinced her Karuna Reiki 1 class was on Sunday, instead of Saturday, and she MISSED it! So time gets 'funky'. For others, they can see the space between atoms, the wall may appear to move and bend, and when pouring liquids into a glass many people misjudge the distance between the glass and them and spill. Mental and spiritual and emotional issues come up too. I was one of the 'one percent' my teacher said. For me the incoming Karuna Reiki energy felt like an incredible Coming Home--a 'where has this BEEN all my life?' I felt BETTER in every way, like it was the most natural thing in the world! My symptoms were minimal, with only one bent wall, so perhaps I would have something to share with the group during our welcome to class?

As the energies on surface Gaia increase, you may begin to notice YOUR energy is starting to 'flow through your pipes' and you are carrying on a 'cleanse' of sorts. Depending on your vibration, it can appear as either a Reiki Cleanse or perhaps a multidimensional one.

I bring this up because the husband of a reader experienced this after she 'adjusted his chakras'. He went into a full spiritual crisis, with panic, and feeling that his heart got ripped out. They contacted me as to 'what to do? what to do?'. I said GROUND GROUND GROUND to Gaia!! This way like electricity the energy passes though and doesn't stay in your energy system. Bare feet on earth. Drink lots of water. Eat things that grow in the ground, like beets, carrots, potatoes, and more.  Get direct sunlight on you with no sunscreen for at least fifteen minutes. Go out in Nature. We also did a group Reiki Request for Chris, that worked.  All his symptoms are resolved and he feels himself again.

When I left the Matrix, about a week or two ago, I too, felt the panic. Apparently I had some first chakra issues, and although I got 'free', my perception was that someone was going to steal my Twin Ross away from me, that my Higher Self would completely destroy my heart and happiness. 

Perhaps Chris is already advanced, has an intact energy 'plumbing' and just 'came up and out of the Matrix' like I did too, only for him, with fourth chakra issues.

Our team is ready to assist with Reiki Requests should any spiritual crisis arrive for you and those you care about. 

I have a new connection to Source now--I know it sounds weird but I breathe in particles of energy I call 'Light Diamonds' ever since and I don't feel the separation from Creator any more like is common for those in the Matrix who are under the Veil of Illusion, the Gaia 'quarantine' we have from the rest of the cosmos.  I believe these particles are Tachyons, which are filtered out by the veil, but are like photons are to plants--except to us they are for our souls and energize them. It is a Divine Right to have these, and on Gaia, it is not possible for the Tachyons to come through the veil. So we are 'starving' for Light energy we do dearly need. Sun energy is close, and Love energy from our friends and family help to bridge the gap we have in the energy we are given to live as a soul. Man does not live by bread alone....

Bar Rescue 

This show by John Taffer appeals to my boy. He watches it and every now and then I watch one episode just to keep him company.

Last night's show, something spiritual 'clicked'!

John and his crew take Low Vibration and Raise It.  They are specialists who deal with Those With Very Low Vibration.  Last night the two owners of Undisputed were fighting with each other. Their conflict and lack of leadership also energetically manifested as a feeling of danger in the bar--due to the presence of thugs and bar fights. The food was unhealthful. And one owner was drinking too much on the job. Customers and workers hated everything about the place.

John communicates in ways people with Very Low Vibration understand. He yells. He confronts. And as one owner said, 'He tears you down so you can be built up into a better you.'

The way the workers and owners respond to expert assistance and training is amazing. And when they see their new bar, they jump with excitement and joy.

It's not just the spiritual. It's the know-how, the technology...and the investment. John put ninety-thousand dollars into refrigeration into the new bar and full kitchen. 

Now the bar is called SOYO, and is attracting a different crowd.  And with his job done, John says goodbye.

We are like that.

We are the John Taffers and camera crew and team from the Higher Realms.

We came here to earth to make things right.

And when our job is done, we Go Home.

• Dolores Cannon
• Masaru Emoto
• Sylvia Browne
• The Reverend Pamela from Galactic Connection

Each has gone on to their new assignments, after lovingly fulfilling their assignments they once had on Gaia.

