Focus on the Good

 

As the holidays approach I would like to take a moment to review my journey in healing, and to share it with you. Holidays are bittersweet. Sometimes it is helpful to have another perspective.

I was emotionally neglected growing up. Unfortunately, when the emotions are neglected we grow up with two erroneous beliefs:  we need to be something that we aren't in order to get our needs met, and our natural self has something so wrong with it that is why we received such abusive treatment.

For me, growing up, those two concepts went deep into my subconscious. I assumed everyone lived a life where their parents would give them the silent treatment if I disagreed with anything and spoke up. And furthermore it was okay for them to have emotional outbursts but not okay for me to have emotions other than happy, compliant, and curious.

My journey has been through counseling, self-help, working with Spirit, and reading a book (one of many, the most recent is how to deal with being Adult Children of emotionally immature parents by Lindsay C Gibson). A lot of it has been unlearning those tendencies to not speak up. And to boost my natural confidence by trusting that I have got my own back.

Many people have been on similar journeys of self-discovery. It takes time to realize what happened, how it hurt, and to heal. Some need to stop contact with a parent or family member. For me, both of my parents are passed on. It has given me time and space to heal.

Imagine your heart and mind like an empty room which you get to decorate! After years of clearing out all the items you no longer want and have been carrying around (the baggage), and after being given time to heal...you have a choice to what goes in there. Especially when it regards people as important in your life as your parents...

Yesterday, the memories came flooding back. The bicycles at Christmas. Maybe not the best food but the gathering of the family together and relatives coming over for the holidays. Mom making two tough decisions that helped my life and Anthony's--the first was helping me through college by paying my rent on my apartment, the second was deciding to give the baby I was carrying as an unmarried woman a good welcome to the world. Mom watched him while I worked, I worked part time, for two years. She was happy and said it was some of the happiest days of her life at my house in our neighborhood. It wasn't easy on me, she kind of lashed out at me at times but for the baby he was having the very best of care and happy. 

Don't live with a room full of nightmares and memories of them.

Make your room have what brings you joy. Once the old sad memories are processed, you may set them aside (think of it as you have a storage space rented, yes?) and allow the happier ones to have a place in the room of your soul.

Thank you again for hearing our call!

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Aloha and Mahalos,

Namaste,

Peace,

Ross and Carla

The Twins

Enjoy The Snuggles!

 

The spiritual life need not be solitary and cold.

Life on earth is all about enjoying the connections!

When we feel low, it is okay to ask others for a snuggle. Even to ask Creator too, if there aren't many around who can actually snuggle with you.

The love of our pets can support us in our journey on Earth.

Family and friends, even coworkers, may surprise us with their gifts of generosity of Spirit. A friend gave me her biggest, most perfect persimmon from her tree, and we rejoiced over it! What a lovely miracle!

Yesterday I was hungry, there was not much time to eat between cases. But a nurse had brought in homemade bread, and butter. And another nurse had made some type of fruit salad called 'Fluff' and insisted I taste it. This nourishment kept me going until the end of my lineup three hours later. And the support really meant a lot.

Sometimes if I am lonely I ask Ross for a hug. You can feel it, the energy squeeze. It is subtle but it is there. 

Remember you are worth asking for loving support.

Sometimes you need to remind yourself that you are worth it! Buy the cup of coffee, have the scoop of ice cream, get yourself the thing you have been wanting...you'll be glad you did.

Self-love, love from Creator, love from the outside, all of it is love! And it is intended to guide and support you along your life experience.

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Aloha and mahalos,

Namaste,

Peace,

Ross and Carla

The Couple

A Precious Gift

 

You have a right to change your mind.

Up until your very last breath, this right is given.

You may invoke it at any time, again and again if you need to, and in this you are limitless in your potential.

Let's say you have been trying to quit smoking. You have had runs before, but somehow something always kept you from quitting for good. Why should I even bother to change? you may ask yourself.

Well, there is no time like the present!

Every minute, of every day, you have a chance to quit. 

