My walk continues.
Yesterday I was in the hammock, getting a little sunshine, and I cried out to Ross why I can't seem to get anything done on my days off while I'm at home?
He said that I have to heal first, the first step for me is to restore my Yin as I've been out of balance for some time. A very long time, due to my training and my work. I've had too many Yang activities that's why I lost my 'to do' list and can't seem to make any progress on it.
What have I been doing? Gardening. Enjoying the yard, noting the small progress each of my lovely plants has made. Composting.
Cooking. And cleaning.
He also gave me my first assignment to do, to complete the 'We've Moved!' cards and our address books, which is on the dining room table. Then I can make room for puzzles, the jigsaw puzzles to do.
I'm also adjusting to the multidimensional experiences which are coming my way. The other day I sent a funny movie of a dog going shopping in China to a friend who lives on another continent. I was at work. But when he watched it and laughed, I felt it, as if I was in the same room. I just knew, because I could feel. Sure enough, another funny thing got sent back. That I didn't feel, as I was working and concentrating at that moment on patient care. Through Reiki we learn that space and time do not exist. Our Consciousness can be anywhere, really, it is not tied to the physical body. So by baby steps I am getting used to that.
I also have been frustrated with Anthony and his video games and sitting while I work myself to the bone. He doesn't even do his homework. He's over six feet tall, with lots of muscle, and I can't push him around. I asked him what do I have to do to get him to help, cut my wrists? (this was my soul talking again, it just came out and I made the gesture).
The next morning, while washing dishes, I had an accident when I picked up the apple slicer tool, the one you press to cut an apple into eight wedges and leave the core. I sliced my right ring finger good and raised a flap. Blood was everywhere. I had to sit and apply pressure. But I had shown it to Anthony, who controller in hand, looked my way and asked, 'are you okay?'. I held up my red dripping hand. He was like, 'oh?'...
Then I asked him, would you please finish the dishes for me? I need to get this to stop bleeding.
He said, 'sure, I will help you out'. Later he washed.
At dinner that night, I asked him if he noticed the connection? Between what I'd said at dinner the night before, and his helping me because I got cut?
He hadn't.
We had a talk. I asked him to check in with his teachers, and to make sure he let them know he's interested in catching up and making sure his distance learning goes well. The night before he'd said he will do his homework 'later' because 'he likes to have fun'. But yesterday while I was getting dinner ready, he apologized for 'not being much fun' and 'we can do fun things together' (due to the video game). And after dinner, he explained how he has been in 'f-ck it' mode for so long with his illnesses he just was overwhelmed by everything. I told him how he'd disappointed me around the house by blowing me off, and not keeping his word that he would help with the housework. (I'd gotten the house he wanted, the school he wanted, but he didn't keep up his end of the deal). He said he did the dishes because I asked. But I told him that for me, asking is a lot of work, and it just adds a lot of stress for me. I shared, 'what do I do all day at work?' Teamwork. Constantly communicating with everyone. And when I get home, I just am sick of having to manage the team. I want to have a nice house and peace and rest. I don't have the energy to be the drill sergeant.
He understood.
He cleared the table, loaded the dishwasher, and even got dessert ready. We'd watched the Irishman the night before, and he wanted an ice cream like Jimmy Hoffa. So we had ice cream.
. Here is Ben Fulford which you can give or take as 'news'--so much is censored and controlled information wise...at least it's something new. I don't buy all of it. Ever.
Someone asked me yesterday how Gaia feels about all this. 'Have you done a reading?' they asked. Um, not exactly (big smile). Gaia is hopeful and waiting for her pristine ecosystems to be restored.
Restore your Yin reserves.
Take the time to balance inside.
The energy will help to restore both you and Gaia.
Thank you.
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Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,
Peace,
Ross and Carla
The Couple who love you infinitely every single day you are incarnate, and it doesn't stop this loving--not even when you pass over.
