The Return Of The Goddess On The Labor Deck

This morning I sent the Goddess Energy out in my daily free healing with Reiki. (I can do this by using a Reiki list and the distance symbol, all learned at Reiki Two. You can do this too if you have Reiki Two and higher.)

I also did not wear makeup. When I am in charge of anesthesia for this part of the hospital, I want the mothers to look their best and feel comfortable with my 'natural look' instead of 'paint' that I enjoy wearing otherwise.

I saw this on a computer, and it spoke to my heart, and article in the Huffington Post about photographer  Jade Beall. She speaks of how women in our culture do not feel beautiful. They have been compared their whole lives to Barbie and photoshopped models. Add to that the changes in the body due to motherhood, and self-image is really tough.

Mine changed. Before I got pregnant I was dancing ballet two hours a day five times a week and dancing with a company. I danced until I was seven months pregnant. And then, it hit me--my body was never going to be the same because I wanted to spend the time with my boy instead of 'on me' in those short times where I was not working.

After seven years (eight if you include the pregnancy), my self-worth was at an all-time low.

As you may or may not be aware, a lot of my Life Lessons involve failed relationships, and not matters of finance like most people. Imagine if you have money troubles, and how they are always on your mind, and 'you just can't win'? That is what it feels like to be me in the heart department. Part of me feels like this is a giant carrot Spirit gets me to jump through hoops. Part of me just accepts it--I am totally fine when I don't think about it--and I trust that in my past lives I must have done something horrendous to deserve all of this karma back. As a result of the rejection I have experienced, I thought of myself as 'pretty' but not 'beautiful' in any way. And with horror I saw my body getting in worse shape and I was powerless to change back to how it was before I became a mother.

This article about Jade Beall accentuates yet another way that society is oppressing women.

The Goddess Energy is being held down.

Last November I got my first look at Lady Isis. I felt her energy and thought, 'I want what she has!'.
Indeed, I got it! I went through an initiation into the Goddess Energy. Now everywhere I go, there it is!
(here is a link to a CD you can get to do the same meditations I do--they really help and I highly recommend them. And no it is not my voice! One day you will hear it but not now. I have a beautiful voice and my patients remark on how soothing it is for them... http://medwyngoodall.net/2013/03/the-goddess-spirial-meditations-cd/)

Next, in January,  after a particularly awful call where I felt half-dead and had to go do some MORE cases in the O.R. the next morning...I went for some soup.  Next thing I knew, someone was looking at me in the eye and pointing to a card that said, 'Aphrodite' on it. He doesn't speak, which is good because it was the only way I would listen to that message! I got 'Aphrodite', 'Pheromone' and keep coming back message--loud and clear so there was no mistaking it, finger tapping loudly on the flyer on the counter in front of me.

I was saved.

Saved by the Raw Vegan diet. Saved by yoga. Saved by Dr. Shulze's green powder in the juice every day. Saved by Kirtan. Saved by like-minded souls at a place with vibration that is right for me. I have lost weight, I feel better, and a curve is back where it used to be on my waist. My stomach is gone!

I am empowered to be my best that I can be, in every way.

Most important, I have the energy I need to work for the Light in the capacity I am currently at.

I am healing the scariest part of me, the part that gives me nightmares. I have two big ones. I don't want to dwell on it, but the healing is a huge weight off my emotional body. I have two inspirational examples to follow, both amazing gifted people. One has lived one of my nightmares three times! And still has a smile. The other, through his silent support and acceptance, encourages me to be myself again in spite of abuse I have survived in this lifetime.

So what about the Goddess? I want you to know that although I have my dream career, it is not a cake walk. And I have my own baggage just like you. We are working on our 'past' together on this page, right?

Everyone is welcome. Everyone is blessed. Everyone is BEAUTIFUL...and supported by the Goddess and the God, both : )))

Here is the article. Be sure to look for the pictures in the slide show at the bottom of the page:
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/06/24/a-beautiful-body-book-project-jade-beall-photos_n_3467178.html?utm_hp_ref=mostpopular

Namaste,

Reiki Doc

P.S. if you think my entire life is on this page, think again. There is so much more in my heart that I keep to myself. I share about, the thirty percent I think is going to help on your path. I share by example to you on 'how this works'. There is so much more to get to know! I promise that is will always be 'Fresh'. Where is the Reiki in all of this? EVERYWHERE! I would never have gone for soup if I hadn't been 'plugged in' to Source.