<3

Ross

Carla has had a lot to say, but I want to underscore a few points:

• Forgiveness is ESSENTIAL. You can't go to the higher realms without it. 
• Forgiveness is both for yourself and others. Forgive YOU.
• Love is the most powerful energy in the universe there is--choose Love when there is a doubt on how to handle the situation, like with Carla and her Uncle Beni. Carla isn't going to go socialize with him. He lives a great distance. But she wants to clear the air between them and take the next step. This is commendable on her part. Her uncle should have gone to jail for what he did to his own mother--he told the ER he hated her and only wanted her money. Carla's mom had to do a lot of back-pedaling to bail him out of that one. And put a lot of her own money in nana's bank account. The couple had spent two hundred thousand dollars in about nine months!
• Take caution not to judge anyone or anybody. Take for example, a snake. Often snakes are poison. We notice them for what they are, and that they bite. We take steps to protect ourselves and our loved ones for our own well being. Do we judge the snake for having poison? No, we do not. We accept that God has made the snake for its own purpose. We do not play with the wild snakes. We do not play with the known poisonous ones even if we grow them. For we know what it what and let it be as such.
• About the treasure of the Cathars--it is TIME and I will give the signal you request. Name it, in prayer, in your heart. I will know and I promise it will be sent. If you want two signs, I will send them. Do not delay by having more signs than this.

That is enough. We are very busy over here in the higher realms. There was a great big WELCOME, a hero's welcome, for each of our 'stars' Carla mentioned above who have transitioned recently. I am coordinating this with our teams thoroughly, for I want these souls to wash their faces after a long journey, and be off to a good start on their new adventures for the Light.

They have served well, in their assignments on Gaia, and all of us in Heaven thank them for their life well-lived. Our love and hope go out to the families and friends who are making the adjustment in their absence. This is only temporary, for forever you are connected through your hearts, and can 'connect' any time you wish...just think of them in your heart, and they or I will answer.

Aloha and Mahalos,

Namaste,

Peace,

Ross and Reiki Doc--Carla--who is completely on the mend and healthy in all ways at this time.

I thank you for your prayers and Reiki you sent to her during her colonoscopy and EGD. I was with her the whole time, and it helped both of us so much. <3 Peace.

So You Might Be An Empath? Welcome!

Good morning!

This is MORE than just the sunrise early start of day. <3

This is the start of your Newly Awakened Life!

These blog posts were written to assist the last wave of Lightworkers who were coming online:

• http://reikidoc.blogspot.com/2012/10/why-i-write-for-you.html
• http://reikidoc.blogspot.com/2012/10/an-open-letter-to-newly-awakened.html
• http://reikidoc.blogspot.com/2012/10/coach-carlos-mantis-wolf-plantar.html
• http://reikidoc.blogspot.com/2012/10/surfing-strong-energies-of-manifestation.html
• http://reikidoc.blogspot.com/2012/10/to-newly-awakened-3.html
• http://reikidoc.blogspot.com/2012/10/miracles-of-progress-divine-awakening.html
• http://reikidoc.blogspot.com/2012/12/to-newbies.html
• http://reikidoc.blogspot.com/2013/10/its-never-too-late-to-be-lightworker.html
• http://reikidoc.blogspot.com/2013/08/rise-and-shine.html

Recently a dear friend of mine, Deshon Fox, asked me to share about my experience with his book on spiritual awakening, The Middle Theory.  I was in Hawaii at the time, thousands of miles away from my book. I said I was delighted, and I would indeed write it. In my heart, I wanted my copy of the book in my hands, so I could quote from it for you.

Then there was a lull...

Did you ever see the movie Men In Black? You know how K likes to think over a slice of pie? Well, Spirit and I, we have noodles and aloha.

So yesterday, I discovered I had the ability to manifest. Four times I made wish in my heart. And four times, the answers suddenly arrived!

• luggage just like my new Travel Pro carry-on with the totally effortless spinner wheels, just a little bigger, except on sale, because the stuff my son and I lugged with our old luggage around Honolulu Airport was really painful for me.
• A friend who I go to noodle place with to be there--she was, with both kids too! It was a total surprise my son heard her voice and they were seated at the table closest to the noodle counter! We had kid table--mine and hers, and 'grown up table'!
• My tax man to explain the six-week delay in filing my return  and what to do about the scary letter from the well, you-know-who...LOL...how come you filed this form here TWICE??? Yikes!
• If it was okay to turn in a reapplication for practice privileges form incomplete?

