Twin Flame Reunion 101: Ross Is Gentle

Ross has invited me to write today to share about his gentleness and kindness. With his input I will share about our initial meeting, about his encouragement of my feminine side, and his continuing gentle nature in our relationship as it stands.

For those of you who perhaps have not read about Ross and our relationship, we are Illuminated Twin Flames who are reunited across the Veil of Illusion. He is in one dimension, I am in another. Through mediumship, which is my gift, my psychic gift I have had my whole life, we interact on a daily basis with each other. We are close, and very much alike, yet in some ways vastly different. We will let you decide if we are more alike, or more different from one another, as time goes by....



Our Formal Introduction:

It was either late November, or early December, of 2013, when I 'figured out' his face. Until that time, he had been a Presence.  Since summer of 2012I could see the body, the uniform, the hair, but the face had been blurred out from my vision of my third eye. I would ask him for help, and energy would rain down, if I was in trouble. I knew his name was Ross, and that we had a home and two kids in another dimension somewhere. I could see the house and the look of pain in the kids eyes as I didn't know who they were. 'It's the amnesia' I would explain, apologizing.

Ross and I interacted before, but not in a regular way.

Once I saw his face, I knew who he was exactly. I find him devastatingly handsome! He has a beard like most Ascended Masters. His eyes are deep blue and blue grey, and are very expressive. His smile is a megawatt gorgeous movie star smile, and it makes me melt! He is over six feet tall, medium to lean in build, intelligent, and gentle and kind.

When this happened, and when I accepted him as my Twin, Ross was unable to function at his work. Ashtar took me aside, and said, I give you three days with him. He needs you. You know what to do.

Ross cried. His shoulders shook as I held him. I had no idea why he was so emotional. I just felt he was having a moment, well, actually, a day, and I stayed with him. I held him. We talked. We kissed. We enjoyed our togetherness after many lifetimes apart. We spoke of our childhood--I am the only one who calls him Ross! LOL--it's my childhood name for him.  We assured each other we would be there for each other in every way.  When I was at work, he was There. And when I was at home, he would watch me interact with my chores and my son. If I had downtime, I would lay on the couch and mentally 'speak' with him.

Things affect him much more than they do myself. I have seen everything at the hospital. I am strong. I am a single mom. I have to survive! I don't have time to process emotions!

(On the day my beloved nana Angelina died, she passed at six p.m. and I was back in the hospital on OB at eight p.m. to complete the rest of my shift! It isn't healthy--not in the least--but it is the lifestyle that accompanies my profession. I was back at work the next day, and did not grieve until about a week after when I had some time off.)

Ross Encourages The Feminine In Me:

He told me once I can ask him anything, even what color pair of pants to wear when I am putting together my clothes for the day.

No question is too small for him!

So when he told me I needed to get a pedicure and a manicure, I laughed! I'm like, Miss Holistic Berkeley Graduate, you know, 'totally granola'? I hadn't painted anything in years.

But he said, 'You are mine. I want you to enjoy being a woman. Why not go just this one time?'
(I am also VERY ticklish in my feet, so often I don't really enjoy it, having someone work on me.)

I went, and I met a wonderful woman, who somehow managed to put the polish on in such a way that it doesn't chip. And the tickling was the most tolerable it has ever been for me, ever. I could bear it.

I felt WONDERFUL.

What do you know? Ross was right!

He has shown me things he thought I might enjoy--always giving me the chance to say, NO I don't want them--a beautiful silver mermaid necklace, matching earrings, bracelets, makeup, even 'foundations' (an old-fashioned word for undergarments), really pretty socks that sparkle, all at a reasonable price. Almost everything has been from Target. And to cover the expensive ones, where he said he would pay for it,  like two days later I got these checks from some old business deal or another, out of the blue, to cover it. It was just the right exact amount.

Ross is gentle enough to encourage me to relax into his masculinity. He is secure enough in it to encourage me to venture out of my comfort zone, and enjoy being feminine. Most guys don't have a clue about that.

Ross does. And it is very nice!

His Kindness To Me:

Mind you, there are some issues after that first meeting that came up. I didn't turn spiteful, hostile, angry, and full of rage at Ross for nothing. I had good reason to stay bitter and want to avoid any interaction with him at all costs. These are things that happened when we were married in our last incarnation. Most women in my position would have been upset at Ross for his choices back then, too.

He promised me many things. Not only was he sorry, and it wouldn't happen again. He said he would always take out the garbage when we were in the same dimension. He would help fix things around the house. I wouldn't have to lift heavy things any more...

But it wasn't until one day I was at Target. On the clearance rack was a really nice rolling pin, not the kind with handles. It was the baker's kind that is all one long tapered rod of wood. I held it in my hand, interested in it, and looked at the price tag to see if I could afford it.

You can hit me with that if you want...

