Yang-O-Rexic

I was going down a steep hill on the ride, California Screaming, at a certain theme park in the area. It is a fast drop, and I was enjoying it very much. Then the thought came to me: I am getting a yang 'fix'!

(I just went to feed my cockatoo, Harry. He lets me know when it is time to uncover his cage! He is another source of yang energy in the home. Harry listens to radio, the local oldies station, KRTH 101. There two songs just played:

here is the direct link: http://youtu.be/s7FGbhpr2pg

here is the direct link: http://youtu.be/8UCdbGvemVg

I 'saw' how we live in a world with an overload of Yang! How could yang-o-rexic be a remote possibility? Look at these videos--she sings about boys, and boys sing about love not going 'right'. In fact, where's the yin?

what is 'missing' in this picture???

Are you familiar with the physiology of diabetes mellitus? It's not just 'too much sugar' to describe the metabolic imbalance. It is starving in a sea of sugar.

That's right. Without the insulin, you can be surrounded by blood sugars three hundred and up, but not a bit of it 'is absorbed' to nourish the body.

The body runs on ketones instead. This is the back-up metabolic pathway. The body will digest itself to create the ketones ('ketosis') because the engine of the human metabolism can run on that ('diesel') instead of carbohydrates ('gasoline').

So here we are, each of us, masculine AND feminine, who originally come from a place of androgyny, or 'equal harmony and balance within'.

We 'separate' from one soul to two, creating the Twin Flames or Twin Souls.

This 'game' of 'finding each other' is rigged. It's worse than the 'shell game' that someone asks you to play on the street. We ain't never gonna find each other, and if we do, it's not gonna be 'happily ever after'. The 'insulin' to help us absorb the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine energies isn't here.

there is sarcasm

there is hope against all hope

there are incarnations and incarnations of pain and suffering

Take my heart for example.

It's done.

It won't open.

It's like an animal that has been abused…what do you call that behavior when it really wants to be petted and cared for but it just bristles and runs away when approached? 'Spooked', I believe, is the word to describe this behavior.

Somebody opened my heart up in me just the other day with an 'awwwww…..' recently. Then it slammed shut tighter than a giant clam.

It did not want to remember the pain when that 'other' in another lifetime 'died'. 

It was horrific beyond description. And definitely not 'healed' in any way. The agony and pain is raw.

I have to function in this life. There is no time to heal all that. (a hummingbird just came to the fountain right now outside the window--that is my totem--the totem of Joy. Ironic and comforting at the same time. One of my favorite quotes is your joy is your sorrow unmasked.)

What are we to do?

Each little 'yin and yang' in this mandala above has to balance! Each is 'us'.

We start working within and with our perception of The Divine, of Source.

To me it looks like this--Om--the Unconditional Love that makes the entire Multi-Verse 'go'…

We must have courage! And strength! And persistence, discipline, and dedication to the Light.

For me, Reiki helps (this one symbol--I would never put them online--has a 'little flaw' so it's okay).

The stakes are high. Higher than we know. That is why there is Divine Assistance with the Ascension Process currently happening on Gaia. We are all included in this. There are those 'sent' as Star seeds, and those 'in the rafters', as well as 'cousins in Agartha below'. We call this movement 'The Resistance' and it is taking all of our efforts, night and day, for a very long time...

In our family, my european family of origin, relationship begins and is reinforced over sharing a cup of coffee…

…or a nice pot of tea.


My goal, and my dream, is to wrestle this heart of mine together, with Unconditional Love, the Angels, and all of the Kindness of The Divine, for it to 'balance' and 'open' enough to 'connect' to another who is in need of it, the one I am to be with to Learn, to Heal, and to Grow. To hopefully reunite with my Twin Flame.

I crashed and burned so much Spirit told me to 'drop it like it's hot'.

I am off limits at this time…with one exception:

Until The Event, all seekers go through Usui-Sensei. He is in Spirit. So you know your vibration has to be in a certain bandwidth just to even be considered…

This way I can 'let go' of the longing to be healed on so many levels, and do what I was sent here to do (Reiki people, know that symbol was not 'random'. )

And once the colors of the New Age Arrive safely, and you are here with them all in one piece healthy and happy and content…I can relax…I can let go…and I can Love with my whole Heart as it was created to Be.

I AM that I AM. Goddess Energy in human form, an old soul from someplace besides this (I know, I feel it, the density of 3D!)…your sincere  hybrid-conventional and energy-healer, writer, and friend.


Aloha and Mahalos to all of the Ohana,
Namaste,

Reiki Doc

Spellbound Plumbing

I have found the answer to a complex spiritual conundrum that has taken me three days to understand.
(Hint: if you see a very innocuous title on a blog post, chances are it is going to be something BIG. I hide it. Only the most careful seekers can find the jewels of my earthwalk that I hide to keep them 'safe' from those who are not actively pursuing their own spiritual learning.)