So the energies ARE different.

And so are my friends--people who I didn't 'think' were like me, are starting to 'confide' that they ARE!  Cousin. Friend. Coworker. Tax man. 

They like this Reiki-Doctor-Mediumship-Psychic stuff!

I was so taken in by this 'last wave' of New Baby Lightworkers coming online, just last night I mentioned to a dear friend of mine, another blogger, that 'they are where I was in 2009! I hope they 'wake up' a lot faster than I did! LOL'

Chinese transplant surgeons bow in respect to eleven-year old donor

So there we have it! 

Deshon? Your request to me was the first signal of a much larger PULSE that is just starting through Gaia and all of her people.

And Deshon? Please forgive me--I am going to combine your book, with two others, to show how important it is for readers to find what RESONATES with them.  I get a LOT of people sharing with me their 'book' or 'video' that they found that helped them to get on their feet spiritually. 

These suggestions do nothing for me, and I am polite, but I don't go 'back' to where I was five years ago spiritually and watch them.

Remember awakening is a very personal spiritual adventure--and when something 'feels right' then you are to follow that 'lead' or 'clue' until it doesn't 'feel right' any more, okay?

It is not possible to 'wake someone else up for them' spiritually--everyone has their own vibration, and what works for YOU might not work for THEM--so offer people choices and see which one appeals to them most.  <3

My Three Treasures:

• Sylvia Browne--The book Insight, Case Files from the Psychic World was a big 'aha!' read for me. I borrowed it from my sister! (please note that many times books find their way to you). I saw myself in it. I was like her! And I read with interest all that she had to say about being psychic. I saw her as honest, complete, and very useful as a resource in my awakening that I didn't realize WAS my awakening at the time.  this book helped me to identify I was 'different' and that it was 'okay'; it provided no framework for me to change my thinking other than acceptance of what I recognize as 'who I am'.
• Deshon Fox --  (I had to put him in 'The Middle'!)  Somehow I made a comment on a Dalai Lama Facebook post, and Deshon sent me a message that said, 'I think you could benefit from The Middle Theory'. It couldn't hurt. I ordered his book online. And it was wonderful for me: a book written by an engineer who is spiritual enough to put it into terms I could understand and apply to my life. About expectations in life, from family, from parenting--with examples. I STILL apply them every day, especially now with my son. Be honest with your kids--even if it's about mistakes from the past--because they will SENSE your honesty, from your open heart, and it will give them the information they NEED to guide them with their life choices they are coming to you for advice. With Deshon--he's no Sylvia--you can message him on Facebook, follow him--he's THERE and AVAILABLE--not just some person on TV who has since passed but used to have a waiting list for months to get a response from her. So with The Middle Theory you get not only the best 'woo woo crystal spirituality type energies' explained in a totally acceptable for everyone--engineers and business-people--way...you get a really fine person with an open heart who cares about you. Personally. http://themiddletheory.com/the-story/#.U9kUK1boZQM (I am giving you this link to his story--not the home page--my preference is for a website not to have music--this one home page kind of does and it's really cool and everything--but it was hard for me to make quiet so just read around the website if you are like me, and if you like the music cause it really IS cool, then you can leave it on Home page to motivate you <3 )))
• Gunter as channeled by Margaret Mc Cormick: This book is filled with light codes and activation sequences. The words Gunter -- someone like Ross, an advanced teacher who is not incarnate -- the words Gunter (goon-terr) puts together are for your deep awakening. You can only read one short chapter a night, and not more, or else the awakening won't be complete. Your body has to assimilate the new energies each night after you read them--you can't rush it. (Deshon's book I think is kind of like that too--I couldn't read it all at once, as I was sensing energy changes for the better slowly happening to me when I read it. At the time I was 'lost'--and struggling to figure out my purpose, yes?)  This book came to me for free from Margaret when I went to her lecture on Channelling and Negative Attachment Removals.  This book changed my life. I am not sure if the first one is in print, but the second one is available on kindle through Margaret's site, and it's wonderful too: http://www.margaretmccormick.com/about_gunter.php

Peace by OAR 

(this was suggested by Ross--I've never heard it before! It's lovely.)

http://youtu.be/qyn5jwJTYDo

Also, Blessed Mother promised me she is going to give a channeling soon especially for you.  She wants to remind you to use the Search box in the top right hand corner, and use her name as a search word--some of her old messages might be helpful to you now too.

