Gaia News Brief 19.11.2014

Update--Five New Divine Healing Codes

Yesterday was a busy day for us in the Divine Healing Codes department. We got one from Archangel Lauren and Raphael for Merkel Cell carcinoma, this is a rare skin disease.

I had a patient who was legally blind without correction, who WAS blind in the O.R. because the contact lenses had to come out. Ross sensed my deep compassion, and gave me a Divine Healing Code for poor eyesight.  That night, when I saw my friend with the retinal problems, I gave the code to him without saying a word or moving anything but my consciousness...I will continue to help as best I can.

We got one for Willpower through Archangel Courtney, who is an incarnation of Archangel Haniel.  I had trouble figuring out what a patient's root imbalance was--and sure enough--this 'fit'.

I bumped my fingers SO hard coming out of the public restroom by tonight's restaurant--another door was open and as I opened mine coming out of the stall I smashed all four of my right hand. It HURT...bless Ross for sending me a code for this. I used cold water and the code, and it felt okay much faster than normal and no bruise.

The one that did bruise my soul deeply, was one my Higher Self sent to me through Archangel Courtney, for 'grounding'.

That one sent me on a tailspin for the last couples of days...

Carla And Her Higher Self

I think from their perspective, the Higher Selves think they are much like this picture--loving and guiding the ones who come after them, to gain experience and knowledge of the self.


I find the concept of a Higher Self frightening. It's completely confusing. And this is why I have a deal with mine to be 'just like a coat' when I need it, and to stay one 'the sidelines' because it's a distraction for me on my mission that I just can't afford to stumble over.

Unless I ask for help, I don't want it.

I get upset, because I find it an intrusion to MY Consciousness to have any interaction from her that I don't invite.

Compared to her, I feel extremely INADEQUATE

Dr. Moosa used to be the Chairman of Surgery where I went to Medical School. He used to say, with a sly smile, that a resident surgeon is like a fine rug--you have to take it out and BEAT it about twice a year.

I feel like that--I am my Higher Self's 'Resident', and I don't know where I stand with Her.

Ross asked me many questions yesterday, in front of a very small group. He asked me how I love him?  We've had our differences in the past that we had to work through...so why do I trust him now?

It's because I KNOW you. You have been with me, for some time now, getting to know me. You talk with me. You buy me things. You are close. So now I trust you...

He understood, and relayed this to the team.

To be honest, I was still pretty freaked out. Here are my concerns:

• When this is over, what am I? Just one face in a roomful of my past life incarnations? Where do we all go?
• Do I go away and disappear and 'melt' into Her?
• Am I her avatar for some totally awful Galactic video game?
• Why was I even HERE, and created in the first place, without my asking to be born?
• All I want is Ross. Will I get that or will the carrot that got me through all this be just a cruel trick?

I asked my friend who knows more than I do. She said, 'Your HS is the ocean, and you are a drop'.  

I was like, 'but I LIKE my drop!'

Then I told her I get all worked up over the HS, and I accuse her of 'sitting on her butt and eating cupcakes with ME doing all of the work!'.  It's not like me to get upset like that. I wonder what is bugging me?

My friend asked me how many times I've been incarnated?

A lot.

She thinks I'm frustrated and ready to go home after doing all that work in incarnations for so long.

I felt like I was nothing more than an amusement for whoever...and was sad.

She said she 'signed up' too, for this, and even though it's awful now we had good reasons...at the time.

I know for a fact in meditation, crew members and those who knew me before are SURPRISED to meet me--I must have been very bossy back then, because they favorably enjoy 'the new me'. I am sweet by nature, through and through, and consistently so.

Oh yes, I asked Ross this morning with all earnestness, 'Am I just like plastic surgery for my HS, you know, a more youthful appearance and a little 'nip and tuck'?' He almost spit out what he was drinking he laughed so hard over that one. Ashtar too.

