On Being Tested

Earth is a school.

You are a student who is enrolled in this school.

Your life experiences are the curriculum.

It is graded on the curve, there is no failure, except lessons are repeated until one has success in passing them.

What you are when you are asleep, where you go while you are dreaming, is the real YOU.

What is here in your 'waking state' is actually the dream in which you agreed to take part--for the purpose of your soul development and your ability to assist with the growth of others.

That being said, your ability to 'connect' with your Higher Self, Source, your Guides, you Angels, your Deceased Loved Ones--is often measured with your ability to discern and trust your 'gut feeling' and to have the confidence to follow it.

Does this make sense?

Further, since this ability is vitally important to your soul, it is a prime area to be the subject for 'tests'.  These have been going on for me since I was first waking up in 1990, and I am in the middle of one right now.

While you are in a test, your pendulum or other divination tool isn't going to work as well as it usually does. You have to rely more on your subtle feelings, your intuition, your 'sense' of 'what is right for you'.

These tests don't come when you expect them like in Earth Incarnate Classrooms like we have in our own education system down here on earth with our society.

They are always a 'surprise quiz' and many times you have no clue until after the fact that you are taking them.

Try to look for these tests, and regard them as Heaven's gifts to you to help you be stronger and more precise in your work as a soul.

For an example--Ross had me driving around again, looking at houses. When I was in tears, one just popped into view to my right a few seconds later. He said, 'this is your miracle!'. It is a beautiful home, high on a hill, with a view.  Huge yard. I took a flyer. (it costs way more than my own and would quadruple the mortgage payments).

Anthony saw the flyer  sitting on the counter and liked it. He's like, let's move mom!

I saw it a second time yesterday morning. I went through the gate. The view is gorgeous. The neighborhood--not so nice and lots of bars on the windows, unusual for this area.  The green grass is astroturf. It's not a gardener's home.  I saw lots of dry rot under the eaves. The house also really doesn't have flow, although it has the view I have been looking for.

I 'sensed' to wait and to show the home to Anthony and see how he responds. He's the one who gave me the signal to buy the car I currently drive. We had been looking in September, and were totally turned off by the salesmen. I had given up.

We went to a salad bar restaurant, and after, on a whim, went to see a new dealership. The salesman here was less offensive (still insistent) and Anthony saw and asked for a ride in one that was the year before's model, on clearance. It was higher than I wanted to pay, but marked way the heck down. Anthony LOVED it. He even offered me all the money he had--two hundred fifty dollars--for the down payment.  He was only six!

It turned out I love the car too, and it's right for me--I just had to grow into it.

I still have my old convertible for weekends.

Well...with the house...Anthony wasn't that impressed. There wasn't a good area for him to play catch. He wanted to put a basketball hoop up in one area.

What got me through that test was Liz, the deceased owner of the other house we almost bought.  She told me that this one here heats up like a tin box, and to be cautious about buying it. It would be very expensive on the electricity bill.

The data point I got on the need to move, though, and I'm still checking it, is my hair guy who lived in the beautiful ocean view home high on the hill--when they were relaxing in the house, there would be a big pop, and the window glass would crack. The thick double pane windows! It happened all the time there was so much movement in the home! They sold the home as is, rented an apartment for seven months while the owners of the new home finished building where they were going to move, and started completely new. He has never been happier.

So I am still checking with Ross, and working through my tests. This time I am completely calm, detached, and at peace.

It never ends!




Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,
Peace,

Reiki Doc

Taming The Green-Eyed Monster

This is an Advanced Lesson for the Soul.

You may stop any time you feel uncomfortable with this lesson.

It is optional.

Think of it as Extra Credit.

Let's begin.

Today we are going to talk about the Elephant in the Room.

Here is a story:

My son came home from his weekend with his father. He was out of sorts.

He has been asking for a lot of things lately.

I am concerned, it seems no sooner than he gets something -- which is expensive--he wants something else.

The joy that it brings doesn't 'stick'; I am at a loss because I grew up poor, and I was very happy with the few things I got.

Others got cars on their sixteenth birthday in my neighborhood. 

I never even had my own stereo--I didn't dare to ask for it.

We were that poor.