You might find more success by aligning with a program designed for smoking cessation. You might want to invite Divine Creator to help you reach your goals.

Unfortunately, change, big change, such as quitting smoking, does not happen 'like magic'--in the blink of an eye. We must back it up with behavioral changes, changes in how we talk to ourselves, even perhaps our coping strategies with stress...

Taken one day at a time, slowly, these new actions add up, and strengthen up our new habit. In this example, I no longer smoke. And to help you realize change is happening, you may notice things like being able to taste and smell things better, or the cough in the morning may disappear. Perhaps you might be saving the money you would have spent on smoking into a fund so you may use later to treat yourself to something special as a reward?

Change applies to everything. 

No change is too small. One for me is being taught by a Filipino nurse how her dad taught her to fold towels and clothes nicely. Now I am doing that. And it looks wonderful! It brings me joy to see the order and neatness!

No change is too big! There is an author named Kerth Barker who was raised in the system. He learned of a woman called Susan the Poisoner. She had gone from Christian to the opposite (Team Dark). He had to hand copy her journal. This in itself was a catalyst for change for Kerth. What he learned, and that the people who had been sending him did not know, was that in the sequel journal, she switched back! 

Kerth was able to leave the system. It cost him his right big toe. And later perhaps his life. But he got out and was able to stay out. This is no small feat. Furthermore, he wrote and exposed a lot of secrets which is why he passed quickly after his books were published. He had a cancer or something. 

One of Kerth's friends and mentors in the system, the Baron, lived a double life and was deep into the occult. But on his death bed, before his last breath, he changed and accepted all the ways of Heaven. He died a peaceful death. 

Everything is open to change.

Sometimes you need the skills that are new, and you must take steps to acquire them. Let's suppose you wanted a career in medicine being a phlebotomist. Well there is a school for that and a test to pass, then you must apply for a job. But it is possible!

I studied as a chemical engineer and worked for five years in industry before returning to medical school.

A friend's son graduated with an engineering degree from Cal Poly Pomona. But he did not enjoy the work. So he went into law enforcement instead. And even through that, he gained skills. He is an expert on bombs now, and knows what to do to keep people safe.

Sometimes change is quiet. Sometimes you are not able to leave the relationship. Sometimes you must stay in the job because of the benefits. The change you apply in this circumstance, is your expectations, and your reactions. You change what you say and what you do. You don't take the bait and get into an argument. You realized that the other person is limited, for example, an emotionally immature parent, and they are never going to be able to give you the loving support you always wished you had. Then you learn to love and support yourself, and limit your exposure to the emotional pain from your emotionally immature parent. 

One change, especially starting now where I live in the United States, would be to focus on gratitude each and every day. Gratitude gives us hope, and takes away despair. We celebrate gratitude formally in my country with a holiday called Thanksgiving. You may choose to keep your gratitude to yourself in a gratitude journal. You may just as well choose to tell those close to you what you are grateful for about them. 

The options are limitless!

Even if you have tried change in the past, and failed, it is okay to try and try again until you get it!

Enjoy your precious gift of being able to change anything you want to change, at any time.

This is true freedom...being able to follow your heart and use your mind to make it happen.

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Aloha and Mahalos,

Namaste,

Peace,

Ross and Carla

The Team Leaders <3 

Togetherness Is A Gift

 

Good morning!

I made this image extra large because it is going to help demonstrate the lesson.

Connectedness with others is truly a gift. This would be the glowing lines between the people at the bottom. For some reason, they align--be it through vibration, nationality, family ties, commitment, university or place of education, work, the military, beliefs, or random encounters. Connection such as this is part of our survival system as large incarnate mammals. Because we are human these connections can have hiccups and even sometimes break, for example, in cases of abuse and trauma where the victim chooses to go 'no contact'.

This drive for connection is innate, and so strong, that for punishment there is solitary confinement, time out, restriction (when the parents keep the kid from socializing with friends), and being shunned from a group. This kind of separation causes emotional pain that is real. It is as disturbing to the person as physical pain to be given the 'silent treatment'.