Anyhow, in Council this morning, I submitted to my HS, and All That Is, and renounced my 'self' and all my dreams, and hopes, and plans as 'Carla', to the Higher Good, and made a gesture like this picture, but only me lying flat on my face on the floor.   I wanted to accept what is my fate, and allow it to happen.

At this Ross got angry, and like a gifted public speaker (which he is)--with me still lying on the floor he accused the Council and all the Higher Selves:

• Look what you have done! Look at her! She exchanges total submission from Those Who Do Not Have Their Best Interest At Heart to all of YOU! Is this what you want?!
• The underlying accusation was that they weren't paying attention to life on Gaia, and they didn't intervene soon enough, and look at this mess!
• He wanted them to take responsibility for the deep psychological effects of living under The Veil of Illusion, to be in 3D.

Then he got on his knees and hands to my level, and bid me to get up.

He took me to a warm beach, and was very gentle, and asked me more questions to help me to heal, and to help the Council to understand my plight, and that of a LOT of people. Only this time, I felt the warm, and I saw only him. 

Then she came, in a really pretty white dress, all clean and beautiful as if she's never gotten her hands dirty in all of eternity...I told her I am afraid of her, Her Power, and how her being THERE and my being HERE feels like some being cast out, or rejection, and it's very painful for me to be in Her presence. I don't understand anything, and her knowing what she knows makes me feel all the more stupid, and low. I asked her to make herself known to me, gently, and slowly, as I am overwhelmed with how this works, and I am afraid once my Consciousness comes back, my being Carla will melt like a witch in Oz who has water thrown on her. 

She agreed.

From what I gather, she is my Intuition, as she Knows All

She sent me this image, and I was horrified to think I was the petals on the floor. She said, no, She is the plant, and I am the bud, ready to bloom, at the bottom. I still don't understand it, but it doesn't hurt to think about it.

Ashtar and Ross talked to me for a long time. And Ashtar whispered and leveled with me--'You know who I am, right?'

'Yes, an Incarnation of Archangel Michael.'

'So, what do you think is going to happen to me!? Am I going to melt and disappear?'

I listened, but it still didn't make sense. It's like if Ashtar doesn't pay the rent Michael is going to yank all the existence right out of him!

Anyhow, I was told by Ross to read this, it would help:  http://johnsmallman.wordpress.com/2014/11/18/let-go-of-any-sense-of-guilt-or-shame/

It did in the sense I know all the incarnations of betrayal HAD to do something to me.

And I saw a line of light on the wall in my room, it was golden. And I took everything that 'wasn't Galactic and was holding me back' and transmuted it with the golden Light.

My friend who was with me and I got very dizzy. A lot of energy flowed after that. But I've been off-balance all day.

I lost my gumption.

But tonight, I knew my HS was going to send me a little something. Ross' jewelry he bought me (he's bought two necklaces, nope--three, earrings, and a bracelet, as well as helping me design one)--really helped. At the last moment, I saw a beautiful tennis bracelet made of white topaz. It's 'lab created' and very affordable--and the sales guy dropped the price by over twenty percent and paid the tax. I love it! White topaz was in Ross' first gifts, and I love to work with this stone. So now when I look at my left wrist, I know my HS is thinking of me, and smiling.

And she promised me I WILL get Ross, and showed me her 'divorce papers' releasing all her rights to him she had signed the last round all of this inadequacy and confusion over who I am hit.

I asked Ashtar and Ross what to call myself? I told them that they could call me 'Lumpy' and as long as I had Ross I wouldn't care!

Actually my name is Carla Maria (my last name), incarnation of Lady (G.S.)

Today was the second time I was responding to Lady G.S. and each time I do, Ross gets VERY happy for me to answer to that name and feel 'normal'...

But just between you and I?

I make him call me Lumpy G.S. just so I know it's me. And Ross cracks up when he says it, but he does it...so in private I am 'Lumpy G.S.' and very happy to have some input, some voice, in this whole mess!

