My Funeral With Ross

He was there.

I couldn't believe it! He was THERE right next to me in the pew.

Why he would come to this funeral, I couldn't believe it.

But Ross was there next to me, and smiling, the whole time.

Did we do some energy work? A little...

Amazingly enough without my mentioning any of it to my son, who was two people away from me (our good friends Mai and Linh were between us), he SAW the Reiki symbol I gave in his mind--I had never taught him and only one person on earth besides me knows it--and kept saying not only did he sense Ross there but the Peace Sign too...(it's close, but not quite the symbol, yes?)

What was the energy healing?

See the pretty lady to the right in the photo?

She lost her mom.

It's a long story, but she is my Reiki student. I taught my precious Amber Reiki for free, because she wanted to use it to comfort her mother who had cancer that was end-stage.

She knows Reiki II.  And already, she is so spiritually advanced, that she is 'connecting' with her mother Jackie who has made the Transition to The Other Side.

So why the healing to the group that was present?

There was bad blood in the family. Feuds. Things like that. And the death was an opportunity for healing to take place for those 'lower vibration' things...

So with Ross, together, we did a healing that would Transmute these into Light.

And we did.

We almost didn't get noticed, except for our son--who in fact is Ross' spiritual child--but that's Another story...

It was a beautiful service.

Jackie's mission is complete.

Now she's home.

What did I see with my eyes that see today?

• I saw a range of spiritual development in the people present.
• I saw people respond to our healer, the daughter of the Jackie, as she created a sacred space, and opened her heart. I could identify and 'feel' those who 'open their heart' with ease, and others, who perhaps for today for the first time, opened it for Jackie and Amber.
• I was AMAZED how the family of the mother, honored the generations of strong women before them--who insisted that 'blood is thicker than water' and built a legacy of love and support among the women to help with their survival in this often unpredictable world.
• I sensed how illness affects those around us, our family and friends, very deeply, and how lessons are taught.
• I laughed with delight at how the mother, in her last stages of illness would 'sell her diapers' for money, once to go out in a wheelchair in the rain with a cake box on her lap to bring home a cake for a loved one. Or perhaps a tea set for her granddaughter.
• The Divine Masculine was present and working in tip-top shape as the father of Amber, and the former partner of Jackie, paid his respects in front of the group. He also got back up to lead a small concluding prayer.
• Amber led the service with a request for her mother's favorite song, played by those who played it for her on guitar, Mary Do You Know?....it was very, very Galactic for music to be used like this, Sirian, indeed.
• I spoke, for I knew Jackie--I was the anesthesiologist when the Amber gave birth (we reconnected through Reiki, and I had completely forgotten I had ever had her as my patient. It was Amber who figured it out, and asked me to look at the medical records.)--and I always remembered her, who was enjoying the birth of her granddaughter while having a diagnosis of cancer.
• I saw how the responsible ones gave the gift of dignity to Jackie, in her illness, and sacrificed time, money, prayer, and necessities--to keep their family member clean, warm, safe, dry, with company, and with full medical care. I was amazed at this form of love that was made so visible.

It was a good day.

Thank you Ross, for attending this first social function with me. Although you were in 5D, and no one except our little one could sense you--I hope perhaps together we touched many hearts today.

Ross:  I did.

I was happy to be with you and to support you in your support of Amber and her family.

Peace.

I love you very much, my sweet, delicate angel. (he hugs me)

I have to go for just a little time (shows me his thumb and finger as an 'itty bitty' gesture).

Namaste.

Aloha and Mahalos,

Namaste,

Peace,

Ross and Carla

P.S. Here is the day Amber and I first 'met': http://reikidoc.blogspot.com/2013/04/mahalos-and-aloha-amber.html

On Facing My Worst Nightmare Tonight ((( Heart )))

I faced my worst nightmare tonight.
It wasn't in a hospital.
It was at an 'Open Mic' night at Au Lac.

