Last night, I had a dream. Mikao Usui was there. So was Chijuro Hayashi, and Hawayo Takata. There were two others present who I did not know. We were face to face.
I asked Mikao Usui if I could visit him, later, just to say hello, and he smiled and looked down and nodded, shyly. I could tell, as my Reiki One guide, he was very pleased with me and my work. Due to politeness and his culture, he was not as warm and open as I, myself half-Italian--who is a hugger for everybody--naturally am. But his joy, his quiet happiness in his heart, I most easily felt.
Hayashi embraced me, and we were both very excited to see one another.
And to me, Takata? She is a rock star, and I was very very impressed to see her smiling and talking and so beautifully dressed in her Hawaiian sheath gown of a very light color with pattern to it.
While I was enjoying this energy, this companionship, this feeling of accomplishment as a team, I startled myself with the realization--and I asked everyone, astonished--I asked plainly and simply--'How come we are here together, and you are not at the edge of the hole in the ceiling looking down at me like we normally do? How can this be?'
They reassured me that all is well, that nothing had changed between our hearts, as always, but because of the energies we were now able to be together in one level, all of us together, once again.
Here are some photos to explain the unexplainable, with a beautiful testimony to a Senate Committee about Reiki by Hawayo Takata at the end...
With much appreciation to all lineages and traditions of Reiki, and to my teacher Anne Reith, PhD, who trained me...and to Margaret Mc Cormick, who helped me learn Divine Peace Healing so my training would be complete...
Usui-Sensei came. He was in good spirits and very animated. I was delighted to see him.
He took me by the hand, and next I knew, I was under the same waterfall at Mount Kuramayama (Kurama is the English name). I felt it cold on my head! He said, 'yes, it is cold!'
Then I came out and he gave me a fluffy towel to dry myself off.
We walked a few paces, and he gestured the the path ahead.
'What do you think?' he asked.
It was blurry. I wiped the water from my eyes. He was very excited to show me something. I 'sensed' that this is the new 5D. I 'got' colors that were vivid and beautiful, but still a blur. I kept walking with him in the direction…
Then I saw dozens and dozens, no, make that hundreds and hundreds, of Reiki Elders Past. Some were standing, some were seated, but all of them were looking at me, looking for my reaction.
me: Usui-Sensei, what am I doing here? I am not Japanese!
Usui: You are welcome here.
me: How can I be here with all of these Reiki ancestors?! I am not like them.
Usui: You are supporting the cause of Reiki.
me: But…but…are you SURE I should be here right now? I am just me…
And I looked around at all the faces. I felt the energy. There was earnestness, and sincerity in their gaze. I also looked at my body, and I did not look like me. My skin changed color, my face changed, so did my hair…
me: In the past was I somebody else?
Usui: You are here for what you do Now. We want you to know you have our support and encouragement. We want those who follow this work to know we are united with them in this Cause of Enlightenment through Reiki that is encompassing the earth. All of it is holy. Our Hope is with you. Our blessings are with you. For each One, we wish to share the following message: In Reiki You Are Never Alone; Never Underestimate This.
And then it all went away!
I was going down a steep hill on the ride, California Screaming, at a certain theme park in the area. It is a fast drop, and I was enjoying it very much. Then the thought came to me: I am getting a yang 'fix'!
(I just went to feed my cockatoo, Harry. He lets me know when it is time to uncover his cage! He is another source of yang energy in the home. Harry listens to radio, the local oldies station, KRTH 101. There two songs just played:
I 'saw' how we live in a world with an overload of Yang! How could yang-o-rexic be a remote possibility? Look at these videos--she sings about boys, and boys sing about love not going 'right'. In fact, where's the yin?
what is 'missing' in this picture???
Are you familiar with the physiology of diabetes mellitus? It's not just 'too much sugar' to describe the metabolic imbalance. It is starving in a sea of sugar.
That's right. Without the insulin, you can be surrounded by blood sugars three hundred and up, but not a bit of it 'is absorbed' to nourish the body.
The body runs on ketones instead. This is the back-up metabolic pathway. The body will digest itself to create the ketones ('ketosis') because the engine of the human metabolism can run on that ('diesel') instead of carbohydrates ('gasoline').
So here we are, each of us, masculine AND feminine, who originally come from a place of androgyny, or 'equal harmony and balance within'.
We 'separate' from one soul to two, creating the Twin Flames or Twin Souls.
This 'game' of 'finding each other' is rigged. It's worse than the 'shell game' that someone asks you to play on the street. We ain't never gonna find each other, and if we do, it's not gonna be 'happily ever after'. The 'insulin' to help us absorb the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine energies isn't here.
there is sarcasm
there is hope against all hope
there are incarnations and incarnations of pain and suffering
Take my heart for example.
It's done.
It won't open.
It's like an animal that has been abused…what do you call that behavior when it really wants to be petted and cared for but it just bristles and runs away when approached? 'Spooked', I believe, is the word to describe this behavior.
Somebody opened my heart up in me just the other day with an 'awwwww…..' recently. Then it slammed shut tighter than a giant clam.
It did not want to remember the pain when that 'other' in another lifetime 'died'.
It was horrific beyond description. And definitely not 'healed' in any way. The agony and pain is raw.
I have to function in this life. There is no time to heal all that. (a hummingbird just came to the fountain right now outside the window--that is my totem--the totem of Joy. Ironic and comforting at the same time. One of my favorite quotes is your joy is your sorrow unmasked.)
What are we to do?
Each little 'yin and yang' in this mandala above has to balance! Each is 'us'.
We start working within and with our perception of The Divine, of Source.
To me it looks like this--Om--the Unconditional Love that makes the entire Multi-Verse 'go'…
We must have courage! And strength! And persistence, discipline, and dedication to the Light.
For me, Reiki helps (this one symbol--I would never put them online--has a 'little flaw' so it's okay).
The stakes are high. Higher than we know. That is why there is Divine Assistance with the Ascension Process currently happening on Gaia. We are all included in this. There are those 'sent' as Star seeds, and those 'in the rafters', as well as 'cousins in Agartha below'. We call this movement 'The Resistance' and it is taking all of our efforts, night and day, for a very long time...
In our family, my european family of origin, relationship begins and is reinforced over sharing a cup of coffee…
…or a nice pot of tea.
My goal, and my dream, is to wrestle this heart of mine together, with Unconditional Love, the Angels, and all of the Kindness of The Divine, for it to 'balance' and 'open' enough to 'connect' to another who is in need of it, the one I am to be with to Learn, to Heal, and to Grow. To hopefully reunite with my Twin Flame.
I crashed and burned so much Spirit told me to 'drop it like it's hot'.
I am off limits at this time…with one exception:
Until The Event, all seekers go through Usui-Sensei. He is in Spirit. So you know your vibration has to be in a certain bandwidth just to even be considered…
This way I can 'let go' of the longing to be healed on so many levels, and do what I was sent here to do (Reiki people, know that symbol was not 'random'. )
And once the colors of the New Age Arrive safely, and you are here with them all in one piece healthy and happy and content…I can relax…I can let go…and I can Love with my whole Heart as it was created to Be.
I AM that I AM. Goddess Energy in human form, an old soul from someplace besides this (I know, I feel it, the density of 3D!)…your sincere hybrid-conventional and energy-healer, writer, and friend.
