The Coming Light

To one who has faith, no explanation is necessary. To one without faith, no explanation is possible.  Thomas Aquinas


I am a mystic.

It you knew my last name, you would smile to yourself, at the recognition.

Mother promised me to Mother Mary while she carried me in her womb. She wore a Miraculous Mary medal around her neck the whole time. I enjoyed going to church and Bible school growing up. I made my first communion late--my mom took care of me and my sister at the same time. She was seven and I was twelve or thirteen. I made my confirmation the year after. Around that time, my grandfather passed. I remember reading up at the podium during the rosary for him, and I felt this energy I had never felt before in my life, surge through me and connect me with those present instantly and with the heart! Everyone spoke how nicely a job I had done, after all, it was family...

But I really enjoyed it.

In High School I joined Campus Life Youth For Christ organization. I went to Bible studies before school and social/bible study meetings on week nights. It was a non-denominational organization with many fun things for my friends and I to do together. I enjoyed being in the Haunted House the most. It was a major theatrical event in our community, and one night my two friends and I we earned 'best room in the house'. (I came home that night with full makeup, and poked my head in the front window as mom was up late waiting for me--I got a huge scare out of her too!)

At twenty-one I got my first Rosary, and I prayed it constantly. Especially when I graduated, and I had to commute to work. It helped to calm my fears.

Through a 'twist of fate', my husband's family got involved with the Medjugorje movement in 1990, when I was twenty-five. A family friend who also was involved owned a hearing aid business. This is how we got to know Barbara Matthias, the only medically-confirmed Visionary of Blessed Mother. Barbara has Turner's Syndrome, and is deaf, and we would supply her with her earthly needs.

On a visit to Santa Maria, to Barbara's house, I was meditating calmly next to her. I noticed around the room how everyone was 'taking' of Our Lady's energy! I decided, stubborn as I am, to be the one that gives love and adoration to her!!!

As I was holding my hand up like Barbara, the thought crossed my mind that perhaps I was touching Our Lady someplace that might be inappropriate? I asked myself I wonder where might I be touching her?

On my tummy! I heard, her voice for the first time. I also heard her beautiful tinkling laugh.

I haven't stopped hearing it since. I also see and touch and write messages that come to me through her, sometimes every day in a notebook journal I always have near my bed. I have a footlocker trunk filled with them.

This morning, before breakfast, she promised me a message. Since I have felt under the weather, my boy and I went to a local breakfast place to eat. She promised to wait.

On the way home, my boy wanted to stop in at our local catholic church. They had rebuilt it since we stopped attending, and he wanted to see how 'the place now looked'.

We turned in and it was vastly different! I was saddened to see the old church where he had been baptized had been demolished. Gone was the part of nature to the left of the church, where we threw rocks and played after mass. All of the trees and the places we hid and ate donuts were changed.

And I felt a very, very strong connection to go inside the chapel--we tested the door and it was open!

You can imagine my surprise that we were not alone. People were scattered across the chapel.

I had not set foot inside any catholic church in over one year, the last being in France with our family.

I saw the eucharist, up in the special container for Adoration.

I felt at Home. I used to be very devout, and often would enjoy passing an hour once a week in the company of the Lamb of God. I asked my son permission to stay for a while, and he said yes. He silenced his cell phone and amused himself while I prayed.

I see Jesus.

I have seen him ever since I went to mass while I was in medical school. It happened after I made communion, and would be on my knees in deep meditation on Him.

He was handsome! So much so that I could barely remind myself that he was in fact Jesus and only the Church was married to him! I told mom he looked 'like a movie star', which he did.

He took an interest in my life.

One day, when I was despondent about my divorce, and my probability of never meeting anyone again, I was on the steps of St. Brigid church in Pacific Beach. Jesus gave me a sign--it was a cricket with one back leg missing. When He sent me that sign, I would know, my man was on my way.

That sign came late last year, I was so surprised to see it! I had almost forgotten the message, it had been over twenty years ago...

But I digress...today I was asked to give Reiki, with every symbol I know, through the host to all Catholic churches and organized religion everywhere.

Yes, Jesus knows I do Reiki, and in fact, He is okay with it!

When I was attuned to Karuna Reiki, He showed himself as my guide. I have two. The Buddha is the other.

On my knees before the eucharist, I realized the importance of our prayer and support and healing for those who are deeply into the belief system that has been told to them throughout the ages.

I felt the spirituality of those present, and I felt their Light. It is focused 'the Catholic Way' only, and I sense that it will be quite difficult for them to 'let it go' when all of us Ascend to the Higher Realms together!

Even now, as I write, a neighbor across the street has the garage open, and is singing Christian Rock Music at the top of his lungs!

