Tears I Can't Cry...

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I like angels. I used to have my collection of them on display in my kitchen when I lived in another house.

I have a 'connection' to Source 99.99% of the time. Today is one of the 0.01% days. There is just 'nothing'. I can't decide what to do. I can't figure out where to go. I don't like to eat, although I get hungry, and will find something in the fridge.

It's Quiet. A little Too Quiet on my 'sixth sense'. It is like my senses are 'jammed'.

Today I paid some bills, and made plans for Spring break. And that was it. It took me hours to do what would normally take a half hour.

Why do I get this way? Sometimes when it is somebody close to me who is Transitioning to The Other Side. Nothing seems right. I am 'slow'. Everything seems 'off'. It was that way with my Italian Grandfather to whom I was close. His wife is not doing so good right now. Nana is having respiratory issues in late Alzheimer's.

I cried a lot this weekend. It was the first visit to Dine With Shamu where I knew Jaime was dead. She was the manager, and had looked out for me with a kindness only a single mother would know in her heart. Jaime never had children, but she and my boy have the same birth date. We were close. And we shared a love of whales! Together, the whales, the trainers, Jaime, and people like me, form a 'pod'. When I last saw her, Jaime was too thin, in much pain, and grieving the loss of Sumar. When one of our pod is lost, we feel it bitterly. The trainers and the new manager were understanding, and supportive to me with my tears. I saw Kasatka, Nakai, and Uli, and was delighted to be there next to the pool.

I always cry over a loss. My heart is big, and full of love for my Ohana. Although I am most fortunate to be able to contact them on the other side, my heart still fills with sadness over their not being with us any more. Jaime did her best to reassure me at her place...'I will be with you! I will be with you! I will be with you!' she said in Spirit.

'But I never had the chance to say goodbye!' I protested.
'What is the use of saying goodbye when there ARE no goodbyes?' she said softly and with a smile in her voice. I understood it was her time, she was in pain, and it was what she needed--to 'go'.

I also cry after a tough day with my patients. When I get to the point where I think they are going to die, either way, whether they make it or not, my adrenaline is depleted. Once I get home and the door is shut behind me, I let it all out. Fortunately this doesn't happen more than once or twice a year.

There is one more cry that started in medical school: the 'I want to go home--I don't like it here' cry. Although I can't remember where my soul originates (Home), I 'sense' that things are 'different' here on earth, and very 'unnatural' for anyone from 'Home'. I cried a lot about that back in the early nineties. But now, it is taking on a form of the 'patient almost died' form: the 'can't believe I went through SO MUCH on my assignment!' cry.

It is a healing cry. One that means the fight is over. And that all of the efforts can rest. Some much needed 'Yin' can come into my Vibration.

I lay down twice today. Both times were incredible absorption of new Vibrations. I thought I was done, but I wasn't finished 'upgrading my system' according to my Guides. 'So crank it up!' I said, giving my full permission to do whatever they had in mind. Apparently, it was a much as I could take, the said. But I did get a remote viewing that might be of interest.

From the command deck of one craft, I was taken to a glassy, dark viewing area. There was a big black hole, cosmic size, and I was told it was the Galactic Central Sun. There was a long conveyer belt-type structure leading up to it. I saw some 'characters' be locked, laying down, feet first, onto the belt, one at a time, and get placed into the sun. Then the belt would reverse and the next would go on. I saw the Queen, Prince Philip, her corgi, and the Pope. I had just missed the Bushes. Senior, Mrs. and Dubyah.  I wanted to make sure they were done and can't come back like in a horror movie. I was shown how the 'molecular' structure of the soul was like 'ashes' from a cremation. It was a done deal. It was safe.

I asked how we would know it was 'finished', as undoubtedly there were many more 'minions' still doing the Illuminati thing. I was told to watch the Television. It would be broadcast, when it was time. (I think it is a holographic image of the people we are seeing 'stepping down' now. The 'real deal' is 'finished'. I 'sense' this but as we know Time is not 'accurate' in the higher dimensions')

What to do on a day like this? Tell yourself 'tomorrow is another day'. Do what you must. For me it was laundry and some very light housekeeping. (By the way, I do not have maid service. I do not like the energy that they bring into my home. I would rather it was messy but energetically calm than 'neat' and energetically 'frantic'.)

Time will tell what the cause was for my 'funk'.

Tomorrow is another day. It sure feels better for having shared right now. Mahalo and Aloha nui loa.

Namaste,

Reiki Doc

Signs of Ascension in the Operating Room

The O.R. is not unlike the military: everything is clean, crisp, organized, and efficient. There is a hierarchy in the Operating Room. As an attending physician, I have higher 'rank' than some, and because of that 'rank' I am given a certain amount of respect for it. Our schedule runs like clockwork, or as much as possible in this aim, given emergencies and other unanticipated events that come our way.

As Reiki Doc, I am a Karuna Reiki Master. Because of this, my access to the Higher Dimensions is open. The opening process has a 'cleanse' that has some very particular symptoms. Support is needed by the student as they navigate their own set of changes they experience as they 'move up' in Reiki.

