Dude?
This Covid race has been tough.
I can't do it much longer in my home. Wearing the N95 when outside my room, wiping everything I touch with Clorox Wipes. Having to sit outside with a coat on if I want to watch the t.v.
Yesterday I had one of the worst days I've ever had. My battery died. I had to wait for a jump. I drove for an hour to get the battery charge back. I missed my scheduled Covid test, I couldn't find a place to call to tell them about my car trouble...you know how there's some days where you do ZERO of anything you want to do? Well, that was it.
Each of us are starting to get to our own breaking point. That's almost as if by design, that our 'keepers' know us, and understand how to make us break.
This is why Ross and I choose to speak to you of RESOLVE.
This morning, if I hadn't have been eating my bacon, chocolate chip pancakes, and coffee outside, I'd have never been able to notice that indeed, my Christmas cactus had bloomed for the first time in two years!
Always look toward the hidden blessings.
Yesterday, the jump guy was very honest. He told me how to put the 'severe depletion' back, and also, how to get a 'factory charge' back on my battery. For free.
And just today, thanks to the help of someone with my billing company, I was able to hit 'submit' to something that had been hanging over my head--reporting something to the government--for a long time, actually, over a year.
Ross and I are better now. It still brings me to tears to think of what happened to him, and why.
When I think of the AC and what's ahead, I want to cry.
So many places worldwide are turning against the unvaccinated. I watch with horror. I remember the lessons of Corrie Ten Boom. And I resolve to pray. And to create. I color--I have religious coloring books and it helps with the anxiety.
I resolve to be here for Anthony. I resolve to improve with my household work I need to do. I resolve to start doing financial cutting back--way the heck back--like the 'prepper princess' on YouTube. She can live on hardly anything. Here I am again, ten days off with no work, due to the Covid. No work, no income. It's the only muscle I have left to exercise...and I can work on it. We all can.
I watch my son, he has a part time job that pays minimum wage. He can make (take home) barely enough money to cover for his lunches out and a ticket to a local amusement park with his physics class. I cover his car, gas, insurance, food, healthcare...entertainment. It's so hard to be starting out.
Get used to thinking about how to survive in small groups and communities. Ask yourself, if the hospitals are full, who would be able to help with a health emergency? If all the drugs were sold or the pharmacists died, what would we do for pain or antibiotics? If all the stores closed and lots of people died, how would I live? Could I grow my own food and take care of myself? Could I find wood?
I was talking with a relative who lives in Northern California. He caught Covid when I did, now his family is getting it and healing. He has good set up for solar, but as backup, can convert the house to a generator, a big one, but even that can only run for so long. So he's thinking of getting a real propane tank set up in the back yard, a big one, to run it. They get lots of wildfires where he lives, and so, he's had many a time where the power went out.
Do you have friends who are electricians? How about plumbers? Do you know basic skills?
Together we will find a way through whatever is next.
KP wrote yesterday how he wasn't sure if he was going to be able to make it. He blogs every day every day every day...it's been years now...then fortunately he did a big mission clearing things.
We are in the trenches, we are on the front lines, and it is tough. There's no denying that.
Think of your RESOLVE.
I know I will offer to work longer hours for my peers once I get back to work. My other job didn't need me. But at the main one, if I work more, perhaps I can make more...
I learned that there's some people at my work who make so much they get TWO paychecks a month, two weeks apart. Not me. It's been one for like, ten years.
I'll be dreaming too, of perhaps other possibilities. But first I must get the house in order, organize, and let go of things. First things first...Every time.
This year holds the promise of potential breakthroughs. Prayer is helpful and important, vital to ask Divine Creator to HELP FIX THINGS...and ask often!! Do everything you can while you are still incarnate, to make you a better person and to help your community. Do what you can...
Yesterday, I helped to thin the fruit on the citrus trees. Two are so full with fruit the branches are at their breaking point. I picked two boxes. I also juiced the big crate of apples left from our tree. I made perhaps a gallon of juice. It's the sweetest juice ever, Anthony said. I'll be making lots of orange juice too. And lemonade.
Allow your intuition to guide you as to what skills to learn or to develop. Remember, as unsettling as it may be, we are actually in a good place. We know what is going on, even though the truth is censored and people are actively lying to the general public. There's no surprises here, not like for those who think everything is on the up and up...
Ross
I have everything under control. There are no surprises here. Not for anyone, or anything.
Carla doesn't know much of what I know. It is for her safety. Same as for all of you.
Remember how with Carla usually things she is needed to do/are asked of her at the last minute!
So do what you can to engage with your assignment, and to grow. Do what brings you joy.
Carla is going to walk a little in the park, and be so grateful for the opportunity.
She will also make a light lunch for Anthony--wearing her rubber gloves that she uses to wash the dishes!--so as to spare him. Her test hasn't come back yet to see if she's still got a big viral load and is contagious.
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Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,
Peace,
Ross and Carla
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