OMG!

I didn't have the best day. My boss doesn't want me to take more than one week vacation in summer because the others complain. But when I worked with the scheduler, someone cancelled their vacation, it was open, everybody else had theirs blocked, and he said, 'take it'.

My boss came into my OR to ask why. He asked about my other vacation, too.

Although I was supposed to leave the OR before four others, the other cases finished just a little before mine. It was too short a time for relief, so they went home. And I was the last in the OR!

I had wondered why the counselor called during surgery. I found out why...

I totally forgot an appointment with the counselor for my son--I had to arrange for someone to take him. And I didn't.

I cried.

I called her back, and sat in the empty hallway by pre-op holding, and I had tears silently rolling down my face, tears of anger, shame, embarrassment, and disappointment.

Because I let myself down, and even more, I let my boy who is hurting,  down.

So on the way home, I went straight to Papa, Divine Father, and cried. 

I told him 'I give up'.

And 'Everything I try to do, except for this spiritual work, turns to shit.' and 'Please, can I have a break on my lessons, and if I can't, please make me stronger?'

I couldn't even find the words to describe what I needed to ask Him for--so I said, 'please listen to the unspoken longing in my heart!'

He gave me an assignment--only to think about my prettiest pair of shoes.

But those, the Cinderella ones, are old, I had them re-soled, and every time I wear them the glue makes my feet turn black.

So the second prettiest shoes I had to think about.

Then Ross came.

I just put my head on his chest and bawled.

Then he went away.

I neared home.

I saw two beautiful rabbits as I came to make a turn. They were on the grass, sitting up, like the picture of the first rabbit, but side by side like this.

I looked at them with love for their beauty.

The bunny on the right facing me, or the one on the left as I saw them, looked me in the eye.

I felt it.

And it raised its paw up above its chin, it's right paw....and it WAVED at me!

I know because it did the same thing TWICE!!!

And I totally started cracking up.

I have had pet rabbits, and seen rabbits nearly every day since I've been working after graduating from college--on my commute.

And this one said, 'Hello' with its paw, and smiled at me from it's heart.

OMG!

Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,
Peace,


Reiki Doc

Waking Up With Sunshine

One of the things I enjoy is sleeping outside. Where I live has many trees, but not so much as to block out the sky. Sometimes when I am alone, I sleep on the balcony. I get my old army surplus sleeping bag my uncle gave to me, a foamy mat, kick back and watch the stars.

There was a full moon last night. An Aries moon that is supposed to 'super charge' you. It was so bright I couldn't fall asleep. It wasn't until the moon went to the other side of the house that I could rest. 'I'm being followed by a moon shadow...moon shadow...moon shadow'--remember that song? Well, last night was the first time I discovered what a moon shadow was! I slept in it.

The dreams were disturbing. Spiders on me. But one I couldn't shake off my finger. I had my dad help me. It was a black widow. I saw the shiny black abdomen with the red hourglass on it. It never bit.  Then I dreamed that I had my pet rabbits out on the balcony. But in the night, rodents came out of the potted plants and ate the flowers off. There were rats, gophers, moles. Next thing I knew, the rabbits were in the yard below. One of them had a hole about the size of its head in the thoracic cavity. I could see the heart and lungs and intestines working, the rabbit was unaware, and at the same time it was eating its own organs. The other rabbit was fine. But it horrified me. I wanted to get a dog and get rid of all the plants just to keep the varmints away!

I usually don't dream at night. I also do not own rabbits.

So in the early sunrise, I put my hands behind my head, looked up, and started to decipher:
spiders: feminine power
black widow--spider reversed: too much feminine power
rats/mice: scrutiny, opportunism
rabbits: fear

Then what flew overhead? Crows. Lots and lots of them.
crow: the law

And over on the branch, also in silhouette, a sole hummingbird. I could hear it's call.
hummingbird: joy

Since I couldn't understand it enough, I decided to  think about someone I adore. I felt the peace and joy of their presence. I could almost imagine being right next to them...I closed my eyes and smiled with delight.

And then there was a sound! A loud buzzing, way louder than a mosquito. I opened my eyes, startled!
There was a hummingbird in the fuschia blossoms inches above my left arm!
It was so close I could feel the breeze from its wings!
It went to four flowers, to my amazement! and then it flew away. I can still hear it and its friends chirping and calling furiously.

Joy...what a fantastic way to start the day.

Namaste,

Reiki Doc

P.S. Sleeping outside will energize you. And clear and ground everything that's mixed up in your energy. Whether you are in a tent or not, in the suburbs or country, it doesn't matter. All you need to do is to sleep under the stars...