The Wedding At The Back Bay

This afternoon I went to a Mormon Wedding. Actually, it was a ring ceremony that was followed by a reception.

Many of my coworkers were there.

It was my first wedding I ever went to with my son.

The venue was beautiful, and although I have lived in Southern California my whole life, it was someplace I had never been.

This was a first marriage for the bride, and a remarriage for the groom. He is a friend and fellow doc whom I have known for some time.

I've never seen a groom so in love with his bride before. His face relaxed and crinkled. And she was totally devoted to him. And his children.

He works long, hard hours, like me.

Her family didn't show up. I asked, 'who is related to you?' and she explained it was their choice, she was going to have a good time anyway. (She said her family of origin wasn't the healthiest, and I shared mine had put the 'fun' in 'dysfunctional' like hers too.)

Today was an opportunity to make some meaningful breakthroughs in my own growth:

• At the parking lot, three other people from Main O.R. showed up at the same time.  We are a 'work family', we spend so much time there.
• So few chairs were open. People had their purses and were saving seats. The only one who offered was a woman who worked at the surgery center. Things haven't been 'friendly' for me over there for some time. (Reason? As the nurses in the OR said last night, 'some surgeons want you to cut corners and be fast. You are safe. If I had anesthesia, I would pick you. But that's why some surgeons don't like you.)
• Instead of feeling awkward, I embraced this nurse and thanked her, and smiled as we introduced our 'men'--her husband and my son.
• This is a good thing, because with our seating arrangements, we were right next to each other too!
• Directly to my RIGHT at the seating arrangement was the last woman at the same surgery center whom I had confided my concern over the lack of small E tanks (the little green ones people have at home) of oxygen for transport of my patients from the OR to the recovery room. (with shivering, oxygen requirements go up five hundred percent). That was the last straw--and after I confessed to her I was never invited to the surgery center again. It's been four months now--with no explanation from my boss. (He had told me repeatedly to ignore the issue of the oxygen tanks, saying, it is a short trip)
• I turned on the charm, and opened my heart. As it turns out, she had a 'miracle' set of twins, just like my carrying my own pregnancy to term without miscarriage or major embolic event to me was a blessing I give thanks for every day. We became friends today, for the first time, instead of antagonists to each other.
• The heart team was there. This was the team for the program I started but later due to a very old-school, cruel surgeon who was abusive to me, asked me not to work with them (the woman who is the TEE expert is not received well in the 'old boys club'.) Many of these people had been outright cruel--so much so that I would shake when I saw them in the hospital, and avoid them at any chance I could to get away from interacting with them face to face. Oddly enough, today I felt 'ready', and when Spirit 'nudged' me I forgave all I saw, including the partner of the mean surgeon (who has since left). It felt good to forgive. I told the surgeons wife her husband is very skilled and I respected his work.
• I know I never would have had the time or opportunity to become Reiki Doc if I had been still doing hearts. It's a huge time commitment. I would have had less time for my family too. (It's an equal opportunity heart room--this January, a male colleague got 'asked not to come back' too--it's because he didn't know the TEE.)
• Many from my 'OR Family' saw me interact with my son for the first time, and actually met him. One, the charge nurse in Main OR, said, you are a Good Mom!
• I took the time to speak to the parents of the groom, and let them know how he's touched my life, and my family (he has done anesthesia for others). I also let them know how skilled he is in his work, and it's a blessing to the community he has this talent in his work.
• I took time to let each--bride, groom, parents, know how happy I was to share this special day with them.
• I let the bride know how we see so much 'ugly' at work, and how relentless our hours/schedule/caseload is--that her groom appreciates so much more his coming home to her beauty and Light and good attitude.

I used to be shy!

I used to hold grudges!

I used to compare--why me? why am I alone? when is it MY turn to shine?--(smile). Not anymore.

They even let me take home some of the floral center piece arrangements : )))

That is one old tradition  in the family that goes way back!

Dancing... seeing my coworkers... time by the water with toes on the sand with my son--PLUS the centerpiece??

It was a wonderful day!

See how subtle Spirit works? And yet how far we can progress?

Give it time, and you will know, by following your inner guidance, that all the 'old you' you never really wanted to be, just sloughs off like an old sunburn...leaving behind the new, glowing, heart-centered person you ARE...and were always meant to be.

