Today's countdown is sixty. That's less than two months until major changes are clearly visible and 'life is better' according to the countdown given to us by The Council.
Sixty is important when it comes to time. There are sixty minutes in an hour and sixty seconds in one minute.
Let us say perhaps in the sixty days countdown we have reached Earth's Finest Hour?
After all, Earth Day is right around the corner...
But what about the purification?
It applies to me.
Not to anyone else but me at this time, and I am fully prepared to share it, as embarrassing as it is for me to do so. Nothing hides here in this blog. Not ever.
There are many layers to each of us as individuals. And one of the most powerful is our own sexuality.
There have been three posts on Twitter which, when put together, really caught my attention. I will share them.
But then they had to percolate through my soul. They had to work with my current life situation. And together this helped me to see the awful truth about myself which before then I couldn't see, and also the even more precious truth that awful as my own truth may have been, it is still not enough to take away the love of Divine Creator and Ross for me...
Quote 1: (from Esoteric Exposal on Twitter)
Sex is the ultimate weapon in controlling people. When sex becomes the mind's dominant idea, the mind can be incapacitated and emotions destroyed. Personal identity, individuality, family life and maternal and paternal feelings erode.
Quote 2: (from Esoteric Exposal on Twitter)
A Satanic purpose has been to reduce all human relationships to the level of a cheap and transitory thrill, the orgasm, to reduce human beings to the level of our bodily appetites and defeat our spiritual nature.
Quote 3: (from Shalom Melchizidek on Twitter)
How to Make love to a Goddess:
Making love to your mate physically is not enough, you must go beyond. You must make love with all of your awareness, with your complete being. You must touch the parts of each other that can not be touched physically. You must reach them from within. This is the beginning of Cosmic Love. She is more than a body, you are more than a body. You are living energy and when you dive fully into your lover completely, you will meet them in all of their glory and divinity.
There you have it...the complete and total ends of the duality spectrum on spiritual sexuality.
So how does this apply to me?
When I get a good hit of 'attraction' going, I turn into a completely different person!
My ego takes control without my realizing it. I start thinking about the person, and at first I'm like, on the defensive. After Jared and Frank and Mark I've grown to be a little 'HINKY' over anyone who has the potential to abuse me in any way, mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually.
I like 'bad boys'. The reason being is that I am ultra feminine, my work makes me overcompensate to be hyper masculine, and in relationship I like to be submissive in the dynamics. In relationship, I would be thrilled to meet a partner who was proficient at BDSM because I have an overwhelming pull to 'chocolate' as they say in the BDSM community. They despise 'vanilla'.
I don't know WHY I have had this overwhelming predilection, but I have always been this way, and fortunately, I've never fallen into that crowd and I've been able to not act out on those impulses.
The first step of my purification was to realize this scrub tech who is attracted to me might have the potential to become a very good friend. Once Dear Abby had described 'love' as 'friendship that is on fire'. I accepted the feelings (his or mine, when you're am empath sometimes it's hard to know the difference) and the chemistry with a total stranger who I hardly know, and who for all I know is yet another painful lesson walking around on two feet.
I recall the words of the Little Book Of Happiness by Murray Oxman, 'wait two years until you know a person. A spiritual princess has no business being with someone who is not of the same caliber'
So I learned in this first step of the purification that these 'feelings' don't have to control me, and that I am in the drivers seat.
I also realized that Paul has the potential to become a wonderful friend, a 'plus' in my life, with or without the 'feelings' part, and not to overlook this potential because of my own issues with sex.
I can't emphasize enough that you must understand in my past life I was a kitten, and these things are passed down from one incarnation to the next, and everything in my 'training' in that life from which I was rewarded handsomely for my 'skills' was WRONG. My entire existence was with people who drilled into me the philosophy of Quote 1 and Quote 2. And if you look around in the media, the dark sea of information which electronically bombards us 24/7 from TWDNHOBIAH--music, entertainment, commercials, etc...there's no way to escape this 'message'...