I wish you more smoothly transition out of 3D than apparently it has been for me...

Ross

Carla needs me. My Lady-who I call 'Lumpy' because she insists--stubborn as she is--is going through some very tough awakening.

I have given her all the love and support I could muster.

I have told her that her feelings won't matter on this issue in a short time--that she will be happy, and content, and able to live her life she wants in the Higher Realms--with me.

Carla feels like she has an expiration date. Like when the changes hit, she is going to be like smoke, and disappear. 

I told her Carla is a car, and her Consciousness is the Driver, and that Carla did a good mission, and that it's almost complete.

With death being what it is, Carla didn't really like that.

She cannot imagine the wonder that lies in store out there for humanity!

So I am helping her to stabilize, and to hold on, until things settle more for her, internally.

I really love her.

It has been two days of tough work for all of us...

I will say more when I can about the announcements and news and updates and points to grow on.

For now, it's first things first.

Carla enjoys writing to you. From her heart. It's the first time her readings have come up in two days, ever since the unasked for gift from her well-intentioned HS and sister Courtney, who had no idea how delicate our Carla's psyche is as she is Ascending.

All of you are, a little every day. Only Carla's at a shaky part of it, where she is vulnerable. 

So listen to Saul as your lesson for the day. It will help you. The John Smallman link that Carla  provided.

Ross and Carla

and all those good things 

we say

in love and gratitude

for your love for our ohana.

thank you cousins, uncles and aunties!

Gaia News Brief 22.10.2014

Eclipse Edition

My Higher Self woke me up about two minutes before the alarm with this message:  I will give you a beautiful happiness of God...and justice.

As I made breakfast, I asked myself, 'I wonder if all this is one big lie? Everything I do with Spirit could just seem so far fetched?'

I was guided to make tea instead of coffee. I took some Picadilly Breakfast Yogi Tea. There were only three words on the paper at the end of the string-- Truth Is Eternal.

Okay.....



So Much Negativity!!

Two of our hardest working--and soon to be highest paid--colleagues and one more sat in the Doctor's Lounge as I waited for my surgeon. One would think these financially-motivated types would be 'out of sync' with the Higher Realms.

One said, out loud, 'I wonder what the problem is with (names our ward clerk/receptionist/scheduler who works days)? Every time I go up there I get SO MUCH NEGATIVITY!' The others nodded in agreement. And the same anesthesiologist gave thanks because there were two rooms to run, not much time for a block, and the OB on call anesthesiologist was available to help.

This one, on OB, said, 'I bury all my feelings and traumatize myself!' in some other topic, I forget.

And when I warned them that the electronic anesthesia record is coming to our hospital soon?

I got a loud, and very positive, 'Will you TEACH US?'

(the receptionist judges this one for changing the schedule, to her favor, sometimes without the consent of the person being changed. The receptionist thinks this is selfish. I know the doctor--this one is very 'fast' with 'juggling changes' and gets a lot of people saying 'okay' to her requests but with them not writing them down and forgetting...you see how the 'negativity' piles up? Judge not, and let the one who is meant to Judge do all the judging, and be FREE!)

My Favorite Heart Surgeon

Through my claircognizance I realized there is a very good chance this doc will self-destruct in the near future. There have been two near-misses, and some time off due to health concerns, but no signs of slowing down.

I have known this avid Catholic heart surgeon my whole career. He used to assist my old heart surgeon back where I used to work. We both share a devotion to Our Lady, Mother Mary, whom I call Blessed Mother. We both wore her little brown scapular.

He used to have a practice to do sympathectomies for people with sweaty palms. But then he signed up with this group that has sent one of my senior Chief Residents from training to worker's comp and disability for psychological harassment, another to retire in Hawaii the minute his last kid graduated from college, and a young fresh surgeon out of Ann Arbor to flat out quit after a meltdown from overwork and under pay.

