The Return Of The Goddess...

As you may already have read, I am a conduit of the Goddess Energies. Lady Isis, the partner of Cobra, initiated me. 24/7 I bring in the energy of nurturing, warmth, love and compassion to Gaia and her people. It is my role in the process of Ascension for the planet and Her People and all life that is upon Her.

Do I think about it?

No.

I just live, and follow my inner guidance.

Not long ago was the first day I noticed Her, the presence of the Goddess, and it was at my work...

Goddess Tale One:
A nurse who is a single mother has a son who is a teen. Tall and lanky, he plays volleyball for the school team, just like her. He is ACTIVE and is hungry all the time.

She was sharing how his coach only has an energy bar and a soda, and buys from the snack bar. One day, she felt so moved to make a lunch for him while she was packing one for her son for the game.

He appreciated it, and soon it became her 'thing' to make for him his lunch. (She is not attracted to men, but she knows he makes very little money, is dedicated to teaching the children, and is a good man.)

The other day she gave him a cup of cinnamon applesauce, just like her son, who eats one costco-size container of it a week and is his favorite food in the world!

The coach stopped her to thank her. He said, 'I haven't had applesauce since my mom used to pack my lunch.'

She is the Goddess energy of nurturing, warmth, healing and compassion to him, just like she is to her son. And you can feel that energy flowing off of her as she shares this story--she is radiant with happiness to be able to help and touch this life.


Goddess Tale Two:
The worker in the cafeteria was just about ready to close. She is proud of me, a lady who is a doctor, and a nice one at that. I see there are fresh tamales! I ask what is in them. She says, 'chicken' and I said, softly, 'ohhhhhh' and turned to the salad bar. She was surprised, and asked, 'what is it that you want in them?' and I confessed I do not eat meat. I changed last year. She laughed and said, 'No wonder why you don't eat anything! Everything here is meat! That is good doctor, good that you turn vegetarian. That is good.'
Again, I could feel the nurturing, warmth, love and compassion...


Goddess Tale Three:
The worker who rang up my food.
She lost a child to SIDS a couple of days after bringing them home from the hospital.
Although you can see and feel her grief--it's been five years--she smiles and shows up for work, and carries on...
Sometimes when the Goddess is wounded, she still is able to give of her nurturing, warmth, love and compassion.
I have utmost respect for this worker who has been through so much.




I smiled when I realized everyone has their lessons!

Everyone is doing the best they can despite the 'static' and 'noise' of what is going on down here on Gaia's surface that is far, far different from the realms they once called 'home'...

Masculine or feminine, straight or gay, rich or poor, young or old, every size, every shape, every color, every level of soul 'education' as well as 'school learning'...all are beautiful Light for everyone to see!

We are One Family, One Love, One Hardship Carried Together, One Light.

We are joined at the heart, all of us....

I saw Her in me recently too.

I inherited an epidural from last shift. They had to bolus a lot. More than they let on, the other anesthesiologist. I saw the anesthesia record. There were huge doses! When I was called in to mix for the next bolus, I knew what to do. It was less than half the others. And I haven't been called since.

I detected a potentially lethal lack of supplies in my anesthesia cart. In the parturient (mom to have a baby) the airway is smaller than normal. There were no small sized breathing tubes. Only ones that would be too big. We have a new tech. So I stocked them. I went to the OR supply, wrote a note to the tech to be careful to check this stock and why it's important, and carried the proper size tubes in my arms across the hospital all the way back to L&D.

At the last c-section I did, I gave Reiki, just like always. I like to give the transition symbol to ease the addition to the family for all parties involved... But this time was different. I felt the presence of Ross. He is pleased with my skills, and enjoys watching me work. This time, I asked him to give a special blessing to the newborn. He did. It felt so good to have his help in welcoming this new child to the world. She was beautiful, amazingly beautiful, so much so that I took an extra picture just of her as I  took the usual photos of mom holding the little on for the first time, and dad proudly watching.

Guess what?

The little one has red hair!

Just like Ross.

That's how he got his nickname.

As a baby he had red hair too. Rosso means 'red'. Ross is his childhood nickname.

One day perhaps I will share with you what was mine when we lived that life too.

We were the best of friends! I was born five and a half years younger than him. He fixed my toys when they broke. I always looked up to him. We were school mates, and as I grew, we became the best of friends.

We had no idea we were 'arranged' to be together!