This time of year can be hard on those who have recently lost a loved one or who are single. The connections are the focus of the holiday celebrations. I remember at Halloween just dreading the sequence of Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, and Valentine's Day as a person who was not in relationship. I literally counted the weeks until I was out of that brutal emotional window of time.

The people who we love are important and being able to love is truly a gift and a blessing to be enjoyed. Do know that these connections remain in the afterlife when they are loving and reciprocal. These are the soul ties.

What about if you are alone and single? This is an opportunity to focus on three very important soul connections too. Those in relationship are welcome to focus as well on these. But when alone it is truly the season of life to strengthen these connections and it is good to invest time and effort on that.

Imagine on the left side of the photo, that the connection is beaming down from Divine Creator to you. This is Life itself. The amount of love, if you open yourself fully to receive it, far outweighs anything you have experienced from humans or pets. This loving connection is unbreakable. 

I will say this again, this loving connection is UNBREAKABLE. No matter how much harm you have done to yourself, or others, this love remains! You could be the woman who poisoned to death eighteen members of her family for planning to force her into an arranged marriage--a ghastly thing no matter how you look at it, the arrangement or the response--and every single one of those people including the poisoner are bathed continually in the love of Divine Creator! Unconditional Love. 

As an aside, what happens to those who have been traumatized severely and traumatized others when they return back Home? Well, there are specialist angels who are assigned to them. There is a formalized healing process. I have seen one soul who was permitted to canoe through rivers where he grew up just to help his soul heal. After the soul enjoys activities then the instruction and guidance begin. Everything is carefully monitored and formalized in the process of getting the individual to see the impact of their actions. And ultimately, there is karma and reincarnation to repeat the lessons that were to have been learned differently in the first place.

So, the connection from Creator to us is a gift! Be thankful for it! In loneliness it is a wonderful consolation. Work to notice it and welcome it and open yourself to receive this wonderful Light and Love from the Universe who has intelligence and lovingkindness and knows YOU exactly as you are!

The next one, is represented by the red line, which goes across the bottom. I call that the 'Do Not Pass Go' line, if you have ever played the board game Monopoly. Do Not Pass Go, Do Not Receive Two Hundred Dollars. You can tell I have played that game a lot! When I do I play the terrier token and I often play the role of the banker as well. The reason I have called this red line the Do Not Pass Go is that through childhood trauma, I didn't learn healthy secure attachment. I had a fearful childhood. So I learned to place others before myself. I fawned. I catered. I did whatever I could to get attention from my parents and to survive emotionally. I quickly learned that the teachers would notice my actions, and I excelled at my academics in order to receive this validation I was not being given at home. 

Let me paraphrase the reasoning behind Do Not Pass Go:  if you have been conditioned to the belief that love must be earned you have a LOT of UN-learning to do before you get to enjoy the good stuff, the warmth and connection of partnership and friends as it was designed in the Original Plan.  In other words, you have been trained to abandon yourself and your own needs to gain the love, trust, warmth, and protection from others. 

Nothing could be further from the truth!

Healthy people, who are raised securely, somehow are given the correct information same as on that left side of the image above--not only is Divine Creator's love unconditional for you, so is the love of your parents and NOTHING you can do can change that.  This is what nourishes the concept of Self-Love. Of having your own back. Of being able to speak up for yourself when necessary, being confident enough to walk away when you are mistreated, and enjoying your own presence. Your likes, your dislikes, your gifts and talents. 

So being able to be alone, knowing your day to day and making adjustments to help be kind to yourself...this is how we regain our Self Love. For me, after a long hard day at work, I bought myself dinner, and not a cheap dinner fast food, but something healthy and warm and nourishing (a falafel). Consistent behavior which honors ourselves is the foundation for being fully present in loving relationships with others. 