Aloha and Mahalos,

Namaste,

Peace,

Reiki Doc

Ross:   Carla and I are happy. The happiest we have ever been as a couple. We invite you to share our energy, our joy, and our delight at having found one another again. The Light energy of reunited Twins is very powerful. We make our energy freely available to you, to fuel and guide your awakening, and for your enjoyment in the whole awakening process. It is with great joy I give to you 'our news'. Namaste.

So Close And Yet So Far

Today I am writing about experience with the passing of my beloved nana Angelina; I will keep it to the most educational 'highlights' for those of you who wish to understand how souls who are deeply connected to one another prepare and go through 'the last goodbye'…

The Week Before:
I get the same signs that someone I know is going to pass/Transition from this world to the next.

• I get a sense of urgency to visit them and think about them frequently
• my own energy system 'wobbles' and I have difficulty focusing or accomplishing tasks
• everyday tasks take on a 'surreal' energy that is hard to describe
• In this last one, I started eating lots of things I usually do not--sweets, etc.

Mother gave me the news that 'nana wasn't looking so good' on Friday. I dropped everything to be with nana and to check things out as a doctor to make sure I knew what was up.

The Days Of Transition:

Death is like labor in childbirth--it doesn't happen instantly in most cases, although it can. The scenario was that she couldn't swallow and the family did not opt for a feeding tube according to her wishes. Therefore food and water was withheld.

She was hungry and thirsty the whole time!

How do I know? I asked! I also gave her water, which she took eagerly, but it pooled in her mouth and spilled out. 

Here is the clinical scenario for 'no food':

• there is about twelve hours of sugar stored in the liver as glycogen. This is first 'fuel' in starvation.
• the body switches over to ketosis, the burning of ketones that come from fat.
• the body also changes muscle tissue to glucose, in glycogenolysis (the amino acids are metabolized into glucose.)
• the brain runs on glucose. No glucose, no consciousness, and death.

Here is the clinical scenario for 'no water':

• kidneys conserve water by retaining sodium
• the extracellular space gives up water and the patient becomes dehydrated to keep the intravascular volume up.
• thirst kicks in
• kidneys fail (this takes about three to four days for the body to have electrolyte imbalance, acidosis, and uremia severe enough for enzymes in biochemical processes to inactivate.)

She didn't understand what was happening to her, she only knew she was suffering.

This is when hospice was consulted, and explained their services.

Hospice works 'best' when there is time in advance to prepare the patient and the family for 'the inevitable'. Most primary care doctors 'call late'. The nurse identified nana as being in the early stages of dying, which I agreed.

Here is the clinical scenario for 'hospice good death':

• not too much fluids given, they back up in the lungs and cause distress
• anxiety medication for the trouble breathing that is given as drops that are absorbed by oral mucosa
• narcotics such as morphine or dilaudid to decrease the respiratory rate and discomfort 
• cooling measures and tylenol rectally for fever
• oxygen 
• suction available for secretions
• atropine to dry the mouth and secretions (it also increases the heart rate)

The Transition (physical):

• Pulse is thready, blood pressure is in fifties or unable to measure
• agonal respirations begin (gasping for air, 'guppy breaths')
• feet mottle and cool
• legs mottle
• hands mottle and cool (I felt it as I held her hand for a long time)
• chest mottles (dusky blue in all cases of mottling)
• forehead mottles
• gag reflex is lost (I could suction with no response--therefore she was unconscious0
• she went from talking (cortex working) to reflexes and groans (white matter), to breaths (brainstem functioning) to silence
• after about one hour, the limbs started to stiffen
• the mottling went away and the skin was pale yellow after death

The Transition (spiritual):

http://reikidoc.blogspot.com/2013/11/what-i-just-saw-with-my-third-eye.html


The First Visits:
Visit One: Yesterday while I was at work, she came. She let me know I work a lot harder than she imagined, and she was concerned about my welfare. I almost cried, and she excused her self and promised to come back later that night so I could write and be home.

