My Gay Boyfriend Ed

I have had a relationship with Ed for over ten years now. He is my hairdresser and friend, my 'gay boyfriend' if you don't mind.

Ed and I enjoy a fascinating affection that blesses each of us in its own way.

Ed cares with his heart, and many times I come to Ed feeling like this, Eeyore, all mopey and sad and depressed and ugly and fat.

Inside me, Ed sees a Treasure.

In my heart, Ed knows 'me'. Not the Doctor, although he knows life is hard and sees how I fall asleep in his chair when I am post call.

He knows my mother's heart. When I had my baby, it was Ed who came to the hospital and said special Hebrew prayers out of a book to bless us.

When I was so heavy with child I could not take out the big trash cans for pick up day, Ed made a special trip to do it every single week until the baby was born.

When I got depressed after the hormones hit, and all I could do was cry and hold the baby, it was Ed and his partner to came to my house. One visit was all it took--baby blues begone!

Ed is an incredible male who lets his heart guide him in his friendship with me. He is open and honest about EVERYTHING, and believe me, we have discussed EVERYTHING.

We share our hopes and dreams.

There is never an inch of jealousy or comparison.

We just are.

We are friends.

That's what I like about Ed best: I can be myself with him, and never doubt about his love and affection for me.

Why is it that straight guys get in the way of their own friendships with women? There is testosterone on the brains of both gays and straights.

It is the expectation they perceive that women want from them?

Is it the sum total experience of their interactions with women before?

I don't know.

All I know is that once I was fed up, sick and tired of getting my heart broken. This was long before I met Ed. So, I decided to be gay. For two weeks I told myself I was 'into women'. But one peek at the chest hair at the collar of a coworker in the research lab, and I realized I was not fooling anyone.

Then I pestered God to have mercy on me and let me be a nun.

God said, 'No'.

Then I became a single mother, and have essentially lived the life of a nun for almost a decade.

Today I realized I want to be whole, and although I have lots of 'catch up growth' to do with my heart and spirit when it comes to relationships, I am willing to give it a try. Even if it starts with just working on loving myself and forgiving me for every mistake I have ever made about 'Love'.

I also realized that my standards of 'Love' are from Heaven, where Love is 'different' from the expectation-based 'Love' they have on Earth. My entire perspective is Spirit-based, and not quite compatible with what is on Earth in this time.

When it is right , it will happen. 

Friends first. I would like to be very good friends (with NO benefits!) with a very nice straight guy. It is important for me to take that 'next step'. An eligible guy, not just a married one. 

If things happen, they were meant to be.

And if they don't? I will always have a friend.

No matter what, I have Ed, who loves me just for who I am, and always helps my inner beauty sparkle when he cuts my hair. He also is a huge fan of my Reiki work, and encourages me and shares my joy with each new breakthrough in this healing work.

I hope you find your 'Gay boyfriend' for you, ladies. And whatever equivalent there is out there for the men. 

Namaste,

Reiki Doc

Friends and Family: You CAN Take It With You

This is a lesson I discovered while tapping deep into my Sirian 'roots' of my soul at the ocean yesterday.

For all of the 'matrix', the 'grid' and all the transformation that is currently happening within, above, below, and around us....for all the 'Illusion' there is one thing that is REAL--the love for our friends and family.

It is the close relationship ties that have an actual chance of staying 'intact' after transition, death, and separation.

It is the love which binds two hearts together that can cross both distance, time, and alternate dimensions!

This is what 'connects' the 'one that sees' to 'the One Beyond', be it loved one, angel, guide or Ascended Master.

In the pod, the bonds that tie are through the matriarch, deep in the ocean with the cetaceans--dolphins, whales, both baleen and toothed! (This also is true for elephants! Isn't it amazing how large, successful, intelligent mammals live in society like this?). They follow her wisdom, love, and guidance for survival in the ocean (and in the savannah).

Yesterday, I strengthened the tie between mother and son at the beach. While building sand castles together, I cracked jokes. With my closest ones, I have a sense of humor that is very active and I enjoy using it! One of my favorite ways to bond with another is to each try to sing as off-key as possible!

Here were were singing 'we built this city -with Rock and Roll!' and holding our stomachs we were laughing so hard! We boogie-boarded until we were worn out, counting down to the last wave...

As we showered at the top of the sand in the public spigots, he asked 'on a scale from one to ten how was your day at the beach?'

He called it a ten out of ten!

Please take the time today to build up the ties between you and those that love you. If you can, blow them away with your Light, and Love, and Laughter!  They are in your life for a reason--total Soul Contracts--they are the ones that offered to be your teachers so you can learn and grow in Spirit; even the ones who have given heartache have done so for the Highest Good (even though it hurts and I am sorry that the learning takes place that way on Gaia. This will change with the new energies, I promise!)

Today what is on tap?

The Happiest Place On Earth!

Namaste,

Reiki Doc