The last connection I am going to use the right hand side of the photo, and imagine the light beams going UP. This is our conscious choice to send LOVE back to Source. Remember, in the womb, the umbilical cord receives blood from our mother, and with our heart we pump it back to her. She gives us nourishment and oxygen. We are permitted to live because we can have our wastes --carbon dioxide--go out through her and her lungs. We are symbiotic during our formation, back and forth, back and forth, back and forth we are nourished, we exchange, and we grow. 

A mother notices when her baby smiles at her. It makes all the work and the sleepless nights a joy instead of a burden because of it.

Smile at Creator.

Creator needs our love.

Try to strengthen your connection back with Source.

You will be glad you did.

That is enough for today.

It is my hope that this discussion will better prepare you to make the most of your upcoming holidays.  Enjoy life. Enjoy being alive now at this time. There is a lot of beautiful moments and memories that would be a shame to be missed because you simply do not happen to notice them. Think of them as a treasure hunt and search lovingly and with excitement through your day at the surprises and joys to be relished!

And as you lay your head to sleep, remember to enjoy them one more time, like a movie, and give thanks for your glorious day of being alive! Give thanks for your connections, all of them, and togetherness is a priceless gift.

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Aloha and Mahalos,

Namaste,

Peace,

Ross and Carla

The Couple

The One and Only

 

Today the subject is the one and only way to enter Heaven.

For some people, they are convinced that their way, is the only way.

I am too.

But not like them.

People make a lot of fuss about what to believe, and why.

It doesn't matter.

How is this?

Because ultimately, Salvation is a gift from Divine Creator. And furthermore, Salvation--eternal reward--depends on our ability to humbly accept this Divine Gift. 

Children are in connection with Home. At least until life's struggles get the best of them.

Whether you were set free from demons, whatever the demon--or whether you decided to be reborn and you truly were--or you learned that Buddhist chanting took your cravings for cocaine away and stuck with it ---your ability to accept and I mean truly embrace the concept of returning back to the place from where you came is all that is asked of you.

You can pray for the conversion of others. You can be an example. But you can't make anyone change. 

Be thankful for your GIFT of Spirituality.

Work on it, develop it, make it strong.

But always be mindful that Divine Creator was reaching out to YOU, and by some Divine Circumstance, you opened your heart, and reached back. 

For those who have not experienced this wonderful lovingkindness yet, remember it is possible and be looking for it. Make your desire to grow closer to Creator known in your heart. 

Remember no matter what to appreciate and accept all of the other wonderful gifts that have been given: health, home, family, career, transportation, food, and your five senses! Those are really miracles too.

In this world there are many distractions. Remember to deal with those you must, for example, putting out fires (a friend has a leaking roof, for example). And otherwise, practice gratitude for the love and the blessings you have been given. 

Not everyone has to think like you to be loved and lovable. 

Practice Love. 

And practice all the other gifts of the Spirit. 

Each and every day.

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Aloha and Mahalos, 

Namaste,

Peace,

Ross and Carla

The Couple

Jump!

 

Today's blog post may be considered controversial. These are only the views of the writer, at this time.  Take the best and leave the rest, continue believing whatever you think is right for you...

Once upon a time, there was a plan to create a beautiful new school in the Heavens called Earth. It was to use a new concept called Duality to test the soul of the students enrolled in this school. Now, whether this school was the concept of Divine Creator originally, or perhaps a concept that was proposed by someone else instead, I am sure that Divine Creator cannot be tricked, cannot be fooled, and has absolute control at all times.

For argument's sake, if we suppose that Heaven and the Heavenly Realms are considered 'good', then to construct a duality there must be someone to uphold the opposite polarity of 'evil', 'darkness', etc. And to make this believable, Creator selected one close in the hierarchy to take this 'secret assignment'  and play the role of the villain.

Everyone knows who that is.

The story is that the Bearer of Light (as he likes to call himself) stormed out and took a third of the angels with him. 

He fell.

They jumped.

And the rest can't go back to Heaven. The leader can, to get permissions and make changes with the 'battle plan'.