Visit Two: Last night I was at my favorite restaurant, Au Lac, sitting at the 'bar' which does not serve alcohol but is a good thing for 'party of one' diners like myself.  As I ate my second course, I saw Our Lady very solemn, quiet, and wearing blue. I was like, 'What?' and then I saw movement from her left--it was my nana coming to visit me, and Blessed Mother was her 'guide' in the process. I spoke with my heart, and cried tears of longing and joy at the reconnection. I tried to hide my grief so nana would not be sad. She looked at me as if I was not very good at hiding it, with concern and love, and asked, 'how are you doing?'

I paused. What could I say, horrible? Awful? I wasn't that bad, although I am taking it fairly hard.

'I am healing.' I confessed, 'How are you?'

Bellissima! she shared with a smile; I know she said this so I wouldn't worry about her, and it was also true. I could see and feel her Presence. It resonated with me. My grandfather came, and it was time for them to go.

Ciao! Ciao! they turned to go and gave me that funny wave where you open and close your hand with the palm facing yourself.

I said in my heart, 'Ciao!' and smiled, for in Italian, 'Arrividerci' means 'goodbye' but 'ciao' means 'see you soon'.

Visit Three: At lunch, for this morning I had two early cases, when I came home, the house was empty, and I had a good cry. I was talking to my angels, and guides, and crying.

What is the one thing you want to say to her, they asked?  I don't remember what it was! LOL, I was crying too hard!

Then a wave of peace overcame me. It lasted a short time, and then the tears started again. This time it was because I am a medium, I can't buy the 'we will meet again and say goodbye and move on' story that people who do not speak with the dead story…I didn't know HOW to grieve under the circumstances.

That is when Sylvia Browne showed up.
'I get it, I get it' she consoled.
I hugged her and explained my pain but struggled to find the words.
'So close and yet so far!' she explained the situation to me, much to my relief.
'Did I do okay with helping her as a death midwife?' 
Sylvia said yes.
'Am I doing okay on my lessons with this?'
She said yes, again.
'I have so many regrets, there was not enough time with her! Not enough time for my heart--to enjoy her and be ready for the separation. I was always working.' 
Sylvia hugged me harder, for there was some truth in a soul sharing they had not enough time due to their occupation and assignment.
'Does nana know I love her? Did I show her enough?'
Sylvia said, yes. She shared how it is a unique situation, that although the spirit understands we are still in bodies with human feelings, and that is why she came to comfort me. She had experienced it too, and had not really talked about her life in this part of being psychic in her books--so close and yet so far.

Then she stepped back. Nana told me to sleep a little while, so I did.

Nana was my nurturer. For those of you who have not followed me for much time, my mother is  beautiful woman, but we never really 'clicked' with our hearts. We love each other, but it isn't comforting like it was with nana Angelina. She baby sat me when I was very small. I also had a trauma when I was four, and her Presence is a stabilizing part of my healing from that trauma which gave me PTSD. Although I have healed, her loss has touched deep into my being, my soul, where the scar from this trauma is.

I feel better. I also make it a point to ask for All Divine Assistance when the grief gets to be 'too much'.

All Divine Assistance:
At my work, and online, the situation just got too much for me. Sleep deprived, hungry, overworked, and aching to unload my tears and enjoy some healing from having my nana die while I held her hand on Monday night.

Many of you posted kindnesses on Facebook and Twitter, and I thank you.

Here is what else happened when I put out the call for help to my team:

• My next surgeon was eating with my boss in the doctors dining room. My boss called the OR and told me to come and eat.
• As I walked I was overcome with sadness, and just sat, and stared.
• The nurse who is the only one that visited me twice when I had surgery and was in the hospital walked by, and shared her concern. Then the whole story came out. She advised me to ask a colleague to let me go home. (someone left before me instead of relieving me--I had rights to go home first)
• The hospital chef walked by, and saw my distress
• The charge nurse in the O.R. walked by, and had me call the afternoon charge nurse. (there wasn't anything she could do, but to explain the situation and my distress helped)
• I walked to the doctors dining room, and got salad.
• My next surgeon ate a dessert so as not to rush me with my salad, and reassured me to take my time.
• We walked together to the case.
• My boss said someone was coming in from home to relieve me, so I would not have to do four cases. (I did two)
• Someone else came and told me to go to sleep.
• I went to see my friends and eat high vibration Living Food.
• Ito gave me the 360J healing oil that was specially made for my feelings of abandonment from God and nana. It worked
• I got home
• I picked up my son, who is also grieving, and took him to his favorite restaurant
• The owner was there, and cheered us both up, and reassured us nana is in a better place.