This part of our society is everywhere--people are sure of their being 'saved' and are confident one their 'entry to Heaven' when they die--no matter how much love was in their heart, or lacking, no matter how they made choices to treat others, according to the Good Rule, or 'looking out for number one'.

I ask for you to include these brothers and sisters who put WWJD bumper stickers on their cars, and Not Of This World tee shirts on their bodies, in your daily meditations and healing prayers for Light.

May the Love of our Ascended Masters, Angels and Guide support them in the discovery of Truth, and may their hearts be touched by all we share as Children of God and being Alive.

May Gaia ground all negativity and surprise of the people as the lies that have been hidden from us come to Light.

I long to go back to a realm where angels and normal, and Love reigns supreme, 24/7, 365 days a year, for all eternity, forever and ever.

It is my sincerest hope, that perhaps it is your desire that you will join me there, too?


Namaste.
Aloha and Mahalos,
Peace,


Reiki Doc

A Message From Blessed Mother: 3/29/1992

This message was given to Visionary Barbara Matthias while she was hosting me and my husband and his family in her home at Santa Maria, California,  on 3/29/92.

I saw the notes in pencil, as Barbara always writes down in pencil what Blessed Mother shares with her in her visions.

I asked permission to write down what Blessed Mother had said.

I wrote this, copying word for word, with a pen. And then when I went to work, I typed it up on the word processor. My first husband and I did not own a computer...or perhaps we did and I just don't remember.

Here it is, Her message, exactly as it was, on that day:


I am a Mother of Deep Appreciation and,  I come to you today in great Love and Compassion.

My main theme today is to thank you, My Chosen Remnant for your Deep Faith and Trust in Me and My Son.

I urgently desire you to continue on this strong Path up in Faith in ways which My Son and I will direct.

One way in which I desire you to walk in Faith is to be faithful to the duties of your Life knowing that Our Jesus and I are guiding you.

I am touched so deeply by your strong Faith that tears of Joy are coming from My Eyes. Do not be concerned these tears are tears of Joy. Thank you.

Let your faith grow and grow ever so strongly that you will not even realize the degree to which you will be used in My plan because of your Faith.

Each of you have an important part to play in My plans, and I will reveal to you what you are to do for Me.

Be faithful to what you do for Me and you will be richly blessed.

Some will be used as Prophets, some in a healing ministry, and some in intercessory prayer. Others will be called to suffer for souls.

In which ever way you are used know how very much Jesus and I love and appreciate you and your Faith.

Blessed Mother gave Her Blessing

P.S. Please apologize to the others for their having to finish up on dinner for you while you were having your vision this afternoon. (ed--this is a personal instruction to Barbara Matthias in the P.S.)

BM:cms
3/29/92

This is also when two other things happened--
1) I was told by Barbara the name of my Guardian Angel is Laetari. His name means 'Joy'.
2) I went to confession at the church across the street in Santa Maria, California. He was the monsignor who ran the church. During confession, for my penance, he asked me to pray for him! This is the second time in confession a priest has asked me to pray for him.

I enjoyed being in the Catholic Faith very much for the time I was actively participating in it.

In July 2012, ever since I discovered the truth of the 'inner workings' behind the scenes at the church, I stopped participating at my former connection.  (I discovered the Jesuit Agenda, and I stopped going to services. Although I pray in my heart, the same as ever, and instead of Rosaries, I heal others with my prayerful intentions and meditations with every form of healing that I know in my heart. I still enjoy the Rosary very much, and if I had more time I would say it in my meditations too. I prayed it every day from 1987 to when I became a mom, I think, those days flew by so fast I might have missed some and it got more 'spread out' than daily. So that would be almost eighteen years. I still meditate and pray but I send Reiki Healings too.)


Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,

Reiki Doc

P.S. I have a Special Devotion to Blessed Mother, and I have since 1990 when I had my pituitary surgery. I also have developed a Special Devotion, without realizing exactly when it happened, to Her Son.


P.P.S. She asks me to share with you my favorite song at the moment. I am shy and she is encouraging me just like you would encourage a friend to go up and sing karaoke!

Happy by Pharrell Williams

http://youtu.be/y6Sxv-sUYtM

Peace <3

The Covenant Of Love

Today I woke up with a desire to clean the bedroom with all the junk in it.

My hopes were dashed as soon as I returned home from dropping my boy off at school--he didn't feel well. So I had to turn back and get him.

I was calm and inviting. I knew he wasn't that sick. He just wanted to be home with me. Days like this are few. I took him to the store to buy produce and bottled water. He asked for a cup of hot chocolate, and I bought it.

I made lunch for us. It was leftover soup from yesterday.

As soon as lunch was done, I put another kind of soup--from scratch--in the pot. It needed all day to make.