When they told me I was to be married, they didn't tell me who. They described him, his attributes, his family. I was shaking like a leaf with fright! How could I leave Ross? He is the only one in my heart! How could this happen?

Then there he was! With a smile! Ross was HIM, the one to whom I'd been promised (they told me his given name, the one I did not know, on purpose, just to make me happy for the surprise. The same was for him, too, he had no idea it was me.)

It was a good life together. A very happy one.

We go way back.

One day perhaps I will share more of our story with you. For now, this is plenty...

Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,

Reiki Doc

The Pink Ray of Reiki

Today's Reiki healing for you was special--it brought in the new. I see it--it is a beautiful pink light that is shining down from Heaven and touching the top of your heads. And mine too. It is gentle, caring, Love energy. It carries this message:

New life, new awakening, new awareness, new consciousness, new hope, new freedom--and you are guided to 'breathe it in'.

Imagine the love this mother has for her growing child in her womb, and how supports it with her very breath!

All of this healing love, like a mother, surrounds YOU.

Absorb.

Accept.

Allow.

And Grow.

That is your message for today from Spirit.

Aloha and mahalo,

Namaste,

Reiki Doc

On Femininity

February 14 is Valentine's Day. It is a day of remembering those you love. In particular, it is a day for the women in the relationship to be honored. Did you know a man will spend four times MORE on this holiday than his partner? (I am not sure in same-sex relationships, what will apply, but I am certain there is a trend like this too, between the couple--one is more masculine and the other more feminine.)

Erzulie is the Voodoo 'Saint' that reminds me most of Valentine's Day Celebration. Bright and pink, beautiful in fine clothes, feather boas, and adornments, Erzulie likes to be reminded that she is the best! Her beauty is undeniable. And she will take the time to pamper herself and make certain that her nails are done, her hair is perfect, and her makeup is impeccable with only the best brands.

Erzulie is more easy to honor before motherhood. In my case, that's what GOT me to be a mother!  After that, survival kicks in, and your 'Erzulie-ness' takes a back seat to the task at hand of raising your family. Perhaps some marriages survive because the woman takes a stand and continues to emphasize her Erzulie quality. She 'doesn't let herself go'.

I have a small altar to Erzulie in my room. She keeps me honest about my work and home. I remember to honor myself because I have her on my mind. But to me, for all of her 'pink girly-ness' and 'Victoria's Secret sexuality', the kind of femininity we focus on with Valentine's Day is selling the Feminine a little bit short.

There is another on my altar, or 'Veve' if you will: La Siren. The mermaid. Mermaids have a mystical, magical aura about them. They live in the water, which is very yin. They are the healers and the sirens. They are 'Femininity with a Kick', a raw, earthly power to nurture, to comfort, and to protect. La Siren is the power behind the mother bear who will protect her cub. It is inborn. It is hormonally-driven. It is hard-wired into the species to protect their young, even at personal sacrifice. There is only one Right Action. And I chose it, to sacrifice my own peace-of-mind and well-being for the future happiness of my own young. I wanted to never see their father again, forever, and I could have gotten away with it. But I thought what it would be like to not know your biological father, and I signed up for the every-other-weekend 'life'.

La Siren is a protector, especially for the single mother. I honor her with shells and gifts from the ocean, shiny blues and greens, and I talk to her from my heart with my worries. She understands how difficult it is to raise a head-strong kid all by yourself.

Femininity is a natural vibration to my soul. It is my way of looking at life. It is the acceptance of Life and Death, as they are. It is being a part of helping new mothers give birth without pain, and with safety to both the mother and the infant in everything I do. It is the visiting of the sick and the aged in the family, and making the best of their situation, helping whatever way I can. Today, my grandmother said, in Italian, 'Besonnio de cacarate'. It means 'I have to poop'. I alerted the nurses, who would not have heard or understood, and with their help, got her to the toilet. She didn't have to soil herself. The power to love unconditionally in spite of the s-h-i-t, sometimes literally, sometimes figuratively, is what the Divine Feminine is all about.

Look at Gaia. Look at her. Where is the Erzulie? Perhaps in the glorious flowers, vistas, and animals? But where is La Siren? Just about everywhere you look. There is Life, everything growing in abundance, in perfect balance with death and decay.

