So you've healed. You've healed yourself from your past in this life. You've healed yourself from your past incarnations. You have dutifully and diligently allowed all the feelings to arise, felt them, thanked them and let them go.
So what's left behind then, when you are 'empty'?
That's a tough question. Why? Because for many of the supposed 'healings', it's really like going through layer after layer of an onion, and with each new layer it appears to 'revisit' those 'old wounds'...only a different nuance of the healing takes place.
Well then what?
We go down the road a bit of Hope Johnson and her teaching. We realize the whole thing is a big make-believe of perception, and it's to help us remember Home where there is Nurturing, Love, Warmth and Compassion, and everything else is FAKE. It certainly seems real. I know for people who are struggling from month to month for their survival (food, rent...) and people who are experiencing stress and disease...there's no easy walking away from those things! But what Hope is talking about is the attitude, and going deeper to look for the lesson underneath it all. She says when we finally love ourselves, everything makes sense and life is actually kind of funny.
I know for myself I practice radical detachment, especially to particular outcomes.
This combination happens to be, when combined with a high energy positive vibration, or perhaps, as Jeff Brown would correctly describe it as 'authentic' vibration which is unique to us all...it's when we manifest.
Today I manifested two things. One was a chance to go to my niece's birthday celebration at Disneyland. I was on the hook for not one like booked last night but THREE cases. I didn't have breakfast, I wasn't hungry I was so sad I couldn't go. Why wait four hours unpaid and dirty and sleepy for anything?
But when I truly accepted in my heart that's how it was going to be, and was humble, that's when the GO HOME text came from the nurse running the board. I HAVE FOUND COVERAGE FOR YOU!
So I went.
Yesterday I posted old employment information from Disneyland. My first job when I was sixteen. I shared how my friends and I would go back into the park after our shifts, and try to make each other throw up by spinning super fast on the teacups ride.
I never in a million years imagined I would go on that ride today. But I did. It was cousin Ellie's favorite. So all six of us crammed into one teacup. My brother-in-law spun it better than my high school friends! I filmed the whole thing.
That's how you manifest...
But I have to temper this with the broadest and most profound clarity I have ever had in this whole experience of being incarnate: I am not going to experience ANYTHING unless Ross says it's okay.
That's it.
It's like we have our life script. We have our teams. And we have the wishes and hopes and dreams that are in our hearts. I tried once, I tried way better than anyone ever, to ditch my Twin Flame. But you can't. You can't cancel your Soul Contract/Life Script on a whim and without major repercussions.
For me, I want family. Very close, very loving family, right here in my house. I want a mom, a dad, a kid, pets--with me being the mom. It's my most precious dream I ever had. Against all odds I've worked for it. I have two failed marriages, a disaster with Anthony's father...then I just GAVE UP. I decided if this was my Life Script I better just wait to die. That's what Sylvia Browne recommended, in a more politically correct way. She said, 'live a good life and then Go Home.' Her Life Script was Loner Humanitarian, and she had three horrible marriages the last one he pulled a gun to her head!
But it's delicate for me.
I have Ross always with me.
But I want to be ready. I want the skills. The relationship skills, the communication skills, and mostly, someone here and now to LOVE like I love Anthony. I couldn't give all that love to a cat, I'm allergic and besides, I am biased towards humans, flawed as they are.
I talk about this with my teams ALL THE TIME. I've evolved to a level where I must be representing myself like I do when I'm sleeping and up Home doing whatever it is I do. I say, Ross, you are a difficult 'target' for this love. I can't cook for you, I can't talk to you, I can't hug you, like I would anyone else. You know I love you and I can't wait to be with you back HOME. But what about Here and Now?
Ross wants me to talk with you about how in other ways I am being prepared...
You know the baseball games? I go to so many?
It's to get me used to the crowds.
Back Home there's lots of them. And I'm not a 'crowd type' person. But with familiarity, I can love the crowds and be comfortable and relaxed from baseball stadiums and Disneyland...
I'm also being prepared by getting back to exercise. I'm going to need stamina and also to lose weight/get firm. I'm enjoying every minute of it. In this I'm very happy.
Just last night, I remembered how I used to dream of my little hospital becoming a Healing Center. I would love it if patients could do art, and experience profound healing, of the whole self, not just the disease.
In this we can ask our Teams and our Creator to provide us with the gift of Clarity too. To hear and sense messages from Spirit LOUD and CLEAR.
I'm starting to actually like who I am. Here in the body, as ME, Carla, but also, as all the lives I've lived, even the painful ones. I almost bought a princess bead for my bracelet, but I thought, you know what? I'm going to be my own Princess! I don't want to wear some other Princess for my jewelry. I've got a pretty good thing going with who I am, in a spiritual sense, but also, as myself as Carla. So by 'Princess' I mean to CELEBRATE IT! To enjoy being me, and to be the loudest, clearest ME I have ever possibly been.
I don't think there's any shortcut.
I don't think there's any other endpoint for any of us.
Be YOU, uniquely and totally YOU. You can have hopes and dreams, as long as they aren't distracting you from your Purpose.
I've already risked my life at work because of Covid. After you've risked it it gets a little easier. I'm seeing how it's important to keep living, and enjoying life. Fear isn't good for our spirit. And to be pragmatic, if they decide ultimately to 'snuff out' everyone who didn't get the jibber jabber, well, that's the fast track to going Home, right? I'd be super nervous, naturally. But it sure beats losing your soul or being culled pharmaceutically.
So, let go and detach from outcomes. Do what feels right and lifts you up. Realize that people and situations are being put in your life for a reason, mostly to teach you and to test you. And it's all for the good.
Ross reminds me...in my incarnations, except for the happy one in Japan, as a monk/priest, I've never grown old. So I might as well enjoy the process. It wasn't easy staying up until midnight working last night. I'll bring these topics up with my teams too. I know in a way, being sleepy and spending time with family while having that familiar dull sleepiness is probably how with formal engagements/meetings/etc. it gets back Home too, all that protocol...too much protocol...too much for anyone to handle. LOL
Think about where you are. If you are in the healing stages, by all means, concentrate on that. It will help you! If you're moving beyond it, have hope! It's not hard. It just takes a mindset and lots of practice...
Ross
A lot of what Carla says here is True. As long as you consider it is taken from her perspective, and that it is in the context of her life experience.
Carla's life experience isn't even half of my own. I have at the moment what you would describe as a 'broader perspective'.
Regard Carla's openness and honesty with you, our precious students in Life, as a generous gift. While Carla is making 'connections' she's also creating newer and higher frequency vibrations on Earth. And YOU are the walking embodiment of these new vibrations, and help to carry them across to the ends of the earth. If not physically, then philosophically and energetically online!
And for this, I THANK you!
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Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,
Peace,
Ross and Carla
The Couple