Three days ago I saw a tree entwined into the symbol of the Tao, otherwise known at 'The Yin and the Yang' on a social networking site. It resonated. I 'shared' it.

For those of you who are not familiar with it, this symbol represents the active/masculine forces in the spiral of life-constant interplay-with the dark, nurturing Yin. Even in the Yang, it is not pure-for within it is a tiny spot of darkest Yin. Vise-versa for Yin, who has a spot of white Yang at its heart, its essence.  Everything about Life can be described as the balance between these two forces.

I saw the leafy green tree Tao, and 777. My skull was thick with not being able to process the spiritual significance. A reader kindly shared the symbolism of each. Then it had to percolate. And now I have it: substitute the concept of 'spiritual emptiness' and 'spiritual abundance' for the Yin and the Yang.

For now we are exiting duality. We are moving on to a higher paradigm.
And the biggest gestalt is this: we are broken, as individuals, but together we are a perfect whole.

The body is a teacher, and I will share with you a pattern I have found emerging in my entity-body, spirit, and mind-over the last few days. There are forces out there to rock me off my foundation. Unusual delays, weird patient issues that complicate my work in the O.R., serious family drama over health issues, lack of sleep...

My heart center signals to me--I am empty. Fill me up. Go where you can to find peace and serenity, if only for a little while, like 'reinforcements on the front lines and the supply chain'.

Two weeks ago, Friday, I was disoriented, my energy was so low. I had a short day at work. The kids were going to dad. I felt I needed to do something kind to myself. My heart had a calling for a local restaurant where a colleague of mine, his wife owns the place. 

I went in. By myself. 'Table for One'. I was so thankful for a place to go that was Light. In the bathroom, you can imagine my surprise as I want to give a blessing (I hold my hands out and spin to open a vortex), a calling of the angels to bless their Light on this business--and there were some already there! Not 'my' angels, but my blessing was a small 'layer' of frosting on a very nice spiritual cake!

Then I saw the flyer on the wall in there for Peace (aromatherapy oil). I bought it for the whole family. Chef made it 'certified awesome'. He was kind and gave extra for me.

I was so helped by it I never took it off. But then, after mom was finished with her surgery, I had to take a break. I had to let the emotions work themselves out of the necklace holder for the oil.

I went to a fundraiser that was sponsored by the restaurant. I didn't wear my necklaces (I have two).

When I went home, my consciousness rose. I understood that these oils, like a wine, were a living spiritual creation because chef had blown his Spirit into them. They were not 'aromatherapy oils' by themselves.

I further realized that they were 'medicine' for me. My aura has been imbalanced for a long time. Through the stress of the surgery for mother, I never realized how much more 'balanced' I felt. My sister said the oil was 'the only thing that got her through' the surgery stress.

I chose to 'accept' this breath of chef living medicine into my energy field. Into my chakras or wherever it was to do its work. I welcomed it. I had felt its presence one day earlier, much like I had felt the presence of my son before I even had a clue I was pregnant. It was in my aura. When I prayed and gave the angel symbols, this energy field multiplied it and gave me the same symbols back!

Let me be clear--this is not a piece of soul or heart or anything. Only energy of love put into a healing tool that I needed very much. I had to admit how much I needed this healing. And to accept it.

And there you have it. Like a tire with a little patch, my energy system is 'good to go' again.

One of the bottles has two 3's on it. Last night it had a mind of its own--at 2333 exactly while I was taking care of the patient, I smelled pine. It had disconnected itself and landed on the floor. I scooped it up. Pay attention! Pay attention! I 'picked up' from Spirit. Behold the Goddess! --I saw! Crone on the operating table, Yin (healing) in action, my life in one swift passage like Spirit was connecting the dots A  to B to C...exactly what role I played in my acceptance of life, death, healing, age, and the lessons that Yin does bring. And how much Yang it took out of my essentially Yin nature to get to the place in society where I can practice anesthesia as my healing art. I work with people between both worlds, This one and The Other Side...this all came up in like, the second I was bending down to reattach the little bottle to the holder on my neck under the scrubs. Consciousness can rise very quickly!

I get the strangest feeling that as we weather the next 'changes' on the Ascension Pathway, we are going to change from 'me' to 'us' and as 'us' we are going to be one perfectly functioning unit.

We will share our deficits openly with each other, and find healing in the sharing of our gifts.

And the cycle between the "New Yin" and "New Yang" will be the balance between these two states, 'Empty' and 'Full'.

Today my family was as exhausted from the first call as I was. For months we had wanted to go to the ocean, to our favorite restaurant where you can eat outside. I made the drive. And there, the ocean 'filled' my 'empty' again. Enough to fuel me through the next day of Spiritually-based activities.

Empty. Full. That is the Spellbound Plumbing we shall build from one heart to the next, to help each of us along through Ascension, together.

Namaste,

Reiki Doc