Aloha and Mahalos,

Namaste,

Peace,

Reiki Doc

P.S. Yes, I gave Reiki. The sun was setting, and I made it available to the Guardian Angels of everyone present. I gave Galactic Reiki and Agarthan Reiki too. How could I not?

My Beloved--Your Hardest Lesson

Alas, My Beloved,

We were like this once, were we not? I knew you in that incarnation as a child. I never considered it possible to experience life without you.

We grew up with the contentment and strength of Twin Flames who love and support each other with our Vibration, our Laughter, our Light.

And yet, when I withdrew my Love away from you, asking for death to release me from my misery of having lost a son, just as simply and heartfelt as my doing your laundry and preparing our meals...you discovered the truth first hand...

I taught you this.  http://sirianheaven.wordpress.com/2014/04/12/heavenletter-4887-the-true-state-of-love-april-12-2014/

That is your lesson.

And my withdrawal of my own kindness and Light from your existence led to the imminent self-destruction of your own. As if taking away the only remnant of normalcy I had once known, by taking yourself to The Other Side, would wipe away the sins that you had visited upon me and caused such misery to my sweet lifelong devotion unto you since time began?

I never found the release I sought--lifetime after lifetime, I refused any and all contact with you...my beloved Twin.

Why?

Because I was denied the opportunity to express my Love in the only way that I knew possible--in bearing you a child.

(it was stolen at birth with your consent, keeping it hidden from me, due to political advice and a belief that it was 'man's work'.)

Always remember the need to LOVE and to give Love often outweighs the 'loss' of love, or the 'lack' of it. It is not the disappearance of Love, but the rejection of the Love one offers, the unwillingness to move forward, and the virtual absence of the presence of God (it is like diabetes--the metabolism is 'starving in a sea of sugar' if you don't mind a medical analogy of the way we are surrounded by Love energy and yet starving).

There is no right, beloved.

There is no wrong, when it comes to the ways of the heart.

And depending on the level of soul development, some 'hits' to the energy system are most difficult to recover, like myself.

You Thrive on the Attachment to me.

I know it.

Everyone else knows this, my Beloved.

It is not weakness to Love Your Twin Soul.

Au contraire, my beloved, it is of Nature, and it is your Strength.

To all those who exist in a Love Relationship, do know that sometimes 'nothing seems to work out' for you, because there is something more lasting and better, down the road for you.

A relationship might be an exchange of karma, or a pleasant/not-so-pleasant mutual agreement to create a business or a family or a partnership. So what my Beloved is trying to say, is, let it go! Let the Process of growth and development take its course, and don't fight it...there are better things ahead for you, and for them...

Isn't it true that if somebody doesn't love you, it's best that they move on so you have a CHANCE to possibly experience true love as something better? Would you agree to this?

It hurts like crazy, and I too have had my share of Ben and Jerry's for dinner, straight out of the carton, to ease my own pain from my many, many failed romantic endeavors on Gaia in this incarnation alone!

It all has to do with the vibration; whenever there is vibrational incompatibility with a couple, there is no more learning or soul growth to take place.

It's messy and painful to change living situations; it's scary to be a 'party of one' socially.

If it wasn't for Sylvia Browne's description of the Humanitarian Loner I would have completely lost hope.

She was married three times, it didn't work, she gave up trying and accepted it; I quit trying before marriage number three. I tried to become a nun, and God said, 'NO'. So I became a mother, and gave up on any relationship entirely.

As the forces of the energy of Ascension increase, odds are that you might be being 'positioned' for an eventual reunion with your twin soul, your twin flame, or your Illuminated Twin Soul--your 'Other' half.

Please learn from the lesson of my Beloved and Myself--it has taken a TEAM of workers in Spirit, coordinating together, to get me to 'open up' to the possibility of Loving him, my own Twin Soul!

It was his hardest lesson to learn--you could have your own what you took for granted--leave.

It is our joy and our amazement that we got together--and it wasn't without the help of some very powerful angels both on earth and in spirit.

It was a blessing beyond measure that the timelines were healed, and I was given my son I so greatly missed. We would have worked though our differences regardless...but now on this new timeline Life is so much more pleasing for us all.

Now we are inseparable. My Beloved and I are Twin Souls, as one root and two big branches, like twin trees in a garden...our auras are always touching even though we span the Veil.