Some of these signs are unmistakable to the experienced Karuna Reiki practitioner, so much so that we fondly call a day with these symptoms 'a Karuna Day'. We change our plans, allow time for this process to happen, ride it out, and know that tomorrow is another day.

Yesterday in the O.R. I saw evidence of multi-dimensionality at work. I didn't say anything to my coworkers, but now I am to you. And looking back, there have been a few coincidences I had not pieced together leading up to yesterday.

The first one that caught my attention was a patient who did not show up for their surgery. 'Wasn't it next week?'. This is a classic symptom: the distortion of the perception of Time. At Reiki class, we have had people convinced their Karuna class was on a Sunday, not a Saturday, and slept in. These are ordinary, responsible people. This patient, was educated and also someone who has undergone surgeyr with us before.

Everyone else shrugged it off, the surgeon saying it was his scheduler, or the patient misunderstanding the options of today or next week given in the preop visit.

But my NEXT case had a patient. But not technician. Sometimes there is special equipment needed for surgery. For example, a laser, or an orthopedic rep, of a neuro-monitoring technician. Efficiency is the bread-and-butter of these support people. Well, one yesterday thought the surgery was on Saturday, not Friday, and didn't come in. The surgeon was angry, shocked, and disappointed. Who wants to come in on Saturday for an elective case? Fortunately the O.R. was able to scramble, and find someone else.

Twice in a row? With two different specialties? That is unusual enough to take notice as a Karuna Master.

What else? There has recently been an abrupt change in the support service to my specialty. I would like to say more, but let us say a 'lower vibration was removed'. It has been Scrub Tech Week at the hospital. Every day, lunch and dinner has been provided by the reps. Nursing is kind, and always invites me to share. Although it was only pizza and sandwiches, I am thankful to have eaten, and not missed a meal. Yesterday for lunch, I had one piece of Hawaiian pizza, and one piece of cheese, avoiding the 'meat on top of meat on top of meat' variety offered. For dinner, the Charge Nurse (the night one, not the day one I have mentioned), asked if I would like her to save a piece for me. Yes, it was leftover from lunch, not fresh. But she asked what I wanted. I said, Hawaiian. She paused, and said, 'I took the last two pieces. I will go write your name on a napkin and give you one of my pieces.'

Nobody has ever given me something that was for them to eat in the Operating Room, EVER.

Kindness, patience, humility, forbearance, Love, Light, honesty, grace, Peace, Truth, and honestly enjoying each other are signs of Spirit. Of multi-dimensionality. Of Light. We are being bombarded with Light at the present. You may not realize it, but it is true.

Here is a quote from a certified negative person in the October issue of Reader's Digest, In the article, 'Forget Happiness': ...in our super-positive society, we have an unspoken zero-tolerance policy for negativity.' Author Augusten Burroughs shares, 'I am not a happy person. There are things that do make me experience joy. But joy is a fleeting emotion, like a very long sneeze. A lot of the time what I feel is interested. Or I feel melancholy. And I also frequently feel tenderness, annoyance, confusion, fear, hopelessness. It doesn't all add up to anything I would call happiness.'

Mr. Burroughs is dysthymic, he is never at the same baseline as others for 'happiness'. He is not clinically depressed, but he is in a mood right above it and under 'happiness'. Energetically-speaking, he is manifesting his own unpleasant environment, much like energetically farting in his own space and complaining about the smell. He is dwelling on, and reinforcing third dimensional behavior.

If you saw Gaia Portal yesterday, the higher energies are being anchored and the lower 3-D and 4-D energies are being 'transmuted by Gaia'. People like Mr. Burroughs are going to go someplace else where they can continue their soul development at a dimensional level that is appropriate for him. There are no winners or losers, Salusa said yesterday. Everyone will reach the Higher Dimensions at the time that is right for their soul and its development.

Namaste,

Reiki Doc

Here are some links:
For Readers' Digest. Right now, the article is on page 128 of the October 2012 issue. It is not 'downloadable' but in time I think the archive or search function will help you find the article. The series immediately follows the 50 Secrets Surgeons article, then an excellent one on Find Happiness on page 126. There is a History of Happiness on page 127, and the quoted article is on page 128-129.  The images 'What Happy Looks Like' on page 130 to 139 are a must-see. Buddhist monks, dancers, mermaids, artists, a carefree coal miner, are my favorites.
http://www.rd.com/
(If you want to see a fascinating picture and brief article about Jackie Onassis and Queen Elizabeth, check out p. 140, When Jackie Met the Queen. There are some strained smiles there and if you are up on Cobra's Little Red Pill, you will see right through the smiles and understand the complexity of the 'relationship')

For Gaia Portal: http://gaiaportal.wordpress.com/2012/09/21/gaia-energy-conduit-clarification-has-accelerated/

For Salusa: http://kauilapele.wordpress.com/2012/09/22/salusa-9-21-12-you-have-done-an-excellent-job-in-grounding-the-light/