Again, I woke up to the voice of Spirit, this morning at five thirty three: often what we do absorb is that which we would have hysterically rejected.
Yesterday had two huge firsts, and two very important ones at that.
I made a crock pot dinner (Texas Pulled Pork) and coleslaw from the red cabbage I picked from the yard early in the morning. It has to cook and the salad needs to meld the flavors all day.
I had Anthony set the table, serve it and tell me when dinner was ready.
I chose to empower him. I've served every meal--except for Mother's day breakfast--for years. He has cooked for me dinner once, reheating the frozen orange chicken from Trader Joe's after a horrible work day, but we ate in front of the TV.
There's a whole dishwasher to unload, and a sink full of dishes, but that's okay, I can handle it.
As I heal I am better able to be present for both myself and others. This is like the icing on the cake.
While we were watching the latest episodes of The Last Dance, Anthony needed to excuse himself to use the restroom. And I saw the bunny in her cage. She has a bigger one now, and we cleaned it for the first time yesterday. Her bottom is doing okay. She's getting better at keeping herself clean.
I looked at her and thought, 'why not?'
She is comfortable with us, the vet says, and that she knows she is family. We see her relax and copy us when we are in the family room. She eats when we eat, stretches out when we relax.
Once when we were in Barcelona and walking through the streets we saw an old man holding a bunny just sitting out in the front of his house. Anthony and I were like, 'no way could we get our bunny to do that, right?'
Last night I did.
I held her, Anthony held her, for about ten minutes. She was very good.
It might sound like nothing to you. But to me, this is huge. Let me explain.
I don't get cuddles. I don't and I haven't for a long time. Yes Anthony hugs me often and I hug him. But for cute fuzzy creatures--I am allergic. In a big way. Dogs in the house, cats anywhere (there's one exception, oddly enough)--I wheeze, I sneeze and I get welts on my skin.
Yes, I have embraced turtles and birds and snakes as our household companions. They are each sweet and wonderful. I enjoy their presence in the home. I've cared for them for years, over twenty years, thirty for the turtle.
Being able to just enjoy the softness of the bunny, not when she was wrapped in the towel after I'd cleaned her and was drying her off, but just...THERE...calm and peaceful. It meant the world to me.
I don't think anyone would choose to live in isolation. Even the bunny seems to appreciate and enjoy having us more and more too.
I'm going to switch gears, Spirit gently reminded me.
A few years back, I had a wonderful patient who was very young and named Stephanie. She had many procedures and wanted me for her anesthesia every time. To the point of canceling her surgery if I couldn't be there for her.
Stephanie passed.
Her mother and I have stayed in touch. She lives a far ways from me but we call and also we meet in the middle for lunch.
She has colon cancer. They went for surgery on Friday, and it's too big to cure. It's extending into neighboring organs. She had palliation for potential obstruction. We spoke yesterday. It was so very sad.
She has always been smart, like a doctor. She says, 'if I needed transfusions twice already before the surgery, a lot of units of blood, it doesn't make sense to consider chemotherapy or radiation.'
Most doctors would just want comfort care at the end, and not the heroics.
Before the surgery, when she told me the three options--the last one being what happened--I said simply, 'it's in God's hands'.
So yesterday we spoke of that. It's God's plan. We don't understand it, but we accept it.
I asked about her son, who has depression and was really affected when his sister passed. She is waiting until she gets home to tell him. She doesn't want him home alone after hearing the bad news.
Her questions to me are about pain control. Just now I remember what Khiem wanted from me was that too, and I came up with the patch. I told her to get connected with a pain management specialist--even on this admission if possible. And I told her how with my failed backs during surgery I give ketamine and have some good results.
I will be there for her, as best as I can. She drove to visit Lauren when I was working and Lauren was in the hospital near her (it's like three hours away, where Lauren's kidney transplant happened years and years ago--she had been inpatient for an episode of rejection).
Please join me in prayers, and in sending healing to Melody.
Thank you.
Ross
There are things which you do not have the ability to see, but I can. I assure you that everything is working together for God's plan (he interlaces his fingers) and it is for the highest good.
We do not live in a vacuum.
Everything is interdependent on everything and on one another.
There is one YouTuber from Norway who encourages both independence and responsibility and self-reliance...this is a lofty aim but somewhat outside the reach of the average person living in an urban area...
We want you to understand and accept that although we are here for you, and Spirit is running things in ways that might not be apparent to meet the eye, YOU and your efforts are what is making the Schumann frequency turn (link removed). Each of you doing your own thing is actually under the direction of Spirit like an orchestra conductor, and for us here in the Higher Realms the sounds are really beautiful!
It is kind of like a painting where it is a little abstract--like pointillism--something where seen up close it looks like blotches but from a little further away is a beautiful masterpiece!
Be where you are.
Open your hearts.
Trust in God's plan (Divine Father and Divine Mother).
Everything happens for the best.
Be loving in all situations and all circumstances.
Forgive.
If possible, forget whatever it was that needed to be forgiven.
Enjoy life.
Be PRESENT. (Carla is working on this very much, and more healing is taking place but we aren't talking about it, deep healing, in her soul, releasing shame and sorrow and turning back to Life. )
Hope for the best.
Question everything you see on the news.
And enjoy each day, as the gift it truly has been sent.
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Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,
Peace,
Ross and Carla
The Illuminated Twin Souls who oversee almost everything--when we are both at home in the Higher Realms. <3 <3
