First of all, I want you to know my mom and I are very close. As close as we can be with our basic differences. We speak daily. I know she prays for us daily. Ever since Anthony was born, we have grown closer.
Even though she may have once not preferred me, we have made our relationship the best it can be for what it is now. One of the things that brings us closer is my memories of the old days, when it was just her, Dad and me. My sisters have no knowledge of that happy time period in her life. So we reminisce.
Also, politically and with 'galactic openness' we talk about things perhaps she might not be able to talk about with others. Things that are important to her.
I'd like to explain more about relationships in general, from my perspective, in a moment.
But first, let's check in...
Energetically, there is a huge tug-of-war going on over the planet. And I feel it. Everyone wants control.
I read in a mask post on Twitter a comment from the church of Satan that they want us to mask, get our immune systems down, and hit us with a new virus that will kill everyone just about, and 'usher in a new age of Darkness'.
I don't know about you, but there's been Dark Ages already, and this is ridiculous. They have to go.
Here's the Schumann Resonance frequency (link removed), again, nothing, and I feel it in my heart. It's painful for me when it's not all white. So the time until it gets white, drags on and on and on...
For work, here's my hours--Sunday was 10-4 or 5, Monday was 10-6, Tuesday was 7:30 am to 8:00 pm.
I felt like I had been kicked in the balls because my last case was done, I was wheeling to recovery room, I thought I could go home and JUST RIGHT THEN another case was added and it was the sickest one of my night--at five pm, and it took and hour for the patient to come downstairs. I was caught in a dilemma. We test for COVID every 72 hours in the hospital. And it was just at the wire of 72 hours when the case was to go. Should we retest? The first one was negative.
When the patient moved to the bed from the gurney, and had super low sats, and also, when they were having trouble breathing in recovery room and I had to stay even longer--I had my suspicions that the was a total COVID case, who the abdominal pain was part of the COVID and just happened to have a surgical condition.
I came home and took a hot shower and scrubbed with lots of soap to kill it, if I was exposed.
Today is a short day, I hope, with two cases starting very early, 0700. That means in the hospital by 6:30 a.m. and out of the house by 6:00.
I realize my life is spent in the O.R., and that's why the last twenty years of my career have flown by. It's like I blinked and BOOM!
I am grateful for my job, I enjoy the people, I just don't like that it's not a 9 to 5 with two breaks and a lunch. I find it impossible to plan anything, because the hours are so long.
Last night, I came home to Anthony playing the video games in his pajamas. Yes, after 8 p.m. he'd been in the same chair all day. I just don't have the energy any more to hold him accountable. He's happy, that's good, I mean, I work so much. But I just was horrified. I'd asked him to clean the grill so we could cook the meat. He asked if I'd had a bad day and I said yes, I think I'm full of the COVID I was exposed.
When I came down from my shower, the best china was set at the table, and the french fries from last night were warm, and the meat was cooking. For dessert we had rainbow sherbet. Then it was time for me to go to bed.
I was so grateful to see something, anything, beautiful, and to have a true meal. My lunch had been a 'wedge' salad with a chicken breast on the side. It was wonderful our chef had made it. My breakfast had been half of a donut-pan dulce thing I had tried the other day and didn't like, and coffee. It's always a rush. A hurry hurry to start my day.
Let's get back to the other point, shall we?
Here is why the lesson of being 'number 2' is so painful.
I don't process relationships like you, or most people.
I don't know why. I think it's cause I'm like Back Home. But I'm not sure about that.
Whenever I interact with you--online, face to face, on video calls, reading your texts, --I feel that big gold mesh bubble of energy.
I am not ME, you are not YOU. I only sense the combination of our energies together.
In essence, YOU define ME, be because there is no separation. OUR energies together are what I remember, the sum total.
So...I experience ME many different ways a day, from all the huge gold bubbles I encounter, with everyone. And that's what I am. It's not really 'me' I feel, because I don't feel myself. I can't focus on it.
Right now at the moment, I am typing in my room, it's dark, before 5 in the morning. But I don't feel ME. I feel the energy of the house, Anthony's energy sleeping a few doors down the hall, the energy of our pets, the energy of Nature, outside, the energy of the freeway, and the energy of my Spiritual guides/support. I sense it, I sense the peace, and I feel good.
There is no ME.
This is ME AT THE MOMENT IN TIME in the context of EVERYTHING.
When I tell you I 'see' these, it's only with training that I can see the auras and the colors. But for my entire life, I could SENSE them.
I am like a radio scanner, and my frequencies can adjust.
