I feel like this. I've felt like it all weekend. A little off. Just on the brink of being overwhelmed and swept away...but I keep going. I keep going.
Someone said on Twitter that knowing the truth, and seeing how it looks like the dark ones are getting away with it, is a form of slow torture.
Add to that, that I am aware of both the spirit world and the earthly one at the same time...it's not easy. Not easy at all.
With the house, I realized that Ross believes in me, and even if it takes a long time, the house can look beautiful. It just takes someone to believe in you. I did a fraction of what I had hoped to do. But I did it.
With my health, sadly, the symptoms of the diverticulitis are coming back. Not as strong. I'm due for a colonoscopy to check out the situation in about a week. It's almost as if I need a new lifestyle focused on my health first. At work, it's next to impossible to eat, and very hard even to stay hydrated. I understand the need to rest, and I have. It's going to be an adjustment. Fortunately, unless seeds set you off, it's okay to eat nuts and seeds. The study had changed. I am careful to remind myself to chew carefully.
Spirit wanted me to drain the pool, and to rotate it a little. I did. Anthony helped me.
Spirit wanted him to get a new headset from Costco. I waited until I was ready, and we went.
Sometimes when you have diverticulitis, when you have to go, you have to go in a big way, and it's a hurry. I was kind of scared I wasn't going to make it home in time. But Ross said, loud and clear, 'I got your back'. I made it just in the nick of time.
Yesterday, I took down a grid I'd had up for a long time. With my studies, I've realized that it's in God's hands now, the Awakening. I've done everything I can do. And my taking down the grid was a sign of trust in the Divine.
That's why this new Gaia Portal came out. I realize the enormity of the project, and all the capable hands at the helm to make it happen. It couldn't happen without every single person on our teams, down here and up in the spirit realms.
Things I watched and read which have helped a lot:
- A Libertarian endorses Parler
- The Corbett Report Guide to the Great Reset--absolutely phenomenal journalism
- a[THOUSAND]Pieces is a wonderful tribute to JFK. We are in good hands with people like this at the helm. For a twenty percent discount, use the code obriengift
- we cleaned the bunny and her cage
- I learned it's okay to use the claw clippers on the turtle. She's so old the claws are growing into her feet. I'd taken her to a vet who said not to worry. But that was ten years ago, and it's worse. I'll clip them some more again in a bit, but they are better. (with some pets, there's a part of the nail that can bleed, called the quick, you have to avoid it)
- I put more bird seed up, and cleaned and refilled the hummingbird feeder