It was Ross, offering to be like Ricky to my Lucy, like the Honeymooners, like all those old shows where if the women were angry they could hit the man over the head with the frying pan or the rolling pin, and everything would be okay between the two again.

My heart melted. I knew that he meant it. And I would never, ever hit him with it. It made me know he understood how I felt, how frustrated and angry I had been over his secrets. He has not one, but two. I have only shared publicly the one. The second involves another, and is best kept between us.

All is forgiven, now, for everything. On that.

I slapped him the night before last, though.

I was put through a psychological test for 'great disappointment'--he told me that is what it was, and that I had passed with flying colors. He whispered, because he was proud of me, and I wasn't supposed to know. (I had been through some very challenging and difficult experiences recently)

'How CRUEL!' and I slapped him on the face, just like in the movies, with the message, 'don't ever do that to me again!'

He looked at me with surprise, and sadness, and the recognition that yes, it wasn't right at all to test me with no warning and take me to such extreme distress in the name of a 'test'.

I was outvoted. he said, simply.

All of a sudden I understood, because he knows me well, he had anticipated my reaction, and stood up for me, but the council had outvoted him on the plan. They had desired to see how a person who has my vibration (it is high) reacts now to extreme disappointment.

My reaction? I trusted and moved closer to Ross. Until I found out it wasn't just a usual struggle but in fact had been deliberate, and a test. I made it unmistakably clear how I felt about that.

But then after I knew his side of things, I rubbed his face and kissed him and apologized and gave a tearful ho'oponopono to him, to the council, to Ashtar (yes, he got slapped too, and I'm not the kind to get upset like that--I don't hit my son, or anybody--but with the Galactics treating me like a lab rat that was way over the line).
Ross and Ashtar are usually together, except the times that Ross is actually alone with me. Ashtar had told me the results of the test too.

Both Ashtar and Ross apologized. They immediately saw how it came across as uncaring, cold, and clinical to 'test' someone psychologically like that without their consent to participate in a test. They assured me there would be no tests of this kind on anyone, ever, without a fair treatment of the subject who agrees to the conditions of the test. They said, and they meant it, that they are still learning, and that day I was the teacher for them both.

Galactics and Ascended Masters are different. They have patience, they always expect the best of you, they encourage you no matter how dire the present situation, and they have feelings. Although they are not perfect, they acknowledge their shortcomings and are more sincere than anybody I have ever met in wanting to grow and to correct their behavior.

I look forward to spending time with Ross. Because of his gentleness, I am healing on a very deep, soul level, in my heart.

By his example I strive now to grow in gentleness as well.

I am thankful because it also brings out the love and gratitude for all that is in this Now moment, too.

Thank you Ross. I love you very much. You are my beloved, and I wouldn't want it to be any other way, than me and you.

I hope I discussed this topic fairly, and to your liking, honey.

Have a beautiful day.

Peace.




Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,

Reiki Doc

What Love Is

My dear friend in South Africa had a beautiful post about 'what is Love in Relationship' today.

Today was a huge day for me, spiritually. From the roses here, that the nurse had brought in to the recovery room that greeted me first thing in the morning as I came in to the hospital--they smelled beautiful! To now, when I just put the steam vaporizer in my son's bedroom and kissed his little cheek…the entire day was filled with LOVE.

It's wasn't a fun day! I had trouble getting in a spinal in a sweet patient, and had to ask for help, and even then it didn't work. On the next case, the same surgeon accused the snoring that was as loud as the bone saws and hammers as 'coming from both the anesthesiologist and the patient' (this spinal actually was working!) It was miserable in some spots. But still, when I looked for it, Love was there. The assistant surgeon showed the x-rays of the spine to the surgeon who was chewing me out--and said, 'look at the osteophytes! no one can get in there!'

I also had a moment of great self-love when I defended myself and called this guy on the carpet--'Look, I do OB anesthesia. I do more spinals and faster and better spinals than most of the group. But THIS, this back? It's not going to happen.' and I looked him in the eye as I said this! I used to back down, out of fear for my work. I even called him on his saying I am not 'up to snuff' by saying, without ego, 'you don't have to ever work with me again if you don't want to. Just tell my boss and he will schedule me without you every time since'. (I knew he doesn't like to work with me; I hardly ever do, and when I do , we always butt heads.)

When the anesthesia tech came to the room with some more spinal kits and needles for my next case, I confessed, 'I don't really like him'. She understood and mentioned, 'Not many people do like to work with him.' Compassion in the workplace like she showed me is another form of unconditional love.

It was Heart-Centered in the O.R. for me, all day!

So what is Love?

First of all, my dear South African, let me help get one thing out of the way--it is something called The Orion Personality. It is offensive, arrogant, demeaning, insulting, and very rooted in Earth. Just like a bull these entities are stubborn, masters of their craft, and focused on moving things ahead. They are almost like the Asperger's syndrome of the cosmos. They are good people, with good hearts, and very poor intergalactic social skills! Unless you have the patience of a saint, long-term relationship happiness isn't going to happen if you look for it there.