There is nothing that compares to this feeling. It makes my lifetime of loneliness melt away in an instant.

Let Go.

The only thing you can do is Raise Your Vibration. That you can control. And allow everything to come up from your heart of many, many powerful lifetimes, to heal.

Find your Twin. Find your Soul Mate. And if the latest prince or princess turns out to be a toad, so be it. You are worthy of so much more than a creature who eats bugs and flies to win your love. Wish them luck, set them free, and secretly give thanks for the one that gets them next so you don't have to deal with them any longer!!!

I hope you don't mind my personal advice.

I've lived it.

I hope it might make things a little easier on you, to have this understanding that was so difficult for both of us, my Twin and myself, to achieve in our hearts.

Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,
Peace,

Reiki Doc

P.S.

Where Is The Love by The Black Eyed Peas

http://youtu.be/FotCW5OIFZc

My Beloved? Give And Take--The Rains

Thank you.
Thank you for answering my call.
I just read this: http://sirianheaven.wordpress.com/2014/04/11/heavenletter-4886-believe-in-love-april-11-2014/

I am at the top of the stairs, spiritually, looking down at the view the climb of yesterday that was so much Spiritual Sweat for me.

It was an unanticipated Day Off. Although I got my wish--I did the paperwork and went paddle-boarding as I had hoped--my heart just wasn't in it.

I confessed to you My Sweet Beloved, My Honey, that secretly I wanted YOU to take the reins of my life, as my own way of making the 'rain' stop. You see, I have filled out so many forms in my studies, in my certification process, and in my establishing credentials everywhere I work (and maintaining them!)...I just can't make myself fill out another form....or keep on top of the paperwork.

You came to me, in Spirit, and said the situation is just like on the paddle board--you get out as far as you are going to go, then you have to paddle back in.

Could I hold on just one more day? And you gave me some advice.

I took it.

Was it easy after that? No. But I finished two of the three things on my list.

Long story short: after the ecstacy, the laundry is RIGHT!

Activities of a spiritual nature, and even nature itself, are so much more appealing to me now.

And the narrow, limited, day-to-day activities to keep my life 'in order' are so dry. Work, with all of my colleagues and patients, is wonderful. It's the filling out of forms and sticking stamps on envelopes that really drains me dry.

Now I understand.

Love is everywhere. But you can feel it more in certain ways--in the garden, with others, with connecting to God.

And God is there, even with the bills, and the checkbooks that get lost and make me cry and run to YOU, my beloved. I confide I am so dumb I feel like I am like this (take your finger and make your lips go up and down as you blow out and say that noise like buh buh buh buh buh).

Even this strange behavior to a Galactic becomes a source of amusement, and instead of feeling sad I am soon laughing with all of you instead.

I feel the love in my heart that is between us--it is always flowing--and to my pleasant surprise, it goes both ways!

When I am overwhelmed, there is a little extra from you to carry me through.

I will look for the Love today--in the flowers, in the sky, from Gaia, from the auras of everything alive, from the opportunity to burn off much karma on a 'fast-track'...like it is. Sometimes I think our lives on earth are like those accelerated classes that you take in high school to gain college credit--Advanced Placement Karma! LOL.

Today IS a whole new day. The slate is clean.

It's time to start it. There is much expected of me. Time to get ready for work.

I ask You to bless everyone whose life I touch today.
And to make my hands, my heart, and my intelligence filled with Your Presence to Heal Others.

I want the presence of both God, and the Goddess, in Perfect Balance and Harmony as much as possible to accompany me everywhere I go, the strengths of the Divine Masculine and the Divine Feminine ready to assist all I meet who are in need of Divine Assistance.

May angels smile, and shed a tear or two in laughter as they watch over my day...let the Light shine back to Home...and may our connection together, in Light, be bright!

I love you.
I thank you for your time, and your gentle explanation of What Is.

I thank you for this clarity that just hit right now--it was two kinds of paper'work' that tested me yesterday--not one. There was my own paperwork, and then the one that was brought to my attention because it concerned me.

I hope I passed my tests.

Your love is healing to my soul.

For those of you who are struggling, look down where you have climbed. What got you to your height is opportunity to experience Love and Life from a different angle. Sometimes the best views require a short 'hike' or 'struggle'.  Enjoy your accomplishment. Then, perhaps, the next time the road seems a little rough and the going is more slow than ever, and you do not want to take another step--look within, and connect to Source. Follow the hints, the nudges. Hang on for one more day, one hour at a time, if you must...