This is where things get a little fuzzy in the 'common sense' category...what we are lead to believe is that this is a random, haphazard, totally unorganized assault on mankind (the students). 

Do not buy this for a minute. 

Here is what I think.

If not before the 'jump' and premeditated, then from the process of 'jumping' it is like mad cow disease struck the Bearer of Light. Avarice overtook him. And now, according to insiders like Jessie Czebotar, his plan is to overthrow the Throne Room and take over Heaven itself. 

The Bible says that he will be thrown into a pit for a thousand years. And this overtaking is not going to happen.

This is why there is so much anger against the Abrahamic religions. And so much effort into finding some way to prove the Bible is not true. 

The part I want to discuss is that in fact, the 'opposition' is highly organized, highly disciplined, and the leader is a brilliant military strategist who is known for playing the Long Game. The Long Game is designed to make changes on the human gradually, perhaps very small ones a generation, so that the humans are unable to detect them.

According to Jessie, there are major and minor dark angels on that team, and there are about twelve who are at the highest ranks. Each of them gets a jurisdiction on Earth school. And their jurisdictions cover not only geographic Earth, but also time and the seasons. Astrology has the twelve houses. So does the Chinese zodiac. Then there are the planets, who are considered their 'territory' as well. Does this makes sense and do you follow?

So being born on July 7, for example, I was not only stripped of my memories of Heaven by the amnesia, but my place and date of birth assigned me under not only my country, state and county, but also the astrologies--and each and every one of these things is under dominion by these dark beings who rule the earth. 

What is this called, in other words, this innocent soul being put under these 'owners' if you will simply by incarnating on Earth?

This is what is considered to be Original Sin. 

It's not your fault. It is the facts of life of being born here on this highly organized and structured school that is being influenced by a military strategy genius. 

Let's take his Earthly realm, his hierarchy. Jessie has described it. There are five major branches (for censorship sake I would direct you to her work, but I will say they consist of one brotherhood, at least two separate religions, the military, and I think a order of priests). She says that the Mothers of Darkness oversee from the top, and daily, they take directions from The Boss. They talk to him. Then under them are the various ranks and councils. These are like Priest, Priestess, High Priest, etc. Please note that every one has a geographic area assigned to them. And at the top there are the quadrants, the western quadrant, the northern quadrant, etc. They even do things like weather magic and control the weather.

Furthermore, the systems that govern the earth--the schools, the banks, the governments, the healthcare--are squarely controlled by the earthly hierarchy who has infiltrated almost everything. And the technology has advanced so much that our psychology as humans is all figured out and sophisticated assaults on this are commonplace. Information wars. Advertising. Subliminal messages. Directed energy weapons. All that stuff...

So it is a two-pronged grip on each of us. There is the incarnate hierarchy, then the spiritual dark angel one. As if it was not hard enough to just get through our lives and learn our life lessons, right?

There is one and only one way OUT. 

And this infuriates everyone on the Team Dark. Well, I am certain there are some less than willing participants who would gladly leave but are under great pressure.

Of the incarnate Team Dark, there are two factions, the Light and the Dark. Currently they are battling for Earth. It is not over. And their leader is fine with throwing the Dark under the bus in order to have the Light create the false 'heaven on earth' so everyone will worship that fake religion. Because the last thing that they want is for us to follow the one who bucked the system and made a way out for everyone.

This is just to get you thinking, and even more important, observing and taking in information and processing it yourselves to see--to have eyes that see and ears that hear--and for you to continue to say yes when you mean yes and say no when you mean no.

You are truly incredible. Thank you for answering our call.

Aloha and Mahalos,

Namaste,

Peace,

Ross and Carla (mostly Carla today but Ross wanted her to write)

Goddesses and Gods

 

There has been a lot of work and effort put into my healing lately. Truly, it has taken years. And more, knowledge and understanding is not the same thing as healing itself. 