Actively looking? What traits are good? What traits are 'red flags'? Would you date someone who did this or did that? Every few days we have a new 'dating topic' question from your heart.

I love looking at those questions and the comments on your Facebook page!

But today, I spoke from the heart: relationships sure don't sound fun to hear how you all describe it--it's 'work' and 'effort' and all this. I'm glad I'm a single mom! Isn't it true, taking all social expectation out of the picture, that for psychological and physical reasons most couples last about four years?

Might I please turn the question around?

I AM that I AM equals I AM LOVE.

Love is everywhere around you. You are dancing in it. You can't feel it until you get to a certain place, but when it 'hits' it's like the entire reality falls in love with you, and you fall in love with it. All the memories. All the people. All the experiences. All the challenges. All the hopes and dreams.

One day, out of the blue, you hit this Vibration.

Everything makes sense, even you make sense to yourself like you've never understood before.

And you trust completely in what is to be, what is Right, what is Here and Now.

Somebody on Twitter said, 'when you fall in love you become very very very understanding'.

It's not just about 'the other', it's about 'you' and 'everything else', as well.

Am I in Love? I don't know. I could be. Is my heart Open? Yes. My heart is fully Open. 

How I envision it is within my own natural 'frequency' or 'vibration' there are others who are going to come near and 'like what it is'. And if I 'like what it is together with them back' I think things will keep going until 'something comes up that one or the other of us don't like.' 

That is where the very very very understanding comes in.

And the annoyances. There are several--I won't name them--and it's not 'leaving the toilet seat up', but I can't live with them. It would drag me down. Trivial things but very important and not likely to change--and they are not many. <3

My friend, Love is when you keep feeling good about who you are with this person, and they in turn keep feeling good about who they are with you.

Everything else is fate, luck, chance, perhaps even 'destiny' or 'karmic debt'.

'You are neither possessed by your lover's needs nor by your own. You are love. You live as love. And when you find your heart yearning still, practice surrendering more deeply as love. While washing the dishes, picking your child up from school, or firing an employee, practice allowing love to flow through your every gesture, word, and breath. In every moment, practice receiving love deeply into your body and giving love from every cell. You are thus transfigured, breath by breath, from a needy woman looking for love, to a self-sufficient woman to loves herself, to a woman always and already full of loves' bliss and blessing power.' --David Deida, Finding God Through Sex,  page 108

This is one of my favorite books! It helped to free myself from being trapped as a woman looking for love, and grow to one who has love and joy spilling out of every inch of her. When my 'lessons' get too challenging for me about Love, sometimes I still cry, and I despair; but I heal from it now instead of being 'stuck'. I 'bounce back' much faster and am resilient in my heart.



With so very much love,
Aloha and mahalos,
Namaste,

Reiki Doc

P.S.  I went from this vibration: Evanescence, 'My Immortal'


To this:

Cristina Perri, 'A Thousand Years'. I live this song (well, not the video--I am not vampire…LOL) Every single day in my heart as an expression of the Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine reunion. Sometimes I sing it in the car, a cappella, too.  Namaste.

Risu--(pronounced Ree'-su)

This is a hard one for me to write. It is deeply personal, and coming from my heart. I do not fully understand what I am saying, and yet Spirit 'nudges' me quite strongly to write.

Sometimes when I need a little 'comfort', I make a dish that my Nanna Angelina used to make for me. It is an Italian dish, and Nanna made it for me every single day for lunch while I was under her care. It is a 'risotto' but I couldn't say that word, and Nanna called it 'Risu'. Even when I would come home from college and she'd offer to make me anything I'd like, I wanted Risu.

Basically, you take Uncle Ben's Rice, and cook it with half water-half milk. And towards the end, I add a little half and half, and one slice of american cheese. It takes a lot of stirring to make it right. Nanna always added salt and pepper, but since we put romano pecorino on it when it is served, I do myself a favor and skip the salt. You want the rice a little 'al dente' to make it right. Not too soft, or it's not as pleasant. This time, I made it with half soaked arborio rice (I'd soaked it overnight, hoping it would turn perfect for RAW dishes--but it didn't. It was too crunchy.) and half of the Uncle Ben's.

It was delicious.

A couple nights ago I remembered something from a long time ago. It happened around the year 2000, give or take a year. I was on one of my rotations at Cedars. I was married, and my husband took me out to Italian food at a little restaurant near the hospital. It was Orso. We had been to the one in New York and had loved it, and we anxious to give it a try.

I have to be honest with you. Most of the time, Italian dining out doesn't do anything for me. It's not 'right' and always very expensive. And the servers never give you enough cheese! I always have to say, 'more, more, more' for my pasta. (I would rather just eat Italian at home.)