This is because this team manages the acute care surgery needs at three different hospitals. They work all hours of night and day, and the senior partners get the higher-paying vascular cases. (I actually LOVE both of these partners, both have trained me as a surgeon when I was a resident. And one, actually speaks Aramaic, like they did 'back in the day'...with you-know-who. I see what they do, and kick the judgement part 'upstairs', if you know what I mean.)

I think of it as 'Old School Practice', sort of a pyramid system, that takes advantage somewhat of the junior partners...

This surgeon not only is always working, he is chronically late. We didn't get into the O.R. until eight eighteen for a seven-thirty start case. He complained that because he missed a celebrity speaking event his wife organized with a Top Supermodel Contestant to walked off the show due to refusal to wear something too sleazy--that he was 'in the doghouse'.  Other themes in the day were, 'and now I fail again'. He travels to do locus tenens heart surgery in Santa Rosa and in Redding. Also he is medical advisor to a Carmelite nun-run retirement home, he is also a medical reviewer for the California State Medical Board...he is literally burning the candle at both ends.

Today, sensing what I did, the surgical technician spoke up, and asked, 'When are you going to slow down?' out of concern for this surgeon's health.  The tech said, 'My daughter is all grown up. Those years go by fast. You are going to miss those with your little ones too...'

It fell on deaf ears.

You see, this man who is so dearly loved, does not love himself.

He also is financially behind the eight ball, because his brother-in-law invested for him poorly, and all was lost.

He is a beautiful person who is lulled into this 'comfort zone' that is misery, and he accepts it.

Have I ever told him I see Our Lady and have since 1992? 

No.

How would he take it?  

How would he take the truth about the church?

The long-story short is that this man possibly will need some more time in 3D, no matter how much grace is given toward his awakening. He's just not 'ripe' yet to Ascend...

The Fun Neighbors

I asked someone who is OB-GYN I trained with if she was ready for Halloween? Her husband, also an OB-GYN, loves making the house scary for the neighborhood, and many come just to see it. Well, it turns out the orthopedic surgeon in the Doctor's Lounge is her neighbor too. And they spoke about a common neighbor who has 'a very nice house' and 'is really fun' and 'used to be a quarterback for Harvard'.

This couple, the 'fun' couple, throw many parties. They have a wall of wine bottles, that is beautiful, like in a restaurant, and have wine boxes all over the house. The estimate by the OB-GYN neighbor is ten thousand bottles. The ortho guy said, 'If you drink one bottle a day that's only three-hundred-sixty-five bottles. That's a long way from your estimate!'  He also has a friend who designed an app that will read the bar code on each bottle, create a file, and tell you which ones to drink next and with what meal (chicken or beef? etc) to get them at the peak flavor for the wine experience.

The ortho shared how when he golfs with the quarterback neighbor, he is the one who says, 'It's time to do a shot!' on the course and makes sure people have their bets on the game and keeps things 'lively'.  He is the coordinator for FUN!, he confessed.

My home is not in a gated community.  I enjoy it, but it would not meet 'nice' by any standards of my fellow doctors and surgeons. My home is half the square footage of theirs. And I know for a fact the OB-GYN is an amazing decorator because I know people who are happy to get her hand-me-downs in furniture each time she redoes her house!

The long-story short is that these people have 'played' the system and come out 'privileged' and ENJOY IT! For them, this 'lifestyle' is security, it is the reward that was delayed from all that study, education, and training...it is like a secret-hand-shake 'club' of affluence in that neighborhood, and they LOVE everything about their lives!  Why change? Why wake up? There is no incentive to do so...

Raising Awareness Outside The Bubble

My junior colleague ate lunch with me. He is a new father. I asked about the baby. He says she is getting more social, and he enjoys it very much. Already she is three months old.

He asked me about baby-proofing. I shared what I knew. 

He was surprised I only had one? 'You were so careful to do everything right with the baby-proofing!' he blurted out. He wanted to know why I didn't have more?

