Screening patients for the presence of heart disease prior to surgery is a difficult task. The reason is that the onset of cardiac illness is insidious. The patient slowly, gradually changes their activity level without realizing what is happening. The classic question to ask is 'can you climb two flights of stairs without having to stop and catch your breath?'
Lots of people do not have stairs or need to climb them.
One of the questions I found more helpful is to ask if the patient can carry the groceries from the car to the house unassisted. When people say, 'oh no! I need help for that.' I have found the information I need. And I make adjustments to the anesthesia plan.
When I see, I see with both Spirit eyes, and my regular eyes.
I've heard things about the largest city in my area. I've seen YouTube videos, documenting homelessness and tent encampments. I've heard of the human waste on sidewalks, the rampant drug use, and the poor shop owners who frantically clean up the mess every morning before opening for business.
I also have felt a vague avoidance to the area. I chalked it up to 'traffic'. For several years now, I avoid that airport like the plague. If there are any other flights, even not direct, I will purchase them.
Yesterday I experienced how low the energy is in the area.
I won't elaborate.
But the navigation in the car took me through some pretty challenged areas. Low income. Struggling. Areas that didn't assimilate. Tent cities. Brazen people crossing the streets wherever and whenever they pleased, with me avoiding making eye contact and hoping they did not come near my car.
I kept hoping it would get better but it never did.
I remembered how poorly I have been sleeping. I thought about how my patients need me at my best. What was I doing staying up late so far from home? I was in no shape to socialize--I had been crying all weekend over missing my mom, even so bad that I went to McDonald's to remember her 'home cooking'.
I called my sisters.
When you hit such a low you lean on family.
I turned around and went home.
Every sign to my intuition was saying no, not here, not now, no...and I listened.
My friend Alexandra Meadors, years ago, had gone with Kunda Ra (more later) at his invitation to Los Angeles to do 'spiritual work'. Except it was a trick. Instead of trapping dark spirits a huge portal had opened up and all kinds of awful energies were unleashed to the area.
Those darknesses have been active, a you can see the fruits they have produced over the years.
It is so sad.
Watch for the fruit.
The changes are happening around us without our realizing it.
Stay connected to Source. Do not let others extinguish your Light.
Know you are making a difference.
Pray for conversion of the darkness to the ways of Heaven.
Remember back home the streets are paved in gold and have no name.
Ross
The weekend was productive and somewhat challenging for Carla. The pressure at work is strong, only two weeks to go before returning back to the hospital. Carla is facing her goodbyes to people who have meant so much to her for the last fifteen years. In her heart she knew with Anthony growing up she needed to surround herself every day with people who loved and cared about her and him. And she wanted to continue the back and forth between the hospital and the surgery center.
That was not to be. So BACK to the longer days, the nights, the call, the weekends, the holidays (but not first call true overnight).
For half time.
Carla needs a rest.
She wants her mother because life for her is challenging, both personally and financially. And also with her energy. Every time she works out something gets sore and she has to rest.
But slowly, steadily, things are healing in her heart and soul, and this is reflected with the back yard looking better than it has in ages, with tiny areas of the home becoming more organized and clean, and with maybe even trying to decorate somewhat for the seasons.
For many years Carla put her life on hold in order to be of service to her family and to her spiritual family...and also, in the hopes of 'some sudden change on Earth for the BETTER'. She started in 2010 in earnest.
Only everything around her has been steadily going 'downhill' in a socio-political-spiritual kind of way in the 'world'.
That kind of patience is hard to find, the hoping for the best. I know. I've been incarnate, and I appreciate the effort.
Do what you do, with the hopes of living a long life unfettered by 'what is' in the outside world, and at the same time, with your eyes set on Heaven and the readiness to accept 'sudden changes' in either direction as indication of 'movement' and ultimately 'movement' is a sign of progress in reaching our mutual goal.
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Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,
Peace,
Ross and Carla
The Couple