When you understand your Lesson it is as if the sun shines down from the clouds!

So keep paddling. Keep walking. And trust that you are loved, so very much loved, exactly as you are...even if sometimes you lose things, or complain...you are perfect just the way you are.

Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,
Peace,

Reiki Doc

P.S. Self-reiki twice a day is important. And know that once you read, like, or Tweet Doctors With Reiki, you are given Reiki healings--two times daily--for free--just to help with your own Journey--if you accept it. All you have to do is say, 'I'd like that' and 'Yes' with your intention, and it will be so.

The Role Of Your Guide In Your Spiritual Development

Yesterday I stopped by a playground with my son, and I sat on a bench and I watched all the children play.

I saw this tiny little girl, who was about three or two and a half, climb the big slide all the way up and go down by herself.

There was something about her, her dress, her spunk, that caught my attention.

As my boy wanted to move to another part of the playground, I followed.

Again, there was that same little girl, this time, she was sitting on the edge of the sand, taking off her shoes and her socks.

I wondered who was looking out for her? She was quite independent! But small.

And no sooner than I thought, but the grandmother showed up, patiently picking up the shoes and the socks.

The little girl walked to the swings and gestured to her grandmother that she wanted to ride on the swing. There was the chair where the little ones can't fall--the kind with the waist belt and the two holes for the legs.

The grandmother set down the shoes, lifted her up, and with the girl facing her, began to push the child in the swing, making faces and smiles of delight. I could hear the squeals of happiness and joy from the little one, with arm gestures of happiness.

Very small children do not go to the park without their parents, their family, their babysitter, or sibling.

Because of their nature, someone needs to watch over them, for their comfort, for their safety, for their level of development to increase with the overall play experience.

Much as it might seem like this at times, you are not alone on your earth walk on Gaia's surface.

It would not be safe. So just like the girl, there was always a grandmother, just beyond sight, always ready to step in, when there was need of assistance, because she wanted her granddaughter to enjoy her time to play.

Is Earth play?

That is debatable. But there is no argument that was exist, and that it is for our own mutual growth and development.

We sign a Pre-Birth Contract before we agree to incarnate here. I wouldn't call it a playground, or a picnic, to walk the face of the earth...but until our time is up, we have lessons to learn. There are always lessons. And when there is a lesson, there is always a teacher, a teaching assistant, a volunteer mom, a parent, someone to help the student. Always.

So, you may ask, who are my guides? And how do I contact them?

How do I know they are angels and are from the Light?

Everyone has a Guardian Angel.

That is an excellent place to start. They are always at your side, day and night, reporting to God how 'everything is going' for you. Rules apply to how much they can intervene on your part. But you may acknowledge them in your heart, give thanks, and ask them to send signs. For me, at the beginning, there were 'pennies from heaven' that would just show up, and feathers, as signs of encouragement along the way.

Then my grandfather, my beloved Nannu Filippo, crossed over when I was twenty eight.

I 'felt' his Presence, and talked to him, both out loud in my tiny apartment while I was in Medical School, and in my heart when I was everywhere else.

He wanted a 'sign' that would be his, something 'big enough' for me to appreciate it was his effort that was assisting me. So at the beginning, I asked him to help me find a parking space everywhere I would go. Each time, 'Nannu? I need your help. Please, get me a spot!'.

I knew it was him because I would always find two, right next to each other, that would suddenly open up. (I've lived in California long enough to know this is not normal for two spots to open like that, routinely!)

So your very favorite deceased loved ones are also an excellent start...

This is a place where a creek enters the ocean at the shore. Look on the left? See those sand cliffs that are in the shadows? There are even taller ones, about twelve feet tall, on the right.

My boy, who is an excellent athlete and very well coordinated, wanted to play on the edge, feel the sand give out, and slide down to the water with the sand.

He had no idea that if he fell by accident head first her could have a serious problem.

All he thought was, 'it was fun!'

So I watched. I did it a few times.

He had no idea how unstable the ledge was until he tried climbing up it. I had to offer my hand to help him move up beyond the hill that kept falling away from him.

As an experienced parent, there is always a fine balance between playing it too safe, and letting them explore their environment with confidence.