So when I encounter you, inside that big gold bubble of our energies, intuitively, instantly, without words or thinking, I sense your 'issues', your 'imbalances', your 'strengths' and what is on your mind. As long as you are vibrating within my range of bandwidth frequencies, I will 'get' you. And I process it so I know how to interact with you for the highest possible good.
This picture gives you an idea of what I pick up, in frequencies, but it's made visual so it's easier to understand.
It makes me genuinely happy to connect and be of service. The happiest I've been in a long time was doing a session on video call with a member of DWR who was seeking spiritual insights. I ended up doing a reading too. I was using everything God gave me, for the right reasons, and helping her really made me feel alive and like HEALING in general as a 'science' was 'moving forward'. It was like my doctor's hat PLUS everything from Spirit.
This was about one year ago.
I also enjoyed with the singer, connecting like that. Especially since she had applied for the transplant list, and was told 'no'--and had been devastated to be called 'not medically suitable candidate'.
Buddha DIGS separation.
He's into it.
He's like me plus spirit minus world attachments is NIRVANA.
I'm not like him.
If I've been with you, and felt the high vibration of connection, and you can't feel it or don't care, it's painful to me when you pull your energy away. It's mind-boggling and frightening to my soul, not to be able to experience our big gold mesh ball of energy. Because I do not exist! And out of the sum totals of energy balls together that create my world in daily, weekly, monthly contact, there's one less energy ball to define ME. And perhaps it was a happy experience and aura connection that was mutually beneficial. It's gone, it's starving, it's cut, and I grieve.
I grieve because in heaven these aura connections are never cut. They are put perhaps on hold temporarily for an incarnation if you both go to experience other things, by mutual agreement (I gotta go! like on the phone call when it ends). But never is one person going to say, 'I like you' and then 'I found someone better' and 'you can get over it' and 'I quit you' and the drama.
Drama is BRUTAL on the fine energy systems!
But on earth, Fine energy systems aren't 'sensed', and people chase drama with a passion.
Except for me, who isn't really 'human' in that general sense of the word.
And for your friends? How can I read their energy?
By the change in your frequencies from interacting with them. It's kind of like looking at an old film photo negative and figuring out the photograph. They leave imprints on your soul.
Separation is stupid.
Ross and I have been trying to spice up the DWR page, to bring relevant, adult, sane, intellectual discussion on topics that are triggers for people. Our readers don't understand we are doing a kindness. First to bring up the skill in a safe forum. And second, to look at both sides of controversial things--'red pill lite' so to speak. Our viewers are dropping like flies. But you know what?
I feel the sum total energy of our page too. And with those who want to stay asleep, with their energy leaving? It feels better. And giving our readers who are interested in growing and finding their voice and sharing conversation, THEY are getting excited to talk and to share too. Ross and I used to have all kinds of social events at our home, with lots of discussions--passionate ones with the brightest minds speaking their point of view all at the same time together! And we LOVED it!
There was a time where we sort of went into auto mode on DWR, especially after the censorship, and decided 'not to rock the boat' and to 'give people what they want'.
It got boring.
Two healings. Here. Every single day. Post something inspirational. If you run across it. Post requests for healings. Very cut and dried and predictable.
The last thing Ross and I ever have been IS predictable! Ross changed the world! And lots of people hate him and love him, he's truly a polarizing individual (I love him! no guessing on that!).
We want to know YOU. Know your heart. Know your passions. Know your opinions on current events. So we are going to be asking questions and posting things on a more regular basis, always monitoring the conversations, and policing it to make sure everyone is polite.
Ross
What Carla is trying to explain, in this limited short time she has before work, is something akin to what we up here in the Higher Realms would call 'Galactic Lite'. All her talk about how she does not exist, but she experiences herself in relation to others, is technically correct.
Up here we strengthen our sense of 'self' through daily meditation and self-healing and self-care. Though we do this, we strengthen ourselves to be fully present to create the UNITY which is in our commUNITY.
Get it?
We thoroughly understand the importance of our connections, and how one interaction over here (he points to one corner) will ultimately --connect through the magic of energy transfer and bioresonance--to a point over THERE (points to a diagonally far corner).
This is why we practice emotional hygiene, both mental and spiritual discipline, and a strong sense of ORDER in the Universe, because we build it and respect our Divine Creator in the process.
'Go clean your room!' a parent would say, to a child, to help bring order and not division to the home. On earth you would call it standards and procedures and holding people accountable to the expectations of community life.
Here it is more automatic.
Now it is time for Carla to prepare herself, her home and her family for her work. We are grateful for the money, always thankful for the income, and the ability to sustain our work here with you because of it.
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Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,
Peace,
Ross and Carla
The Eggshells (crunch crunch crunch)
We don't tiptoe around for ANYTHING. (Ross laughs)