If you are masculine, find someone who is feminine, and gently guide them find their La Siren. It may have to take a lot of Erzulie to coax it out of her. But when La Siren feels safe, and warm, she will surprise you with her raw passion and power. And never again will you feel more masculine than in her warmth. Her fire will ignite your 'fire in your belly' like no other. Then the purpose and passion you discover with La Siren will never extinguish its flame. You will own your 'masculine with a kick'.

Namaste,

Reiki Doc

Gaia is in Labor

Yesterday I was on my shift at the Labor Deck on Labor and Delivery at work. I have been helping women having babies since 1998. In that time I have seen a lot of normal and unexpected things.

I know the effect and onset of all of my anesthetic drugs. I can tell when the baby is navigating the birth canal, wedging it open with its head, by how the mother-to-be gets a pain low and in the middle in the front.

I can tell when the baby is coming down sunny side up (occiput posterior). It is painful and my medicine hardly can cover it up. To make the pain just bearable, I use more than twice I normally use, and the mother may have numb patches in her leg for one or two days as her body metabolizes all that stuff.

All of us know when the mother is likely to go to section before she does. Either the fetal heart tracing is iffy, or we can tell by the contraction pattern, or how long it has been taking for her to dilate.

When you hang around a place enough, you learn something. Sometimes from the nature of your specialty. Sometimes from watching others do their work as well.

I think that is what gives confidence in a health care provider, having been through childbirth enough, in a working capacity, to anticipate and know the tricks to make something work and help everybody get through all right.

It was this knowledge that helped me know that mama rat wasn't a boy, and was due any time with her litter of little rat pups. And got me to act and separate the two parents (I joke and call them Romeo and Juliet now!) so as to prevent more pups.

Gaia is in Labor. It is more than shaking off the fleas or occupy or getting rid of corruption--the rat like people that comprise the powers-that-were. Gaia is struggling with new energy. There are waves and waves of it, not unlike a laboring woman's contractions. I have been working with Her for over a year with my group I belong to, DPH (see Margaret McCormick's work). I have a sense for Gaia.

She is like a young mother going through her first labor. She knows there is a baby at the end of it. And she is ready. But she just doesn't know exactly what is ahead of her. She is courageous and committed to whatever it will take. And she is not afraid to ask for help to make it easier and smoother a transition.

One day, everything as we know it, is going to change. For some of us, we will have the conscious choice to transition through all of it with her. For others, perhaps, it is in our dream time that we make our plans. There are loving entities about, inside her, on her surface, and in the atmosphere/etheric plane, doing what they know best to help her at this time.

It is the first time for any of us, people and planet going together to new life. The Mayans made it through, but only a few, the last time. That time was a 4D to 3D shift, a regression. Since the fourth dimension got destroyed and does not exist, she is bumping up to the fifth.

Have you ever watched the propeller on an airplane? Or perhaps the blades of a fan? When it is off, you see the blades easily. As the device starts to spin, you see a blur, but not as clearly as when it is still. At top speed, the blades are invisible. It is there, you hear it and you feel the wind and know best not to touch it. But it is not seen by the human eye. It is an illusion.

As the vibrations increase, we will go from 3D through what would have been 4D all the way to 5D. We can't see it yet, but we can feel the energy ramping up. Time is going faster. There are strange earth surface changes, such as sink holes, crabs never-before-seen washing up ashore, volcanic activity, earthquakes, strange weather. This is Gaia 'dilating' up to Complete/Complete/Complete. Then she has to bring the new life forth. It doesn't seem like much but at some point she will be crowning. And then that is it. Whatever it is, it will be here. There are plenty of loving hands that are unseen guiding us.

What is asked of you, is to remember that no baby ever reads the book. No two labors are the same, even with the same mother. But just like a mother giving birth, Gaia is in her greatest glory at this time. And nobody but the Creator knows what that time is when our new life will emerge.

Last night, there was a very mature teenager, who was allowed to be present at the c-section birth of her youngest sibling. The father was not in town. I watched as her mother, an experienced mom, watched her daugher  watch the actual birth. There was a joy in the mother's eyes, a sharing of the mystery of life, the miracle, with her daughter. And the daughter was visibly taking in a miracle, appreciating it with joy the entire time. I gave her tissue, for her tears, and felt lucky to be there as this child was born to such a wise mother and kind-hearted big sister.

Think about the miracle of 2012. We are lucky beyond our ability to imagine to be incarnate (alive) at this time! There was a lottery, a huge audition, for these roles we have here today!