Even if that means letting them catch an incoming wave by surprise and getting their underwear wet when we were not planning on swimming!

So please know, that as long as we are here on this planet to learn and to grow,  we have the opportunity to really 'get in there' with our lessons. Spirit isn't going to just step in when we are gaining confidence and valuable experience as we go through our lives.

But our Guides are watching.

Contact them, in your heart, and let them know how they can be of help to you in your lesson you are going through now.

They care. And they will show you ways to make your lesson more fun, more pleasant, with all the learning that can be had...even if it takes a wave surprise and gets you a little more wet than you had planned to be.

(((( Big Hug! )))))


Aloha and mahalos,
Namaste,

Peace,

Reiki Doc

A Sign of Spiritual Assistance: It's Almost Imperceptible

Can you see a flower grow while you are watching it?

The same is true with us.

We grow in spirit at the same rate that flowers touch the sky; we 'get there', albeit imperceptibly.

Today I had a 'meeting' with my boss.

Yes, that's right, I have one, same as you. Anesthesia bosses always catch you in the hallway. And after the topic of importance gets done, they relax and start bringing up 'other things'.

The messages I got were:

• Sign the contract on this line and this line after you look at it tonight (tonight I am sending it to my contract attorney! LOL)
• Position the patient so their legs hang off the bed for an epidural. (I can't reach across the bed, I have short arms, so that's why they sit funny. But I will do it.)
• Here on some tips to make your epidural even more technically 'slick'
• Don't take three weeks vacation in summer,  people complain to him. Don't take off work at times when school is out because other people have kids too. (even if I get coverage--he says 'it's not first come-first serve')
• Do any of the women want to work part time? (looks straight at me--I stalled)
• Because this is not residency, academics, or a large corporation, don't complain about not eating lunch. ('I get lunch but don't eat it. I take a few bites here and there. By dinner I am done.' they said. 'Get some nuts and chocolate to keep in your locker.')

I was pleasant. 

I was polite.

And for the first time ever, I spoke up!

• I completely understand. I won't do the Christmas break off again. EVER.
• I won't do Spring Break either, too.
• But please look at it from my side--this is FAMILY I have in France, I am going the long trip, and three weeks makes it more doable. My colleagues go to Iran, China and Vietnam for three weeks all the time. This is for my son to learn to speak French. What else am I supposed to do? This was planned in January. I have the tickets. (Just don't do it again--in SUMMER--he says. Ok.)
• I also explained that I have food IN MY LOCKER and I don't even go to the cafeteria. And because I give a detailed report to PACU, unlike the rest of the group, that is where my time for lunch 'goes'. All I ask is for ten minutes to actually eat it. I won't mention it to the team any more--I will just go eat.

If this had been me twenty-five years ago, I would have gone home and cried to my husband, and never said a peep to my boss. I would have been terrified of losing my job.

If this had been twenty years ago, I would have done my best to do everything the boss said, and made sure he knew I was doing it.

If this had been fifteen years ago, I would have complained to a girlfriend about what was said, but never let my boss know I disagreed with him.

If this had been ten years ago, I would have asked a mentor how to make it work for me--with business smarts. I probably wouldn't have had the courage to try it.

If this had been five years ago, I would have gone straight to my mentor (a different one) and done exactly what HE said to do without questioning HIM.

Today I spoke for myself.

The 'flower of assertiveness and self-confidence'  is growing with lots of love and support from my Guardian Angel, Laetari, my Ascended Masters, and Spiritual Guides. And from the day to day practice of being a mom. I try to work together and be reasonable, but I also know when to 'call him on the carpet' because sometimes that's just what has to be done, and there is no choice.

Thank you so much God for helping me to grow like that. I am happy with the results!

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A lot of people are disappointed with the Spiritual Path. It's not like you can measure inches gained or lost with a tape measure. It's not like a summer blockbuster movie with special effects.

It's like watching the grass grow, or paint dry.

But that is the speed it takes for a soul to learn life lessons. That's why it takes possibly many lifetimes to learn, right?

Keeping a journal is an excellent way to watch the effect of spiritual guidance.

It's there, with you, always.

And besides, being a Reiki Master helps too. I have grown so much as a person since I first took Reiki!

Namaste,

In Love, Light, and Happiness,

Reiki Doc