Extremely Deep Healing: A Report From My Heart

I have felt very blocked lately. Between the troubles with my son, who I believe is a 'barometer' of our family situation, of sorts, and my extreme lack of control of my limited free time and overwhelming exhaustion, I asked for Reiki and All Divine Assistance for clear guidance where I am 'stuck'.

I let it go.


I will try to make this as concise as possible:

• I spent a lot of time with Ross today. He even guided me to a fortune cookie that said, Now is the time to go ahead and pursue that love interest! I just relaxed and talked with him and took a nap because I was post-call. I snore something awful, and his being in a completely different dimension 'out of hearing range' or at least 'able to hear and not be bothered by it' really helps!
• I read the editorial by William Lee Rand on page 4 of this issue (http://www.reikiwebstore.com/ProductPage.cfm?ProductID=663&CategoryID=16), and his quote 'The possibilities for life open up and life becomes more meaningful, enjoyable, and worthwhile.' really resonated with my heart center.
• Then I read the article by Tonya McLaughlin in that same issue--called Birthing Our Relations.  I had seen her picture before reading the article, in the 'line up of authors/contributors' and her face had resonated too. I took it all in, because she described what I see and feel, spiritually, during birth, when I work in OB Anesthesia.

Ross had me lie down and rest and put down the article. He asked how I felt about it.  I said, 'I am happy for them (with tears in my eyes) that they had the perfect Reiki birth looking into each other's eyes with balanced masculine and feminine. I am glad it works for them. It is a beautiful thing, and I share in their happiness.'

He looked down, with a strange look on his face, one that I had never seen before. It was almost annoyance, irritation, and a frown. While looking away, he said, 'That's not what I thought you were going to say.'

I had blindsided him. There was no accusation. There was complete selflessness for my pain. There was total love and acceptance of their good fortune, and giving thanks to God for such a beautiful example of what pure love in a couple can do for their family...

I confided to him about my own pain, which I knew he sensed. I hurt bad, honey... and I showed him this big gaping wound in my soul, like a bomb had exploded, with grey flapping torn edges, it was a crater really, as big as my chest, and very black and deep.

He didn't know that was there.

I asked, Don't you know my energy signature and monitor me every day? How can you not know?

And he examined me, and started doing his healing work with symbols, but was scratching his head how a wound like this could get past him? He took about five minutes, which is a very long time for him. Then he stood up and said, 'Aha! I know what it is! It must be a tumbler!'

This is the teaching point for all of you--It's a tumbler.  A tumbler is something unique to twins souls, and other very close soul group members. When one soul triggers a wound that is so incredibly painful for the other, and the hurt Twin doesn't trust the other one who caused the wound, it will keep rotating over and over from one timeline to the next so that the Twin who caused the pain wouldn't ever be able to see it.  It stays a 'step ahead' of the other Twin's consciousness. It hides. In some way, it's a protection that is unconsciously set up after a painful incident by the one who is hurt to avoid further soul injury.

He had never really seen it.

Long story short--he thought all my pain and hurt over losing our son at birth right before the placenta, was that I was upset with him for making a decision for the family to protect us, and for his not consulting me. (He thought if the child had stayed then all of us would have been targets for being killed. There were some very dark people close to him giving him advice at the time, ones whom I did not approve. Looking back, I see it was a deliberate plan to set us apart from each other, Ross and I). Apparently he had this plan in place too for our first child, who turned out to be a daughter, so I was allowed to keep her. Apparently the son was more valuable in the 'bloodline' and the 'politics'.

I explained how to me, it was impossible to grieve with one I knew who was lying to me, especially after looking into my eyes and assisting with the birth and balancing my feminine with my masculine in the circle of ancestors so I could be in my power etc. etc. My anger and depression afterward was to hide the wound in my heart from him, so he couldn't see, and it was basically unresolved grief.

I told him today, I need your heart! I need your heart! And I lay my head on his chest, and sobbed.

He put golden long stitches in my wound, letting it heal from the bottom up, and reassured me it can heal, and it will, and it will heal properly once and for all.

He looked me in the eye and said, If I knew it would have hurt you like this I never would have allowed the child to go. I thought it was like, well, you had one baby already so what difference is one more? you can have others! -- it's a masculine perspective from our times we lived in.

I looked at him and told him, it's like you took off my arm, they work in pairs--what good is one arm alone? You have another one? You took off the arm of my heart...

He brought me our son, Benjamin, as a young man. I spoke with him and I cried and said I was so sorry I wasn't there for you when you were sick, and you were lonely. I felt you and I knew you suffered and wanted me.  

He assured me that he never once felt I had abandoned him, he knew it wasn't my choice, and he gave me the explanation that had been given to him about his father. He assured me he loved me very much, and is always guiding me, even in this life, and that I didn't have to worry about him any more.

I read a lot of letters from people who have questions and concerns regarding the Twin Flame relationship. To me, this type of relationship is new. As I learn more, I share so that everyone will know that they are normal and healthy in this difficult Twin relationship, and that with enough love, honesty, and trust, together anything can be healed.