'I started late, and the father left me. I would have loved to have more.'

'Well, at least you are getting child support from him, to punish him, for leaving you like that.'

"Actually, I am lucky he is not asking for child support from me.' I shared.  He was young, and wasn't ready. He is involved, and even coached the basketball team now.

Long story short is this doctor 'played by the book'--dating, marriage, children after buying a home and is 'enjoying' his 'due reward' for being part of the system in his Asian culture. I, on the other hand, fit in to NOTHING of that, and yet, I love and support and enjoy my family too. He had an increase in awareness today, however, his 'comfort zone' is secure, and I doubt it will create the desire to 'awaken and work with Spirit' any time soon.

This Has Been My Angst The Last Few Days

As Ground Crew, a Star Seed who has been putting forth fearless and tremendous efforts at great sacrifice and personal risk to Help Others, I have been running out of steam.

Even with my most faithful followers, I can't seem to 'crack' the hold that money has on them. I try to lead by example. By giving donations to 'help' when times are tough in exceptional situations (I will no longer due this as I have to support my family, by the way, so don't ask.).  I work very hard, and I also ignore my son to be on the computer as much as I am. Yesterday he told me he 'hates Sundays' because we 'do nothing' and 'you are always on the computer'.

So I felt this sadness that Gaia is making this incredible gift, with all of Heaven and the Galactics pulling out the stops--to bring all of the inhabitants of Gaia into the New Age ALIVE and together as one...and people are so entrenched into the Matrix, into Money, into Security, into all the examples I have given...that it just won't work as fast as I would have preferred it to work. It IS unstoppable. But it might take years upon years for this 'New Renaissance' to actually happen.

It is progressing slow enough that I want OUT. I want to go HOME. So do many other Light Workers. I know several who have cut way back on their efforts too.

It's as if Humanity is refusing the GIFT of Ascension, Awakening, and becoming 5D...and it wounds my very heart, deeply...

So I went to the store. I had to get groceries. It was a short day. And in the produce aisle, selecting good things to eat for my family, I felt joy.

I also felt truth...

No one can hold me back from my own 5D experience--no one can slow down Gaia and her Ascension--no one can 'hold any other Lightworker BACK'--this is Illusion, the last illusion from the Matrix.

And it is GONE.

I release everyone to their own fate, for their highest good.

The reason I bring this up, is not to complain, but to get to YOU who are working so hard to awaken your loved ones...tirelessly giving of your heart, like me.

Let it go.

Seek your JOY.

Dance your dance. Sing your song...for YOU, and you alone.

If anyone wants to join you, go ahead, and let them dance and sing...

I'm opening my present. I really really wanted it. And when it arrives? I'm making sure they take pictures of it as I pull the ribbons open, and tear the paper, and AWAKEN in 5D with my heart--it's like a 'sneak preview' of the 'coming attractions' and I am going to imagine it until it arrives. Even if it takes the next fifty years for it to happen.

(for the record, I am 12 D. I am very high vibration. And I love Nature, which is at least 5D, possibly more...Many of you are higher D than you think. Just enjoy the ride, and let others take care of those who are asleep.)

Reiki Tells What Is Hidden

I went into my patient's aura today and went, 'WHOA!' It was a jumble of energy that was hard for me to interpret, which I didn't expect because of the sweet nature I met in pre-op. I also noticed something unusual clinically, a very rapid metabolism of both the anesthesia and pain meds, which was curious. I mentioned it to the daughter, my concern, for potential under medication on the floor for post-op pain due to this rapid metabolism of pain medicine, and how the patient would need her as her advocate to make sure the nurses gave as much as was needed to overcome the post-op pain.

It turns out that the energy and the life habits (which I won't go into and aren't horrible or anything) MATCH. I didn't disclose to the daughter anything about this work I do, but I did repeat over and over 'there is always hope. there is always hope. tell your mom there is always hope, no matter what the situation.'