The tax people called. I needed to go in to the office to straighten something out.

There went my day... I thought to myself with disappointment. Every time I go by that room, I feel dread! But I am to busy with my schedule to 'catch up'. It's been that way since I moved in, since before I became a mother!

Surprisingly enough,  after the appointment, I just started to clean 'a few things'. Next thing I knew it was incredibly healing as I went through more and more of what was now my past that was stacked up in that room.  My son looked through all the old photos as I worked.

I saw the insanity of the court proceedings over the custody of our boy, and the panic and dread I felt at the time were like a million miles away.

I saw an old article I had once wanted to write on Hunter's Syndrome, a mucopolysaccharidosis. I threw all the old notes away. It felt good to release it. Having presented a poster on it was enough.

All of the old receipts I sorted through. The more recent photographs too. As I am a single mother, whenever there is a 'photo opportunity' I always buy or else there would be no pictures of us together. My latest one is us in ski caps freezing in the rain in front of Alcatraz.

I threw out all of the parenting class notes--my ex and I had to take them by order of the court to learn the art of 'co-parenting' and all non-essential legal files. I felt FREE!

Then I found it.  The letter of non-reappointment from the University. That was a harsh time.

I saw a letter of recommendation from an OB-Gyn that was glowing. She said my care for her patients was 'unparalleled'.

Then I saw two letters of recommendation from people who--through psychometry (I don't know how to spell it, but it's when you pick something up you are able to read their vibration in it)--had orchestrated my leaving my position.

I was shocked.

Then I found an old copy of The Covenant Of Love.

And I remembered...L, my best friend from my fellowship who was on staff here with me now, the one I went out to dinner with every week...the one who had tried to get me to slander my residency program director over dinner at a very expensive place on Christmas Eve where I was L's family's guest...L who was in diversion and also was diagnosed bipolar, but I loved her anyway...

L had asked me if I saw Blessed Mother. She had said she was starting to see Her, or had a friend who was seeing Her, or a picture that seemed to move or something. She asked me to help her know what to do...

I trusted her.

And I gave her this. It's from Barbara Matthias, a visionary who is medically proven to have states of 'religious ecstasy' where she sees, hears, and touches Blessed Mother. Barbara is my friend, and the first time I saw Blessed Mother myself was when my husband's family made the trip to Santa Maria to visit her. I was kneeling next to Barbara. I saw everyone praying for their requests to Her, taking energy, and I humbled myself and wanted to give pure love from my heart to Her. How empty She must be with everyone taking from Her! So on my knees, for about forty five minutes, I focused on Love, love of Our Lady, Mary, Blessed Mother... I found I enjoyed this Devotion very much.

Barbara had her hands up in front of her, and I decided to copy.

After about ten minutes, the thought crossed my mind, I wonder where I am touching her?

Then instantly I heard Her voice, as clear and bright and sunny as you might expect, laugh and say, 'On my tummy'.

We have been talking together ever since.

Barbara was given this Covenant at an earlier meeting where she visited my in-law's house. I had arrived too late for the visions, but we ate dinner. This was about one year before. I had asked so many questions! What is her hair like? What are her eyes? What is her voice sound like? Does she have a sense of humor? What is she LIKE???

When I had arrived at my in-law's house, I had an overwhelming feeling like--Barbara is SEEING God!!!

At that same moment, Blessed Mother had said to Barbara, 'Here comes my girl!'


Here it is, in its entirety, The Covenant Of Love.
Be sure to fill in your name in the blank, if you wish to make it.

I _____________________ agree, from this day forward, to give my love and all the powers of my love to the Merciful Heart of Jesus and to the Immaculate Heart of Mary. I render unto Them complete surrender and submission, not for gain or for the approval of men, but out of pure and holy love for them. I agree to let Their love and mercy guide my life. I agree to let Their love encompass my being so completely that it takes away all fear and doubt.  I further agree, out of pure and holy love for Them to spread the love I feel and have deep down in my soul to all people everywhere. I agree, out of pure and holy love for Them, to let our mutual love transform me into the child of God that They desire me to be. I agree to let this mutual love make me forgive and forget all the past hurts of my life and to move forward with Them, ensured that Their love will completely take care of me and that my love for Them will please Them and bring Them closer and closer to me until we are eternally united in that kingdom of love which is called heaven. AMEN.


It worked! I was able to clear through all of those painful memories today--with ease and with confidence. It totally worked!

What's more--I had no idea when I made this covenant in 1992 where I would be today as Reiki Doc!

Here is my favorite verse:

There is no fear in love;
but perfect Love casts out fear
because fear involves torment.
But he who fears
has not been made
perfect in Love.

1 John 4:18

I keep the Covenant and this verse together. In my opinion, they match.


Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,

Reiki Doc