Next time you are at the end of your rope, be sure to ask for ALL DIVINE ASSISTANCE!

The results will impress you.

Aloha and Mahalos,

Namaste,

Reiki Doc

P.S. In the blood flow to the heart, when there is blockage, part of the heart muscle dies. But there is area around it that is 'hibernating' and when blood supply is returned, the scar is less--it heals. A lot of this blood flow is from new smaller blood vessels that grow and bring nourishment to the hibernating heart. With the loss of my nana Angelina, the biggest supply of Love to my energy Heart was cut off, and I was suffering in agony over the loss of this source of Life to my soul. Every kindness, every patience, every blessing, every prayer, has given me the Love I need as 'collateral vessels'. As I heal, my aura will scar where nana's connection used to be, but it will be smaller because of your amazing outreach of kindness and Love to my soul. Mahalo nui loa, to my ohana, for helping me through this difficult time. I also thank Spirit, Sensei Usui, the Ascended Masters, the Archangels, and Faeries for their help from beyond. I feel it, like I do my ohana here incarnated on Gaia, and it makes an incredible difference in my days…

Late Blooming Lilacs

Are you single? Divorced? Just breaking up in a relationship? If so, this blog post is for you.
If you are paired happily, and committed, this is not the article for you.

I am a humanitarian loner. I have saved countless lives, championed for those less fortunate, and given from my heart for the betterment of others' lives. My entire raison d'etre is to relieve suffering.

Does this give me a free ticket to romance? No. My love life has been difficult my entire life. The last one, the father of my children, shattered my heart. The wound was deep. We had known each other in a past lifetime. I knew it. He didn't, although we had a dream that matched. The part where it ended for him, and he thought it meant everything got better, was in fact when he died. I saw it. I was not able to retrieve the body and give it a proper burial for political reasons. I was so traumatized in that lifetime that I lost my ability to speak. In this life I was so overjoyed to find him! I thought it meant that everything was going to get better, and mend my heart. Instead, my heart got broken one more time.

Today was a baby step. It was a huge one for me--I went out. Not with friends. Not on a date--my gosh--the last time I went out was in 2009! I went to something I had always wanted to experience: a murder mystery dinner show. I went by myself. (I have also gone to a concert by myself. It was Rascal Flatts. None of my friends like Country.)

Spirit wanted me to go. I got signs all along the way. But the place? It was a Recovery Club! And it was a fundraiser! I didn't know a soul.

Guess who sat at my table? My patient. His wife, the nurse, who recognized me. I sat next to someone with the same first name as me, with the same spelling, on my right. And to my left was a trained opera singer, a tenor who was like, seven feet tall! Spirit has a wonderful sense of humor, doesn't it?

The best part about the evening was the table of vegans that was celebrating a birthday. One of them said, 'Namaste' to the 'detective' from LA-PD. Without skipping a beat he pressed his hands together, bowed slightly and said, 'No Steak'! I was really laughing at that one.

There were those in recovery, those who supported the fundraiser and were health-oriented like me, and there were the spouses.

Now, from a Spirit point of view, the crowd was fascinating. I met a man who was clean and sober from cocaine for thirty years. I looked, curious, but not judging, at the rest. I found it ironic that the vegans brought a magnum bottle of red wine into the clubhouse, in front of those present who were in recovery. But I did not judge. It is not my place to judge, only to be amazed at this school called Earth.

As I was laughing, and enjoying myself, I consciously let my aura relax. It flowed open wide and easily. My aura can flow for miles if I let it. Today it was white and went outside the strip mall row of buildings.

I was at peace. I finally found a place where I can be myself. I can say I am an anesthesiologist (usually I don't in a bar--no one will buy me drinks!), I can eat vegan, avoid alcohol and keep my vibration UP (I will take a glass of red wine with dinner at home, but not for 'entertainment' when I go out), and make connections with people that I never would meet. The wife of my patient invited me to go with her on their  next nurses' 'girls night out'.