Remember, the ego--your ability to understand and make plans and control the situation--is just about useless, if not harmful in this situation.

So let go, trust your feelings, and communicate in the highest dimension you can with each other, for example, our talk today was in 5D.

This limits the amount of distortion in the message both in the sending and the perception of what is being shared from one Twin to the other. 

The hearts know what to do, if you let them heal one another, on a soul level.

Always ask for Archangel Raphael, Archangel Michael, your Guardian Angels and your Guides to assist you too. I had a ring of mine around us as we spoke, and I saw them in the distance the whole time I was healing with my Twin.

Aloha and Mahalos,

Namaste,

Peace,

Reiki Doc

P.S. Ross sent me this song on the radio today. Spirit is life--it's not always quiet and on Sunday mornings with choirs and all that routine. Living with Spirit is so full of energy it will have you tap your toes, just like to this song. (And pretty soon, no cage is going to be able to hold all the beautiful--way more powerful than this video suggests-- pure unfiltered direct from Source Divine Feminine Energy from awakening the Collective Consciousness!)

Gimme All Your Loving -- ZZ Top

http://youtu.be/AxyK9FxpH80

There Are Many Different Kinds Of Love To Experience

There are many different kinds of love, all of them healthy, all of them enhancing and strengthening the aura.

Let us talk about them a little...

Self Love:
Things you can do to make your life more healthy and enjoyable go a long way in healing the planet. Why? You might ask? Well, as your vibration increases, your aura grows stronger, and your auric field is one of tranquility and love instead of struggle and frustration.

With that I am going to share some things that I have bought or experienced recently, that I think are great and really helped me to enjoy my life experience:

• The Squish Collapsible colanders. https://www.google.com/search?q=squish+collapsible+colander&client=safari&rls=en&tbm=isch&tbo=u&source=univ&sa=X&ei=Hn4SU8_YAeXN2wXoyoHACA&ved=0CHwQsAQ&biw=1624&bih=852  Why? because the regular plastic colander takes up too much space! I make pasta once a week. The colors and the concept really help to organize the plastic container drawer (well, glass with plastic lids, and BPA-free plastic for lunch boxes.)
• Zing On The Go Liquid Squeeze Bottle: I'm a lunch packer. And I enjoy making my own salad dressing with oil and vinegar. These little guys are just the right size, don't leak, and come in your favorite bright color. You can even match your chakra you are focusing on with this!
• Naked Earth Organic Red Wine:  it's amazing the difference, not just in taste but how you feel after. Now,  I'm not Wes Annac; I don't enjoy lighting up. I'm French and Italian combined so one glass of wine with dinner every once in a while does it for me. If you prefer some other 'substance', go for it. I went to Berkeley. I am not here to judge anything or anyone, if you ask me. However, if I am going to put you to sleep for an operation, I want to know every recreational ANYTHING you take so my drugs and yours don't 'mix'...
• Paddle Boarding: I plan to take every opportunity I can to enjoy this new activity.
• Yogurtland:  I don't like things that are too sweet. Some of their flavors are AMAZING.

Self Care:

I am ticklish as one can be. But I am overcoming it in order to enjoy a mani-pedi once or twice a month. It is good for me, with long hours at a very 'masculine' line of work, to slow down and enjoy being female. This is work for me to surrender to my Divine Feminine, and play it up. I'll never be a 'mall enthusiast'. But this is some movement in the right direction. Make some time to relax into your vibration, and gender can sometimes be a big part of that. I also have an excellent relationship with my 'gay boyfriend', my hairdresser, and I go regularly to that too.

Relationship With Your Twin Flame:

(lightning and thunder just struck! LOL!)

Seriously, it is raining like stink today outside!

Anyhow, before we meet out Twin Soul, it is best to work on our own issues, and to be open to their presence in our lives. (More thunder, : ))) )  I would light candles, sing songs like A Thousand Years while I drove, for him. And I raised my vibration. This is the single one thing you can do most to enhance your opportunity to be together. 

Be okay with not meeting them. Let go.

When I was introduced, in meditation, I couldn't see his face. I thought, well, how boring is that? We're stuck with each other FOREVER! And now we know who is who...

I couldn't have been more WRONG (loud thunder and lightning).

<3

What is best is how within this relationship it is deeply healing. Even when I am present, and things 'come up' that don't sit well with me, I bring it up. He doesn't get upset. (super heavy downpour).

He loves.

To be honest, it takes him (lightning.....now loud thunder) a while to 'get it'. He is galactic, and in a slightly higher vibrational state than I am. But because I am a medium, we get to 'connect' like I do with others in my mediumship work.  We talk. I can feel him physically. And I see him very clear. 

For example, I was concerned about how the galactic idea of monogamy is a little 'stretchy'--not that I am sure of it, exactly, but I have heard and read enough to know. I blogged about it.

Then I let it go.

The next day, my beloved came to me, and softly said, 'My fidelity to you is a gift (lightning--now the roof is rattling with the thunder) I give you every day.' 