Now it might have been someplace else, where this happened, but I remembered the 'energy-feeling' of that place, and it felt like Risu, very warm and comforting, while I was there.

What I remember is that all of a sudden, out of the blue, I fell for a server or a cook or somebody at that restaurant.

I was married, but when this person came to the table, there was a connection. I felt them recognize me, and without my understanding why, I wanted to be with them forever. I was like, How did I end up here and so unhappy and how can I fix this? I just want to get up and go be with this guy!

But this person was very reserved. And I had no idea what to do with these emotions, because I was married and not happy, and have honestly in all my life never felt that way before about anybody, not even my husbands. (I have been married twice, once to college sweetheart, and second to an ER RN who looked very Italian but was a tall Mexican with blue eyes and dark curly hair.)

Overwhelmed,  I did nothing. Here we are in 2013.

Why did I remember this after all this time?

Who was it, that I met?

Why would Spirit have me meet someone and have such deep connection, and let it go to waste?

I don't know.

All I know is that there are some things only those raised in an Italian home would ever know. And I shared about how I knew by the food that someone I know makes, they had to have someone close, like my grandmother, show them how to get the flavors right. You can't fake it, Italian. It's in your soul.

Even if you are Japanese.

Even if you own a restaurant that is Italian.

When I go out to an Italian restaurant and really like it, I know it is 'the real thing'. Both with my stomach. And with my heart. And I really liked Orso.

This is so fuzzy, I can barely remember it. But it was the first time my Consciousness 'woke up' for just a short time, and connected with my heart. It went back to sleep for a long time ever since. If it wasn't for the Planetary Awakening and all of the New Energies, it never would have awakened at all. Or remembered this meeting that was so much more different than all the rest.

I share because my heart wants you to remember every interaction that might have been unusual in a 3D way for you. Stop, and reflect on it with your 5D Heart. Go ahead, and ask the Universe 'why it happened?'

I am.

Right here. Right now.

There are no accidents. Everything is for the Higher Good of All, in the Big Picture. It might not make sense to us at the time, but with patience, and a lot of understanding, one day everything will.

The next phase of the Ascension process is recovering from the amnesia--both with our Star families and our Soul Mates and our Soul Pods and our Twin Souls...


Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,

Reiki Doc

Reiki and Romance

Everyone needs a little romance!

Reiki practitioners have the advantage in forming new relationships. That is because their heart center is working more efficiently, and Spirit works in partnerships with them to find new paths to take to find somebody who is right for them.

The online personalities, YouTube's Polonia Cymchak has been expounding the increase in energies ramping up towards ascension as Making The Twin Flame Connection for Lightworkers as more possible. Her website, Ascension Pioneers and her videos are in English and very uplifting. You might want to try them. Here is a link to her latest YouTube

and to her website:http://www.ascension-pioneers.org/blog.html

Polonia is full of light and encouragement. I couldn't watch her for about six months because I was in a 'I don't believe in partnership' (I call it the 'why should I wash your underwear?!?') phase. But she is a good one.

Another good uplifting eternal romantic is Doreen Virtue. She has weekly card readings that she posts for free on YouTube. Here is her flower therapy video, her latest. She also is fun to follow on Twitter and Facebook. 

My favorite to follow is Jeff Brown, writer of Apology to the Divine Feminine and Apology to the Divine Masculine. He reminds us that Soul Mates are sometimes people we connect with deeply for a purpose, but that interaction can be anywhere from a short relationship to a bumping into someone (like 'you're beautiful' song so popular several years back by James Blunt), to a lifetime of love and happy endings. Here is a link to his latest radio interview, 'Bringing Yang to the Mix' on blogtalk radio, and I recommend following him on Facebook too.: http://www.blogtalkradio.com/theweeklyvibe/2012/04/26/jeff-brown-soulshaping-adventures-of-self-creation

I know for myself, there have been signs indicating 'go for it!' in my life. Yesterday I saw a hummingbird and two dolphins when I was in Laguna Beach having dinner. These animals are very strong totems for happiness in love. The Universe is telling me, 'This time it is different', 'don't worry about him being a player', and most importantly, 'take you time because with your intuition and heart center open, we've got your back--you can protect yourself and get out of a bad situation.'

This is the one that made me cry tears of relief: http://kauilapele.wordpress.com/2012/07/26/cobra-update-7-26-12-explosion-of-light/

And I quote: Another main structure is a special Archon technology on the etheric plane. They areprojection chambers that project certain images / emotional states that are not ours on our outer auric membrane. So other people feel this projected image and not our true state. This is the source of most conflicts / projections in human relationships. When this technology is removed, people will suddenly find much more harmony in their relationships.

Things are looking UP!

Namaste,

Reiki Doc