I will spare you the details. Just know that there have been a lot of things that I had been carrying around, things that were my own 'shit', and I honestly did not even realize that it was there.  I always felt 'different' and 'not able to connect well' with others who were closest to me. What I have learned is there have been some very good reasons -- certain experiences or lack of them (emotional attunement, for example) -- for being like this.  ADHD in females is often misdiagnosed as anxiety or other conditions instead of neurodivergence, simply because females tend to mask their symptoms better to be able to fit in.

I was told today that actually, the ADHD brain is advanced. There is a long thin single crystal structure surrounded by smaller crystals in the brainstem. It had been turned off with permission from creator by the one who is given charge of this material world. This crystal structure connects the consciousness with All That Is. So once the consciousness of the collective raises enough, everything will flip. It will activate. Those lacking the crystal structure will be diagnosed as 'something wrong' and the rest will assimilate into the Higher Consciousness. 

I liked that explanation.

And it really does not surprise me. I had terrible allergies growing up. On hot, smoggy days in the public swimming pool my lungs would whistle when I breathed. I got enough air it was just a funny thing I thought everyone had happen to them. I was maybe nine or ten when I first noticed it. I was not diagnosed with 'reactive airways' (asthma) until twenty years later when I was in medical school and having a lot of cases of bronchitis. I could not get enough air when climbing up a small hill from the parking lot. So I got my first albuterol metered-dose inhaler to open up my tightly squeezed bronchi.

So many things go under the radar. Physical things. Psychological things. Emotional things. Even Spiritual things. 

So, I was introduced to a new term, 'Owner-shit'...it is a play on the word 'Ownership' because it means taking responsibility for your own things that need to be healed. 

Now the baby steps are to treat myself with kindness, to give myself rest when I need it, and to accept that everything happens for the best. Even this. It certainly has taken until later in life...but at least I stopped making the same mistakes over and over, and slowly am heading in the right direction. 

I see clearly now that God's love for us--we truly are God's children, kids of both Mother God and Father God--smoothes out our broken self-esteem. We ARE loved!

A Course in Miracles really guides us that everything is for our own benefit. It is a like a show that is being created by us, our lives, and for our highest good. Hope Johnson makes me laugh in how she often asserts 'we are making the whole thing up!'  

We are.

Which brings me to our next part, the feelings. Feelings are our teachers too. Sometimes they are giving us insight, sometimes they are the result of being traumatized in the past and this new situation is similar enough to set us off. Staying with the feeling and accepting it, but later choosing when to act and how to respond to the feeling is possibly the most important part of our Earth Walk.  Not just discernment when talking with the Spirit world, or from watching the news, but even reaching deep into our innermost world and seeing what resonates as Truth for us. 

I have had a lot of dread lately with Current Events. I can't put my finger on it, but something is not right, and something worse, it reminds me of what I have studied in the last book of the Bible, Revelation. I was feeling really upset over it. I spoke with Ross. He asked me insightful questions to guide my thought process. I realized I am afraid of the drama. I do not like what I am seeing now. I understand things are supposed to get a lot worse before they improve. After living through past lives as well as this life now, the suffering is something I really really really am concerned to witness. 

Ross said something helpful to me. He said, 'Let all the skirmishes and battles go, do not give them your attention. Remember the fact that our team wins in the end. We win. Everything else is of no concern to you. Focus on what you can to pass the time.'

So, if you are concerned about the future, specifically, the AC on the world stage, and things like Armageddon, you are not alone. And as best as you can, if you are not the type to take a 'sporting interest' in the play by play, look ahead. Just like reading the last chapter of a mystery before reading the rest of the book so you know how it ends. 

What I have learned is that our interpersonal connections are highly important to nurture. Even more so than working with Spirit or the Past. We make the highest difference for ourselves and others by validating them, being true to our own souls, and accepting what is to be accepted. I choose to work diligently on my healing to help pass the time, since that is important to me. It keeps me going. Find what is important to you, and give your very best to whatever you choose.

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Aloha and Mahalos,

Namaste,

Peace,

Ross and Carla

The Couple