It has been a very strange week. There is a government shutdown here in the United States. At work people were concerned because there is a free Air Show in Huntington Beach this weekend. The military planes will not fly in it. Some other groups, like the Canadian Snowbirds, will perform.
Then there are the ostriches who are in Canada that are going to be culled. Four hundred of them. I imagine they are worth a lot of money, it is the whole life's work for the ranchers who own them. All because they caught a flu and got over the flu. These aren't even meat ostriches they are research ones I am told.
Football is well underway, it is week three of the season.
For me, I had the excitement to see a hawk sleeping overnight in one of our backyard trees. I also was excited to see a praying mantis near the front door. Our apples are ripening on the tree. When I was in the inflatable jacuzzi the minute the sun went down, I saw a rat moving along the bottom of the fence and into a freshly refilled bait box.
My son is funny he calls evening when all the neighbors walk their dogs 'dog o'clock'. We never officially called it that in the back yard, but our time enjoying the back yard goes away at 'rat o'clock'. The pest control guy said that the numbers have gone up and down over the season and I noticed myself a lot less rat 'evidence' around. I am grateful for that.
At work I am in an evolution of change. It is so strange. I got my dream job--no nights, no holidays, no weekends...but it soured. You need good people to do business with, ones who are on the same wavelength as you. Here, my group was not, and they talked and made decisions behind my back. I was uncomfortable with that. But when the handling of group funds was not on the up and up, due to one delay after another, I had to get out. I had to get into a situation where there was enough work and enough consistency to keep things going on the home front. Now I am looking at taking call and working holidays and weekends. It's not as bad as it sounds. You are with people you know. And for an empty nester it gives you something to do.
The point of this is two fold: the Creator wants you on a path of constant growth and change, and this growth and change feels easier if you look deep within and follow your heart.
I have only two more weeks to go at my current position, and it is feeling better every day. An OB Gyn came up to me and asked, incredulously, 'what are you doing??? it is CRAZY over there at the hospital!'
No.
Doing seven cases in a row at breakneck speed without any time for food is crazy. Treating a patient's blood pressure over 200 in the recovery room while being rushed to take the next case in, who is a 'known difficult intubation' is unsafe. I needed time to talk with the husband (who I have done anesthesia for twice) who didn't want to take his elderly wife home because she was in a lot of pain. I had mentioned to the team she probably was a better candidate for inpatient/hospital surgery instead of outpatient, but the patient had agreed to just get it done today.
The hours are long in the hospital. But I can eat. And I can do what it safe. With just one phone call a patient can stay overnight for pain control if needed. It is the real thing. Being stressed to almost having chest pain because of the whims of a surgeon who owns part of the surgery center is not worth it. I will miss my friends for sure, and also my afternoons. But I need to keep us going financially and it is not going to happen if I stay put.
A lot of the change is due to Anthony. He saw me come home from the hospital happy this summer when I gave vacation coverage. It had felt like vacation being there. He encouraged me to ask for my old job back.
Sometimes our loved ones can recognize what we ourselves can't.
It's time to go start my day. Enjoy the season. Remember to do your Reiki and to connect with Source/Creator every day.
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Aloha and Mahalos,
Namaste,
Peace,
Ross and Carla
The Couple