I asked him why he never wore his watch he got from Santa?

Santa was still paying for it, $160 a month...we talk, me and Santa, and Santa would have been happy to know if the boy still enjoyed the watch as much as he did when he opened it?

(This was the last 'I Believe in Santa' holiday, as the child was growing older. He loves Christmas more than anyone I have ever met. While shopping last October for a Pandora Charm for his grandmother's birthday, as the gifts were being wrapped, he discovered Tag Hauer, and that is all he wanted. Careful thought went in to this gift. He is a very good child with a hectic and chaotic life because of my work assignments, and he never complains. But was it reasonable? I thought against it. However, direct advice from Ross made it happen. BUY THE WATCH. It is something to 'grow into' and acknowledge the child's future. For whatever reason, this is what was...and on Christmas Morning there were tears of joy, shouts, and disbelief--I KNEW Santa would get it, I KNEW it! I KNEW IT! He had actually taken it off the wish list about one week before...)

His father, and his grandmother who had gotten the jewelry as a gift herself, told the boy repeatedly ever since Christmas day, 'You shouldn't have gotten that watch for Christmas.'

(They had estimated it cost twice the amount it actually did. This one takes batteries, and was on clearance, at the store.)

Here is the message they gave the child:

• Santa was wrong.
• In their eyes, the boy didn't deserve it.

He was shattered.

I spoke candidly with the child after comforting him through his tears.

Your father and grandmother LOVE you.

They are having trouble with their 'Lesson': how to be happy for someone who has more than you.

It is one of the most difficult lessons to learn.

Please forgive them.

They love you the best they can.

Both Ross AND Santa decided together that you deserve it.

Would you like to wear your watch again?

(it is kept in a safe place). I got it out, and he wore it for the next three days straight, full of joy--never at school--but on Mother's Day outing and around the house.

It starts early.

It is said that when a sibling comes home, it creates the same emotions in the older sister or brother that it would in the wife if the husband came home with another woman and said, 'This is how it's going to be forever now, and I love both of you the same in my heart! We are one big happy family!'

Children are not stupid.

They know resources of time and money are limited.

Perhaps they have to share a room. Perhaps mommy is a little cranky and tired. Perhaps the crying baby ruins their sleep at night. Perhaps the little one pushes the older one out of the mother's lap, literally (this one happened to me, and my mother did nothing to stop it.)

I survived one of the worse cases of sibling rivalry that has been on the planet.

I felt like this for all but three years of my life--but the last ten, I have decided in my heart to rise above it, and not 'feed' the emotions that come up when they surface from my soul, ego, heart, whatever. I decide I do not wish to be like that and I keep my energy up and change the channel to lovingkindness to myself, my sister, and my mom.

If this rings true for you, take heart.

Love Is The Solution For Everything...

And there is plenty of love on this page here for you...

I had this problem when it comes to having children and relationships.  I was always on the outside looking in. In the delivery room, with my anesthesia, witnessing this joy was unavoidable; it was like a knife slashed through my heart!

How could this be?

Then, one day, I woke up.

I said, 'Just because I can't have a baby/am single/have fertility problems doesn't mean I can't be happy for someone else who is having one when I am not. Why not share their joy instead of make it a little less for everyone with my feelings? I don't want to be that kind of person, forever, and there are plenty of children I can love in whatever way God has planned for me.'

I was pregnant the next month.

It wasn't easy.

I was single the whole time, and I still am.

I had my miracle.

I am very happy.

Sometimes I ache because I wished I had more.

It's not going to happen. 

But I just got a text from one of my Reiki students at work--

Thank you for the Mother's Day card to a Mother-To-Be you stuck in my locker. I was so surprised and happy that I cried. I am that hormonal! You are an ANGEL! Thank you for thinking of me

I learned my lesson well.

There is no jealousy or envy in 5D.

This is because Love Is The Solution For Everything.

And the Vibration of 5D is incompatible with those lower vibration emotions.

This is extra credit.

You will have as long as you wish to complete this lesson.

It is optional.

There is no grade.

You will know in your heart when you have passed the lesson.

Love Is The Solution For Everything.

The rest is up to you.






Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,
Peace,

Reiki Doc