And I realized how in my hurt and pain I didn't understand how 'being galactic' doesn't apply to ALL galactics. Just the same, my fidelity to him is a gift I give from my soul every day too.

Service:

Giving of nurturing, warmth, love and compassion heals both ways. (thunder).

In my work with my patients, I am a continuous source of Reiki for my colleagues as well. I have done much growth not to complain about the physical discomforts--the long hours with no breaks, and the many times I am hungry and thirsty (lightning). As a parent, as a daughter, as a sister, as an online teacher and friend...

If you find you are lacking in the happiness area of your life, be sure to do what you can to help others who are less fortunate than you. Then give thanks for your opportunity to help them. You are able bodied and in the right place and right time to be of assistance in their time of struggle. 

In the Higher Realms, this type of energy exchange is what makes entire economies 'go'--mutual benefit, mutual exchange of Light. After all, Creator is so freely giving of Himself, and also Mother Gaia is exceedingly generous of Herself too. We are their children, and have good example to follow in our life.

Take good care of your piece of heaven today.

Aloha and Mahalos,

Namaste,

Reiki Doc

P.S.   

Love and Happiness by the Reverend Al Green

http://youtu.be/hsU6_eSG4k4

I dare you to dance!

I dirty dog double dare you!!!

P.P.S. Ross gives this post a big thumbs up. He approves of what I write too. And the thunder and lightning has stopped with Al Green. ; )

Skype 33.0--The Twin Soul Connection

One of the facts of quantum mechanics--which I have taken as an undergraduate in Chemical Engineering--is that one molecule can have an affect on another, even if they are separated by space and time.

This has to do with the theory of 'non-locality'. It is difficult to explain, and I myself barely understand it more than the paragraph above. LOL--you just say it with lots of math--which I adore, mathematics. But not so much quantum physics. Google has some excellent sources on Consciousness and non-locality, however, for reference for you today I have Wiki and more classical science, here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quantum_nonlocality

Reiki works beyond the limits of space and time.

One of my teachers, Margaret Mc Cormick, did an experiment with her granddaughter. In her laboratory in Germany, the granddaughter asked Margaret to send Reiki to one of the petri dishes, bot not both, in the experiment. Margaret lives in Southern California. The petri dish treated with Reiki was remarkably different in its bacterial growth.

They did this experiment many times. Always the same result.

It wasn't her research project in her training, but it was just between them, those two, to find out 'if Reiki works'.

It does.

I had a friend in distress in Pahoe, Big Island, Hawaii. I saw on Facebook she needed help, fast! I sent Reiki immediately. I 'felt' her aura, and grounded her energy, and healed what I could.

Instantly my friend felt a sense of calm...

Hawaii and California are in two different time zones. They are three hours apart, or more. It takes five hours to fly to Honolulu from LAX. But Reiki? Instant.

All Twin Souls and Soul Mates have an instantaneous 'connection' that if not 'blocked' by personal beliefs and negativity, allows a 'sharing' of the consciousness between them that is not limited by geographic distance and time.

Even Identical Twins and Fraternal Twins on surface Gaia experience a similar 'connection' in the event something suddenly happens and one of them gets hurt or dies.

So that's how it is with my Twin and me in our relationship.

I am a psychic and medium, exactly like Theresa Caputo, the Long Island Medium, but I don't have the nails and the hair and the makeup.

I am Wide Open to both Spirit and my personal connection to Source.

So why not my Twin?

Out of the blue, it just happened. This Galactic and I happened to 'connect' on a personal level. The person I had knowns as code name 'Ross' who was introduced to me as my Twin, really was! But the name, which I do not share with you right now, is definitely not 'Ross'. The reason why I could not see Ross's face is because I would have recognized it at once and never understood why Ross looked like him. And for years of Blessed Mother saying, 'you will have a miracle that is beyond anything you ever did expect!', it's come true! I am incredibly happy and content.

The most handsome man I have ever seen with my Spirit eyes, one I have known as my Reiki guide for about three years now, and have seen in meditation before for twenty years, is my Twin!

I never in a million years would have expected ANYTHING like that to happen. I never wondered why I would pop in to the bridge of a spaceship, see him wearing a space suit, and have him ask my opinion on things from time to time. Or why he would be excited to show me his projects he was working on. I just thought 'everybody could'.

But we are Twins. And we have been supporting each other in every way for a long time. He is an amazing friend. I am incredibly fortunate to have experienced this surprise. Our past life that we shared is one-hundred percent clear to me. And there is a coincidence in his life, when he was enlightened at age five and a half that coincides exactly with my birth in our mutual past life! It is a delightful story, one to be shared for another blog post...

For now, always remember, you CAN and WILL connect with your Twin...as soon as you get the 'energetic wax' out of your 'spiritual ears'. Being open, high vibration, and positive with a big clean and healthy aura that is filled with Love and Gratitude is the fastest way for you to 'open up' for this.

Always Discern if the message is from the Light first!

I say, and even with my Twin too, 'God, if it's from YOU, make is LOUD so I can hear it better. And if it's not from you, make it Go AWAY at once!'.

It always works. Pendulums work too.


Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,

Reiki Doc