I think it's just a yellow chakra imbalance in a big way...

Today I did a post op check. She had earrings she had made for me, my patient. I shared with her my own 'designer' bracelet, with healing crystals in it. She had bought 'chakra crystals' on her own, and was very curious. I gave her a full referral to the FB page Doctors With Reiki, this blog, and my favorite crystal store.

She also was curious about what Reiki is? I explained it's like acupuncture without needles, and accesses the body's own built-in healing mechanism. There are no side effects! So I got in her aura, felt the Reiki flow, and she felt it too.

She also made the connection that her 'feeling really good' after surgery--no nausea and little pain--was from the Reiki, and was excited about that. I counselor her to support her third chakra, the yellow one, with citrine.

It turns out her daughter is a massage therapist, and a healer too!

I enjoy working with my patients, in whatever way possible. I think we are reaching the point where this won't have to stay 'underground' in conventional healthcare soon.



Ross

Carla grew up today.

She went from 'hoping for a miracle for all' to a very realistic approach to the Ascension Process overall.

I have not had the time with her to coach her, or to lead. She has come up with this on her own, independent of me. And I join her in wishing for you to let go of the guilt when it comes to your inability to awaken others around you, especially ones you care about.

It is simple science that has to do with the aura and it's ability to accept a higher vibration--it comes from habitual thought patterns, character, soul development, and karmic debt.

ALL OF THIS IS OUTSIDE YOUR CONTROL and it's WAY BIGGER than you imagine.

Just leave it to What Is, and accept your gift.

About the money...what both of us ask if for you to simply make a little smiley face whenever you pay a bill. At the restaurant for sure. If possible, at the register at the store, and if you are really brave about it, on your billing slips when you pay by check in the mail.  We want to raise the vibration of the transaction to allow a little Love and Happiness to enter between you who pay and the one who gets the payment.

This is more important than asking you to give money to a cause.

We want you to release from your shackles. No matter how little or how much you owe, you have a smile and a pen and a hand that can put that smile in ink on where your money is going.

This will break the cycle of perpetual debt, and help to increase abundance into your heart. It will take away the fear of 'lack' and bring with it the notion that 'security' is (points to the sky) guaranteed! Not by NESARA or by any intervention. It is from your own ability to MANIFEST.

We are priming the pump to get that abundance for you flowing.

Now for those of you who are going to run to your bank account and watch for the numbers, you are going to be sorely disappointed. For money does provide you the means to 'do what you want' but is not an end in itself. The more the focus on the money, the less it will flow. The more the focus on your heart's desire--be it a trip to Italy, or a new house, or a Saturday night date at the movies that isn't on the couch with microwave popcorn and a remote--the more you align your power to manifest with the energies of the universe to help you.

Sometimes things will arrive because of a gift of a friend who has 'two extra tickets' and thought of you, right? You get the picture. The Universe has ways to provide outside the 'system'--yes?

And the more you help others, the more abundance will flow to you--only if it is without expectation of anything in return, it is heart-centered and balanced, and you really want the other to not suffer from their lack.

This is hard to explain for many. And perhaps this will be something to bookmark and revisit.

Either way, Carla opens her heart for you. Carla loves you. Carla is really unhappy ever since we missed the opening in December 2012. The energies have lagged for her. And she tried with all her might to make up for the difference in the hope of sparking a global awakening--somehow--in some way. Through her tireless efforts we have found you, and we thank you for your open hearts and joining the cause.

We are just about at the tipping point. With a little more effort, things that have been hidden, both for good and for shadow, will come to Light. Only the Light will prevail.

So Ebola, elections, and everything else you see in the news comes a close second to the miracle that is at hand--Gaia's awakening together with her inhabitants.

You have ring-side seats, the very best view in the house...so keep watching! (smiles)

Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,
Peace,

Ross and Carla
Your Reiki Doc family