I went there for a friend, my friend and Reiki student, Amber.
It was her twenty-fifth birthday tonight.
She invited me to come.
I knew it would mean a lot to her.

The OR ran late and by the time I arrived it was three hours late for her party.
I waited for a guitarist to stop, and I walked to where she was sitting.
I gave her a big hug, from my heart, and had her open her present.

I chose the new Doreen Virtue Virgin Mary Oracle cards--
Amber sees Blessed Mother now, too.
And with Doreen's cards there is never anything 'reversed' or 'upside down'.
They are all positive. (I also gave her a pendulum, and a little more, and a card.)

I don't like crowds.
I am uncomfortable around people I don't know.
Especially ones that look like the people who used to smoke pot with Dad at the nudist camp where I 'grew up'. (there's a blog post on 'Growing Up Nudist', if you're interested).

I didn't like the Vibe.
The 'searching' and the 'playing' with Consciousness.
It was like the giggles from smoking pot--I couldn't take them seriously.
Or Dad.
I was old enough to know the difference.

Pot smokers can be okay--Wes Annac--go ahead, Light Up for God's Sakes--I know you think my 'wine with dinner' is toxic so we're even! LOL
Incidentally, Edgar Cayce enjoyed his cigarettes--he used to say, 'there is no tobacco where I am going'…

But for me, with that type of crowd, I get nervous.
Very nervous.
It's because of when I was a kid, and Dad seemed, well, out of control momentarily by these people.

Anyhow,
Tonight was OKAY.
Everything was FINE.
No one hurt me.
And Amber gave a beautiful tribute to the magic that has brought us to be friends:

• I gave her anesthesia for her c-section, and forgot about it. She did too.
• Amber sought me out for my Reiki when I was at her work (she is a server)
• I taught her Reiki to help her mom who has end-stage breast cancer.
• She asked me to look up her file at work--did I do her anesthesia?
• She was right! We marveled at the coincidence...
• I also wrote a letter for her to get into a Master's program, and it worked!

Everybody clapped and cheered to learn of my role in her journey! All of the ones that looked like those people I feared-- loved me, and accepted me, not as their own, but as Amber's.

She also gave credit to my Twin, my brother, who owns the restaurant but used to be my kid brother when I was alive while he was an infant…He is important in her Path and Magic too…He was just as embarrassed as I was, but glad in the heart, and walked out of the room when the crowd started to clap and cheer his name.

On the drive home I sang to keep myself awake.

And I thought. I thought about the people that make me nervous, and why?

I couldn't figure it out.

I pulled in to the garage, and saw the snowman had fallen over completely. It is my boy's treasure and delight, and he would be upset to know it was not standing up. It is one of those inflatable eight-foot tall ones that lights up.

So I checked.

It did not have the pegs.

The little pegs that anchor it had come out. There are three and none of them were in the ground.

I fixed them, and it stood up.

Then I understood!

They do not have the pegs!

These people who make me nervous are 'flighty' and 'top heavy' or 'airy', with 'too much spirit' and not enough of solid contact with day-to-day 'earth'.

They do not have the pegs…

Their reality is not like mine as I know it, a world of discipline and structure.

They do not have the pegs…

For years I looked for someone to 'anchor me'.

I deliberately sought out partners who were 'big' like bouncers just to help me 'ground' and feel 'protected'; I was so spiritually 'flighty' that I was afraid without it I would 'float up'…It was uncomfortable!

It wasn't until medical school and splitting up with my baby-daddy that put me Here and Now all the way--LOL.

No wonder why that personality 'bothered me'…I was looking at part of myself--floaty, otherworldly, yours truly.

I was that way for most of my life! 

Until I woke up.

Always look past the 'uncomfortable feeling' to see what is True in your Heart Center.

I'm glad I did.

Happy Birthday Amber!

There is magic for everyone tonight.

Aloha and Mahalos,

Namaste,

Reiki Doc