So what? Your health is not the greatest. So what, your financial situation isn't the best? It's not like there was anybody wicked out there fixing the interest rates and hijacking your life savings, right? How could ANYONE survive the current economic system? It is rigged! So what if you are lonely? So what if you do not look like a photoshopped cover on a beauty magazine? The models do not look like that either! Again, it is a business that is rigged to make you feel less than your best and make you want to buy what it is they have to sell.

No matter what it takes for you to be here at this time, your spirit auditioned for it, and got the part that only YOU could fill. That part that is perfectly made for you, and you for it, and is VERY important to everything going on in the Universal Theater. Everything you do, no matter how small and seemingly insignificant, is part of the Divine Plan. It is your free will, and how you choose it, that is helping to write the script of what is going to happen to Gaia.


Count to ten for her! Help her push! The time is short for this. And memories are being made! Only the very closest to Her would even get the chance to witness this!

Take care of yourself, and be sure to pay careful attention to your inner voice and your heart. That is where the Truth is for your Divine Purpose. I can't wait to see it shining when the New is born!

Namaste,

Reiki Doc

Buddha's Epidural

The baby wasn't tolerating labor. The midwife had to come in. The patient wanted to 'go natural'.

Medical advice was to place an epidural to avoid cesarean section. I sat at the bedside, we had a nice chat, my patient and me.  She conceded, 'I want to do whatever is safe for baby.'

 I got a call half hour later to put the epidural in. There was a strange vibe in the room. I sensed it. Trouble. Energetically something is not favorable. The anxious patients are the worst because they are manifesting all KINDS of horrible complications with their flurry of horrible anxious thoughts. It is like trying to swim in river rapids upstream, energetically, when I come work with them.

The conflict is greater energetically, above and beyond the negativity of the anxious patient,  because negative energies (attachments. See Margaret Mc Cormick's work) do not like positive ones. Dark and Light repel.

As I progress towards ascension, it becomes increasingly more difficult for the procedure to have speed and ease of insertion when there are attachments present in the patient's aura. There are always speed bumps.

Think about it.  If you were a dark entity, attached to some lower chakra, imagine what a feast of energy it would be for you to have your host, a mother in childbirth, experience pain. You would have access to and incorporate high-grade pain and suffering into your energetic system. It would be so great to have such pure energy of the vibration you like best flowing into your energetic system. You are a parasite, with no energy source of your own, and you attach to a host when there is a breach in the aura of the host. You are happy there, and cause what pain you can to get by. But childbirth? That is like Thansgiving dinner on a plate with unlimited second servings! Would you want the anesthesiologist to make her comfortable? No way!

I have seen all kinds of things, from spinal headaches, to parasthesias, to catheters not going in, to the needle actually JUMPING out of position. I asked and was told by Margaret Mc Cormick it was the dark entities present in the patient that do this. So today, I was on the offensive. Even before sitting up, I started reiki. Turn on with CKR (mentally), scan, ground, SHK...sit up, position. And who was stuck in my patient's hair as I lifted it to put in the sterile bonnet for the procedure? In a silver throne with diamonds was a little jade buddha! I swear he winked at me! (Buddha ia one of my Karuna Reiki Guides).

I started with betadine prep swirls three times in CKR pattern (scrub nurses take heed!). And then it got tough. Hard technically, lots of complaining, and the usual Dark Entity crap. Totally blind insertion. But I didn't get upset. I never gave up hope. I didn't freak out over running out of local for skin, or fluid for the loss of resistance glass syringe. I calmly used air, something I hadn't done in two years! Eventually it worked. I had the strong support of an awakened RN nurse L, and together we got past the patient, the anatomy fraught with technical difficulty, and the family who watched the whole thing. I felt like I was in the hands of Source, being given a lesson on trust and faith, asking for help from Spirit like crazy through the whole episode! And with patience, Spirit guided me, through this lesson of trust and having faith.

Furthermore, this faith was transferred to the patient, with the eventual cesarean section that followed. The patient was calm, happy, and not manifesting nightmarish complications. Her negative entities, or dark entites (Only Margaret could know for sure for each patient) were quiet for the time being. Frankly, I think they were looking forward to the incision healing and my medicine wearing off down the road. This is a significant step in the care of a patient who could have been fearful and anxious the whole time. It was Reiki and the application of energetic skills that helped her to come to grips with the situation at hand in a mature, balanced way that was brought out the best in her for herself and for her infant.

 Namaste, Reiki Doc