There were newlyweds, newly engaged couples, a couple that had tension, long married couples, and many singles of all ages and backgrounds. It didn't hurt me, the joy of those who were together.  Today I took my first baby step towards that goal--with the faith that what happened has no connection to what might happen.

In Life Contracts, we take a major theme, coupled with a minor one. Sylvia Browne also is Humanitarian-Loner. The minor is 'that one thing you can't get right no matter how hard you try.'. She has been married three times, and has just given up. But she helps millions! The financial one is a typical minor, as can be health or other things 'you just can't get right'.

That was my baby step into the Higher Dimensions. It was a giant leap for an old soul with scars like me.

Namaste, or perhaps, 'No Steak' ; )

Reiki Doc

Discovering Past Lives Through Your Favorite Foods

Have you ever had that happen? You taste a new food and you love it so much you wonder where it has been all of your life? Or perhaps something repulses you so much you totally avoid it?

Your soul lingers in the memory of past lives.

Sylvia Browne noted that birthmarks often are at sites where fatal injuries had struck in the past lives of some of her clients.

I noticed it the first time I had Indian food. I absolutely, positively adored it! I was in college, and at a local place with my roommate. I had never tasted it. It felt like coming home, all the spices and the warmth of the curry. After my acupuncture appointments while I was in medical school, I would always stop by the local takeout Indian place for a special treat. I loved everything they made, and gravitated towards the vegetarian and away from the Tandoori meats...

As a child I did not like meat. I did not understand why we ate it. And eggs made me sick. I had to learn to eat it. I never truly enjoyed it, except perhaps when I was growing rapidly as a teen. Once I couldn't get enough of mom's roast beef. Perhaps my life as a Brahmin still echoes in my tastes and dislikes?

Another way to know you are remembering a past life is to experience a connection to a particular location. I adore the land of my roots, New England. I know for sure I was my Grandmothers' mom, Emma, who died when she was four. She died in her bed, and my grandmother saw the undertaker yank her by the arm to move the body so they could take her away. My grandmother attacked the undertaker for 'hurting' her dead mother and never forgot the desecration of her corpse. And my Aunt Edna was my mom before that. The three of us were at a cousin's house when I announced my plans to make a visit back East. My Grandmother gasped and you could feel the electricity in the room. At that moment, a huge branch of an Oak tree broke off in my cousin's back yard. Grandma wanted to go with me. Aunt Edna agreed to come  to help me know my relatives better and care for Grandma, who was in a wheelchair and frail.

It was the last time my Grandma ever set foot in her hometown. She died two years later.

I distinctly remember standing on my own grave when we visited the cemetery. I knew. And I didn't feel sad or anything. But there was great energy flowing through me as I stood there and looked at my old name.

Past lives give you lessons. I found the life before that on a short trip to Victoria, British Columbia. I was the daughter of a Chief. I was brilliant and brave and had absolutely NO credibility in the tribe since I was a woman. A tomboy, and a daddy's girl, if you will.

I had a terrible accident in childbirth that destroyed my ability to ever have children again.

I almost died.

I saw my chief father in my hotel room. And my son remembered the basics of our lives together there. he was the son of my best friend. He chose to come back in this life because he liked me and wanted me to be happy.

I remember feeling hatred, anger and distress as our small ferry taxi passed the dead man's rock with the inuksuk in the bay. It was not a good life for me.

As Emma, I had four girls in quick succession, and died shortly after childbirth with the boy, that lived. I over did it. My body was so weak I died of tuberculosis. They were so poor my grandmother was sent to convent for many years. They could not afford the children after her death.

Now, I am an Obstetric Anesthesiologist and single mother. I have education, social standing, and independence. Does this make sense, how after lives we try our best to 'get it right?' To learn lessons for the growth of our Soul, which is eternal?

I think of our lives like Rental Cars. We go to the Airport, take them out, use them to meet our needs, and give them back. Our bodies are borrowed from Source for a short time on Earth. We kind of rent them to be exposed to our lower chakras and learn the lessons to help discover our inner nature.

We are one in Life because of it. We have played every part, from murderer to victim, male to female, rich to poor, white or black, servant or master. We have our karmanic debt that we have to reduce in farther lifetimes. If the memory of a past life comes to you, REJOICE! There is karma you don't have to learn again!! And the lesson is not lost in time...

Namaste,

Reiki Doc