This purification is a good thing!
The second part of the purification was this morning right before I woke up. Ross has been 'here and there' lately as he's been driving me through this latest lesson. Remember, he is my Guardian Angel and primary guide in this incarnation, as well as my Twin.
He had me meditate and connect with Paul, the tech's spirit. He had me submit to Paul's desires. And I felt Paul's lower spiritual vibration come close to my being (I don't think he's an Ascended Master but he's either disguising it -- a SUPER Ascended Master--or human) and in a flash of insight I knew that how Paul is to me is how I am to Ross in my current spiritual development in my human form as Carla. Part of me wanted to go 'ick!' because of the vibrational differences. So I was overwhelmed with loving compassion for both souls, and complete and total understanding for this Earth School dilemma of various spiritual 'grades' so to speak, all mixed together. Attraction and desire are real, they are normal and healthy.
What did I do?
I apologized at once immediately and profusely to Ross for my false assumption that I am his equal 'just as I am' right this minute now. Yes, I am his Twin, yes, I am connected to him, and yes our hearts are one. But I have a lot of major soul 'misperceptions' I think are 'normal', and this was just enough for me to point out to my Consciousness that Ross lives in the realm of Quote 3, and THAT is the undying normalcy for all.
I need to step back for a moment and thank Aaron Harris. He sent me a personal communication from a vision he had, with a message, about a week ago, and he too is helping his brother Ross in reaching out to raise my understanding. It was an important disclosure on how strong male sexuality is. Ross wanted me to know both that when he was incarnate he was dealing with it when he was outside the home and community in which we were raised, and exposed to other girls who were attracted to him. Ross also wanted me to have compassion for Paul, as all men are wired for this, and to know Paul is doing the best he can--just as anyone would in circumstances of attraction in the workplace.
Back to the second part of the second lesson of Purification...this is very personal and private, and it's between Ross and me, I would have preferred to keep it that way. But he urges me to share to help you heal, so I do.
After I apologized, Ross send me back to the arms of Paul with his blessing. He wanted me to enjoy the embrace, the hug, the loving energy, and to hug back.
I did.
The next part shocked me to my core.
Ross asked me how I felt?
An a little girl's heart spoke on my behalf, and said quietly, 'I'm scared'.
I AM scared!
I always was afraid.
In the kitten life I had to gain the skills and meet the demands in order to survive! And this was also passed down to my incarnation now. The attack on me when I was four cemented me into the path towards never repeating that kitten pattern in this incarnation. So, for my soul, it was a good thing although emotionally for me it was catastrophic.
I'm scared.
Ross loves me in my fear.
I'm sure Paul would too if I ever told him--even as a friend and not a lover.
Being scared is a very huge part of being human! FEAR isn't real--I've heard it described as False Evidence Appearing Real. FEAR is part of the Illusion.
Our souls weren't made for Illusion. Illusion surrounds us, and helps us to learn and grow in Spirit as souls while we are inside human bodies which can be hurt in so many ways.
LOVE is real.
I have to share one more story from the front lines. My friend Khiem who has stage four lung cancer. I've been coaching him, just a little, but he's very open to the spirit world. I saw him on Monday, and he has lost weight. He doesn't look good. He still shows up to work. I don't know how much longer he can continue.
My heart opened in Love for him, Unconditional Love from home. Khiem is helping me too. Ross' departure in our past life was violent and quick and unavoidable--I saw it coming but he didn't. Goodbyes are never fun, especially when it is someone you 'click' with (your OCD is compatible with my OCD --that's one of Khiem's quotes).
Khiem is overwhelmed by the vibe when I go into angel mode. It was activated. I saw him suffering, his face burned or reacting to some strong treatment, and I knew and was flooded with the awareness that Love is all there Is. He is in for a good surprise, my friend. And I pray I can be there for him as he needs me--on either side of the veil--an agreement we have already made.