Aloha and Mahalo <3

On What is Right

We have an inner guidance system. It is our hearts. Although the mind is pliable and trained by society with school and culture and advertisements and peer pressure, the heart is pure. And in its own integrity, guides us to what is right. 

Right action is what is best for us, to keep us on our path. And, similarly, the heart is a warning system for when things are not right, and there is need for  us to protect ourselves or get away.

Here are some examples of my heart talking to me in the last two days:

The RN who asked for a bolus when the patient was ready to push so she could eat her dinner from the restaurant the nurses had take out orders. I knew what was up. I did as she asked. I didn't say anything. But I felt it and I knew. Later, she tried to make it up to me, by saying nice things about the patient, etc.

(I could have slept if it were not for this bolus).

The MD who asked for my support in a political situation at my work. I have never seen someone blink so much while he was talking. Blinking is the body language for lies. As is touching the mouth or the nose. I stayed  neutral and did not commit either way.

At dinner last night, the server was timely and accurate. The meal went off so much better for me and my son. The server's pleasant attitude and helpfulness were much appreciated.

This morning, I made my bed and tied the curtains. No one really knows whether you made your bed or not. Except you. It is right to have order and tidiness as time permits. Keep trying.

We reinforce these 'heart driven' actions with the five Reiki principles each day.

Just for today, I will live with gratitude.

Just for today, I will not worry.

Just for today, I will not anger.

Just for today, I will do my work honestly.

Just for today, I will have respect for every living thing

So keep talking and keep listening to your heart. It will do you good.

Namaste,

Reiki Doc

Deepening the Heart with Reiki

The Reiki path is not straight. It wanders through life. Nevertheless, it gets you there.

Here are some examples of recent changes in me:

1) To manifest. This means to think of something and cause it to be. We all Manifest, together. With practice and with spiritual purpose, thoughts come forth to be. What on earth could you be talking about??? you may ask? I had two clear examples. One, my niece had a show on Friday. I wasn't sure when I would get out of work, so I planned for Saturday, giving the excuse, 'I had to work.' In reality, it was 'I might have to work, and I didn't want to drive in traffic from my work to your show.' Sure enough, at five, I finished my case. And up out of NOWHERE pops up my mentor as I am putting my drug box away, asking, 'would you like to do my case for me?'. That is the kind of questions you can't refuse. Three hours later, I got home. Another example is the home. I am focusing on really making it tidy and neat. Out of the blue, my six-year old decided to clean the sinks, both of them. And he asked, 'Can we stay at home for one weekend to tidy up the house?'. Those are firsts, famous firsts, that popped out of the sky. Practice it. Believe it. And it will come to be.

2) I just don't go to church like I used to. I was very, very Catholic for over thirty years. Even stood at the door as a greeter, went up and did public speaking as a reader, and a big donor at our church. I valued it as a 'place to grow', not really into the details of the belief codes, but thankful for a  place to worship God. Now, I don't understand why I need a priest to pray for me. And the time spent...I work so hard I appreciate the morning off. Not to say that I don't love the Catholic Church, I do. But I am not forcing myself to go like I did. And I am not 'feeling good about myself for going.'. Funny thing is, I haven't caught a cough or cold or sinus infection since I stopped. That place is a germ factory. I swear it! I am very thankful with my asthma and allergies not to be as sick.

3) With my family. I see them as my teachers. Even my ex. And my pets as well. The deep spiritual connection, and appreciation for their being in my life. It is like meeting a celebrity, that electricity you feel...but it is like, WOW! You have chosen to be in my life!!! That is AMAZING! Thank you for your energy and light into my world. To my ex--you showed me how I could be independent! Thank you! It hurt at the time but I learned my lesson well. I can even relax when our boy is with you. The courts were right, let him go back and forth, it is good for him. I miss him every minute, but it is not about me...it is about him.

And so it is. Reiki opens you up to Spirituality. And Spirituality leads to change, which is Growth. Everything happens for the best. Remember this.

I love you.
Namaste,

Reiki Doc