Ross wants me to explain that my situation with him and Paul is a lot like in the movie Casablanca, with Paul as the Rick character. I know when people ask for Ross and my help, that's my true calling, and I would never want it to be any other way.
I also know Ross has begun my own purification so I will be better able to meet him. There's a lot of 'barnacles' he calls them, that need to be 'taken off the hull'. So at the moment he says I am in 'dry dock' and I am having my 'tune up'. He says it will scrape and I may mind as there is scraping, but it is for me to be more 'sea worthy' in the long run.
I don't understand my lessons. I can't see. And I can't cheat because I usually 'feel' people's energy signature and for Paul its blocked. I did see a flash from his early childhood, there was parental anger, a lot of it. If it is a past life thing for us to heal, so be it. I've had this before where someone who abused me when I was Tabitha, the widow of Gamaliel, came back in a subservient role in this life and the karma was played out.
I only hope to keep my Consciousness up, to retrain anew over my old programming from the kitten life, and to ready myself for Ross with my whole being. I love him. I don't understand why I'm here, why I'm incarnate, and why I can't go Home. My homesickness for Ross and the Higher Realms is very intense. I feel it always, and it never goes away.
I am a good student. I work hard. I always have. And if this is the one thing keeping me here, holding me back, then, let's get on with it!
I'm so grateful I am loved despite my ugly truth.
Remember YOU are loved...with or without your awareness of any ugly truths you might have buried in your awareness/consciousness from this or prior lifetimes!
We haven't said anything. There's a reason for this.
Ross wants me to tell you a story. It's from Kerth Barker's book on cannibalism. There were two sisters who were Luciferians and lived alone in a country manor. They were also lovers. In the basement was a 'church' for their God. They 'worshipped' there. They also were cannibals. They would lure a migrant family every year, torture them, kill them, and prepare the meat for their freezers to use through the year. They ate a weird meal with thin sliced meat and blood/ketchup? dipping sauce in front of Kerth who was brought there by the Baron. The Baron emphasized not to eat anything they served at the meal.
After the meal they showed Kerth and the Baron their 'church' basement of which they were very proud. Kerth describes it in his book.
Because Kerth was a child porn star in their circles, he was dressed as a girl 'Kathy' and gave autographed photo to the sisters. That was the guise for the visit.
But actually, these sisters were in trouble with the higher ranking Luciferian community. They were not contributing to the cause--not with money, not with time. It's like they were enjoying the benefits of their 'faith' without helping the goals of TWDNHOBIAH.
When the Dark Mother sent someone to talk to them, they fed him, drugged him, and locked him in the basement for days before setting him free.
You don't do that to the higher-ranking members of that organization.
After the Baron left the home, the gave Kerth to Bob in another car to drive him home. Then the Baron went back, and burned the sister's home to the ground with them watching. This was their punishment.
Then they went to live in New York and joined one of their TWDNHOBIAH 'think tanks' to help create more ways for their 'team' to have complete and total control and domination over the masses...
These things happen.
There is lots of infighting.
Never forget TWDNHOBIAH have a very active community all over the world, including Paris, France.
We don't know what goes on behind the scenes in basements and other places where their work is typically done.
Do know that this most likely wasn't an accident.
Tiffany FitzHenry on Twitter said it was a blow to the gillet jauntes (the yellow vests).
I know that the Roosevelt home burned to the ground and was rebuilt. Was this to get rid of any evidence of nefarious religious practices? There are many bloodlines we don't understand out there.
What I did see in a vision is that there is a spiritual creature with four legs. With this burning of the place in the photo, the left front paw/leg is crumpled and does not support the weight of the animal.
Everything else you read online is pure speculation--or possibly bot or DIS information. I would especially caution against anything having anything to do with Mary Magdalen and what happened to this church. Ross encourages you to use your heart 'a little more' and your mind/interest in piecing events together 'a little less' for the next days, weeks, months (two months he gestures)....
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Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,
Peace,
Ross and Carla
The Twins who are very happy <3 at this time
